Permanent Record (The Flesh Cartel #11) in Riptide Publishing

Nov 05, 2013 Monique rated it it was amazing

Shelves: lgbt

Oh… Thank. You. Lord!!!

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Someone is finally looking for Mat and Dougie. FBI Special Agent Nate Johnson is on the case and a man already familiar with Mat… Mmmm, Mat’s love interest? I am hoping so, because the guy already has the hot’s for him and that can only be good, because right about now if anyone needs some love…. it’s Mat!

After Episode #10 I have have to admit I was left a little shell shocked and grieving… for all that is lost and for all that they could have been, but mostly because Oh… Thank. You. Lord!!!

Someone is finally looking for Mat and Dougie. FBI Special Agent Nate Johnson is on the case and a man already familiar with Mat… Mmmm, Mat’s love interest? I am hoping so, because the guy already has the hot’s for him and that can only be good, because right about now if anyone needs some love…. it’s Mat!

After Episode #10 I have have to admit I was left a little shell shocked and grieving… for all that is lost and for all that they could have been, but mostly because no matter the outcome they will always be damaged and haunted by what has transpired between them. Thankfully Mat still has all his faculties intact, which is more than I can say for Dougie. I am so not his fan right now!

Nikolai’s fucking diatribe pissed me off! He’s reasonable, compassionate and calm with an air of concern… oh please! The man is made of ice… words of comfort are only more manipulative whisperings… He is a contradiction to end all contradictions, he claims to love Douglas and in his own sick mind what he feels equates to love… but I’m not even going there on that one because I am likely to rant from here to next week. You can feel he is anxious about letting Douglas go, especially to a man like Smythe but his own superiority complex, his pride and reputation in producing a product to a certain standard is far more paramount to the narcissistic SOB… will I ever feel any sympathy for this man? …I do wonder about his past and how he became the man he is now and the authors have managed to alienate me from Dougie so I suppose anything is possible!?!

I know it’s not Dougie that we see, Nikolai destroyed him and rebuilt him in the form of Douglas, someone unrecognisable from the boy he once was… but I loved that boy! Douglas is self centred, self righteous, narcissistic, vain, proud… sound familiar?!? …and the contempt he shows towards Mat, that part of him just turns my stomach and breaks my heart! Douglas thinks him a coward and treats him as such… I was fuming! and even Mat can no longer see any of the love and compassion that once shone so brightly and he feels betrayed and hurt and yes… he doesn’t much like him right now either.

Mat mentions PTSD… and I have no idea how Heidi and Rachel are going to heal these boys, because I have nightmares about what they have been through, and unless some aliens come down and wipe their minds, they will always be broken mentally. The authors have subtly and more often than not, not so subtly shifted and manoeuvred the characters, drip feeding the changes, until what once was is now unrecognisable, with their personalities and mind sets taking a diverse path the get where they are… Doulas now cold and callous and Mat more vulnerable because of it… because he no longer has anyone to believe in him, yet he remains strong and still holds out hope that at some point he will have a chance to save Dougie, because despite everything he still loves his Brother.

I have to say I am glad to see the back of Nikolai and Roger and hope I never see them again… unless they get put behind bars, incarcerated with a big brute of a man with a penchant for arrogant pricks… now that would make me happy! Unfortunately the boys are moving on and it may be that they are moving from the frying pan to the fire… but it’s Okay… because we have Nate on the case, and he is going to save them YAY!!!

Episode #11… and I am still as enthralled and captivated as day one… also angry, pissed off, agitated, and a whole dictionary full of other emotions… with a lot of crying along the way, but I still love it, and that’s down the the excellent writing of these two authors who are still dangling that bloody carrot of hope!!!

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Nov 02, 2013 G.B. Gordon added it

Glad things are looking up, albeit with one hell still to cross. Roger's such a brilliantly manipulative bastard that you miss it when you blink.
Even Nikolai doesn't seem to be immune. I get the feeling, btw, he's forging the weapons of his own destruction. Still hoping we'll get back to him and see him turned inside out. ...more

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Apr 13, 2014 Joana rated it really liked it

Shelves: lgbtq, short-stories

Finally ! Finally someone is looking for Mat and Dougie!! It was about time.

I loved Nate's POV and nothing that he likes Mat and is really interested in finding out what the hell truly happen makes me so relieved but at the same time I was so nervous reading those parts!!

I'm trying really really hard no to hate Dougie. I'm really really trying but I'm not doing a very good job. I have to keep reminding me that it's not his fault. Still not working. Dougie was never my favorite but I felt sor ...more

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