Denial: A Memoir of Terror
"I have listened and I have been quiet all my life. But now I will speak."
One of the world's foremost experts on terrorism and post-traumatic stress disorder investigates her own unsolved adolescent sexual assault at the hands of a serial rapist, and in so doing, examines the horrors of trauma and denial.
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I finished the book this morning. I am so - celebrative - that Jessica Stern did this hard work and created this book. It couldn't have been easy and she shared that struggle, along with every un-politically correct thought she had as she did it. Her bravery in digging in ...more
For the next more than thirty years, Jessica denied her pain. She became an expert on terrorism. However, she found herself incapable of ...more
I am put in mind of the idea from the Jewish faith, that good is show in works, not intentions. You have have right action without right thought, you can do good for bad reasons. The idea that, over time, right action leads to right thought. Fake it 'til you make it.
Jessica went looking fo ...more
uncomfortable to review. It is a first-hand, detailed account by a
Harvard expert on terrorism of her rape by a stranger when she was 15
years old. Using police records and some of the same methodology she
used to interview international terrorists, Jessica Stern tries to
understand the man who raped her in 1973, as well as the rape╒s
long-term sequelae for herself. Her story is often vivid, surprisingly
candid and well- described but, at ...more
Obviously this is a very personal story. It is a journey of self discovery by a courageous, intelligent and successful woman. Ms. Stern opens up her life for the reader to include views into her family history, family dynamics and of course a major event in her life, the rape. As would be true in any situation, even from my ...more
After receiving an email from police lieutenant Paul Macone regarding Stern's unsolved rape case from years before, Stern dives headfirst into confronting her deepest fears and overcoming her trauma. In the process, she conducts intimate interviews with members of her family and victims of the same rapist.
The first half of Denial is ab ...more
This separation between myself and the author was consistently apparent, and not just regarding the rape. The relationships Stern had with her family horrified me. While Stern acknowledges her father, her grandmother, and her grandfather's flaws, she continually p ...more
Thirty years later a local police officer reopens the case and Jessica starts her own investigation, eager to learn as much as she can about the rapist. Finding that the rapist killed himself after some years in prison, she interviews his friends ...more
Jessica suffers from Posttraumatic stress disorder due to the rape. This book really does give one a go ...more
Stern's writing of her experiences gave me an impression of detachment and coldness sometimes. It amazed me somehow, but it was one of characteristics of PTSD, I guess. I didn't know anything about the symptoms of PTSD, so what she described of herself and others were interesting and very informative. I knew from the summary of book that she wrote about her rape, but it was more than that. She exposed not only the past of herself but also her fa ...more