Never Better... Thanks (Lennox Hills, #3)

by Jahquel J.

Dating felt like allowing a child to take a sip of your drink. You knew by the time you got your drink back that you would have some shit floating inside the damn drink. It seemed like a good idea when you offered them your drink, but you soon regretted the decision to share the drink in the first place.

YAAASSS

That was the problem with me. One my therapist told me I needed to change. I could sit and listen and help everyone with their problems. It was something that I lived to do, and I loved to do it without hesitation. Whenever one of my girls needed me, I was there to lend a shoulder to cry on without a second thought. That was the kind of person I had always been. Maybe it was the Libra in me. I just wanted to fix everyone and be there for them too. When it came to me, I always hid my problems. I never let anyone know that something was wrong in fear that I would look weak. I would look like the weak friend; the friend that couldn’t keep it together. How was I going to be there for everyone else if I couldn’t keep myself together? It was less of a gift and more of a curse.

YAAASSS!!! I SAY THAT ALL THE TIME, "THE BLESSING AND THE CURSE"😔 #LIBRAGANG

I needed her here with me, and since she had been gone, I didn’t know what to do anymore.

DAMN IK THIS PAIN 💔🥹

Every day I didn’t feel like climbing out of bed, she pulled me up and made me get up to face the day. Back then I hated it. Now, I appreciated it. It was that same driving force she had that forced me to put one foot in front of the other, not be weak or waste away in the bed like I wanted to. I needed her here with me, and since she had been gone, things hadn’t been the same.

IKR😔

I blamed them for the way Alice chose to parent. When she was pregnant with Luna, I remember she mentioned something about boarding school. I wasn’t the kind of man who would ever put my hands on a woman. Those words had me reconsidering what kind of man I was because I wanted to put my hands on her. Our damn baby wasn’t even born yet, and she was already trying to figure out a way to push her off on somebody. In her eyes, she felt like because I had money that we didn’t need to do all the work ourselves.

THAT BIH IS A GROWN AZZ WOMAN WHO CHOSE TO BE THE WAY SHE IS. SHE COULD’VE CHOSEN TO BE DIFFERENT BUT SHE’S A SELFISH INCONSIDERATE BIH

“It’s draining always having bad news. being the depressed friend.

YAAASSS🥹

I wanted to thank you for that and ask you something.” “Ask me what?” Wha t did he possibly have to ask me? “I want you to be my baby’s god parent.” I was stunned. Shocked. Flabbergasted. This man, my ex-husband, had the audacity to come to my home and ask me to be the godmother of the baby he was having with his girlfriend. I couldn’t make this shit up even if I tried.

WTF IS WRONG WITH HIM. IT WASN’T ENOUGH TO PULL STRINGS TO GET HIS VERY HIS GIRLFRIEND A DENTAL APPOINTMENT WITH HER NOW YOU’RE ASKING HER TO BE YOUR BABY GODMOTHER. MEN ARE EFFING STUPID🤬🤬🤬

“I love that for you. At least you don’t have to worry about either of them sleeping with your husband.” “What?” “Alice and Kyle are having an affair. Have been for the past year.” She exhaled, taking a sip of her green tea. What threw me for a loop is the way she was casually sipping her tea. As if she hadn’t dropped that huge bomb shell on me. “What do you mean?” “They think they are so discreet, and it’s been obvious.” She scoffed. If Alice and Kyle were having an affair, that meant she was cheating on Laurent and had been cheating on him. “Damn, Tiph. I wasn’t expecting you to let that one out the bag.” She crossed her legs Indian style and continued to sip her tea. “Alice wasn’t sick last night, and Kyle wasn’t busy with any work. They both made an excuse so they could spend the night together. When I came back to our room last night, she wasn’t in bed. I heard her sneaking into our room a little before three.” What tripped me out was how Tiphany didn’t act like a betrayed best friend or a scorned wife. She told me this piping tea with an expression as nonchalant as the one she wore when she told me about the boarding school. “Um, shit, I don’t even know what to say.” “It’s a lot, I know.”

I MOTHERFUDGESICKLESTIX KNEW IT 😳😔!!! AT FIRST I THOUGHT THEY WERE DOING A THE WAY BUT THE WAY KYLE PRETENDS TO BE "WORKING" AND THE WAY THAT BIH ALICE IN WONDERLAND TREATS TIPHANY, I KNEW THEY WERE DOING SOME SHIT, BUT DAYYUUUMMM🤬🤬🤬

In the dream, I was in the hospital NICU rocking my baby girl. She was staring up at me, and I couldn’t quite figure out who she resembled. In the dream, I could feel my heartbeat against my chest as I continued to rub her little hands. In that dream, my heart was full. I was a mother.

I CAN’T WAIT FOR HER TO REALIZE THAT LAURENT MEANT WHAT HE SAID CAUSE SHE TRULY DESERVES ALL THE LOVE AND HAPPINESS THAT HER SISTERS HAVE FOUND. SHE DESERVES TO BE A MOM #HERRAINBOWBABY🫶🏽