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Secrets of a Gay Marine Porn Star

4.05  ·  Rating details ·  132 Ratings  ·  18 Reviews
Yes, It All Really Happened Just Like This. . .
Here's the story of Rich Merritt--the good son, teacher's pet, Southern gentleman, model Christian student at Bob Jones University, Marine officer, and the not-so-anonymous poster boy for a New York Times Magazine article on gays in the military--whose complicated sexual past caused an international scandal when The Advocate
Paperback, 480 pages
Published June 7th 2005 by Kensington (first published May 31st 2001)
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Gerry Kelly
Dec 11, 2009 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: gay-biography
This book give us a view of being GAY and being from the Southern Bible Belt, bastion of Southern Baptists, Pentecostals and others of the severe Religious right. An eye opener for many., since many Southern Boys and I would venture to say, some Southern Women have lived their lives closely paralleling the life of the author RICH MERRITT.

Maybe we didn't go to religious schools, but we were living in communities, where the church is the center of all social activity. I can remember being raised
Oct 26, 2011 rated it it was amazing
Merritt's story is quite extraordinary. Brought up in a fundamentalist Christian, southern environment, he goes on to become a marine officer, discovers he is not the only gay marine and, forced by DODT, develops his secret life in parallel, regularly challenging fate to bring the whole construction down around his ears. The man is lucky as well as intelligent and obviously appreciated by his fellow marines though, and the scandal breaks with a sympathetic New York Times article just as he is ab ...more
Secrets Of A Gay Marine Porn Star is winner of the Best Book Title Ever award – an award bestowed by, um, me. The title is probably what got Rich Merritt his book deal. It’s probably the reason the book continues to sell. It’s certainly the reason I bought mooched it.

Unfortunately, the book itself is very, very dull. With no eye to judicious editing, Merritt’s story begins at birth. Yep, it’s a long slog to reach the point where he becomes a Marine – let alone a Marine/Porn Star. There are a few
Margo - this job thing really screws up my ability to read/review
4.5 Stars

I had to look up the NY Times article and his porn videos to actually believe this story was true. It's an amazing story not only for how much Rich Merritt changes/grows, but for the risks he takes. He takes an honest look at his history, his actions, and his relationships. Rich doesn't even flinch from providing details of his porn performances. This story is funny and touching by turns, especially as Rich Merritt seems to be stalked by his alma mater.

I highly recommend this book to ev
Sep 10, 2017 rated it liked it
A lot better than I thought it would be based on the ridiculous and over-sensationalist yet amazing title. I can't tell if the psychology is typical; I have to conclude that porn stars are really a small fraction of the population so the discussion really... can't be taken as the average. The story is written in a naive and simple voice, and this guy took incredible risks, was incredibly stupid and not introspective, and yet he is oddly smart (eventually) and um. everything turned out fine, whic ...more
AJ Hernandez
Aug 21, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: biography
I thought it was a good insight as to what gay men encounter when raised in a religious home. During a time when being openly gay in the military was prohibited, this book offered a perspective of the effects of the strain it caused. I commend & thank the author for serving the country in the military.
Nathan Burgoine
Dec 16, 2010 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: glbt, nonfiction
I managed to briefly meet Rich Merritt in New Orleans at Saints and Sinners. His memoir, then, didn't really surprise me in its forthright, candid tone, but it really did take me aback with his ability to weave a true story into something so engrossing.

From his beginnings inside the "Fortress of Fundamentalism," and schooling at Bob Jones University, Merritt tells his tale clearly, concisely, and with a strong touch of storytelling that lets you glimpse the threads that were weaving through his
Katrin Albritton
May 09, 2015 rated it really liked it
As a former Marine myself, I found his story compelling. I didn't read it for juicy details ... I have the internet for all that. Oh, and a husband, sooooooo yeah. But, what I found truly interesting was the back-and-forth he had with himself about what it was he wanted to be. He wanted to be a good Marine (and regardless of his off-duty activity, I have to doubt he was ... not just any swinging, uh, guy, can hold the job he held), but he also wanted to be true to himself.

I served in the Corps
Jul 09, 2016 rated it really liked it
1. Don't get the wrong idea. Only around 2 chapters of this book is about the author's past as a gay adult films actor.

2. The rest of the book was the author biography of his strict fundamental Christian upbringing, his time in the military and the spiral into depression and substance abuse after he left the military.

Overall, the book was well written. Some parts were difficult to read, especially where the author kept repeating the same mistakes.

The second last chapter when the author pack up
Apr 22, 2012 rated it really liked it
One man's struggle with being brought up in the uba-religious south of the USA going into the Marine coup and having to hide his Gay true self from the would around him. And the cost to him on his mental heath. Very moving in parts with a self awareness that only come from going through some of the drink and drug excessive behavior that Rich fell into.
Feb 21, 2008 rated it liked it
You may not think that a gay marine porn star would be much of a writer....and you're right. But the story is compelling in that it's a record of gay life at a certain time in a certain demographic, and is a true to life account of the United States today. We don't all live in enlightened times...there are still places and institutions in this country that are 1957.
Rich Merritt
Jun 01, 2010 rated it it was amazing
31 5-star reviewers on Amazon can't be wrong (out of 43)

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Eddie Garcia
Oct 25, 2007 rated it it was amazing
The book was an honest portrayal of what it means to be gay in the American Armed Forces. I also enjoyed the authors honesty in reference to the gay community. The author's raw yet child like naivete speaks to countless of gay men who have "come out" and feel like they are 8 years old again.
Sep 12, 2007 rated it liked it
Recommends it for: Fetishists.
Shelves: biography, history
Don't ask, do tell.

Rob Velasco
Apr 24, 2012 rated it it was amazing
My first time reading a memoir book and I was riveted. It took lot of willpower to put the book down or else I would not have slept. It was insightful, it opened up, made you know Rich Merritt.
Jan 22, 2010 rated it it was amazing
an excellent read of sexual scandal for a former marine who was a gay porn star and his life tribulations. If you identify within the lgbt spectrum - you should read this book. most excellent.
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