Tweakerworld

by Jason Yamas

Cocaine is cyclical. It leaves you chasing that unattainable first spike, whereas meth is unremitting and thus a comfort to my personality type. Whenever I did cocaine, I felt like a degenerate, hiding the drug, bleeding my savings. Doing meth, I’m high functioning, wise, at the pinnacle of creation. I feel powerful, impervious. Yet it’s cocaine that society often deems to be a highbrow drug. Cocaine is done off trays with rolled-up hundred-dollar bills. Crack, despite being derived from the same drug, is smoked out of a pipe, a consumption method that’s grossly frowned upon. Being smoked out of the same kind of pipe, that negative association carries over to meth. Crack is known to be prevalent in the Black community, at no fault of its own, rather a result of the CIA’s targeting of minority communities to fund the contras’ war in Nicaragua during the Reagan administration. White people fucking Black people’s lives up? Surprise, surprise. I’m not defending meth here, but one must wonder: if society’s vehement aversion to meth is mostly in how it’s consumed, perhaps it’s more about race and racism than we care to acknowledge. Amphetamine in pill form? Give it to the kids! Amphetamine smoked out of a crack pipe? You nasty.