Do you believe that you will die? Oh, yes, “Man is mortal; I am a man; consequently …” No, not that; I know that; you know it. But I ask: Has it ever happened that you actually believed it? Believed definitely, believed not with your reason but with your body, that you actually felt that someday those fingers which now hold this page will become yellow, icy? …
this is how I would explain the dissonance between some of my thoughts and my actions
I'm not thinking my actions through to their logical conclusions
