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Nov 26, 2012 09:29AM

67080 3) From Pure. Seth and Alex - The runes (Was a funny one :D )
Sep 07, 2012 11:34AM

67080 it is!! I liked the 1st and the last the most :D
Sep 07, 2012 07:29AM

67080 Lucinda wow! hahaha amazing
Aug 19, 2012 08:18AM

67080 2 amazing sites:

demonoid... (oh my I just found out they took the site down. it was awesome :( )

you can type on google: (...nameOfBook...) mobilism and you can find it right away
Aug 03, 2012 05:07AM

67080 Great! And seeing as I already finished the book, I'll be waiting for the discussions. And HAPPY READING ^__^
Jul 20, 2012 02:50PM

67080 Rimpy & Ridhee: Wow! I know how you guys feel.. When I meet someone from Croatia I just wan't to cry from happiness!
Jul 20, 2012 02:46PM

67080 Althea wrote: "
I read it and I thought it sounded a lot like me :)"

Yeah :) I just can't help it. Tho I'm trying to keep a check my smiley faces these days...

Oh, well :D
Jul 20, 2012 02:42PM

67080 Welcome gals.. It's so great to know about you all :)
Jul 05, 2012 09:02AM

67080 I just finished On the Jellicoe Road by Melina Marchetta and I was speechless!!!! it was a wow book especially when everything started to make sense
May 26, 2012 09:07PM

67080 Melssabellum wrote: "*trying not to hyperventilate*"

no use... :D
May 26, 2012 08:58PM

67080 Anna wrote: "OHMYGOODNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHH I CANNOT WAIT FOR OCTOBER 23RD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thank you becca for that amazingness! *squeals* that made my day! :D"


October 23rd can't come soon enough!!
May 09, 2012 09:25PM

67080 It's so great to know about you all, girls!

Finally I'm here!! Guess it's about time to tell you about... me.

Here's my ID card :D (the grinning smiley is not part of it :D)

- My name is Rebecca (Short form: Becky, and my personal pick: Becca. I usually sign it with a heart at the end of the 'a')

- Age 23

- Where am I from? hmmm, it's a tangle of names and places. Let me put it like this: Born in Croatia, lived in Switzerland and Germany, and now I'm in Palestine :) Yeah!

Now let me tell you a little about Gaza, the city I live in: Gaza's beautiful, what with its location, the weather and the sea <3 We all love it here despite the situation (u know). Our greatest problem is the siege, as the borders are closed since 2006 (no one goes out, nothing comes in, most of the time ). Another bad thing is the electricity: it comes 8 hours then goes off 8 hours EVERY SINGLE DAY.. Quite maddening, but we manage. We love life.. My friends and I love reading, and that's what matters! :) Here're 2 pieces written by a talented friend of mine about Gaza. U can read them if u have the time. You'll enjoy them, guaranteed.

My interests: READING and lots of reading, photography (I like to capture the beauty in things), eating chocolate, watching movies that are worth watching.

A dream of mine: ummmm I have plenty, but currenlty I dream of travelling the world learning about places (and meeting u all!)

I'm an enthusiast, I like to know everything about everything. I like chatting about books and having a good laugh.

May 09, 2012 12:56PM

67080 Booknut wrote: "
*coughs* Well...maybe humming..."

ahahahahaha XD best.fangirling.ever
May 06, 2012 11:27AM

67080 That's it.. :( Now tell me you won't be squealing all the way till October 23rd!
May 06, 2012 11:26AM

67080 I remained in my seat after class was dismissed, listening to the sounds of scraping chairs and shuff ling bodies, bags being tossed over shoulders. Voices surged around me, students talking and laughing with each other, gelling into their own little groups. As they began to file out, I finally looked up, letting my gaze wander over the few still lingering. A blond boy with glasses stood at Miss Singer’s desk, rambling on while she listened with calm amusement. From the eager, puppy-dog look in his eyes, it was clear he was either suffering from major infatuation or was campaigning for the position of teacher’s pet.

A group of girls stood by the door, clustered together like pigeons, cooing and giggling. I saw several of the guys staring as they left, hoping to catch the girls’ eye, only to be disappointed. I snorted softly. Good luck with that. At least three of the girls were blond, slender and beautiful, and a couple wore extremely short skirts that gave a fantastic view of their long, tanned legs. This was obviously the school’s pom squad, and guys like me—or anyone who wasn’t a jock, rich or po-litically inclined—had no chance.

And then, one of the girls turned and looked right at me.

I glanced away, hoping that no one noticed. Cheerleaders, I’d discovered, usually dated large, overly protective football stars whose policy was punch first, ask questions later. I did not want to find myself pressed up against my locker or a bathroom stall on my first day, about to get my face smashed in, because I had the gall to look at the quarterback’s girlfriend. I heard more whispers, imagined fingers pointed my way, and then a chorus of shocked squeaks and gasps reached my corner.

“She’s really going to do it,” someone hissed, and then footsteps padded across the room. One of the girls had broken away from the pack and was approaching me. Wonderful.

Go away. I shifted farther toward the wall. I have nothing you want or need. I’m not here so you can prove that you’re not scared of the tough new kid, and I do not want to get in a fight with your meathead boyfriend. Leave me alone.


Resigned, I turned and stared into the face of a girl.

She was shorter than the others, more perky and cute than graceful and beautiful. Her long, straight hair was inky black, though she had dyed a few strands around her face a brilliant sapphire. She wore sneakers and dark jeans, tight enough to hug her slender legs, but not looking as if she’d painted them on. Warm brown eyes peered down at me as she stood with her hands clasped in front of her, shifting from foot to foot, as if it was impossible for her to stay still.

“Sorry about the note,” she continued, as I shifted back to eye her warily. “I told Regan not to do it—Miss Singer has eyes like a hawk. We didn’t mean to get you in trouble.” She smiled, and it lit up the room. “I’m Kenzie. Well, Mackenzie is my full name, but everyone calls me Kenzie. Don’t call me Mac or I’ll slug you.”

Behind her, the rest of the girls gaped and whispered to each other, shooting us furtive glances. I felt like some kind of exhibit at the zoo. Resentment simmered. I was just a curiosity to them, the dangerous new kid, to be stared at and gossiped about.

“And…you are…?” Kenzie prompted.

I looked away. “Not interested.”

“Okay. Wow.” She sounded surprised but not angry, not yet. “That’s…not what I was expecting.”

“Get used to it.” Inwardly, I cringed at the sound of my own voice. I was being a dick; I was fully aware of that. I was also fully aware that I was murdering any hope for acceptance in this place. You didn’t talk this way to a cute, popular cheerleader without becoming a social pariah. She would go back to her friends, and they would gossip, and more rumors would spread, and I’d be shunned for the rest of the year.

Good, I thought, trying to convince myself. That’s what I want. No one gets hurt this way. Everyone can just leave me alone.

Except…the girl wasn’t leaving. From the corner of my eye, I saw her lean back and cross her arms, still with that lopsided grin on her face. “No need to be nasty,” she said, unconcerned with my aggressiveness. “I’m not asking for a date, tough guy, just your name.”

Why was she still talking to me? Wasn’t I making myself clear? I didn’t want to talk. I didn’t want to answer her questions. The longer I spoke to anyone, the greater the chance that They would notice, and then the nightmare would begin again. “It’s Ethan,” I muttered, still staring at the wall. I forced the next words out. “Now piss off.”

“Huh. Well, aren’t we hostile.” Though her words were sharp, she still seemed more amused than anything. I resisted the urge to glance at her, though I still felt that smile, directed at me. “I was just trying to be nice, seeing as it’s your first day and all. But, if you want to be a jackass…”

“Miss St. James.” Our teacher’s voice cut across the room.

Kenzie turned to look, and I snuck a peek at her. “I need to speak with Mr. Chase,” Miss Singer continued, smiling at Kenzie. “Go to your next class, please.” Kenzie nodded. “Sure, Miss Singer.” Glancing back, she caught me staring at her and grinned before I could look away.

“See ya around, tough guy.”

I watched her bounce back to her friends, who surrounded her, giggling and whispering. Sneaking unsubtle glances at me, they filed through the door into the hall, leaving me alone with the teacher.

“Come here, Mr. Chase, if you would. I don’t want to shout at you over the classroom.”

Pulling myself to my feet, I walked down the aisle and slouched into a front-row desk. Miss Singer’s sharp black eyes watched me over her glasses, then she launched into a lecture about her no-tolerance policy for horseplay, and how she understood my situation, and how I could make something of myself if I just focused. As if that was all there was to it.

Thanks, but you might as well save your breath, I thought. I’ve heard this all before. How difficult it must be, moving to a new school, starting over. How bad my life at home must be. Don’t act as if you know what I’m going through. You don’t know me. You don’t know anything about my life. No one does.

And, if I had any say in it, no one ever would.
May 06, 2012 11:25AM

67080 *Chapter One*

New Kid

My name is Ethan Chase.

And I doubt I’ll live to see my eighteenth birthday.

That’s not me being dramatic; it just is. I just wish I hadn’t pulled so many people into this mess. They shouldn’t have to suffer because of me. Especially…her. God, if I could take back anything in my life, I would never have shown her my world—the hidden world all around us. I knew better than to let her in. Once you see Them, they’ll never leave you alone. They’ll never let you go. Maybe if I’d been strong, she wouldn’t be here with me as our seconds tick away, waiting to die.

It all started the day I transferred to a new school. Again.

The alarm clock went off at 6:00 a.m., but I had been awake for an hour, getting ready for another day in my weird, screwed-up life. I wish I was one of those guys who can roll out of bed, throw on a shirt and be ready to go, but sadly, my life isn’t that normal. For instance, today I’d filled the side pockets of my backpack with dried Saint-John’s-wort and stuffed a canister of salt in with my pens and notebook. I’d also driven three nails into the heels of the new boots Mom had bought me for the semester. I wore an iron cross on a chain beneath my shirt, and just last summer I’d gotten my ears pierced with metal studs. Originally, I’d gotten a lip ring and an eyebrow bar, too, but Dad had thrown a roof-shaking fit when I came home like that, and the studs were the only things I’d been allowed to keep.

Sighing, I spared a quick glance at myself in the mirror, making sure I looked as unapproachable as possible. Sometimes, I catch Mom looking at me sadly, as if she wonders where her little boy went. I used to have curly brown hair like Dad, until I took a pair of scissors and hacked it into jagged, uneven spikes. I used to have bright blue eyes like Mom and, apparently, like my sister. But over the years, my eyes have become darker, changing to a smoky blue-gray—from constant glaring, Dad jokes. I never used to sleep with a knife under my mattress, salt around my windows and a horseshoe over my door. I never used to be “brooding” and “hostile” and “impossible.” I used to smile more and laugh. I rarely do any of that now.

I know Mom worries about me. Dad says it’s normal teenage rebellion, that I’m going through a “phase” and that I’ll grow out of it. Sorry, Dad. But my life is far from normal.

And I’m dealing with it the only way I know how.

“Ethan?” Mom’s voice drifted into the room from beyond the door, soft and hesitant. “It’s past six. Are you up?”
“I’m up.” I grabbed my backpack and swung it over my white shirt, which was inside out, the tag poking up from the collar. Another small quirk my parents have gotten used to. “I’ll be right out.”

Grabbing my keys, I left my room with that familiar sense of resignation and dread stealing over me. Okay, then. Let’s get this day over with.

I have a weird family.

You’d never know it by looking at us. We seem perfectly normal; a nice American family living in a nice suburban neighborhood, with nice clean streets and nice neighbors on either side. Ten years ago we lived in the swamps, raising pigs.

Ten years ago we were poor, backwater folk, and we were happy. That was before we moved into the city, before we joined civilization again. My dad didn’t like it at first; he’d spent his whole life as a farmer. It was hard for him to adjust, but he did, eventually. Mom finally convinced him that we needed to be closer to people, that I needed to be closer to people, that the constant isolation was bad for me. That was what she told Dad, of course, but I knew the real reason. She was afraid. She was afraid of Them, that They would take me away again, that I would be kidnapped by faeries and taken into the Nevernever.

Yeah, I told you, my family is weird. And that’s not even the worst of it.

Somewhere out there, I have a sister. A half sister I haven’t seen in years, and not because she’s busy or married or across the ocean in some other country. No, it’s because she’s a queen. A faery queen, one of Them, and she can’t ever come home.

Tell me that’s not messed up. Of course, I can’t ever tell anyone. To normal humans, the fey world is hidden—glamoured and invisible. Most people wouldn’t see a goblin if it sauntered up and bit them on the nose. There are very few mortals cursed with the Sight, who can see invisible faeries lurking in dark corners and under beds. Who know that the creepy feeling of being watched isn’t just their imagination, and that the noises in the cellar or the attic aren’t really the house settling. Lucky me. I happen to be one of them.

My parents worry, of course, Mom especially. People already think I’m weird, dangerous, maybe a little crazy. Seeing faeries everywhere will do that to you. Because if the fey know you can see them, they tend to make your life a living hell. Last year, I was kicked out of school for setting fire to the library. What could I tell them? I was innocent, because I was trying to escape a redcap motley that followed me in from the street? That wasn’t the first time the fey had gotten me into trouble. I was the “bad kid,” the one the teachers spoke about in hushed voices, the quiet, dangerous kid whom everyone expected would end up on the evening news for some awful, shocking crime. Sometimes, it was infuriating.

I didn’t really care what they thought of me, but it was hard on Mom, so I tried to be good, futile as it was.

This semester, I’d be going to a new school, a new location. A place I could “start clean,” but it wouldn’t matter. As long as I could see the fey, they would never leave me alone.

All I could do was protect myself and my family, and hope I wouldn’t end up hurting anyone else.

When I came out, Mom was at the kitchen table, waiting for me. Dad wasn’t around. He worked the graveyard shift at UPS, and often slept till the middle of the afternoon.

Usually, I’d see him only at dinner and on weekends. That’s not to say he was happily oblivious when it came to my life; Mom might know me better, but Dad had no problem dol-ing out punishments if he thought I was slacking or if Mom complained. I’d gotten one D in science two years ago, and it was the last bad grade I’d ever received.

“Big day,” Mom said as I tossed my backpack on the counter and opened the fridge, reaching for the orange juice. “Are you sure you know the way to your new school?” I nodded. “I’ve got it set to my phone’s GPS. It’s not that far. I’ll be fine.”

She hesitated. I knew she didn’t want me driving there alone, even though I’d worked my butt off saving up for a car. The rusty, gray-green pickup sitting next to Dad’s truck in the driveway represented an entire summer of work—f lipping burgers, washing dishes, mopping up spilled drinks and food and vomit. It represented weekends spent working late, watching other kids my age hanging out, kissing girlfriends, tossing away money as if it fell from the sky. I’d earned that truck, and I wasn’t going to take the freaking bus to school.

But, because Mom was watching me with that sad, almost fearful look on her face, I sighed and muttered, “Do you want me to call you when I get there?”

“No, honey.” Mom straightened, waving it off. “It’s all right, you don’t have to do that. Just…please be careful.” I heard the unspoken words in her voice. Be careful of Them.

Don’t attract Their attention. Don’t let Them get you into trouble.

Try to stay in school this time.


She hovered a moment longer, then placed a quick peck on my cheek and wandered into the living room, pretending to be busy. I drained my juice, poured another glass and opened the fridge to put the container back.

As I closed the door, a magnet slipped loose and pinged to the f loor, and the note it was holding came free, f luttering to the ground. Kali demonstration, Sat, I read as I picked it up, and I let myself feel a tiny bit nervous. I’d started taking Kali, a Filipino martial art, several years ago, to better protect myself from the things I knew were out there. I was drawn to Kali because not only did it teach how to defend yourself empty-handed, it also taught stick, knife and sword work, too.

And in a world of dagger-toting goblins and sword-wielding gentry, I wanted to be ready for anything. This weekend, our class was putting on a demonstration at a martial arts tourna-ment, and I was part of the show.

If I could stay out of trouble that long, anyway. With me, it was always harder than it looked. Starting a new school in the middle of the fall semester sucks.

I should know. I’ve done all this before. The struggle to find your locker, the curious stares in the hallway, the walk of shame to your desk in your new classroom, twenty or so pairs of eyes following you down the aisle.

Maybe third time’s the charm. Slumped into my seat, which thankfully was in the far corner. The heat from two dozen stares blazed on the top of my head, and I deliberately ignored them all. Maybe this time I can make it through a semester without getting expelled. One more year, just give me one more year and then I’m free. At least the teacher didn’t stand me up at the front of the room and introduce me to everyone; that would’ve been awkward. For the life of me, I couldn’t understand why they thought such humiliation was necessary. It was hard enough to fit in without having a spotlight turned on you the first day.

Not that I’d be doing any “fitting in.” I continued to feel curious glances directed at my corner the rest of the class, and I concentrated on not looking up, not making eye contact with anyone. I heard people whispering and hunched down even farther, studying the cover of my English book.

Something landed on my desk: a half sheet of notebook paper, folded into a square. I didn’t look up, not wanting to know who’d lobbed it at me. Slipping it beneath the desk, I opened it in my lap and looked down.

U the kid who burned down his school? it read in messy handwriting.

Sighing, I crumpled the note in my fist. So they’d already heard the rumors. Perfect. Apparently, I’d been in the local paper, a juvenile thug who was seen f leeing the scene of the crime. But because no one had actually witnessed me setting the library on fire, I was able to avoid being sent to jail. Barely.

I caught giggles and whispers somewhere to my right, and then another folded-up piece of paper hit my arm. I was going to trash the note without reading it this time, but curiosity got the better of me, and I peeked quickly.

Did u really knife that guy in Juvie?

“Mr. Chase.”

Miss Singer was stalking down the aisle toward me, her severe expression making her face look pinched and tight behind her glasses. Or maybe that was just the dark, tight bun pulling at her skin, making her eyes narrow. Her bracelets clinked as she extended her hand, waggling her fingers at me.

Her tone was firm. “Let’s have it, Mr. Chase.” I held up the note in two fingers, not looking at her. She snatched it from me. After a moment, she murmured, “See me after class.”

Damn. Thirty minutes into a new semester and I was already in trouble. This didn’t bode well for the rest of the year. I slumped farther, hunching my shoulders against all prying eyes, as Miss Singer returned to the front and continued the lesson.
May 06, 2012 11:20AM

67080 Yeah!

Coming across it was a real surprise. And my first reaction was... Well SQUEEEEEAL!! :D

Just hope Julie won't change it till it's published in October..
May 05, 2012 08:56PM

67080 Ladies and Gentlemen (as we are in this aristocratic atmosphere with our respectable members of our Not-So Austenian society, one must start properly) I believe it is time for us to know more about each other. We already know a few things here and there. But let's see what each one of us members has to say about him/herself.

Who are you?

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Here are the rules (the full list can be found in 'Becca's Not-So Austenian Guide' coming out in... well... sometime *coughs*):

* It's something like a citizen card, written in points:

- Start with your name (if you like. A nickname can do, though the name is better)
- Your age.
- Where are you from (and share a little about your country/city for us to know if you like).
- What do you study / what's your job (if you survived studying - like myself)?
- Interests - or: what makes your soul shine?
- A dream of yours.
- How do you describe yourself?
- Anything else I forgot to add here - the point is: Tell us about you!

So, who are you?

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May 01, 2012 02:31AM

67080 Anna wrote: "me too:) i know longer smack myself in the face! :D"

hahaha NICE!! we have a progress.. :D
Apr 25, 2012 03:41AM

67080 Booknut wrote: "He wasn't THAT cute a kid...I'm sure Ash as a kid was way cuter!:D "

Well, Ash comes in only one original version :D though I heartily hope there is some Ash out there. *sigh*

did u check the teaser? my heart stopped (really really stopped) for a few secs!
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