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Lover Awakened

(Black Dagger Brotherhood #3)

J.R. Ward (Goodreads Author)

4.45 · Rating details · 152,698 ratings · 6,487 reviews

In the shadows of the night in Caldwell, New York, there’s a deadly war raging between vampires and their slayers. And there exists a secret band of brothers like no other - six vampire warriors, defenders of their race. Of these, Zsadist is the most terrifying member of the Black Dagger Brotherhood.

A former blood slave, the vampire Zsadist still bears the scars from a pas ...more

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Feb 23, 2014 Jessica's Totally Over The Top Book Obsession rated it it was amazing · review of another edition

Shelves: own-book, hero-melted-my-panties-and-heart, dark-romance, read-in-2019, my-favorites, own-on-kindle, favorite-couple, reread-worthy, liked-audiobook-version, disabled-scarred-h-h

5 Fuck I love Z Stars

"I...I can't get clean. I don't want you to get dirty, too." He lifted his wrist and blood oozed down from his forearm. "See? Look at the dirt. It's all over me. Inside of me." -Z

Spoilers

First read 2014
Reread 3/26/2017

"When I was..." She cleared her throat. "When I was in that hole in the ground, I thought of you. I wanted you to come for me. I knew you could get me out." His brows went down even though his lids were lowered. "I thought of you, too." "You did?" His chin mo ...more

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May 29, 2012 Blacky *Romance Addict* rated it it was amazing · review of another edition

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“I was dead until you found me, though I breathed. I was sightless, though I could see. And then you came… and I was awakened.”

Beautiful.
Don't know what more to say about this book.
Amazing and beautiful and those 5 stars don't do it justice.
Z is definitely my favorite BDB Brother <3

"He couldn’t stand to have anyone put their hands to him…though he wished he’d let Bella find a piece of his flesh just once. With her, he might have been able to handle it."

The story

**this will be spoiler ...more

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Feb 02, 2011 KatLynne rated it it was amazing · review of another edition

Shelves: part-of-a-series, made-me-laugh, tattooed-bad-boy-hottie, vampires, heroine-i-loved, heroine-with-backbone-smart-strong, 2012-reads, hero-favorite-smokin-hot-sexay, one-of-my-favorite-series, hero-scarred

My dear friend Karla and I went on this emotional roller coaster of a ride together. It was so much fun and I enjoyed every minute! Her unique way with words and her humor kept me in stitches. Thank you sweet Karla for reading this with me and to all our friends for their encouragement along the way!

Whew...What a story! There is no way I can do a review and do justice to this book. Zsadist's story was everything and more that I was told. I have fallen hard for another one of JRW's brothers! Be ...more

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Feb 20, 2015 ✘✘ Sarah ✘✘ (former Nefarious Breeder of Murderous Crustaceans) rated it it was ok

Recommends it for: Suicidal nitwits like me

Recommended to ✘✘ Sarah ✘✘ (former Nefarious Breeder of Murderous Crustaceans) by: Sh3lly (GrumpyBookGrrrl.com)

Shelves: paranormal-romance, vamps-are-wimps, 2016, hea-of-doom-and-destruction, badass-turned-lovey-dovey, tbr-shelf-says-thank-you, i-must-be-mad, my-friends-corrupted-my-soul, comfort-zone-hell, lame-a-saurus

➽ This is where most people would say something like: "warning! Unpopular opinion time!"

➽ This is where I say something like: "this is my opinion! I don't give a damn what you think! Oh, and by the way, I don't like you either!"

Just so you know.

Sooooo. This was ridiculous, stupid and boring. Wait, I think I'm forgetting something here. Oh yeah, it was pretty lame, too. I think it's high time to get my favourite antediluvian beast out of extinction:

Good doggy.

Believe it or not, the main proble ...more

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Jan 18, 2011 Jennifer rated it it was amazing · review of another edition

Shelves: favorites, paranormal, lol, rocked-my-world, re-read, tears-sniff, at-home-book-shelf

5 THOUSAND BELOVED-NALLA STARS!!!

I've read this book countless times, but this is my first review. Zsadist is my 5th favorite book man ever!!!

...even though his face was harsh, his voice was so soft and beautiful, like the candle flame.

A dark musk with an evergreen spice.

My Zsadist:

Zsadist is a tortured soul, the darkest of the Brothers, the meanest. After spending a hundred years as a blood and sex slave, he has nothing left to give anyone, and he can barely stay alive for himself. He has ...more

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Jun 11, 2008 k8inorbit rated it did not like it · review of another edition

Shelves: thesisreading, romance

This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers. To view it, click here. Oh. My. God.

I'm not even sure I can convey the complete absurdity of this book. Any description I try to make is typically interrupted by my own peals of laughter at the general ridiculousness and/or groans of immense pain.

The hero, Zsadist-- yes, he is actually named that-- is a self-proclaimed misogynist. (Yayz!) Profoundly psychologically damaged after several years of torture, abuse and slavery at the hands of an evil female vampire, he spends most of his time moping about, feeling angry, ...more

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Jan 02, 2010 Buggy rated it it was amazing · review of another edition

Shelves: top, vampalicious, scars-r-sexy, tattooed-hero, heartbreaking-hero, shelf-09, shelf-08, cryin-over-u, tortured-hero, shelf-10

Opening Line:"Goddamn it, Zsadist! Don't jump--"

~ZSADIST YOU BROKE MY HEART~
This is an amazing book and my favourite in the series. LOVER AWAKENED tells the agonizingly painful story of Zsadist, a former blood slave and most feared member of the Blackdagger Brotherhood. After Zsadist rescues the beautiful, aristocrat Bella from the Lessoning Society's torture facility she refuses to leave his side (or bed.) Craving the strength and security she now finds only with him. And it's with her growing Opening Line:"Goddamn it, Zsadist! Don't jump--"

~ZSADIST YOU BROKE MY HEART~
This is an amazing book and my favourite in the series. LOVER AWAKENED tells the agonizingly painful story of Zsadist, a former blood slave and most feared member of the Blackdagger Brotherhood. After Zsadist rescues the beautiful, aristocrat Bella from the Lessoning Society's torture facility she refuses to leave his side (or bed.) Craving the strength and security she now finds only with him. And it's with her growing love and patience that this reluctant hero ultimately `awakens'. It's a bumpy ride for our pair and this relationship will leave you in tears, both of joy and sadness as we witness Z's transformation from the `cold one' into a male of worth. A multilayered novel L.A of course has several stories and POV's running simultaneously and the action never stops. Full of suspense, erotic and ultimately heartbreaking.

Introduced briefly in the past two books, we now get to find out what made Zsadist the way he is. A confirmed sociopath who avoids all relationships, Z is scarred, pierced, tattooed, violent and illiterate. He's the most feared Brother and distrusted by all because of his intimidating and just downright mean nature. He enjoys pain yet can't bare any kind of physical contact due to the years of physical and sexual abuse he suffered during his time as a blood slave. Zsadist makes for an unlikely romantic hero but JR brilliantly gains your sympathy and you will grow to love this misunderstood and abused character.

Phury as Zsadist's twin plays a major role here, and through a series of flashbacks we learn the details of Z's enslavement and Phury's daring rescue of him. It's a striking scene resulting in the loss of his leg and Z's brutal scarring. Phury has spent his life consumed with fixing his twin and is riddled with guilt, sacrificing time and again and it's starting to take a toll. Now exhausted, he's playing a deadly game with the `red smoke' and despite his vow of celibacy can't help being attracted to Bella.

We also get to know Rehvenge the Sympath club owner of Zerosum and John Mathew's story starts to unfold as he begins his training and accepts the love of a family. Of course all the Brothers get some attention so we get shots of Wrath, Rhage, Vishous, Butch and their respective `Shellans.' Some of my favourite scenes involve the Brothers just going about their daily business, little interludes in the kitchen, or hanging out playing pool and teasing each other. Unfortunately the Lessers continue their torment making things personal now as their leader Mr. O attempts to reclaim Bella and a shocking loss occurs within the Brotherhood family that will be felt throughout the rest of this series.

Z and Bella's love story takes center stage throughout though and is utterly fascinating. From the moment of rescue Zsadist won't let anyone else near Bella. And despite being frightened of him she wants him. To Bella he is perfect and she slowly begins to seduce him. Z is subsequently terrified, feeling dirty and hating his body's response to her. When the two finally kiss however...sigh. Ultimately Z's feelings of unworthiness force him to push her away. Into the arms of a male of worth, those of his twin brother. When Bella goes into her 'needing' though which twin will ease her suffering? The celibate one or the one who can't bear to be touched?

The climax of this book is simply unput-downable. With a suicide mission forcing one twin to sacrifice everything for the life of the other and a HEA that brings tears to your eyes as we get a rare glimpse of the future. Each book in this series just gets better and better but JR has outdone herself here. I would give this more *s if I could and can't recommend it enough ...more

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Jun 03, 2010 Annie (Under the Covers Book Blog) rated it it was amazing · review of another edition

Recommends it for: J.R Ward fans and paranormal romance fans

Shelves: warriors, pnr, keep-a-spare-pair-of-knickers, books-i-go-rabid-over, vampires, favorites, signed-by-author, author-j-r-ward, books-i-own, ebooks

Jesus, I hated Zsadist before this book. I thought of him as a ruthless killer, and he is. But there is another side of him that is revealed in this book. With Bella, Zsadist's tortured soul is exposed. You see a much darker side of him that is painful and I feel ashamed to say that I am captivated by him. Knowing him, that is the last thing he would want. Zsadist has no patience for those who show sympathy or pity him. And I respect him more for that.

This is one of the more darker books of the ...more

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Mar 17, 2014 P rated it it was amazing · review of another edition

Shelves: paranormal-romance, favorites-2014

“I was dead until you found me, though I breathed. I was sightless, though I could see. And then you came...and I was awakened.”

This is the best of the series. Zsadist is a real tortured hero. What he has been through shatters my heart. And Bella, she is a savior of this broken man. She has fire in her heart, especially when he tries to push her away, she resists. That's why I love her. That's why I love this book so damn much !

“He knew he was being overbearing as hell, but he couldn't help
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Feb 03, 2009 Dina rated it really liked it · review of another edition

Shelves: paranormal-romance

4 1/2 stars

"Everyone" has already read this book, so I'm just going to rant a bit...

Zsadist had me intrigued since I read Dark Lover, because he was pretty much an outcast within the Brotherhood and I knew there had to be something "good" inside him. I also knew that his story would be "scary" (for lack of a better word) and, boy, I was not mistaken! I thought Sin MacAllister from Kinley MacGregor's Born in Sin was the most tortured hero in Romancelandia but, compared to Z's, Sin's life was a m ...more

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Mar 26, 2009 UniquelyMoi ~ BlithelyBookish rated it it was amazing · review of another edition

Shelves: reviewed-by-me, top-10-heroes, pnr-romance, top-couples-of-all-time, must-reread, keepers, 5-stars, top-heroes, favorites, mind-candy

And finally, 04/11/2012, my re-read over.

My favorite scene from the book: (view spoiler)
And finally, 04/11/2012, my re-read over.

My favorite scene from the book: (view spoiler)[

He glanced back down at the pencil in his hand and then turned to the table. Flipping the spiral notebook to a new page, he bent way over and labored on top of the paper for quite a while. Then he ripped the sheet free.

His hand was shaking as he held it out. "It's messy."

Bella took the paper. In a child's uneven block letters there were three words: I LOVE YOU

Her lips flattened tight as her eyes stung. The handwriting got wavy and then disappeared.

"Maybe you can't read it," he said in a small voice. "I can do it over."

She shook her head. "I can read it just fine. It's… beautiful."

"I don't expect anything back. I mean… I know that you don't… feel that for me anymore. But I wanted you to know. It's important that you knew. And if there's any chance we could be together… I can't stop my job with the Brotherhood. But I can promise that I'll be so much more careful with myself—" He frowned and stopped talking. "Shit. What am I saying? I promised myself I wouldn't put you in this position—"

She crushed the paper to her heart, then launched herself at him, hitting his chest so hard he stumbled back. As his arms came around her with hesitation, as if he didn't have any idea what she was doing or why, she wept openly.

In all her preparations for this meeting, the one thing she had never considered was that the two of them might have some sort of future.

When he tilted up her chin and looked down at her she tried to smile, but the crazy hope she felt was too heavy and joyous a burden.

"I didn't mean to make you cry—"

"Oh, God… Zsadist, I love you."

His eyes flared so wide, his brows nearly hit his hairline. "What… ?"

"I love you."

"Say that again."

"I love you."

"Again… please," he whispered. "I need to hear it… again."

"I love you…"

His response was to start praying to the Scribe Virgin in the Old Language.

Holding Bella tight, burying his face in her hair, he gave thanks with such eloquence she started to weep all over again.

When the last laudation had been murmured he switched back into English. "I was dead until you found me, though I breathed. I was sightless, though I could see. And then you came… and I was awakened."

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Doing a re-read 04/09/2012

I just read this part:

"I've only ever had you to live for. If you die I have nothing. I'm utterly lost. And you are needed here."

Zsadist tried to reach out, but couldn't lift his arms as Phury stood up.

"God, Z, I keep thinking this tragedy of ours is going to be over. But it just keeps going, doesn't it?"

And I sobbed harder this time reading it than I did almost exactly 3 years ago when I read it the first time.

I adore Zsadist. He is, by far, my favorite brother. Tormented, he has given up on finding love, believing himself both unworthy and unlovable. ...more

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Mar 02, 2011 Emily May rated it it was amazing · review of another edition

Shelves: paranormal-uf, 2011, pnr

Plot: 5 stars
Characters: 5 stars
Writing: 5 stars
Sexiness: 4 stars
Ending: 5 stars

Overall: 4.8 stars

I've fallen in love with Zsadist :)

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Oct 12, 2008 Beth rated it it was amazing · review of another edition

Shelves: pnr, vampires, 2013, 2016, src-summer-2016, 2008, favorites, kindle, 2011

Oh, my sweet peas and carrots! I lost count on how many times the bottom on my stomach dropped out and sank somewhere down by my feet only to bungee jump right back up and fly straight through the top of my head in sheer delight. Oh yes, this book was dee-licious!

I got married in July 2008 and brought the first two books in the Black Dagger Brotherhood series to keep myself amused on the honeymoon flight. They were cracktastic and addictive and fun and I eagerly added the next title to my queue Oh, my sweet peas and carrots! I lost count on how many times the bottom on my stomach dropped out and sank somewhere down by my feet only to bungee jump right back up and fly straight through the top of my head in sheer delight. Oh yes, this book was dee-licious!

I got married in July 2008 and brought the first two books in the Black Dagger Brotherhood series to keep myself amused on the honeymoon flight. They were cracktastic and addictive and fun and I eagerly added the next title to my queue on booksfree.com (the site I’ve been relying on ever since I put myself on an economical and restrictive book diet that prohibits the purchase of books I won’t reread). Fast forward to October 2008 and I’m still waiting for Lover Awakened, the third book in the BDB series.

The availability of this book has never been on track for the rate that I have returned books and others were repeatedly bumped to the top and sent out instead. Things were getting serious and I was going into some major BDB withdrawal but I lucked out recently when a friend graciously offered to lend me not only this book, but also the fourth, fifth and sixth in the series (thanks Jen!)

And now that I’ve finally had a chance to read this installment, it comes as no surprise that the waiting list is so long. This book is beyond hot!

Zsadist is one twisted mofo and I’ve been extremely curious as to how Ward was going to portray him in a way that would make me sympathize with his unusual tastes. Personally, I think it was a success. Zsadist was a perfect blend of anger, dementia, anger, anger, terror, anger, confusion…and…and…timid tenderness? Which, wow, totally floored me.

***spoilers past this point***

The second book in this series, Lover Eternal, had bothered me for several reasons, one being that the author spent waaaay too much time building up for number three and left a cliffhanger completely neglected at the very end of number two. To me, a cliffhanger means ending the book with an unsatisfying shocker that leaves your reader nearly in pain but eager for the next installment (ie Karen Marie Moning’s Fever series which I’m still twitching in anticipation for!) But in Lover Eternal, the fact that Bella had been kidnapped by a bad guy and had not yet been recovered is not even mentioned at the very end. Instead, Rhage and Mary go on to have their own piss-poor happily ever after and to be quite frank, the fact that they never even mentioned Bella’s kidnapping or even expressed some concern over their friend’s predicament cheapened both of them as individuals in my eyes.

Fortunately this one was totally different. Bella was rescued. Bella was messed up. Bella had a freaky new tattoo. Bella decided Zsadist’s room was the only place she’d feel safe (hmm). Zsadist tweaked out. Zsadist had complete meltdowns on numerous occasions and when Bella finally leaned in and kissed him for the very first time, I almost fell off the couch. It was that good.

Also of noteworthy mention is that the number of times the word “shitkickers” appeared in this novel’s pages was significantly down (thank god). The number of times one Brother said to another Brother, “bla bla bla bla bla bla, true?” was down (what a relief). And references to rap artists I don’t listen to was also down (yesssss!) Overall, I think this book was a complete success and I need to own a copy I can love and cherish forever. I love crack laced with rat poison!
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Nov 07, 2013 Sh3lly (GrumpyBookGrrrl.com) rated it it was amazing

Shelves: hot-guys-alphas-rawr, read-more-than-once, 5-stars, vampires, paranormal-romance, dark-crazy-romance, read-2015

$1.99 on September 28, 2017 US Amazon.

This is my second time reading this book. Although there was way too many side-plots and other POVs, I'm still going to keep my original rating.

I loved Z's back story, even though it was sad and horrible. I love the "Beauty and the Beast" aspect. Z is scarred, but he is so sexy and he adores Bella. It's sweet to see him struggle and overcome his issues with physical contact and gentleness. But he ends up being one of the best mates ever. I like Bella. She kn ...more

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Dec 26, 2015 warhawke rated it it was amazing

Shelves: romance-love, erotic, paranormal-sci-fi-fantasy

Genre: Urban Fantasy
Type: Book 3 of Black Dagger Brotherhood series
POV: Third Person
Rating:

Zsadist (Z) was a notoriously feared and despised warrior of The Black Dagger Brotherhood. Growing up as a blood slave, his past shaped his persona, repelling him from physical contact and affection.

Bella was born into aristocracy. Despite her bloodline, with beauty and poise, she was attracted to Z’s ruthless recklessness because she could see the goodness within. But breaking in was never as simple ...more

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Aug 21, 2015 Sophia Triad rated it it was amazing · review of another edition

Shelves: favorites, fangywarriorteams, vampires, 1paranormal-lovestories

Zhadist and Bella

“What is your name?" she murmured.
He cocked an eyebrow at her and then went back to staring at his brother. "I'm the evil one, in case you haven't figured it out."
"I wanted your name, not your calling."
"Being a bastard's more of a compulsion, really. And it's Zsadist. I am Zsadist.”
(From Lover Eternal)

This is how Bella and Zhadist were introduced and one thing that you have to learn about the BDB is that all the books are connected somehow. So, when you open Lover Awakened Zhadist and Bella

“What is your name?" she murmured.
He cocked an eyebrow at her and then went back to staring at his brother. "I'm the evil one, in case you haven't figured it out."
"I wanted your name, not your calling."
"Being a bastard's more of a compulsion, really. And it's Zsadist. I am Zsadist.”
(From Lover Eternal)

This is how Bella and Zhadist were introduced and one thing that you have to learn about the BDB is that all the books are connected somehow. So, when you open Lover Awakened, you will realize that the two main characters have already started their love fairytale in the previous book and in Lover Awakened, they will be finally together.

It will not be easy for them to be together, because Bella is missing. Someone has stolen Bella and Zhadist is going mad trying to discover where she is and if she is alive.

When Zhadist finally saves Bella, their relationship will have another major problem which is Zhadist himself. Although born a warrior, Zhadist had spent the majority of his previous life as a sex slave of a ruthless, sadistic mistress. It was the only thing that he knew until he was saved by his brother Phury. Now, he mainly uses females for feeding – not for loving.

On the other hand Bella has grown up as a pampered princess. She would most probably have been already married to a male of aristocracy, but she liked her loneliness.

The tortured scarred inside and outside male has nothing in common with astonishingly beautiful Bella. And this fact does not really matter. Because when Bella needs him the most during her “needing”, he will be there for her. And he will be more than willing.

Zhadist and Bella is one the favorite couples in Black Dagger Brotherhood. If I am not mistaken, I think it is Ward’s favorite couple as well. Their love story will not be an easy ride. It may have a happy ending in this book, but later on there will be doubts and fear and Zhadist’s self loathing which doesn’t go away easily.

Nevertheless, Zhadist and Bella have one of the strongest bonds in comparison to the other couples.

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Mar 30, 2013 Christy rated it it was amazing · review of another edition

5 STARS!!!!!

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And I thought it couldn’t get any better than Rhage’s book... I was wrong!
Z’s story was just beautiful. I loved it!

Reader beware... If you haven’t read the first two books, there may be some small spoilers.

“I'm not broken, I'm ruined. Do you understand the difference? With broken maybe you can fix things. Ruined? All you can do is wait to bury me.”

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(Just add the scar and this is my PERFECT Z)

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Zsadist is the broken warrior of the BDB. He had a different upbringing than the rest ...more

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Nov 22, 2013 Mo rated it it was amazing

I have enjoyed the first 2 books in this series but was highly anticipating this one. Z seemed like such a tortured hero in the previous books.

“I was dead until you found me, though I breathed. I was sightless, though I could see. And then you came...and I was awakened.”

It would take a strong woman to save Zsadist. But then again, I think the women I have met so far are strong – ya hear me, Irene?

“Z: "You know, this was a hell of a lot easier when you were out cold in the back of that truck."

I have enjoyed the first 2 books in this series but was highly anticipating this one. Z seemed like such a tortured hero in the previous books.

“I was dead until you found me, though I breathed. I was sightless, though I could see. And then you came...and I was awakened.”

It would take a strong woman to save Zsadist. But then again, I think the women I have met so far are strong – ya hear me, Irene?

“Z: "You know, this was a hell of a lot easier when you were out cold in the back of that truck."
Phury: "That was you?"
Z:"You think it was Santa Claus or some shit?”

Phury and Zsadist are twins but Z was taken when he was young from his family and kept in slavery in horrific conditions

“She is more beautiful than I have words for. And last night, I was blessed beyond measure to serve her.”

He wept then, wept from the generosity of her, from the kindness, from the feel of her gentle hand as it rubbed over his shoulder … the only touch he had welcomed in … forever.

Some parts of the story were so sad. You just felt so bad for him and what he had been through.

“You are in a prison with no bars. I worry about you.”

“Sometimes your whole life could hinge on a fraction of an inch. Or the beat of a nanosecond. Or the knock on a door.”

This one seemed a bit darker than the first two

“I… What are you saying, Zsadist?" she stammered, even though she'd heard every word.

He glanced back down at the pencil in his hand and then turned to the table. Flipping the spiral notebook to a new page, he bent way over and labored on top of the paper for quite a while. Then he ripped the sheet free.

His hand was shaking as he held it out. "It's messy."

Bella took the paper. In a child's uneven block letters there were three words: I LOVE YOU

Her lips flattened tight as her eyes stung. The handwriting got wavy and then disappeared.

"Maybe you can't read it," he said in a small voice. "I can do it over."

She shook her head. "I can read it just fine. It's… beautiful."

"I don't expect anything back. I mean… I know that you don't… feel that for me anymore. But I wanted you to know. It's important that you knew.”

I am really looking forward to the next book as I love Butch in the books. Not so sure about Marissa. Will have to wait and see. I might give them a break after the next but Karen warned me that I HAVE to read Number Five!!! Pressure, pressure.

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Apr 20, 2015 Lady Gabriella of Awesomeness (On Hiatus) rated it it was amazing · review of another edition

Shelves: points-for-originality, stalker-alert, abuse-victim, getting-hot-in-here, unhappy-childhood, not-so-secret-admirer-involved, paranormal-romance, flashbacks-to-the-past, self-esteem-issues, angst

OH FREAKIN VIRGIN ! P.S:It's a book reference...I swear I'm not being weird.. ;) I AM IN LOVE WITH THIS BOOK !! AND THAT TWIST IN THE END !!

(view spoiler) I FEEL SO STUPID FOR NOT SEEING THAT COMING...lol...XD

Even though it's true....

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I STILL think I need Atleast a 24 hour break to recover from reading all THREE books in a stretch.Lol...it sure was one heck of a ride !

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May 03, 2010 Ren Puspita rated it it was amazing · review of another edition

Shelves: vampire, reviewed, paranormal-romance, there-are-hot-men, 5-stars, my-nom-nom-boyfriend, good-translation-cover

Never do a review like this, but, this is my fans letter to Zsadist , hero of Lover Awakened :D (okay, Roarke, Raphael, Bones, Eidolon, and all my harem, I'll do love letter for you all. PROMISE!)

Once upon a night , a lonely time in a one single room at Jakarta, Indonesia...

Dear Zsadist,

My heart will always broke for you.
You such an arrogant ass!
Oh yes, but you have a reason because of that...
You hurt Bella's feeling!
Oh yes, but you can't help it even you love her...
You think you not deserve h ...more

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Nov 27, 2016 alyssa rated it it was amazing · review of another edition

Shelves: 2016-reads, 5-stars

Sorry for the late review :/ I was too overwhelmed with happiness when I finished XD

SPOILERS EVERYWHERE! READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!

If I could, I would give this one 1,ooo FUCKING stars!

"'I was dead until you found me, though I breathed. I was sightless, though I could see. And then you came... and I was awakened.'"

I. Am. Utterly. Speechless.

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Well, in a good way of course.

"And diamond were eternal, weren't they? They lasted forever. Just like his memories of her."

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Okay, let me talk about the en ...more

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Aug 06, 2013 Sandra rated it it was amazing · review of another edition

Shelves: awesome-characters, liked-the-characters-some-or-all, melting-inside-awwww, need-a-change-of-panties, new-adult, sad, omfg, beautifully-written, reviewed-books, adult

5 ZSADIST-IS-MINE-AND-MINE-ONLY STARS!

When i finally received Lover Awakened in my mail..

I almost fainted of excitement because as most of you know Zsadist is my favorite brother in the BDB.

Did his book reach my expectations?

Meet then my Zsadist and Bella...

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Zsadist.
He is the most terrifying and scarred member of the black dagger brotherhood.
Zsadist has a lot of demons from his past that just won't let go of him no matter what.
Renowned for his unquenchable fury and sinister deeds, he is a ...more

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May 03, 2013 • Lisa • rated it it was amazing · review of another edition

5 ZSADIST STARS.

If I was choose to drop the F BOMB in any review, this book would be IT ...

I loved this book, if I haven't quite made myself clear yet, then let me just tell you I have an unhealthy Fixation on all things BROTHERHOOD. This is (so far) my favourite book and brother of the series, and if possible I'm more addicted then ever.

Zsadist THE ultimate in the alpha kingdom of vampires ~ Broken, destroyed, scarred, damaged, dark, dangerous and I LOVED him.

Zsadist is my favourite of the brot ...more

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Apr 29, 2014 Amy | Foxy Blogs rated it it was amazing · review of another edition

Shelves: 2014-books, 5-stars-2014, may-2014, library2go, spring-2014-5-stars

Family portrait!
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Zsadist, Phury, Tohrment, Wrath, Rhage, Vishous, Butch

I admire all of you who read BDB when it was first released and had to wait a year between each book. I can only imagine the anticipation as you waited a year for the next book to be released. *thumbs up*

Even though this book is almost a decade old it has all the elements we as romance readers love:
♥ protective alpha male
♥ conflict
♥ sexy time
♥ imperfect characters (blind, mute, dark past, etc...)
♥ forbidden romance

The bonding ...more

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Feb 03, 2017 Kaila rated it it was amazing · review of another edition

Shelves: swoon-worthy-guy, angsty, 2017, favorites, pure-addiction, best-book-in-a-series, sad-sad-sad, vampires-and-shapeshifters, heart-warming-stories, i-want-him-all-to-myself

5/5 stars

“I was dead until you found me, though I breathed. I was sightless, though I could see. And then you came...and I was awakened.”

Oh. My. Gosh! I am completely speechless, spellbound and unable to think a single coherent thought. It was just so breathtakingly amazing!! It's as if every single great thing about the first two books was made 100 times greater and then put into this single book of pure perfection. This is without a doubt my favourite book of the year so far and definitely ...more

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Feb 07, 2013 Karlyflower *The Vampire Ninja, Luminescent Monster & Wendigo Nerd Goddess of Canada (according to The Hulk)* rated it really liked it · review of another edition

Shelves: all-for-love, the-man, dig-your-teeth-in

“If you could only see the way she loves me
Then maybe you would understand
Why I feel this way about our love
And what I must do
If you could only see how blue her eyes can be
When she says
When she says she loves me”
(Lyrics from “If you could only see” by Tonic)

Don’t be a tragedy, Bella

I am a woman who loves her contradictory characters. It is my love of such characters that is at the root of my adoration of Zsadist. He is the brother who is, if not the most feared, certainly the most shied away ...more

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Sep 11, 2017 K rated it it was amazing · review of another edition

Shelves: bad-ass-female, favorites-2017, romance, angsty, emotional, adult, fantasy, favorites

5 Stars!!!

OMG this book was the BEST book in the Black Dagger Brotherhood series yet!!
There was so much drama and angst and it hurt so much to put the book down and continue with life when I had to :(

So...into the details!
This book was about the brother Zsadist! It told the story of Zsadist and why he is so feared and standoffish compared to the other brothers. The book explained Zsadist's past by including flashbacks of when he was essentially kidnapped by this rich cougar "mistress" who feeds 5 Stars!!!

OMG this book was the BEST book in the Black Dagger Brotherhood series yet!!
There was so much drama and angst and it hurt so much to put the book down and continue with life when I had to :(

So...into the details!
This book was about the brother Zsadist! It told the story of Zsadist and why he is so feared and standoffish compared to the other brothers. The book explained Zsadist's past by including flashbacks of when he was essentially kidnapped by this rich cougar "mistress" who feeds off of a young male until he can't take her odd and perverted ways and they commit suicide. So unfortunately Zsadist was a blood slave for this terrible woman and she REALLY fucked him up...so much that he "lost his soul" and his eyes turned a lifeless black.

Also, the book gives us some details about Phury and his relationship with Zsadist. Phury's love for his brother is soooo inspiring but heart wrenching! Phury will do anything for Zsadist, even sacrifice his own life for him. Like COME ON THAT MOVIE THEATER SCENE???

So...like the previous books, there was a shellan! Bella who was Mary's friend from the second book in the series, is absolutely captivated by Zsadist and falls in love with him almost instantly. She knows he is dangerous and arrogant and pretty much an asshole but she thinks he has more to him than what he leads on. Their journey was such a slow burn romance and it kept me captivated the whole time! But to be honest...the ending of the book was such a surprise!!! That reunion...sooo cute omg.

This book left me with a couple questions that I will probably find the answers to in later books but right now I'm just soooo confused on a few things...
Okay first, WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO BUTCH WHEN HE DRANK V'S BLOOD?
WHY THE FUCK WAS V LOSING HIS VISIONS??
REHVENGE IS THE REVEREND??? WHY??

And lastly... during one moment in the book I was like FUCK YEA and that was when Butch denied Marissa after she shut him down so many times. Like you go Butch...don't let her play you like that!

Overall, this was an amazing read!! I will definitely be continuing this series and I believe the 4th book is about Butch and Marissa...which shall be interesting! ...more

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Dec 14, 2008 Shawna rated it it was amazing · review of another edition

Shelves: pnr-vampires, made-me-cry, hero-antihero-gamma, erotic-romance-erotica-romantica, i-read-own-faves-keepers, heroine-abused-traumatic-past-rape, hh-warrior, hero-silent-quiet-type-reticent, hero-piercings-in-yummy-places, hero-celibate-virgin-virginesque

5++ stars - Vampire Romance

Lover Awakened is my top favorite in the BDB series. Zsadist is my most beloved brother/warrior and Bella is a darling BDB heroine. The love story between Zsadist and Bella is touching and heart-wrenching. Zsadist is a tortured soul worthy of redemption, and Bella's fight for him and for their love is ultimately what saves them both. I LOVE this book! I'd give it much higher than a 5 star rating if I could! I wish J.R. Ward would give us more of Zsadist and Bella's sto ...more

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Jan 26, 2016 Dino-Jess ✮ The Book Eating Dinosaur ✮ rated it it was ok · review of another edition

Recommended to Dino-Jess ✮ The Book Eating Dinosaur ✮ by: Karly *The Vampire Ninja & Luminescent Monster*

Shelves: y-do-i-do-dis

If I hear someone say "what's doing?" in real life, I'm pretty sure I will punch them in the face.

I'm upset.

I'm back to being on the fence with this series, again.

The problems I had with this were the same as I had with the first book - the lazy writing style! You get a point of view chapter, your second cousin twice removed gets a point of view chapter, EVERYBODY GETS A POINT OF VIEW CHAPTER.

There was goodness in here, I had a severe case of the feels with all the Z backstory and the shit h ...more

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Feb 15, 2008 Daisiemae rated it it was amazing · review of another edition

Recommends it for: Everyone needs to read these books

Recommended to Daisiemae by: All of my friends here. They have such great taste!

Shelves: vampire-paranormal, books-read-in-2008, books-to-i-will-never-part-with

Amazing. Do these books keep getting better? I was warned by Mom that I would need some tissues with this one. She was right.
I can't say that Zsadist is my favorite brother. I love his tormented soul. He past to finding his way back from the darkness in his soul to the light was a emotional rollercoaster for me. The amount of abuse he endured was heartbreaking. I definately thought that he had found his "shellan" with Bella, they are so well matched.
Bella is another heroine I actually liked. F ...more

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J.R. Ward is the #1 New York Times bestselling author of numerous novels, including the Black Dagger Brotherhood series. She lives in the South her family.