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Balls to the Wall

(Birch Police Department #1)

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Parker
I can’t escape the past no matter how fast or how far I run.
I’m broken and damaged, and nothing will change that.
Not after my husband died overseas and I was left alone.
All I can do is keep moving forward.
But what I don’t expect is one cop in particular to get under my skin.
Making me want something more.
He hates me.
Everywhere I turn, he’s there, watching me.
Waiting f
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Paperback, 358 pages
Published February 16th 2021 by Independently published
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Kylee
Feb 15, 2021 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
This book had me from the very first chapter, it broke me and shattered my heart to pieces. The tears fell so hard and so fast at times I wasn't able to see the words on the page. My heart ached for what they had lost, for the lies they had told and the secrets they held. This was a story that took me on an emotional roller coaster ride that touched my heart and soul in a way that it will remain with me long after the book has been placed back on the shelf. Remy and Parker had a chemistry and a ...more
Jos
Feb 21, 2021 rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
2.5-3 Stars Ehhhhhh disappointing

OK, so I was really really looking forward to this story after reading the synopsis but sadly I can't help but feel let down. It definitely didn't live up to "my" expectations for sure:(

The writing itself was good...the storyline itself is where it just didn't come together....It was for lack of a better word...weak, weird, I just didn't care for their storyline (back story especially with Danny....so damn "odd")...I loved Remy..Parker, ehhhh, I just couldn't "wa
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Lenna  Wright-Berry
Just a warning in the 1st chapter in, you better have some tissues handy especially if you’re an animal lover, like my self, a young child and his mama loses their best friend a Newfie named Boo. A puppy that was given to Parker by her late husband. Now I’m off to read more.

Very touching story that will make you laugh, cry and rage at the characters.
The Smutbrarians
Feb 08, 2021 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Feels 0
Steam 1
Storyline 3.5
Overall Rating 3.5
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Reviewed by Ladyballs

I'm not sure where this title fits into the story but this book had me scratching my head. The plot is based on a drunken night that led to a tangled web of misunderstandings, built up resentment and misguided anger.

Remy and Parker are friends but have always wanted more. When Remy knows he is going to boot camp with his best friends, he pushes Parker away saying some horrible things. Parker gets dru
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Liz
Feb 15, 2021 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
April Canavan is a new to me author, but when I read the blurb for Balls to the Wall I knew I wanted to read it. It was full of angst and push and pull between the two main characters that drew me right in. Remy and Parker had a connection, but Remy pushed her away and hurt her. Now Parker is a widow and he promised to watch out for her, but how does he deny the pull he still feels for her?

There is so much history between Remy and Parker and not all of it good. There are secrets, regret and mis
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Brandy Rice
Feb 19, 2021 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: 2021, arc
Go grab your box of tissues and get ready for an emotional ride that starts from the very first chapter. Remy and Parker have a long history where they started off as friends and after one horrible night they became enemies. There is a lot of push and pull in this book as secrets are finally revealed and Parker and Remy work to repair their relationship. Remy's reason for pushing Parker away didn't really make sense, she should have made him grovel a little bit more. There character were all fan ...more
Dayzee
Feb 14, 2021 rated it it was amazing
Grab some tissues! You will need them! It was an emotional roller coaster! This is a “second chance love story” but Its complicated!!! 💔 Remy and Parker were like besties growing up, wanted to be a couple but one night change everything. Regrets, miss-understandings, and the “what ifs” are huge deal here! Its a mystery reading it because the author gives you bits and pieces of that faithful night and flashbacks and your dying to know the full story! Grieve is a bitch and guilt is even worse some ...more
Charlotte Isaac
Feb 16, 2021 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: read-books
Wow. This book has so much going on. It's one of those you can't put down.

Everyone thinks they know the truth and feel for one not the other. But Parker and Remy finally get the truth.

I can't wait for more.
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Books, Coffee & Passion
Books, Coffee & Passion

Balls to the Wall is a very emotional friends to enemies to lovers romance. In my opinion, this book felt a lot like a second chance romance except it wasn’t really one because Remy and Parker never really dated each other. But there were a lot of past (and present) feelings between them.
I was a bit confused at first when I started reading because I couldn’t quite figure out what could’ve possibly happen between Remy and Parker. Honestly, it took me a while to really gras
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Karen
Feb 16, 2021 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Parker Hayes is raising her son on her own since she lost her husband in the war. Life hasn’t been easy since they married, and she lost him. Growing up in the small Maine town has been a curse on her since everyone knows everyone’s business and everyone in the small town believes that she broke Remy’s heart by cheating on him. Too bad the only people who know what really happened that night six years ago aren’t talking. Parker doesn’t want to tarnish Danny’s reputation. His family knows most of ...more
Marnie
Feb 15, 2021 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Secrets and Lies, Honour and Passion – it’s all here!

This is my first taste of Author April Canavan’s writing, and although I knew from the blurb it was going to be an angsty kind of book, she had me crying into my drink from the first chapter. Her words were emotive, poignant, and nothing short of heart-breaking. How much loss could a mother and her 5-year-old son live through?

Balls to the Wall is the first book in Ms Canavan’s new small town police romance series, Birch Police Department, and
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Jessica
Feb 16, 2021 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Balls to the Wall is the first book in the Birch Police Department series, but make sure you bring some tissues. Parker and Remy have a convoluted past with a lot of love and hatred and secrets on both sides. But when Parker is threatened, will they fight together for so much more than just safety, or will Parker‘s worst nightmares come true?

Listen. I didn’t expect to read this book in one sitting. I didn’t expect to feel my heart shatter and then fuse back together while reading this book. And
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Trish
Feb 09, 2021 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
This is the first book in the new Birch Police Department series. It's fire stars, two thumbs up kinda wonderful for me. I definitely have a new author to add to my favs list! There is a prequel novella Whiskey Tango that introduces some of the people in this strong and gives a little background on them and takes place well before the start of this book. It is not necessary to read it first to enjoy this book. This is a second chance romance with a little suspense thrown in. Remy and Parker are ...more
Silvia
Feb 15, 2021 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
After reading Bent, I couldn’t wait to find out the story between Remy and Parker!

Parker and Remy have so much history together. But feelings changed, someone got rejected, and the course of both of their lives were forever altered. Both of them regret some of their words and actions.

I was completely engrossed from the very beginning! It took a little bit for most of the story of what really happened to be revealed. And there were a few shocks that I definitely wasn’t expecting. I loved how st
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Jennifer Pierson
Balls to the Wall was a very angst filled story with a lot of it caused by miscommunication like crazy. Parker was truly a great person who was best friends with Remy, but when she let him know that she wanted more, things took a turn that broke her heart. She ends up marrying someone else & has a kid with him, but he didn't come home from deployment because of dying in combat. Now she's on her own with her son, and the only reason she hasn't left town where everyone treated her very badly is be ...more
Charmaine Nouwen
Balls to the Wall by April Canavan is an emotional,entertaining,intriguing and steamy filled with drama and a bit of suspense.. a second chance romance story of Remy and Parker..Remy,a tatoed ex marine and a state police..Parker,single mom,and being a pariah in her small town.;Remy and Parker is childhood friends and both inlove with each other when Remy and the rest of their friend enlist and go to a boot camp and Parker told Remy ho she feel about him but young Remy is stupid he thinks hes doi ...more
Brenda M.
Feb 13, 2021 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
April Canavan reaches down your throat and grabs you by the heart from the get go with Balls to the Wall.

Parker and Remy have a tempestuous past, and neither one of them can bring themselves to straighten out the hurt and misunderstandings between them.
When Parker has to make an emergency trip to the Vet, the last thing she expected to happen, was to come across the man that despite having broke her heart several years before, still holds it in his hands.
Past hurts, misunderstandings, secrets,
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Sarah
Parker & Remy and her son Nox have a history. Nox's dad is Danny who sadly dead in action had some words of wisdom for them. I love the second chance romance and the suspense! Danny Spirit has been visiting both characters and I loved ot cause it give more depth to the story. Especially the secret she been keeping for Danny and he told her you must go and tell Remy you love him. Danny been telling Remy to go for Parker. He said that to them when he was a live and in death.

This is a second chanc
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Brandi
Feb 09, 2021 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Get the tissues ready. I am not a crier but this book got me from the very first chapter.
Living in a small town, everyone knows your business or they always assume to.
Parker has been living with this for 6 years and almost everyone has treated her poorly from what they think they know. And the worst of them all is Remy. And when you live in a small town you also see the same people over and over, even if you don't want to. She tries to avoid Remy but what she doesn't know is that he is always t
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Cheri
Feb 11, 2021 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Parker & Remy

All I can say is...there is much more to the story! The town, friends, family none of them know the whole story. Parker is the only one who knows what led to the events that put them where they are. She has an adorable son that everyone loves. He never saw his dad but honors him and speaks to him every night. She is strong and will be the best mom ever. And she is.

Things had gotten a little easier until Remy came back home. He seems to hate her and they are no longer the best friend
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Vivian Chrisman
Feb 16, 2021 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
This is a new author to me. When I read the blurb, I was interested and since it was the first in a new series I decided to give it a try. I will admit that I felt at times I was missing information. I need to look at reading Ms. Canavan's other series based in the same small town. Maybe the missing info is there. As for the story-line, it was well written and highlighted the problems of living in a small town. Everybody knows everybody and everybody thinks they know the truth. This can make lif ...more
Christine


3.5 stars

So Im not sure where this title fits into the story but that is just the first of many times this book had me scratching my head.

This book is built on a drunken night that led to a tangled web of misunderstandings, built up resentment and misguided anger.

Remy and Parker are friends and have been forever, but always wanted more....when Remy knows he is going to boot camp with his best friends, he pushes Parker away saying some horrible things. Parker gets drunk - to the point she doesnt
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Sharon Grow
Feb 13, 2021 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
WOW! What a ride! Non-stop emotion, action and suspense from beginning to end. Parker Hayes has been in love with Jeremy “Remy” Townsend for years. When he left for the military, she poured her heart out to him in letters, but never received a response. When her son Nox was the result of one lonely night with their friend Danny, he became her whole world, especially after Danny was killed overseas. Remy is now a K9 Officer with the Birch Police Department and he loves Nox as if he were his own s ...more
Maggi West
Feb 20, 2021 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
This book had me after the 1st two pages, I had tears in my eyes and it just got better and better all the way to the end Remy and Parker were best friends forever and when he and some of their others close friends graduated from the marine corp, she wanted to be more than friends, she wanted him for herself. But Remy couldn’t or wouldn’t face his true feelings because he was afraid to lose her friendship. That night he rejected her and broke her heart to pieces changed their lives in the worst ...more
AND 1515
Jan 31, 2021 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
There's always a new day to get it right....
by and1515

Some days are better then others but today wasn't one of them and it just kept getting harder with every passing moment.
There wasn't much he could do but he'd make sure in the morning she'd have a shoulder to cry on.
Parker had never thought she'd wake one morning to find her son's bed empty.
Remy didn't need to be asked twice he and his four legged tracking friend would find him in two shakes and a woof.
Yeah this was another one of those days
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Emma (emjbookshelf)
Feb 15, 2021 rated it it was amazing
Balls to the Wall is the first book in the new Birch Police Department series and if all of the books are going to be like this then I want to read them all.

From the first chapter I was blinking tears away. This is a second chance romance between Remy & Parker who grew up as best friends till something destroyed their relationship and it tugged at my emotions all through the book.

Parker is a widow after her husband died whilst being deployed and Remy was her first love and her deceased husband'
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Kari Hansen
Feb 15, 2021 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
All it would take is one night to change the course of Remy and Parker’s life. He left for the Marines while she stayed in their hometown, married another man and gave birth to her son Nox. That is only part of the story as her son’s father was also one of Parker’s friends who passed away while they were serving their country.

Six years later Parker has returned to his hometown determined to honor his final promise to his friend and teammate. He and Parker have never dealt with their past so he i
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Lucid Quill
Feb 16, 2021 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Absolutely stunning. I'm speechless. Straight away I knew this was going to be an emotional read and I was worried for my cold black heart. I'm sitting here just blinking and clapping and giggling and trying to breathe like a normal human. I've been totally rocked by this book.

Remy was just so, God my heart, he's perfect. I adore him. I'm his, I think. He had me captivated with his willingness to right the past. He refused to back down once he got Parker in his sights and he was ready to catch h
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Lisa
Feb 16, 2021 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
This book really got to me. I won't lie and say I didn't cry because I did. I also had to really think about the characters and how they intertwine from another story. Paker and Remy have a past one that will get you straight to the heart. When Remy and his friends Danny and Linc join the military, Remy does something he never thought he would and that destroys any hope he and Parker have for a future. Danny and Parker have a past and one that came with a baby. Now that almost everyone is home t ...more
Nedra
Feb 10, 2021 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
There is so much turmoil mixed with hidden emotions within this story. The lies and deception, along with the intimacy and desire for one another, is passionately displayed from these characters.

Parker is the widow of a deployed soldier, with his only son. She is also strong, courageous, and determined to raise her child in a town that hates her because of her past. But, the town doesn’t know the circumstances nor her secret.

Remy is a Birch officer, raised in the same town as Parker. He’s been
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