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Nasty Bastards MC #3
Start My Life
A decade is a long time to wait to start your life. Can a marriage on the brink of extinction be saved?
Kia Nelson has only loved one man. She has devoted herself to him and only him. The problem is that man has spread his attentions to every woman who crosses his path. She has always accepted his indiscretions as part of the club life.
Until the other men started settling down, proving that monogamy is not dead.
Handles is the Nasty Bastard MC attorney. He loves his life. There is not a single complaint to be had by him. He’s got a wife at home and any woman he wants at the club. He works hard and plays harder. Status quo is exactly what he wants–forever.
When Kia tells him their marriage is through, that she wants to start her life over, without him. Handles is forced to decide, not just for himself but also for his future.
He has to choose whether he wants his freedom or his wife?
Kia Nelson has only loved one man. She has devoted herself to him and only him. The problem is that man has spread his attentions to every woman who crosses his path. She has always accepted his indiscretions as part of the club life.
Until the other men started settling down, proving that monogamy is not dead.
Handles is the Nasty Bastard MC attorney. He loves his life. There is not a single complaint to be had by him. He’s got a wife at home and any woman he wants at the club. He works hard and plays harder. Status quo is exactly what he wants–forever.
When Kia tells him their marriage is through, that she wants to start her life over, without him. Handles is forced to decide, not just for himself but also for his future.
He has to choose whether he wants his freedom or his wife?
252 pages, Kindle Edition
Published April 4, 2022
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April 7, 2022
So for the last few weeks, I've been looking for a good rage story--something that fires me up. For the first half of the book it was on pace, but it started to fall apart for me between the 50-60% mark.
We have a couple that has been married for 10 years and during that time he has NEVER been faithful. He has cheated the ENTIRE time with club whores. Lovely concept. The problem? She's lived with this the entire time. If she's willing to put up with it, why would he change?
Well, that's about to change--he forgot her birthday and spent the night with a new club whore, who he's rather enamored with. Ugly, right??
She's now officially had enough, takes herself out on her birthday and meets another man (nothing happens, not yet anyway). Unless he changes and can be monogamous she wants a divorce, and of course, he can't remotely understand this. He wants the status quo. There's no need to change, 'here take the roses and a new ring and we're good, right?' No, that's not going to work.
Club business takes him out of town and she takes off and meets up with the potential OM.
And this is where the story falls apart for me.
AKA: How to tank a good rage read:
1. I wasn't remotely put off by the tit for tat cheating, what put me off was that the OM was actually seeking revenge against the MC and took advantage of her. Excuse me, why not provide some real competition for the ass of a husband?? She immediately feels guilty and is basically faking it during the act. She just wants it over with.
2. His inner monologue is ridiculous... I love her, but I don't want to change, I like this other chick, but I love my wife... blah, blah, blah. When every member of your club is calling you an idiot and telling you to get your head out of your ass, try it.
3. They're not the brightest MC. He's supposed to be a lawyer (specializing in contract law). He's working on a contract between the MC and a criminal organization, apparently they were sucked into some sort of "working relationship" in a prior book (I may or may not go back and read the first 2 in the series). How binding can this contract be? It certainly isn't going to be binding in a court of law. Hey, you don't follow through we're going to kill all of you... good, that's going to hold up. And apparently this lawyer nor anyone in the MC knows how to do a background check. What??? He asks his cute little 20something secretary, how she vets the guys she dates. WHAT???
4. Back to the OM, he's in cahoots with the new club whore they are somehow connected to the crime organization and the organization is even bigger than they realize. And guess what? It's protected by the government. The government??? What government??? State??? Local??? Federal??? FBI, CIA??? Foreign??? Every time I read "government, government group, or secret government group" I cringed.
5. There's an awful lot of lip licking... I licked my lips, she licked her lips, licking my lips... lick was used 40 times (almost all lip licking), it was distracting.
Back to the story... he finally gets his head out of his ass and realizes he loves his wife and doesn't want to risk losing her and is willing to be monogamous and that's basically it. No real grovel, no redemptive arc, just them moving on. Since there are other overarching plots, I'm assuming the reader will see his long term redemptive arch. But this was left rather unsatisfying.
2 this could have been a 4 star rage read stars.
We have a couple that has been married for 10 years and during that time he has NEVER been faithful. He has cheated the ENTIRE time with club whores. Lovely concept. The problem? She's lived with this the entire time. If she's willing to put up with it, why would he change?
Well, that's about to change--he forgot her birthday and spent the night with a new club whore, who he's rather enamored with. Ugly, right??
She's now officially had enough, takes herself out on her birthday and meets another man (nothing happens, not yet anyway). Unless he changes and can be monogamous she wants a divorce, and of course, he can't remotely understand this. He wants the status quo. There's no need to change, 'here take the roses and a new ring and we're good, right?' No, that's not going to work.
Club business takes him out of town and she takes off and meets up with the potential OM.
And this is where the story falls apart for me.
AKA: How to tank a good rage read:
1. I wasn't remotely put off by the tit for tat cheating, what put me off was that the OM was actually seeking revenge against the MC and took advantage of her. Excuse me, why not provide some real competition for the ass of a husband?? She immediately feels guilty and is basically faking it during the act. She just wants it over with.
2. His inner monologue is ridiculous... I love her, but I don't want to change, I like this other chick, but I love my wife... blah, blah, blah. When every member of your club is calling you an idiot and telling you to get your head out of your ass, try it.
3. They're not the brightest MC. He's supposed to be a lawyer (specializing in contract law). He's working on a contract between the MC and a criminal organization, apparently they were sucked into some sort of "working relationship" in a prior book (I may or may not go back and read the first 2 in the series). How binding can this contract be? It certainly isn't going to be binding in a court of law. Hey, you don't follow through we're going to kill all of you... good, that's going to hold up. And apparently this lawyer nor anyone in the MC knows how to do a background check. What??? He asks his cute little 20something secretary, how she vets the guys she dates. WHAT???
4. Back to the OM, he's in cahoots with the new club whore they are somehow connected to the crime organization and the organization is even bigger than they realize. And guess what? It's protected by the government. The government??? What government??? State??? Local??? Federal??? FBI, CIA??? Foreign??? Every time I read "government, government group, or secret government group" I cringed.
5. There's an awful lot of lip licking... I licked my lips, she licked her lips, licking my lips... lick was used 40 times (almost all lip licking), it was distracting.
Back to the story... he finally gets his head out of his ass and realizes he loves his wife and doesn't want to risk losing her and is willing to be monogamous and that's basically it. No real grovel, no redemptive arc, just them moving on. Since there are other overarching plots, I'm assuming the reader will see his long term redemptive arch. But this was left rather unsatisfying.
2 this could have been a 4 star rage read stars.
do-not-read-cheating
June 18, 2025CHEATING spoilers
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H has been cheating for ten years. Sleeps with tons of ow. Thinks about ow. The h hasn’t even had sex in months. His “grovel” is saying he’ll stop sleeping with other women. She takes him back 😐
In the book/series, he cheats left and right
And she always takes him back
Yeah. I don’t believe in their HEA 😒
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H has been cheating for ten years. Sleeps with tons of ow. Thinks about ow. The h hasn’t even had sex in months. His “grovel” is saying he’ll stop sleeping with other women. She takes him back 😐
In the book/series, he cheats left and right
And she always takes him back
Yeah. I don’t believe in their HEA 😒
May 5, 2022
10 years! The H cheated on h for 10 fricking years while they were married and she didn't say or do anything about it. She knew all along that he slept around and cheated on her frequently. So, that makes her an 'enabler'. A one dollar hooker has more self respect than this doormat h.
Just because she was only a high school graduate she couldn't leave his whoring ass, get a job and live for herself is it? The H was nearly 50yrs old and the h was around 34yrs and after all the fiasco they fall preggers too. Wow! I can't even imagine bringing an innocent life into this kind of scenario where there is no guarantee that the H will cheat again. He cheated for TEN years and all of a sudden there is no changing that.
Another revolting factor was that he was falling for a new club whore (ow) who was slowly becoming his permanent fuck buddy. So, if she wasn't evil he would have most probably chucked the doormat h out and made ow permanent.
Just because she was only a high school graduate she couldn't leave his whoring ass, get a job and live for herself is it? The H was nearly 50yrs old and the h was around 34yrs and after all the fiasco they fall preggers too. Wow! I can't even imagine bringing an innocent life into this kind of scenario where there is no guarantee that the H will cheat again. He cheated for TEN years and all of a sudden there is no changing that.
Another revolting factor was that he was falling for a new club whore (ow) who was slowly becoming his permanent fuck buddy. So, if she wasn't evil he would have most probably chucked the doormat h out and made ow permanent.
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April 21, 2022
2 ⭐⭐ - Meh!
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Wow and not in a good way!
Shit show of disrespect.
Zero looks more like a hormone-ridden teenager who can't see a clubwhore who's already horny. Instead of going home after a day of work, he goes straight to the club whores and doesn't even have the decency to call his wife (aka doormat) who's waiting for him at home.
Zeroine has endured 10 years of disrespect and humiliation and can only get one mediocre fuck with a second-rate villain. What a disappointment, Zeroine could have had a really hot affair with a man worth it. It would be a small premium for the years She went without while the clubwhores had sex with Zero.
And our Zero was really interested in that Delight (or whatever the whore is called) and thinking about a relationship with her.
Their HEA didn't convince me and I was really disgusted with Zero.
Zeroine should have demanded a thorough examination of all existing STDs before letting him stick his dick in her.
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Wow and not in a good way!
Shit show of disrespect.
Zero looks more like a hormone-ridden teenager who can't see a clubwhore who's already horny. Instead of going home after a day of work, he goes straight to the club whores and doesn't even have the decency to call his wife (aka doormat) who's waiting for him at home.
Zeroine has endured 10 years of disrespect and humiliation and can only get one mediocre fuck with a second-rate villain. What a disappointment, Zeroine could have had a really hot affair with a man worth it. It would be a small premium for the years She went without while the clubwhores had sex with Zero.
And our Zero was really interested in that Delight (or whatever the whore is called) and thinking about a relationship with her.
Their HEA didn't convince me and I was really disgusted with Zero.
Zeroine should have demanded a thorough examination of all existing STDs before letting him stick his dick in her.
Except today, today I am actually really alone. Everyone has forgotten my birthday. Not that I reminded them. I wouldn’t. It’s not my style.
Dripping in diamonds, I know why I have them. They’re just to assuage his guilt. No other reason at all.
But he’s also a cheater. A liar. And probably a million other things that he hides from me.
Even if they fuck around with whores, they go home.
I look down at my phone and grin at the picture that is my lock screen and background. It’s Kia. She’s smiling, no makeup, hair messy, just plain fucking pretty. Standing, I shove my phone in my pocket, then head to the clubhouse. I have to get this contract to Prez to look over. Closing down my office, I look around, feeling as if I’m forgetting something.
I’m four beers in when a woman slides up to me. I don’t recognize her, but she’s hot as shit. Like most of the women here. “Hey,” I murmur.
“I’m Delight,” she breathes. I hum, my lips twitching into a small smile. “I bet you are, babe.”
I needed after a hard day at the office. I still can’t shake the feeling that I’m forgetting something, but as my cock is being sucked, I push everything out of my mind.
But he smiles and it reaches his eyes. I don’t know that I’ve had a man smile at me—and it reaches his eyes—in years. It’s hot just like he is.
“He’s probably fucking someone else. It’s my birthday, he forgot or doesn’t care, and I wanted to go out for the night.”
She’s going to be pissed that I didn’t come home last night, no call, nothing.
I can’t help but watch as she does. I was between those thighs last night, and early this morning, but I’m not one to turn down any part of a woman—ever. Which, since I’m married, makes me a bastard, I know.
This is cheating. Granted, it’s nothing compared to what Handles does on a daily basis, but it’s more than I’ve ever done.
Which means he never made it home last night and he probably won’t be home today either.
He never remembered my birthday, doesn’t care where I am. Just plain doesn’t give a shit.
I fucking forgot my wife’s birthday. I was balls deep inside another woman twice, three times actually, but forgot my own woman’s birthday.
“I didn’t go out to dinner last night with Handles. He never came home,” I say.
Contrary to what a lot of people in the club think, I love my wife very much. I don’t want to see her hurting.
“I’m not even surprised, Handles,” she says. “I know what your priorities are, and they aren’t me.”
I’m done. The complete lack of respect and remorse is the final nail in this relationship coffin.
Nothing about him is stable. He doesn’t call, doesn’t tell me where he is or when he’ll be home. He doesn’t even come home half of the time. He pays the bills, so financially, he’s stable. Nothing else about him is though.
This will probably be my last ride. I’ll miss it, not that I’ve ridden on his bike much lately. Honestly, I can’t remember the last time that I did.
“They don’t matter. You are my wife. You have my name. You sleep in my bed. You are what matters and I’m not letting you go, Jet.”
you told me you missed her birthday because you were balls deep in new cunt at the clubhouse… multiple times.
“Maybe she’s finally just tired of it all, Handles. She sees what the other girls have, all of them, and maybe she wants that. Must be hard to love someone knowing they can’t love you enough to stop fucking random people.”
“Can’t give that to her.” “Then you don’t love her enough.”
I could scrape her off, give her what she says she wants and be done. Spend my time fucking whores and partying when I’m not working. I wouldn’t have anyone to answer to… ever.
Bitter Disappointment should be my middle name by now.
I decide to work instead, she wants to be on her own, she can take care of her fucking self then.
“Handles spent Monday night through last night at the clubhouse, with the new clubwhore,”
“The same one from your birthday,” Ivory adds on a whisper.
I’ve left him and he chooses her.
Betrayal is such an ugly feeling. But it’s an ugly feeling that has consumed me for years and years.
Then the girls walk out on stage. They’re fucking gorgeous. Dark hair, dark eyes, tanned skin. They’re fucking stunning. Then there are their bodies. God fucking damn.
“Have fun, lawyer.” He stands and leaves. The girl straddles my lap and I suddenly forget all about war, about a broken marriage, about everything. I’m an asshole, a selfish one.
“You’re not willing to give up cheap cunt for your wife?” “Why should I?”
“Just food for thought, brother. Her not wanting to be second fiddle to your whores is not a big ask. She’s your wife, your old lady.”
“I’m married,” I whisper. “Kia,” he says. “You’re married to a man who sleeps with other women, who forgot your birthday to sleep with said other women. You left him.”
I smoked and drank more last night than I have in years… oh and fucked. It was a great fucking night.
Closing my eyes, an image of Delight pops into my head. I don’t know why, but I think of her in particular. I shouldn’t be thinking about her at all, she’s insignificant.
At the same time, I’m not sure if I’m ready to keep her either. She’s asking a helluva lot of me.
I think about telling him that there’s someone else on my radar, but I know without a doubt that he would have an opinion on that.
Now, if I didn’t have to choose… I would want them both. Without a doubt, both of them completely naked. I’m still not convinced that Delight just happened in my life, that she isn’t meant for something.
He’s been sleeping with—for days and days—the same damn woman. He has developed a relationship with her.
The only time he eats carbs like that is when he’s had a long night of partying. I shouldn’t care, it shouldn’t bother me at all, but anger blooms inside of me.
“You don’t give a shit about me. My head is not fucked up because I want my husband to want me. Because I want his attention. Because I want him not to sleep with other women.”
“Everything,” I scream. “I want someone to love me. I want fidelity. I want trust. I want love. I want a fucking family.”
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I don’t think that I can give up easy pussy for anyone.
I told Kia that she could have the house, but now I’m rethinking that. Fuck me, I need to make a goddamn decision.
Somewhere along the way, the free pussy became more important than the wife you had at home, her needs, her wants, her desires. You guys talk about the future, about kids, about anything at all?”
Delight is standing a few feet away, her eyes focused on me and nowhere else, boldly, I might fucking add. “You gotta handle that shit, brother.”
It’s not that Delight was or is special in any way, she’s not. She made herself desirable to me, paying special attention to me. I fell for that shit completely.
Handles didn’t want anything past having me here waiting for him, ready and willing. He never wanted children, at least not with me.
I can’t make you any promises.
“It’s clear that I’m asking too much of you, Legend. I understand that this isn’t the life that we’ve had. You did not agree to monogamy. But I need that. I’ve got zero anger toward you anymore, just acceptance.”
When I feel her hand grab ahold of my cock, I realize that I’m starting to get hard. Fuck. It’s hot that she’s crazy. I like crazy, but I do not need this shit, not now, not ever. Especially not when I just made a huge fucking deal about shutting Kia down with her questions about fidelity.
Delight strokes me, once, twice, three times and I almost break, but I don’t. Shifting my hips backward, I extend my arm straight and force her body away from mine.
What I see causes me to suck in a breath. Legend’s naked ass is facing me, but there is a woman in front of him with a smile on her face. He’s got one hand forward against her stomach and the other is wrapped around her throat.
Delight. Well, at least I know exactly where she’s from. The clubhouse. Some clubwhore just broke into my house, some woman that I know, just by the look on her face, that she fucked my husband.
“The way he fucked me for days on days, morning and night, I just assumed you were some ugly, fat housewife.”
She knows my husband, and although there are probably dozens of women that do, it feels different with her. I know that he spent my birthday with her, and the next day, that he went back after I left and spent days and nights with her. It’s just too personal
“But you like her, or you at least liked her,” I say.
“I did,” he admits.
“I knew that you did. I guess I just needed confirmation,” I say in a whisper.
I fucked my husband right there in front of her corpse.
January 1, 2023
I went into this blind… huge mistake. I say this all the time… think I’ve said it 3X’s in reviews just this weekend. Suds and heavy don’t mix. If you’re going to tackle heavy subjects like --- a husband trying to save his marriage after cheating on his wife for 10 YEARS --- then the execution needs to be serious and not treated like a soap opera… IMHO.
April 27, 2022
Actions speak louder than words. And this book proves that in spades. I don’t know how to rate this book (I’m going with 2-2.5 for now only because of the writing) but I do know that I don’t recommend it. Not even to those who enjoy the whole ‘cheating’ trope. To be honest, it’s not a trope I look for or gravitate toward…but I will say I was curious how this author would redeem the hero.
Short answer? She didn’t.
My overall problem was I didn’t feel any different about their relationship than I did at the beginning. The heroine is still the doormat she was from the start, who allowed her husband to disrespect and humiliate her in front of everyone, still has shitty friends who never have her back, and lies to herself about having self-respect and loving herself.
As for the hero, I didn’t feel anything for/from him. Not his love for the heroine, nor his guilt/remorse. I neither liked or hated him because I just didn’t care. Nothing about his character was of any interest to me once I realised he didn’t care - and was never going to - about how much his actions hurt the woman he proclaims to be the love of his life. He is still the man who - regardless of his words - will never stay faithful, will never put her first, and will continue to treat her the way he always has once he’s got her sweet again. This will be a never-ending cycle where nothing will improve and nothing will change long-term.
And the heroines are always doormats. ALWAYS. It's fucking annoying. No one I know would act the way this author's heroines act, and I find I just don't like them. How am I supposed to like or respect a woman who refuses to like or respect herself?? I get it though...some women relate to this sort of heroine (no shade). Or at the very least, some like reading doormat heroines. I am not one of those people because it makes no fucking sense. But hey, that's just me...
The author can certainly write. The book is well-edited, and a coherent story, but I always struggle with this author because of the lack of growth for any of her characters (or just the characters in general). What’s the point of it all if nothing changes?
Short answer? She didn’t.
My overall problem was I didn’t feel any different about their relationship than I did at the beginning. The heroine is still the doormat she was from the start, who allowed her husband to disrespect and humiliate her in front of everyone, still has shitty friends who never have her back, and lies to herself about having self-respect and loving herself.
As for the hero, I didn’t feel anything for/from him. Not his love for the heroine, nor his guilt/remorse. I neither liked or hated him because I just didn’t care. Nothing about his character was of any interest to me once I realised he didn’t care - and was never going to - about how much his actions hurt the woman he proclaims to be the love of his life. He is still the man who - regardless of his words - will never stay faithful, will never put her first, and will continue to treat her the way he always has once he’s got her sweet again. This will be a never-ending cycle where nothing will improve and nothing will change long-term.
And the heroines are always doormats. ALWAYS. It's fucking annoying. No one I know would act the way this author's heroines act, and I find I just don't like them. How am I supposed to like or respect a woman who refuses to like or respect herself?? I get it though...some women relate to this sort of heroine (no shade). Or at the very least, some like reading doormat heroines. I am not one of those people because it makes no fucking sense. But hey, that's just me...
The author can certainly write. The book is well-edited, and a coherent story, but I always struggle with this author because of the lack of growth for any of her characters (or just the characters in general). What’s the point of it all if nothing changes?
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October 5, 2022
Kia and Asshat.
I read this, but skimmed the supposed intrigue crap.
It's not safe of course, but I didn't find it as offensive as I was expecting.
Kia and Asshat met 10 years ago when he saved her from something awful that is just alluded to.
They married and she is now 33 and he is 46. He professes to love her like crazy but he just can't keep his d*ck in his pants. The only OWs he has sex with are club bunnies (they call them whores in the book which strikes me a pretty harsh). So at least he has some boundaries?... for whatever that's worth.
Not only does he mess around on the regular, he has been taking his wife for granted for years now and spends less and less quality time with her. She never goes to the club because she doesn't want to be confronted with his other sex life.
Everything comes to a head for her when he forgets her birthday to spend the night with the newest club ho, Delight. Funny I can remember her name but not his... That reminds me, douche canoe insists that Kia only call him by his club name and not his real name. So he is keeping her at a distance in more ways than one.
There's a lot of blah blah blah about an LA mafia... whatever that is? Seriously? The Italians in LA are the least of anyones' worries.. but whatever...
It was just a bugaboo for the story that goes nowhere and just serves as a plot device.
I didn't find the H to be more than just a shallow cheater. That of course is bad enough. He's one of those who wants his cake and eat it too, with extra whip cream on top. At first he thinks he can sooth Kia by offering to get her pregnant. AARRRGggg... that's like asking if she's in a bad mood because it's that time of the month.
Really this guy isn't the brightest bulb, but then none of them come across as particularly intelligent, including Kia. But the important part is he does grovel and feel remorseful. It takes a while but when he gets a clue he's all in. Too bad it took 1o years for him to figure out the obvious.
Kia leaves him briefly (but has no plan to restart her life... sigh) and then supposed 'intrigue' that isn't really intrigue...
I don't plan to read this author again.
Safety is not good of course.
I read this, but skimmed the supposed intrigue crap.
It's not safe of course, but I didn't find it as offensive as I was expecting.
Kia and Asshat met 10 years ago when he saved her from something awful that is just alluded to.
They married and she is now 33 and he is 46. He professes to love her like crazy but he just can't keep his d*ck in his pants. The only OWs he has sex with are club bunnies (they call them whores in the book which strikes me a pretty harsh). So at least he has some boundaries?... for whatever that's worth.
Not only does he mess around on the regular, he has been taking his wife for granted for years now and spends less and less quality time with her. She never goes to the club because she doesn't want to be confronted with his other sex life.
Everything comes to a head for her when he forgets her birthday to spend the night with the newest club ho, Delight. Funny I can remember her name but not his... That reminds me, douche canoe insists that Kia only call him by his club name and not his real name. So he is keeping her at a distance in more ways than one.
There's a lot of blah blah blah about an LA mafia... whatever that is? Seriously? The Italians in LA are the least of anyones' worries.. but whatever...
It was just a bugaboo for the story that goes nowhere and just serves as a plot device.
I didn't find the H to be more than just a shallow cheater. That of course is bad enough. He's one of those who wants his cake and eat it too, with extra whip cream on top. At first he thinks he can sooth Kia by offering to get her pregnant. AARRRGggg... that's like asking if she's in a bad mood because it's that time of the month.
Really this guy isn't the brightest bulb, but then none of them come across as particularly intelligent, including Kia. But the important part is he does grovel and feel remorseful. It takes a while but when he gets a clue he's all in. Too bad it took 1o years for him to figure out the obvious.
Kia leaves him briefly (but has no plan to restart her life... sigh) and then supposed 'intrigue' that isn't really intrigue...
I don't plan to read this author again.
Safety is not good of course.
avoid
April 21, 2022Self note
Avoid all future books from this doormat author.
Avoid all future books from this doormat author.
April 5, 2022
Kia is an absolute doormat. Handles is scum, he claims to love her but I didn’t feel like he actually did. Up until the very end he still wouldn’t tell her he would be faithful. Maybe around 75% ish he finally said he would, but I don’t believe him for a minute. Like Kia told him, he can’t like, Delight, the clubwhore and love Kia, and she’s absolutely correct. He WILL cheat again. I don’t mind cheating stories when I feel the hero is truly remorseful and loves his wife but this isn’t the case with Handles. He has cheated for over ten years and has no remorse and doesn’t want to give up other women. Even when she left him he continued to screw around and developed feelings for a clubwhore and spent night after night with her. Like I said, he will cheat again. The whole story just felt shallow and cheap. I’ll be stopping here with this series. The first book wasn’t much better.
January 5, 2024
I need to cut ties with this author while I still have my dignity. Save yourselves
April 11, 2022
The story is ridiculous and the "hero" is more ridiculous and an asshat. BLAH!
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May 5, 2022DISGUSTING
April 1, 2022
I feel like I need to put a warning out there now before someone reads this book and leaves a bad review for the cheating in this book. There. I said it. It. Has. Cheating.
This books primary storyline is about a husband and wife struggling due to his cheating. Yes he is in a MC but anything going on within the MC is secondary in this book.
If you have never read Hayley’s books before then I suggest you start with a different one if cheating bothers you. It could also get confusing what is going on within the MC if you haven’t read the previous books in the series.
Now for our main characters Kia and Legend aka Handles. I will be 100% transparent that I’m still not a fan of Handles. I don’t doubt he loves Kia. However he is weak when it comes to temptation and I’m not sure he will ever be able to be faithful to Kia. What happens on the road stays on the road…
You may be wondering why I gave this book 5 stars if I’m not sold on Handles. It’s because of the emotion Hayley draws out when she is telling their story. I had moments of butterflies in my stomach waiting to see what would happen next. The anticipation of where their story would take us kept me 100% focused and unable to put this book down once I started.
It’s gritty, raw, emotional, dirty and sexy all in one package. Emotional turmoil doesn’t even begin to describe these 2 characters.
So you have been warned. If you are open minded or have no trigger issues then run to download this book ASAP!
This books primary storyline is about a husband and wife struggling due to his cheating. Yes he is in a MC but anything going on within the MC is secondary in this book.
If you have never read Hayley’s books before then I suggest you start with a different one if cheating bothers you. It could also get confusing what is going on within the MC if you haven’t read the previous books in the series.
Now for our main characters Kia and Legend aka Handles. I will be 100% transparent that I’m still not a fan of Handles. I don’t doubt he loves Kia. However he is weak when it comes to temptation and I’m not sure he will ever be able to be faithful to Kia. What happens on the road stays on the road…
You may be wondering why I gave this book 5 stars if I’m not sold on Handles. It’s because of the emotion Hayley draws out when she is telling their story. I had moments of butterflies in my stomach waiting to see what would happen next. The anticipation of where their story would take us kept me 100% focused and unable to put this book down once I started.
It’s gritty, raw, emotional, dirty and sexy all in one package. Emotional turmoil doesn’t even begin to describe these 2 characters.
So you have been warned. If you are open minded or have no trigger issues then run to download this book ASAP!
April 2, 2022
I don't know if it's a me thing but I'm having the hardest time connecting to the characters in this series.
I love cheating, marriage in trouble and second chance trope so this should of been a hit for me but it wasn't. I went in thinking this would be another Hero like Soar and was sorely disappointed. I didn't feel Handles love for Kia or his guilt and remorse. I didn't believe in his redemption or that he would stay faithful. So this was a miss for me.
Im giving it 3 stars because it was well written and because I love this author.
I recieved an ARC vis booksprout and this is my honest review
I love cheating, marriage in trouble and second chance trope so this should of been a hit for me but it wasn't. I went in thinking this would be another Hero like Soar and was sorely disappointed. I didn't feel Handles love for Kia or his guilt and remorse. I didn't believe in his redemption or that he would stay faithful. So this was a miss for me.
Im giving it 3 stars because it was well written and because I love this author.
I recieved an ARC vis booksprout and this is my honest review
April 5, 2022
Aggravated me
I wish Kia was stronger and felt more self worth. Her constantly whispering and rolling her lips aggravated me beyond belief. It's like HELLO girl stand up for yourself.
Handles was a fool that I still don't think will be true to his word. Mr. I have my cake and can eat it too. Seriously? It's like he just flipped a switch after 10 years and going to be faithful. Not buying it.
We need a heroine that is not afraid to beat some A$$ and stand up to her biker.
Would of gave a higher rating if there was less whisper and rolling lips, sorry but it was very repetitive.
I wish Kia was stronger and felt more self worth. Her constantly whispering and rolling her lips aggravated me beyond belief. It's like HELLO girl stand up for yourself.
Handles was a fool that I still don't think will be true to his word. Mr. I have my cake and can eat it too. Seriously? It's like he just flipped a switch after 10 years and going to be faithful. Not buying it.
We need a heroine that is not afraid to beat some A$$ and stand up to her biker.
Would of gave a higher rating if there was less whisper and rolling lips, sorry but it was very repetitive.
April 1, 2022
Oh my goodness, this book just got me right in the feels! I am not one who enjoys a book with cheating, but if you read the blurb, you know what's going on so you can't say you didn't! However, I knew this author would do it right. The marriage between these two has never been one that was faithful and at first that was okay with Kia because at least she was safe and she had had a tough life. Handles actually saved her from a bad situation and claimed her but figured he could keep having his fun at the clubhouse too which he's done for the last 10 years. Kia has finally had enough and is done. No one can blame her, Handles has totally forgotten about her and just sees her as a nice convenience at home. This is actually a very deep story of life and marriage and the difficulties that one has in a relationship. Handles loves Kia and wants her, he just wants the other women too. This is a very emotional book, one that I enjoyed immensely. It was wonderful to see these two characters grow and try to figure out what they really want. Kia doesn't know what she wants either, but the one thing she DOES knows is that it's not a cheating husband! She knows she loves Handles, but just can't take the cheating anymore. She wants a real life with real love and who can blame her? This was a really deep and emotional raw story about two people who have to find their way back to each other. It was done well and I enjoyed it immensely. I read it in one sitting. Kudos to you Hayley for a wonderful wonderful read!
April 6, 2022
3.5 ⭐️
From the glimpse of Kia we got in scubas book i was worried I’d be diving into a book where we had a total door mat of a h, I am glad to say we didn’t.
This book dove right into it from the start and i just couldn’t help but be a little heart broken for Kia and want to throat punch Handles. Gosh to think of how Kia must have felt.
Going into this book I was always worried how Handles would be redeemed if it was at all possible. A decade is a long time to be unfaithful, and good on Kia for finally putting her foot down and seeing her self worth. I just wish she hadn’t felt guilty for her infidelity because Handles never did.
I have thought about this review a lot and TBH I enjoyed it, well written. I think story and character development lacked depth. I struggled to connect with both MC’s mainly Handles, which for what it’s worth I think impacted my ability to see that he could change and really had that soul destroying love for Kia. There were things throughout the book that just made me question him time and time again, his connection with Delight being the main one. You don’t spend that much time with someone and build a budding relationship to have felt nothing and just switch it off…
I may be negative Nancy but in a book that contains infidelity you can’t help but get invested between the lines.
From the glimpse of Kia we got in scubas book i was worried I’d be diving into a book where we had a total door mat of a h, I am glad to say we didn’t.
This book dove right into it from the start and i just couldn’t help but be a little heart broken for Kia and want to throat punch Handles. Gosh to think of how Kia must have felt.
Going into this book I was always worried how Handles would be redeemed if it was at all possible. A decade is a long time to be unfaithful, and good on Kia for finally putting her foot down and seeing her self worth. I just wish she hadn’t felt guilty for her infidelity because Handles never did.
I have thought about this review a lot and TBH I enjoyed it, well written. I think story and character development lacked depth. I struggled to connect with both MC’s mainly Handles, which for what it’s worth I think impacted my ability to see that he could change and really had that soul destroying love for Kia. There were things throughout the book that just made me question him time and time again, his connection with Delight being the main one. You don’t spend that much time with someone and build a budding relationship to have felt nothing and just switch it off…
I may be negative Nancy but in a book that contains infidelity you can’t help but get invested between the lines.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
December 21, 2024
Loved it! One of top favorite books with cheating and a non-repentant hero. Handles is the MC lawyer and cheater you might rage over, and I was here for it. Cheating told from Handles point of view, too, and no f'ing grovel. His young wife of several years does get back at him, but not in the ways that those who like a redemption might find satisfying.
There is a backstory from the arc running through the series that interfaces with their story, and that plot line was just OK. Also, the writing was just OK. Mainly, I found this book entertaining; it held my attention the entire book, and the over the top cheating with almost no apology, bravo.
Does he stop cheating in the end, yes? But not for traditional reasons. No drawn-out or public acts of contrition. His wife deserved more payback than what he provided, but such was their story.
Jerk of a hero, sweet heroine, juicy other woman -- and other man -- drama, MC side characters, mobster crossover, and spice. Would probably read this again.
There is a backstory from the arc running through the series that interfaces with their story, and that plot line was just OK. Also, the writing was just OK. Mainly, I found this book entertaining; it held my attention the entire book, and the over the top cheating with almost no apology, bravo.
Does he stop cheating in the end, yes? But not for traditional reasons. No drawn-out or public acts of contrition. His wife deserved more payback than what he provided, but such was their story.
Jerk of a hero, sweet heroine, juicy other woman -- and other man -- drama, MC side characters, mobster crossover, and spice. Would probably read this again.
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September 27, 2022In a perfect world they would both be dead in a year or two. Him of multiple STDs he contracted from sleeping with everything in a skirt. Her from wallowing after his death because she's just too damn stupid to live.
If you after cohabitating with a serial cheater husband who has been cheating on you for ten years, can't pick up yourself and move on to a happy, healthy life, then my friend, you deserve nothing but a lifetime of misery that he is going to dish you up with.
No self-respecting person would live a day with this man let alone a decade.
If you after cohabitating with a serial cheater husband who has been cheating on you for ten years, can't pick up yourself and move on to a happy, healthy life, then my friend, you deserve nothing but a lifetime of misery that he is going to dish you up with.
No self-respecting person would live a day with this man let alone a decade.
April 5, 2022
3.5 stars
This one was a rough read for me. I enjoyed the storytelling and the outcome of the book but I absolutely loathed the hero. I just couldn’t forgive him and it bummed me out. I know this author’s books often contains cheating but she always manages to redeem her heroes. This time it didn’t happen for me.
I am looking forward to more in this series and hopefully I connect with the next hero better.
I received an arc of this book
This one was a rough read for me. I enjoyed the storytelling and the outcome of the book but I absolutely loathed the hero. I just couldn’t forgive him and it bummed me out. I know this author’s books often contains cheating but she always manages to redeem her heroes. This time it didn’t happen for me.
I am looking forward to more in this series and hopefully I connect with the next hero better.
I received an arc of this book
April 2, 2022
I didn’t find anything I liked about the two main characters in this book. The conflicting thoughts of the male MC were disturbing. The female MC was just Blah. The characters weren’t fleshed out enough. I was expecting more
Edit: I had to add one more star. I usually like this authors books. She is a one click author for me. I did read until the end and I did want to know what happens so 3 star read.
Edit: I had to add one more star. I usually like this authors books. She is a one click author for me. I did read until the end and I did want to know what happens so 3 star read.
May 5, 2022
The cheating trope brings angst but it needs to be soothed with a firm resolution...not sure this has it. A decade of cheating and acceptance can't be so easily resolved. More time needed to be played out.
April 11, 2022
Cheating and Love
This is what Handles lives by. He has a wife at home who has been faithful to him over all the years but he thinks he doesn’t have to live by “normal” rules since he’s a member of the NBMC. I’m mean don’t all the brothers cheat on their wives?! That’s where Handles is sorely mistaken. The other brothers think he’s crazy to live the life he does when he has a devoted wife at home.
Now for Kia…really?! How long do you keep up with his BS? Finally, it takes him missing her birthday and besides that being at the club with someone else, she’s had enough.
The last book I read of this author’s received a five-star rating from me and I do look forward for more to come from this series.
This is what Handles lives by. He has a wife at home who has been faithful to him over all the years but he thinks he doesn’t have to live by “normal” rules since he’s a member of the NBMC. I’m mean don’t all the brothers cheat on their wives?! That’s where Handles is sorely mistaken. The other brothers think he’s crazy to live the life he does when he has a devoted wife at home.
Now for Kia…really?! How long do you keep up with his BS? Finally, it takes him missing her birthday and besides that being at the club with someone else, she’s had enough.
The last book I read of this author’s received a five-star rating from me and I do look forward for more to come from this series.
September 25, 2023
The H is a true manwhore cheater for 10 years of his marriage. Even after the fmc gave him an ultimatum he still continues. This book could have pulled
Out all the angst and feels but instead it fizzled— i felt blah and didn’t really care about either of the MCs. I like a good angsty cheating book- this one just fell flat.
Out all the angst and feels but instead it fizzled— i felt blah and didn’t really care about either of the MCs. I like a good angsty cheating book- this one just fell flat.
January 16, 2025
I'm actually lost for words 😳
April 3, 2022
Kia finally stands up to Handles! In the past two books, as we got to know Kia and the marriage she has with Handles, the more I was upset for her that he really neglected her feelings and emotions – not to mention cheats on her so often with club girls. But in this book, we get to see Kia in a whole new light when Handles forgets her birthday, and she decides to defy him and make changes in her life. Traveling across state lines, she meets someone, and he makes her feel wanted and cherished, something her husband does not. But she doesn’t initially act on it, instead coming back home and requesting a divorce. But Handles won’t give her up at all and doesn’t understand why he can’t have his cake and eat it too. And what he doesn’t know is how the man Kia has met has ties to the work the MC is doing. This book was a slight struggle for me – it was super frustrating reading Handles’ parts and how he felt he did nothing wrong and wanted to continue to have the relationship they always have, and I felt that Kia deserved so much better. I also would’ve loved to have the backstory on them – I deduced bits and pieces with the innuendos, but I would’ve loved to hear what happened from her point of view. Overall, this was a HEA for this couple because they made it out together in the end, but they definitely aren’t the typical couple and not the typical story. I’ll be interested to see where Hayley takes the rest of this series!
I voluntarily read and reviewed an Advance Reader Copy of this book.
I voluntarily read and reviewed an Advance Reader Copy of this book.
April 4, 2022
Handles and Kia
I have been jumping up and down waiting for this book.
Handles- you are an absolute sh!t and I love you for being all kinds of messed up. He is everything I beg for in a biker H; constantly cheating, and unapologetic.
Kia - she has tolerated and turns a blind eye for years of wedding UN-bliss.
Until now……
Forgetting a wife’s birthday while partying with OW is grounds for, well ….. divorce, torture, and immediate burn everything to the ground.
Kia decides she’s had enough and the marriage has no future, so while celebrating her birthday alone, enter the OM.
Handles likes his life just as it is, he has no need to make any changes. He forgets the birthday and spends that night and many days being wrapped up with the new club girl; Delight. He feels something for this new girl and later admits it to his wife.
Asking for a divorce is not something this biker wants to hear. Add in some OM and OW plotting against them, and things get very interesting.
The result is a HEA for these two, with the other people being dealt with.
I loved the angst, the drama, and especially the CHEATING (yes, give me more!!).
Do I question his feelings and deep attraction to someone else?
Yes
Do I wonder if he’s going to do this in the future?
Yes
Do I want more books just like this?
Yes
I have been jumping up and down waiting for this book.
Handles- you are an absolute sh!t and I love you for being all kinds of messed up. He is everything I beg for in a biker H; constantly cheating, and unapologetic.
Kia - she has tolerated and turns a blind eye for years of wedding UN-bliss.
Until now……
Forgetting a wife’s birthday while partying with OW is grounds for, well ….. divorce, torture, and immediate burn everything to the ground.
Kia decides she’s had enough and the marriage has no future, so while celebrating her birthday alone, enter the OM.
Handles likes his life just as it is, he has no need to make any changes. He forgets the birthday and spends that night and many days being wrapped up with the new club girl; Delight. He feels something for this new girl and later admits it to his wife.
Asking for a divorce is not something this biker wants to hear. Add in some OM and OW plotting against them, and things get very interesting.
The result is a HEA for these two, with the other people being dealt with.
I loved the angst, the drama, and especially the CHEATING (yes, give me more!!).
Do I question his feelings and deep attraction to someone else?
Yes
Do I wonder if he’s going to do this in the future?
Yes
Do I want more books just like this?
Yes
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
April 2, 2022
Such a good book. love books about marriages on the brink. Add in the MC, cheating and a woman that finally put her foot down, I was in heaven! I loved Kia. Yeah she was a little bit of a pushover but sometimes with love you do stupid things. Handles finally opened his eyes. It took a little longer then I would have liked but he finally realized what he had and did something about it. The plot was engaging and kept me hooked. It was one of those, ok this could happen but then this might happen, ok, I don’t know what’s going to happen kind of book. I have loved all this authors MC books and this book is totally up to par with all of them. Bring on more! I’m ready. 5 stars #2OCCJD
July 16, 2024
I don’t mind on-page cheating, but this cheater also waffled around for most of the book, moaning that he did not want to give up boning random ladies. Also didn’t even have the decency to chase his wife down when she ran away from him. I can’t stand a half-ass husband who doesn’t even get mad and unhinged when his wife leaves him. It was giving mid.
March 1, 2025
Plot was fine, characters less so…
So this book is pretty explicit in the other woman/man drama, with several instances of on-page cheating. There’s plenty of introspection from Handles about the situation…he just doesn’t a) want to change and b) doesn’t see why he should have to. He has serious impulse control issues, which is odd for a lawyer. Kia is not much better, to be fair…she did try to run and did try to hold out on Handles, but seemed to forgive way too quickly for my liking.
I read this as a standalone. It worked fine but is clearly building a larger story.
So this book is pretty explicit in the other woman/man drama, with several instances of on-page cheating. There’s plenty of introspection from Handles about the situation…he just doesn’t a) want to change and b) doesn’t see why he should have to. He has serious impulse control issues, which is odd for a lawyer. Kia is not much better, to be fair…she did try to run and did try to hold out on Handles, but seemed to forgive way too quickly for my liking.
I read this as a standalone. It worked fine but is clearly building a larger story.
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