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Looking For It

3.94  ·  Rating details ·  645 ratings  ·  43 reviews
Mike Monaghan is the bartender at the Engine Room, a meeting place for the small but thriving community of gay men in Cold Falls, New York. As Mike pours beer, wipes glasses and hears everything, he's also witness to the men who come here looking for what they need--sex, direction, friendship, spiritual fulfillment, and love. People like:
Stephen Darby--As an accountant,
Paperback, 336 pages
Published December 1st 2005 by Kensington (first published 2004)
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4,5 stars!

Another great book from Michael Thomas Ford, one of my favourite authors by now. With a fabulous voice of Blake Somerset, one of my favourite narrators in the meantime.

The main idea of this book for me is expressed in the very last quote:

We all looking for something. And some of us are lucky enough to find it.

This novel told us the stories of 8 different men of a small gay community in Cold Falls, New York. There are parts in this book I really loved and some other maybe
Jan 13, 2018 rated it liked it
Recommended to KatieMc by: LenaRibka
Shelves: audiobook
This was what I have come to expect from Michael Thomas Ford, with the exception of one plot/character arc that was decidedly darker than the author's usual fare. I truly enjoy the camaraderie depicted among the men, the long time relationships and the germination of new romance.

Hat tip to Lena for turning me onto MTF.
Aug 24, 2013 rated it really liked it
This is the third book I have read by Ford in the past year or so and I have enjoyed every one of them. Like Changing Tides and Last Summer Ford uses a shifting POV, writing short, well-crafted chapters, in which we soon become captivated by the cast of characters he creates. Ford has recently become a favorite author of mine and I look forward to soon reading his Full Circle which sounds like it might be even better than the three I have already read by him.
Aug 29, 2010 rated it really liked it
Shelves: queer, fiction, literature
As we follow the stories of six men whose lives weave together in a small New York town, we are shown the good, the difficulties, and the heartbreak of relationships. We are given a gamut of men, with those who are looking for love, those who have given up hope of finding someone, those who are in denial about their sexuality, those in a committed relationship and those who have lost their partner and struggling to return to "the scene" as an old man.

The accounts are sometimes amusing, sometime
Apr 01, 2008 rated it really liked it
While this is a superior, darker effort to "Last Summer", it retains the author's biting humor. It suffers; however, from almost too many characters. Ford creates interesting and well-drawn characters, but the sheer number means that many of the more intriguing damaged souls get short changed in the story telling. The best reads often benefit from the best editors and there is not enough evidence of that editing here. I certainly look forward to reading more of the author's work; however, and ho ...more
Elisa Rolle
I was wandering a lot around Michael Thomas Ford's novels, never deciding to buy one since, first there were so many to choose from that I didn't know where to start and second I was worried to become addicted and knowing me if I liked one than I for sure I would have bought all of them. So I waited and waited and then in a gay bookstore they were all there, looking at me from the shelves and they are so pretty with those covers that I picked one. The saleswoman told me pick one random, they are ...more
Jun 14, 2009 rated it it was amazing
With Ford's second novel, he shifts the setting from Provincetown, Massachusetts to a small town in northern New York called Cold Falls. While that might be different, he still centers his story on the shared experiences of a small group of people. Each of them is looking for it, but the "it" is not what you might expect.

Mike is at a turning point in his life. He lost his whole family when their car was hit by a drunk driver when he was in high school. Now, he is a bartender at a local gay bar c
Feb 06, 2010 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
This was a reread for me and one that I love even more every time I read it. Michael Thomas Ford, in every book I've read of is, does a fantastic job of creating believable characters that even when they are doing horrific things, the reader is still able to relate to what's going on. And that's what this book is about for me, the characters.

The book tells the story of nine gay men as they navigate through life from Halloween night to New Year's Eve. The time span is pretty short but the develop
Don Bradshaw
Jul 14, 2010 rated it really liked it
Shelves: romance
Not Ford's best but worth reading. The book revolves aroung the lives, loves and breakups of seven men in a small upstate New York town. Ford manages to capture the intricasies of life in these men.
Jan 18, 2012 rated it really liked it
One of my favorite writers. A large cast of characters to deal with but I truly cared about a majority of them and got drawn in to their world. Need to read more of Ford's work!
Jun 16, 2018 rated it liked it
This was one of my Pride 2018 reads. I’m a total Ford fan, but this one didn’t do much for me. What’s worked for me in the past with Ford’s works are his characters. This time I didn’t really connect with any of them, and therefore just didn’t care. Some of the issues presented (gay men aging, gay bashing, the dangers of anonymous sex, drug abuse) are certainly still timely, but something here just didn’t ring true. And much of that is that things have changed drastically since the book was publ ...more
Rick Hribko
Dec 29, 2018 rated it it was amazing
Loved the characters, and I generally love Michael Ford as a writer. A good read.
Nov 09, 2018 rated it did not like it
DNF @ 6%.

I only managed the first two chapters, but I really disliked how crude and self-hating Pete was. Life's to short to read books with unlikeable MCs .
May 29, 2017 rated it it was ok
A little too drippy, and a little too unbelievable with that villain character.
Bellbomb Bellbomb
Sep 06, 2016 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: comfort-read
This is the first book by Michael Thomas Ford I picked up, and I'm sure I'll be reading many more of his novels. I just clicked with his style of writing and storytelling from the first chapter. It has a contemplative, melancholic but at the same time hopeful tone I really like. Somehow while reading this I was thinking of my another favorite author Adam Fitzroy - these guys are both fantastic at writing about relationship of mature/older men and still make it seem relevant to a single female re ...more
Michael Russel
Jun 07, 2014 rated it really liked it
This follows the lives of seven gay men in the small town of Cold Falls NY. There's Mike who's one of the bartenders at the town's gay bar. He has friends but feels unfulfilled. Then there's Stephen who is out to his gay friends but not his family. Next up is Pete who is gay but can't handle it. He acts str8 and goes out for anonymous sex with men...and sometimes beats the guys up. There's a couple--John and Russell--who have been together many years but their relationship is slowly crumbling. T ...more
Aug 22, 2014 rated it liked it
I am a big fan of Ford's and he has been one of my favorite gay story writers. However, this particular novel was not at the standard of his other stories. His characters are either sad to be gay,not accepting that they are gay or openly homophobic about their gayness.
This may be because the book was written much earlier than I thought. But again, it reference some actions in the book at hate crimes and itseems to me that that legislation happened after 2000 and google seems to say it was 2010.
Set in a little town in upstate New York, we follow the lives of 7 men, all at turning points. There are some really nice parts in this novel. I especially liked Simon's story. How to you live after losing your partner of 40 years ? How do you let go ? Simon visits Walter's grave, talks to him. There's an universal truth here. Doesn't matter that Simon is gay, that his partner was a man. Ford succeeds in letting the reader see through Simon's eyes. The budding love story of Mike and Thomas mirro ...more
Sala Bim
Mar 26, 2012 rated it liked it
I enjoyed this book better than I enjoyed the last work I read by this author, mainly because he incorporated more elements and storylines this time around, and so there were wider and more varied perspectives expressed. For me, there still seemed to be a bit of....detachment (is that the word I'm looking for?) in the voice of the if maybe I was getting a second-hand account of the story as opposed to a front row seat. I can't really explain it, but I enjoyed the story nonetheless. E ...more
Mar 30, 2016 rated it did not like it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: abandoned
I only read half of this book, and at first I couldn't decide whether to give it 1 or 2 stars...but, ultimately, I suppose that any book I don't finish only deserves 1 star. It was well-written, with some interesting characters, but I don't enjoy degredation porn or self-hating, violent, asshole closet cases. At just past the 50% mark I decided that the story had too much of the latter; it ouweighed the former. I'd started to feel like I should keep reading it, but didn't really want to keep rea ...more
Aug 30, 2010 rated it liked it
Enjoyable gay read. I like books like these because they're like LOGO specials and series you'll never see. I like the mix of characters and they're mix of problems. I like also that it's not set in a major metropolitan area and that they're a good bit of sex to heat up the proceedings. The author hasn't given us much physical description of the characters which on the one hand allows the reader to drop people from his own life directly onto the character. but the downside is before the get goin ...more
Jennifer Wardrip
Although I read the entire book, I found it more depressing than enjoyable. I enjoy gay and lesbian fiction, but there was so much unnecessary sex in this book that it took away from the actual story line.

The scenes with Pete Thayer, a blatant homophobe who harbors homosexual tendencies, were especially explicit and, in some cases, disgusting, and I felt they did nothing to explain his beliefs and his character.

There are lots of good fiction books out there dealing with gay men, but LOOKING FOR
Feb 03, 2014 rated it really liked it
Some unpleasant dark stuff and violence in this one. And Mike the bartender is supposedly the main character, but I don't think he's mentioned much more often than anyone of the other characters. Relationships, for better or worse, aren't really fully developed here, like there was a rush to get this to the publisher. However, I'm giving extra stars for his treatment of Simon.
Mar 10, 2011 rated it really liked it
This is one of my favorite Michael Thomas Ford stories, even with the hard to read parts. It's almost a collection of loosely connected stories where the same characters interact with one another. At least up until near the end when all the thread woven throughout come together in a tapestry.

The brutality is real and abhorrent; the love found between friends to lovers a soothing salve.
Feb 07, 2016 rated it liked it
Shelves: audio, audio-2016, lgbt
I would have given it four stars, becuase I really liked the topics of elerdly gay man in search for partners and the psychollogy of homophobic bullying and how the novel is about the still exiscitng troubles of coming out and or denying your secuality.
It was just too much sex. I get how most of that was part of the psychology behind the characters but it was still: too much.
Nov 15, 2011 rated it really liked it
I had heard great things about this book, and I went into it not knowing what it was about. Although I am a hetero female, I enjoyed reading from a gay male's point of view of life. A little sexually graphic but a very enjoyable and well-written read.
Amy Austin
Jan 26, 2016 rated it really liked it
I thoroughly enjoyed this book and had trouble putting it down. Found myself laughing and on verge of tears on occasion. Wasn't sure I'd be able to follow so many characters as I usually read right at bedtime. I'm looking forward to reading more by this author.
Oct 26, 2014 rated it it was ok
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Another good read from Michael Thomas Ford; a tender and endearing, romantic love story between bartender and an unlikely partner. I loved it!
Aug 12, 2016 rated it it was amazing
A very touching book that covers a myriad of personalities. Very engaging and well written.
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Michael Thomas Ford is the author of more than fifty books, for both young readers and adults, in genres ranging from humor to horror, literary fiction to nonfiction. As a writer for young adults he is the author of the popular "Circle of Three" series (writing as Isobel Bird); nonfiction books about spirituality (Paths of Faith), the AIDS crisis (Voices of AIDS), and the gay community (The World ...more
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