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If Only in My Dreams

4.53  ·  Rating details ·  119 ratings  ·  97 reviews
'Tis the season to … be freshly divorced at twenty-six and moving back into your parents' house?

Because that’s my reality this Christmas. As if it isn’t bad enough that my entire hometown is buzzing with the news of my failed marriage, who is the first person I bump into at the grocery store? The guy who treated me like his personal booty call in high school just happens t
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Published December 3rd 2021
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Nov 24, 2021 rated it it was amazing
For me, this was way more than just a Christmas story. This was an emotional journey that just happened to be set in December. There was so much depth to this story, that to call it a sweet holiday story does it a disservice.

Madison is back home after her husband of two years has divorced her for no discernible reason. While she is helping out in the family business and licking her wounds, Porter, her high school flame, is there to pour salt into them. Wow! There is so much animosity between th
The Romantic Rush Blog
Nov 28, 2021 rated it really liked it
If Only in My Dreams is a sweet and ultimately swoony Christmas romance chock full of banter, love-hate tension, small town charm, and feel good second chances.

Our story begins with a broken hearted Madison, unexpectedly divorced by her husband, she returns to her hometown to try to move on with her life and heal. A move that puts her back in the path of Porter- the broody ex hook-up she had from high school, and they clearly have some unresolved feelings. And suddenly Madison’s heart is in fo
Nov 27, 2021 rated it it was amazing
My holiday romance books are just getting better and better 😍.

I didn't know that I will freaking like this book soo much.

Madison and Porter's story is a second chance romance. I didn't liked his behaviour towards Madison in the beginning of the book, but I enjoyed that she had a back bone and return the insults back, straight to its face 😂. After getting deeper in the book I've seen why he was like that. When he admitted to itself that he is actually still in love with her, Porter behaviour chan
Nov 12, 2021 rated it really liked it
Shelves: arc
If Only In My Dreams is a super sweet, holiday romance from Carrie Aarons.

The blurb gives you just enough to give an idea of what's in store for readers. But the writing is what will capture readers and keep them engaged in this story.

I absolutely loved the pacing of this story. Carrie delivered not only a believable story but a very relatable one in so many ways.

Madison is back home after going through divorce and runs into the last person she ever expected.

Porter is quite the brooding male he
Tanja OMGReads
Nov 28, 2021 rated it really liked it
Shelves: omgreads, 4star, nov-2021
If you follow my reviews you know I'm a sucker for second chance. This story was not an instant hit for me. Porter rubbed me the wrong way at the beginning. He was a giant A-hole and I wished that Madison would get her wits together and move on from him.
But as the story unfolds you get to understand just how damaged he was and what his actions caused to happen all those years ago. He did come through but it was a close call for a minute there.

This was not an easy read. It made me feel things
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Madison's newly divorced and has come home to her small hometown, where everyone's in everyone else's business and the gossip is running rampant about her new marital status. Ugh! Then in the middle of the store who does she run into but the guy who broke her heart in high school, treating her like his own personal toy, then discarding her soon after. Could life get any worse this holiday season?!

Porter knows he did Madison wrong, and he can't seem to stop being angry at her, even
RATING: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
STEAM: 🔥🔥🔥

What is it with me and holiday books that make me cry? I came for cheery, cheesy enemies-to-lovers holiday romance, and I get an emotional roller coaster about devastating secrets and life-changing decisions.

Madison is back in her hometown, licking her wounds after a surprise divorce from her husband. Dealing with this and small-town gossip, the last she needed is to deal with the other person who made lasting dents in her heart while they were in high school.

Porter just w
Caroline F
Gorgeous, perfect read!

"Absolutely not will I acknowledge the sparks that zip up my arm, or the way his eyes dilate when our skin touches."

Madison Goldwin is back in town, living at her parents' house, with her tail between her legs. She escaped heartbreak when she went off to college and ended up marrying into wealth and living a few states away. She's now divorced and home to lick her wounds and begin again. The last person she expects to bump into is Porter Kelly - the first guy to ever brea
Shirley Cuypers
Nov 03, 2021 rated it really liked it
Shelves: arc-beta, 2021
Original review

This book was provided by the author in exchange for an honest review. Thank you Carrie Aarons!

If Only in My Dreams is a standalone Christmas themed Romance about Madison and Porter.

Who doesn’t love a good Christmas-themed Romance book?! I always enjoy reading Christmas themed books to get into the spirit, and this year I started with If Only in My Dreams. If Only in My Dreams is an enemies to lovers/second chance Romance set in a small town. Three things that I absolutely love in

Nov 01, 2021 rated it it was amazing
This is an enemies to lovers and a second chance romance, then add in a sexy musician and a small town, top it off with it taking place around Christmas, and’ve got the most perfect holiday romance!!

Still reeling from her divorce, Madison moves back home and has to endure the stares and whispers of the people in her hometown. But this wasn’t her first heartbreak because that honour went to Porter many years ago. So when she runs into him and it appears nothing has changed, he’s as r
Kate R
Dec 03, 2021 rated it liked it
Shelves: arcs
**3.5 stars**

If Only in My Dreams is a second chance, holiday romance set in a small town. The holiday parts of this were wonderful and truly get you in the mood for the holidays. I loved the idea the parents had in here for the Christmas train. It was so fun to read.

My problem was that I really struggled with the main characters. Porter had a chip on his shoulder from the beginning and I can’t say I ever warmed to him. He brought so much drama to the story and not necessarily in a good way. Ma
Sarah~ Book Obsession Confessions
4.25 Wonderful STARS
This has all the feelings and festive fun of a holiday romance PLUS character depth and a really engaging story!
Madison and Porter have romantic history from high school, along with a lot of misunderstanding and hurt/confused feelings.
She’s back in their hometown feeling raw from her recent divorce.
The story has the fiery back and forth of enemies along with the pull of the undeniable chemistry between them.
It has the spark’s flying that made me feel the excitement for the r
Becky Wise
Nov 07, 2021 rated it it was amazing
If Only in My Dreams is a fantastic second chance holiday romance. You will love Porter and Madison so much. There is such tension that will keep you coming back for more. Madison is wonderful. I love how she stands up for herself as she is licking her wounds from her failed marriage. Porter will make you swoon with his ways. You are going to love the bickering banter between Madison and Porter. The chemistry just sizzles the more Porter and Madison are thrown together for all the holiday fun an ...more
Nov 27, 2021 rated it really liked it
4.5 Stars ⭐️

What a way to get to know a new to me author! If Only In My Dreams is an emotionally jam packed, second chance, holiday romance read.

From page one, I was intrigued by Madison and Porter. There is so much going on in their lives that I was drawn into their story and could not put this book down. From their on again, off again, hookups in high school to their love to hate you, hate to love you reunion years later - their story was not always easy or pretty but it was touching and bea
Stacey Gomez
Nov 28, 2021 rated it it was amazing
A Christmas Miracle indeed...I swooned hard for Porter Kelly. A recluse, grumpy, famed writer and small time singer. Ok, Madison Goldwin just signing the divorce papers comes home in Ruteland NY to lick her wounds and figure out where to go from there. Anyways, she bumps into Porter Kelly the man who was her high school secret hook up. But, she had feelings for him and he never reciprocated his feelings for her. After 6 years from high school, Porter dealth with his problems from his youth with ...more
Oct 20, 2021 rated it it was amazing
If Only in My Dreams is a super cute Holiday themed romance! I was hooked from the first page and absolutely love the chemistry between Porter and Madison!

Madison is back in her hometown after a divorce and isn't really sure what to expect. When she comes home and runs into her secret ex-boyfriend from high school at the grocery store she isnt even sure if her hometown is where she wants to be.

Porter is a lonely guy. Raised my a single mom, his dad didn't want him, not very social, but he is the
Alicynn Delancy
Oct 16, 2021 rated it it was amazing
My heart was not prepared to fall in love with Porter Kelly.

If Only in my dreams is a enemies-to-lovers, second chance, Christmas, dual POV, hometown romance.

This book has a little something for everyone. If you like sweet or a little bit of spice you should take the time to read.

There were moments I felt like I was intruding on the characters intimate moments. As the book progresses porter will have you swoon as you learn more about who he is. He has lots of growth throughout the story and so
Anna Reads Here
Release Date: December 3rd, 2021

You’ll enjoy:
✓ Enemies to lovers with a second chance
✓ Small town close to New York
✓ A Christmas romance
✓ A freshly divorced woman on the mend
✓ A broody, grumpy musician with a grudge
✓ Reconnecting in the steamiest way possible
✓ And a loving fluffy golden retriever

Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐✨ | Steam: 🔥🔥🔥🔥

Review: There’s a reason why Carrie Aarons is one of my favourite authors––she writes magical love stories like this one that have me all up in my feels for hours before I can
Oct 16, 2021 rated it really liked it
If Only in My Dreams by Carrie Aarons has all of the things!
•Sweet & intimate moments
•Spicy scenes
•Dual POV
•enemies to lovers
•second chance romance
•small town romance
•happily ever after

I Didn’t think I’d like Porter as the male main character at first but I did! You learn about all the sweetheart stuff he does in the community and for his mom. ♥️ I loved Madison’s growth and she became independent and stronger by the end of the story. I enjoyed this story as well as I have her o
Daisy Knox

All reviews posted at Tales of Love, Life, and Murder

Madison’s humiliation is palpable as she details how her husband simply stopped loving her and the hometown gossips obsessed with the failure of her high-profile marriage, but that’s nothing compared to the way she describes her relationship with Porter Kelly. He’s not just the boy who broke her heart, he’s the boy who broke her heart repeatedly after she kept giving him another chance and now that she’s back, he’s the man who still treats her
Atlanta Whitlock
Oct 30, 2021 rated it it was amazing
I love getting to pick up one of Carrie Aarons’ books as her writing is so raw and gripping. You just get lost in the words and can’t help but love the story that is being told.
This book has such a different feel to the other books of hers I’ve read and if anything, it seems more of a sweet cosy contemporary book, but even still it does actually put you in the Christmas holiday mood.
I loved the way that Carrie wrote this book, it had the perfect amount of heat, chemistry, pent up anger and eve
Jenn M.
Nov 27, 2021 rated it really liked it
If Only in My Dreams is a second chance romance intertwined with enemies to lovers set in a small town in New York. The story does take place over the Christmas holiday- which has a big place in the heroine's life so it does fall nicely into the holiday theme.

Madison and Porter's story is quite the emotional rollercoaster. These two had a fling going on in high school where Madison caught feelings and Porter basically treated her like scum. She ended up marrying her college rebound and then tha
Stacie Christensen
Dec 01, 2021 rated it it was amazing
Tis the season to … be freshly divorced at twenty-six and moving back into your parents' house?

Because that’s my reality this Christmas. As if it isn’t bad enough that my entire hometown is buzzing with the news of my failed marriage, who is the first person I bump into at the grocery store? The guy who treated me like his personal booty call in high school just happens to be looking at spices while I’m trying to pick up cinnamon for my mother.

And get this; Porter Kelly, the broody, mysterious r
Nightbird Novels
Dec 03, 2021 rated it liked it
Shelves: arc
3.5 Stars

This Christmas season, Madison Goldwin is freshly divorced and has moved back to her hometown... and in with her parents. To say that things aren't going according to plan is a vast understatement. And to make matters even worse... who should she keep running into? Only the first boy to break her heart, Porter Kelly...

Porter is beyond surprised to learn of Madison's recently single status, and while he has always wanted another chance with her, he decides to use this opportunity to push
Sandra Shipman ~ Two Book Pushers
If Only in My Dreams is Carrie Aarons’s newest small-town romance with a twist of enemies-to-lovers and second-chance at Christmastime! I mean, come on, all of those things are amazing and delicious.

Madison is recently divorced at twenty-six. She thought she found her happily ever-after in her husband but turns out he stopped loving her just one year into their marriage. He didn’t love her anymore. Now, six months later she was home and figuring out what was next. She was over it. She wanted to
Nov 30, 2021 rated it it was amazing
What happens when you are going through one of the worst times of your life, living back home with your parents in a small town where the rumor mill thrives, and you run into the first guy that stole and shattered your heart? You get Madison enduring pain, embarrassment, and trying to stay strong only to get ripped apart by Porter. Porter and Madison had something in high school where she fell head over heels in love with Porter only for him to treat her as a dirty little secret so when he ends ...more
Dec 02, 2021 rated it really liked it
Note: An ARC was provided by the author.

Carrie Aarons delivers a heartwarming holiday romance in her newest standalone. If Only My Dreams is a story about second chances with an lovers-to-enemies-to-lovers feel to it. Madison Goldwin and Porter Kelly were once young and in love, albeit neither one admitting to feeling the latter. She's back in their hometown after her husband unexpectedly divorced her. After a rather caustic reunion in the grocery, Madison wants nothing more than to cancel the h
Tammy -
Nov 25, 2021 rated it it was amazing
I've always had a soft spot for second chance romances, and when that second chance involves a tormented, brooding guitar player...well, you had me at brooding. Seriously though, I've read quite a few books by Carrie Aarons, and this may just be my new favorite.

Madison is newly divorced and has moved back home to live with her parents in the small town that she grew up in. The last thing that she needed was to run into her high school ex/first heartbreak. Even worse? He's helping out her family
Nov 25, 2021 rated it really liked it
If Only in My Dreams is so much more than a swoon worthy Christmas love story, it’s a deep emotional ride between two individuals struggling with their own insecurities. This well written enemies to lovers, second chance love story is a perfect read anytime of the year so don’t let the Christmas theme delay you from reading this!

Madison is newly divorced and back in her hometown and a chance run in with the boy who broke her heart in high school leaves a sour taste in her mouth. Madison and Port
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Author of romance novels such as Fool Me Twice and Love at First Fight, Carrie Aarons writes books that are just as swoon-worthy as they are sarcastic. A former journalist, she prefers the love stories of her imagination, and the athleisure dress code, much better.

When she isn't writing, Carrie is busy binging reality TV, having a love/hate relationship with cardio, and trying not to burn dinner.

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