Under Your Scars (Under Your Scars, #1)

by Ariel N. Anderson

Carefully, I wedge the knife between the foil and the plastic of the packet and peel it back from the glue. I dump the old pills into the toilet and then replace the unused pills in the packet with the corresponding blue and white placebos. Then, I take a lighter to heat up glue stuck to the foil before sealing it down. It's not perfect, but I imagine for someone who has probably been on the pill since she was a teenager, some crinkled foil isn’t going to rouse any suspicions.

This little bastard!

It’s accepting the fact that Christian Reeves makes her happier than I ever could. It’s accepting the fact that I am not Christian Reeves. I am not Christian Reeves. I am not Christian Reeves. I. Am. Not. Christian. Reeves

Oh but I think you are buddy

I’ve fired a dozen nurses for pretending to be Helen. I don’t allow people to lie to him.” “Oh,” I say, my heart squeezing painfully. “I’m sorry. I didn’t know.” He looks up at the sky and sighs. “Just don’t do it again.” “Okay,” I concede.

Chill out bro

Together. I love that word. I love how casually it rolls off his tongue—like it’s set in stone that we’re spending the rest of our lives with each other.

Ok well its not set in stone girl, its just talk at the point; calm down

“I guess I’m just a little…shocked that you feel that way about me. We haven’t known each other very long.”

I’m shocked too lol

“You have a billionaire worshiping the ground you walk on, flying you all over the world on his private jet and buying you a hundred-million-dollar yacht, and you’re thinking about ice cream.”

Eww that was soooo braggy, what a turn off

I giggle. “You know what I meant. You don’t…you don’t ever take your shirt off around me.”

Cuz he’s the Silencer and carved your name into himself like a psychopath

“I am painfully, catastrophically in love with you.”

But I don’t love him. Not yet. Not when everything between us is so new and raw.

He sounds so cold, and my heart begins to ache at the thought of how hurt he looked last night when he realized I wasn’t going to tell him I love him. “Christian…” “You don’t have to explain yourself,” he says with a sigh. “I get it.”

She shattered him

“I do hope I get a bonus for being your most loyal assistant on this business trip, Mr. Reeves.”

Dare I say it?? Gold digger..??

My jaw drops open. “Is that a proposal? Because I still don’t see a ring on my finger.”

I can't stand you girl!!

“I got evicted. Or should I say, the fucking Silencer got me evicted.” God, no wonder the dispatcher laughed at me. I sound like a lunatic. “I don’t know how, but he got me evicted and I don’t know what to do.” “Stay with me,” Christian suggests immediately. “Move to the Reeves Estate.”

The fact that he asks no questions and is super calm arent red flags??

The horror stings up my spine like I’ve just been cracked with a fiery whip. My heart is beating so hard I think it might jump straight out of my ribcage. “You’re the Silencer.”

No duh

I’m hyperventilating and I don’t think I’ve ever felt so betrayed and used and horrified in my life.

Valid

I should have burnt this city to the ground when I had the chance.

You really should have

“When my parents go home, I’m going with them. Please don’t follow me.” “Don’t.” My words get caught in my throat. “Don’t ask me to make promises I can’t keep.”

If you ever want someone to listen and forget, never hesitate to come to me, Elena. It’s the least I can do for you.” Abandoning the water glass, I say, “Goodnight, Edwin.”

What a bitch

That’s what I have to live for. Hope that one day I might get to hear you say, “I love you too.” So I’ll wait. I’ll wait as long as it takes. Forever yours, Christian

My heart!!

“Elena, you’re trembling.” “I knew you wouldn’t want me anymore.” My heart shatters in my ribcage at how defeated and humiliated she sounds.

Omg the dramatics

“I love you.” I say through gritted teeth, her hair wrapped tight around my fist. “I love you so much it makes me insane. I love you so much it makes me dangerous. I love you so much that I would burn this world for you and all the people in it just to keep you all to myself. Do you understand me? If it comes down to a choice, you will choose me. I don’t give a fuck if it costs the remainder of your soul. You are mine and only mine.”

I kissed the crown of her head, and she had the most intense panic attack ever witnessed in human history. She ran away from me, screaming like she was being murdered, and hid. For two days. Nobody could find her. For two fucking days. I nearly went into cardiac arrest, tearing apart every square inch of my house. I found her hiding in the back of my closet, inside a laundry hamper that she had hidden behind a rack of my suit jackets. She had a pocketknife clutched in her fist and blood coating her arm. She slit her wrist.

This is the man I fell in love with. The man who takes what he wants. The man who doesn’t respect my boundaries because he knows them better than I do. The man who pushes me because he knows my strengths even more intimately than he knows how to exploit my weaknesses.

“Say goodbye to daddy. Tell him you love him and give him a big hug.” Caroline stares at me, confused. “Where is he going?” A pained whimper escapes my throat. “He’s going to go see his parents.”

My heart just shattered

“How dare you,” she growls through her teeth. “Do you really think any of that has ever mattered to me? Do you really think I’m that shallow?”

Honestly- kinda yeah

I laughed so hard I snorted when he told me to, quote, ‘get the fuck out so I can wash my nutsack in peace’.

“I’m not a good shot anymore. Not like I was when I killed your parents.” “Hey Elliot?” His head cocks to the side right as my fist connects with his jaw. “Go to hell.”

Well deserved