When you get to the end of your life . . . you look back . . . on the most disgusting things that you’ve done, all sorts of really desperate things, and you think to yourself if only I could manage not to have done that. Then you think that, wait a minute, supposing I pulled out all those things, that would not be the life that I’ve lived . . . to complete the drama . . . involves everything that happens to you . . . it’s how you do that and what you can feel about it afterwards and how you fit it in to the totality of your experience, the sense of the whole drama.67
