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(Little Boy Lost #1)

4.06  ·  Rating details ·  1,157 ratings  ·  140 reviews
Little Boy Lost is the story of Brian McAllister, the boy next door.

Brian goes to school, does his homework, and helps his foster parents around the house. Brian also has a secret. He is in love with his best friend. In Crayford, Alabama being in love with another boy is the worst kind of sin.

In this first book, Enlightened, Brian and Jamie discover just how deep their e
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Published February 28th 2010
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Jan 27, 2013 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition

3.5 stars

*rant before review* ...I feel very, very broken over those kids who have to go through their youth/schools feeling afraid, or ashamed, or having to hide, or being bullied for who they are. This book has this constant underlying fear buzzing through it as these 2 gay boys grow up in a small, very conservative town. More than anything, I wish I knew a way to help...

Let me just get out of the way the housekeeping stuff: the writing isn't great, IMO. Using 1st person POV only works w/ a ve
Kaje Harper
Jan 16, 2012 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Only pick up this book if you are prepared to be unable to put it down and have the next three volumes close at hand. The narrator, Brian, will capture your imagination and your heart, and this first installment does not end happily. Well-written and emotionally-engaging, this series follows the main couple, two boys, Brian and Jamie,from 16 and 17 through the next two years. I do wish the sex scenes hadn't been so explicit, because although they are very true and real, the content puts this ser ...more
Smokinhotbooks K.C.
I {Brian} felt his warm breath on my face; he was so damn close. My heart rate accelerated wildly, and I could hear the blood pounding in my ears. He (Jamie) whispered, almost too softly for me to hear.

“Please…please don’t hate me.” {Jamie}

The, in the lightest of touches, soft but unyielding, his lips pressed against mine. My eyes closed , and I felt a rush of emotion, sexual tension – something- building within me. The kiss was delicate, sweet, and lingered just long enough to make me want more
Apr 30, 2010 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Enlightened has gotten almost universally positive reviews and the story happily lives up to the hype. The author, JP Barnaby, has a great voice and the first book in a reported six book series offers an authentic and endearing teenage voice that will resonate with readers. The subject matter touches on honest emotions and situations that are still important and affecting. The only potential misstep is the choice to include several explicit sex scenes between teenagers – 16 and 17 – which may or ...more
Leslie Nicoll
Mar 10, 2010 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
4.5 stars


Little Boy Lost is the story of Brian McAllister, the boy next door.

Brian goes to school, does his homework, and helps his foster parents around the house. Brian also has a secret. He is in love with his best friend. In Crayford, Alabama being in love with another boy is the worst kind of sin.

In this first book, Enlightened, Brian and Jamie discover just how deep their emotional bond runs, and at what cost. From fumbling through their first sexual experiences to shrouding every
A Girl Has No Name
3.5 stars!

Enlightened isn't an easy read. Living in a small town in Alabama, Brian and Jaime are slowly figuring out that they are not only gay, but also in love with each other. Forced to hide their feeling from their parents and the rest of the word, these two young boys are going through a very difficult time full of doubts, fears and insecuritites.

All they can rely on is their love for each other.

It broke my heart to read about their suffering and the struggles they went through knowing t
Apr 30, 2010 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: contemporary, ya, m-m, romance
This YA story, the first book in the Little Boy Lost series, centres around 16 year old Brian who has recently come to the realisation that not only is he gay but that he's in love with his best friend Jamie. Brian finds this knowledge very disturbing and frightening. Firstly because he lives in the bible belt south of the USA and Jamie's family are strict southern Baptists; secondly, he's a foster child and he's worried that if his foster parents find out that he's gay, they'll toss him out bac ...more
S.J.D. Peterson
Feb 03, 2011 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
I had a hard time rating this book and at times I had a really difficult time reading it. Here's the thing, at first I thought of giving this book a less than favorable rating because I was just a little too squeamish about the sex scenes. They were pretty explicit and graphic and I had a hard time reading them knowing I was reading about young boys. Did the exploration need to be part of this book, yes. I just think for me personally they could be a little less explicit. I just couldn't get pas ...more
When I find myself holding my breath when I'm reading, it's my way of knowing that it's an amazing book. I'm surprised I didn't pass out through lack of air reading this one.

This is such a beautiful story of all the joys and insecurities of first love. It is told by Brian, a foster child who has had an incredibly difficult and unstable childhood. Brian's insecurity makes the fears he has all the more real - as well as going through the usual doubts of a teenager in love, he also fears rejection
Nov 21, 2013 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: lgbtq, favorites
I absolutely loved this book from beginning to end. Every. Single. Word. It’s not an easy story to read. It’s heartbreaking really. What a sad commentary on our society that these two boys are so afraid of hatred and bigotry that they have to resort to deceiving everyone in their small God-fearing Alabama town. Going out with girls so people don’t suspect they’re gay. Hiding their love for one another; feeling ashamed of who they are. It makes my heart hurt :(

I adore Brian and Jamie. Their relat
Serena Yates
Feb 21, 2010 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: gay
This is an enchanting story. Brian and Jamie are such "normal" kids - except for the fact that being gay isn't considered normal by most of the people in their hometown.

They both fear discovery. Brian because he is a foster kid and he is scared of being sent away. Jamie because his parents are staunchly religious and make him listen to gay-condemning sermons every Sunday. This is the first of several books, and I can tell you, it had me spellbound. I laughed and I cried as Brian and Jamie discov
This story was a bit one dimensional. First of all it felt like the main characters were both kind of girlish. Teenage boys just don't talk like that. It seemed like this same story has been told several times already and done a lot better. It ends in a cliffhanger, but to be honest, I probably won't read the next one.
I have to believe that prejudice against the gay community would be minimized if more people read stories such as this one. This story expresses the tragic struggle that too many young adults are faced with in today’s society. Fear of their community, friends and family turning their backs on them for simply being honest about being who they are, Brian and Jamie do not feel they have anyone else to turn to but each other. They are forced not only to hide who they are, but to pretend to be who ev ...more
Apr 09, 2017 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition

why would you tear my heart out and not even give me a shred of hope for a happily ever after?
Jeff Erno
May 04, 2010 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
4.5 Stars
Sixteen-year-old Brian McAllister lives in a Crayford, Alabama, a community where Christian fundamentalism is the norm and homosexuality is an abomination. He harbors a very dark secret: he is gay. Brian is an orphan who was raised by foster parents, and thus he already feels like an outsider. The realization that he is different from everyone else in yet another way only adds to his self-loathing.

Brian’s best friend is Jamie Mayfield, whom Brian loves immensely. Brian’s feelings for Ja
Don Bradshaw
Reviewed on Hearts On Fire...

I'm not a big fan of books about boys. It's just a personal preference of mine but a friend recommended this sweet story and now I have to read the sequel.
Brian McAllister is the typical 16 year old boy next door until he hears a sermon a hell, fire and brimstone sermon about homosexuality at his friend Jamie's church. Brian is a foster child placed in a loving home with open minded foster parents but they are living in the bible be
Mandi Schreiner
Mar 21, 2010 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
KC from Smokin Hot Books pimped this book to me big time - and for good reason.

Brian McAllister is a sixteen year old living in Alabama. Having gone through the foster care system, he has finally found a home where he is safe and prospering. His best friend is seventeen year old Jamie, who comes from a deeply religious family. Brian's thoughts about Jamie have recently gone into the more than friend category. He doesn't want to be gay, the church tells him it is wrong, but he just can't help hi
From the opening line, "My name is Brian Patrick McAllister, and I am going to hell." and launch straight into the pastor's sermon, I knew this wouldn't be an easy book.

It is the story, told by 16 year old Brian, of his developing sexuality - his realisation that his feelings for his best friend Jamie, extend beyond simple friendship. These feelings aren't only sexual though, Brian and Jamie share a deep love for one another.

Living in a small town, Jamie's parents are deeply religious and Brian
Nov 07, 2012 rated it it was ok  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: mm
This book is written firmly in the "tell don't show" camp -- as well as the "hit the reader over the head" camp. Ugh. This is not my style of book at all. There's no subtext, no subtlety whatsoever. It's written rather like a YA novel, except for the parts with the explicit sex. And yet again we get hit over the head with the Evil Homophobic Church, which I am thoroughly sick and tired of.

And jeez -- this book was written in 2011, and appears to be a contemporary story. Yet one 17 year old boy,
Aug 05, 2011 rated it it was amazing
If it weren't for the erotica, which is first-rate, this book (and probably the whole series) should be required reading for all high-school students in the U.S. and for the parents of gay or questioning teenagers. It's the best portrayal of young gay love I've read so far. It's also a stark reminder of what young LGBTQ people go through in our society, particularly in the Bible belt section of the country. Though there's prejudice and danger everywhere they go, if we are going to be realistic. ...more
Oct 02, 2011 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
I enjoyed this book a lot. But I feel like I have to qualify it, because it’s not a ‘feel good’ type of book. And maybe I liked it because I know bigoted people like the ones portrayed in it.

First I have to say, Dreamspinner, what were you thinking with this cover? It’s awful. So awful that I wouldn’t have purchased the book if there hadn’t been several glowing reviews.

I was also afraid of the ending. After reading the reviews, I knew that I wasn’t going to get a HEA or a HFN. I’m kind of a suck
Duane Colwell
Sorry to disagree with so many of the other reviewers. There is nothing wrong with writing a coming of age theme, but it has certainly been done better elsewhere. I know you're supposed to suspend belief (or disbelief) when you read a story, however, this one was supposed to be true to life. But for the first third of the book I didn't find Brian at all believable. Sixteen/seventeen year old boys don't think that way. Also, most of the story was spent in Brian's head, with little conversation an ...more
Wendy Ann
I absolutely loved this book about two friends in high school who discover their feelings for one another and struggle through all the challenges associated with being young, gay, first-time lovers who have to hide their relationship from family and everyone else. The writing was done so well that you can't help but feel all the emotion and get drawn into the story. This was my 3rd J.P. Barnaby book and each one has been awesome! I can't wait to read the next book in this particular series (or a ...more

I know I'm in the minority, but I didn't find anything so special about this story. I do love YA books, but I prefer the ones where I can get invested in the MCs, it didn't happen here.
Dec 04, 2018 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Loved it, absolutely loved it! Despite a few things that didn’t quite jive in the plot (e.g.: supposedly Jamie’s mom was really big, so how did she manage to get up the steps to the tree house?), the whole book was put together incredibly well, the characters were realistic and relatable, the dialogue was crisp, and there was a good balance of homophobia but without going to the extreme like so many authors choose when trying to appeal to their readers so they can pull at their heart strings.

Apr 01, 2017 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: 0000-sh-recs
3.75 stars...I can't believe I didn't realise there were 6 books in the series !!!!!
Jo * Smut-Dickted *
I'm not sure I can do any more than others in describing this book. I adored it. I'm not a huge YA fan and the sex in this one means it is not really YA although it is about characters who are younger than 18. Sometimes I find myself (truly) wondering why you couldn't give this type of book to a YA. I wish I'd of had something more explicit at their age- so I knew that sex could be hot and passionate and FUN. I was 13 my first time - so my perspective is clearly very different than others.

Oct 01, 2010 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: m-m, crack
I will be the first to admit I don't read much within the Young Adult genre but when I won ENLIGHTENED I was intrigued by this coming of age M/M story. I don't think anything could've prepared me for the reading experience I was about to have. What I found so intelligently written was the teenage angst of an almost seventeen year old exploring his gay sexuality and romantic feeling towards his best friend. There is no over-embellishing of the drama or emotions but a very sincere story that won m ...more
Chris, the Dalek King

That really was a good book. I have totally gone into the fact that I am not a big reader of YA stories in the past, but dear lord I am glad i read this. It did a good job of going into all the angsty teenage, come of age, coming out, family/church/people drama without ever actually putting me off. It was incredibly well written, and I had a hard time putting it down to eat dinner. I just really really liked this story. I loved Brian's pov, and a lot of the shit he was having to dea
DarkHeart "Vehngeance"
Jun 01, 2010 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: ebooks, 2010, m-m
This is an emotional and honest portrayal of two teens coming to terms with their sexuality in a small town southern state. Brian and Jamie are both innocent, sweet and charming characters feeling their way through their confusing emotions and first times.

Having personal experience with small town Alabama life, I really felt for these two young men and the steps they had to take to safeguard their love and protect themselves from those too ignorant and intolerant to understand. There are complex
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An award-winning, best-selling novelist of over a dozen books, J. P. Barnaby is a proud member of the GLBT community both online and in her small town on the outskirts of Chicago. A member of Mensa, she is often described as brilliant but troubled, sweet but introverted and talented but deviant. She spends her days writing software and her nights writing erotica which is, of course, far more inter ...more

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