I do not feel safe, but I do not feel unsafe. I think that is what our love feels like. Almost like a numbness until you leave me, and then I feel crazy, as if I cannot breathe. But that’s what gets me. The fact that I fear being without you, all while being with you, is a horror show. Watching you fill yourself up with drugs, as you disappear into darkness. All the things that would make someone want to run.
