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Balls to the Wall

(Birch County Heroes #1)

4.30  ·  Rating details ·  347 ratings  ·  147 reviews
I can’t escape the past.
I’m broken and damaged.
All I can do is keep moving forward.
What I don’t expect is one cop in particular to get under my skin.
Making me want something more.
He hates me.
Everywhere I turn, he’s there, watching me.
Waiting for me to screw up.
I’m not going to give up, though.
Not when I finally found something that makes me happy.
I know how sho
Kindle Edition, 1st Edition, 244 pages
Published February 16th 2021 by Amazon Digital Services
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Feb 21, 2021 rated it liked it
2.5-3 Stars Ehhhhhh disappointing

OK, so I was really really looking forward to this story after reading the synopsis but sadly I can't help but feel let down. It definitely didn't live up to "my" expectations for sure:(

The writing itself was good...the storyline itself is where it just didn't come together....It was for lack of a better word...weak, weird, I just didn't care for their storyline (back story especially with damn "odd")...I loved Remy..Parker, ehhhh, I just couldn't "wa
Feb 15, 2021 rated it it was amazing
This book had me from the very first chapter, it broke me and shattered my heart to pieces. The tears fell so hard and so fast at times I wasn't able to see the words on the page. My heart ached for what they had lost, for the lies they had told and the secrets they held. This was a story that took me on an emotional roller coaster ride that touched my heart and soul in a way that it will remain with me long after the book has been placed back on the shelf. Remy and Parker had a chemistry and a ...more
Mar 11, 2021 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: arc-tbr
I have no words to adequately describe the beautifully emotional journey this was
One of the best romances I have read this year

The relationship between Parker and Remy wasn't the back and forth should I shouldn't I game -
They knew they were destined for each other they just needed to empty their closets of all those pesky skeletons that stood between them once and for all.
Sometimes the hardest thing we will ever have to do is face our own lies

I really enjoyed how even when they came to th
Lenna  Wright-Berry
Feb 07, 2021 rated it it was amazing
Just a warning in the 1st chapter in, you better have some tissues handy especially if you’re an animal lover, like my self, a young child and his mama loses their best friend a Newfie named Boo. A puppy that was given to Parker by her late husband. Now I’m off to read more.

Very touching story that will make you laugh, cry and rage at the characters.
The Smutbrarians
Feb 08, 2021 rated it really liked it
Feels 0
Steam 1
Storyline 3.5
Overall Rating 3.5
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Reviewed by Ladyballs

I'm not sure where this title fits into the story but this book had me scratching my head. The plot is based on a drunken night that led to a tangled web of misunderstandings, built up resentment and misguided anger.

Remy and Parker are friends but have always wanted more. When Remy knows he is going to boot camp with his best friends, he pushes Parker away saying some horrible things. Parker gets dru
Mar 21, 2021 rated it it was amazing
This book had me glued from the beginning, and then kept me cause there was so much going on. Remy is former military, and now works as a hometown cop. Parker is the girl who Remy has known since they were practically babies and used to be best friends. There are feelings between Remy and Parker, but there is also hurt and a marriage to one of Remy's best friends who Parker also has an amazing son with that his daddy never got to meet cause he too was military, and never came home and Parker has ...more
Feb 15, 2021 rated it really liked it
April Canavan is a new to me author, but when I read the blurb for Balls to the Wall I knew I wanted to read it. It was full of angst and push and pull between the two main characters that drew me right in. Remy and Parker had a connection, but Remy pushed her away and hurt her. Now Parker is a widow and he promised to watch out for her, but how does he deny the pull he still feels for her?

There is so much history between Remy and Parker and not all of it good. There are secrets, regret and mis
Brandy Rice
Feb 19, 2021 rated it really liked it
Shelves: arc, 2021
Go grab your box of tissues and get ready for an emotional ride that starts from the very first chapter. Remy and Parker have a long history where they started off as friends and after one horrible night they became enemies. There is a lot of push and pull in this book as secrets are finally revealed and Parker and Remy work to repair their relationship. Remy's reason for pushing Parker away didn't really make sense, she should have made him grovel a little bit more. There character were all fan ...more
Feb 14, 2021 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Grab some tissues! You will need them! It was an emotional roller coaster! This is a “second chance love story” but Its complicated!!! 💔 Remy and Parker were like besties growing up, wanted to be a couple but one night change everything. Regrets, miss-understandings, and the “what ifs” are huge deal here! Its a mystery reading it because the author gives you bits and pieces of that faithful night and flashbacks and your dying to know the full story! Grieve is a bitch and guilt is even worse some ...more
Larissa Rye
Mar 06, 2021 rated it really liked it
I really really liked this book! What a great start to a new series. One that I’m already looking forward to the next book.

Remy & Parker hurt each other so much throughout the years, one more than the other in my opinion. My heart hurt for Parker & everything she went through. No one deserves to have that much heartache, death & hate thrown at them. She was an incredibly strong woman to have stayed in that small town in order to give her son an amazing life surrounded by family.

Remy was an idi
Charlotte Isaac
Feb 16, 2021 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: read-books
Wow. This book has so much going on. It's one of those you can't put down.

Everyone thinks they know the truth and feel for one not the other. But Parker and Remy finally get the truth.

I can't wait for more.
Mar 10, 2021 rated it really liked it
First it has the suspense, the angst, tragedy, and the single mother, making it an interesting read. Amazing way to blend and create the characters and at the same time letting us know them pretty deeply. Is an quick enjoyable read that could be devour in hours and definitely a worthy read.
Mar 10, 2021 rated it it was amazing
This book was phenomenal! The emotions I felt while reading this was very real. I was invested from the first to the last page. Cant wait for book 2 w.Linc and Kennedy.
Mar 23, 2021 rated it it was amazing
This book is my first one by April and I am totally blown away!!
This story had me from the very beginning and I couldn't put it down!! This is such an amazing story with some angst, suspense, second chance and a single parent.
It has it all... And it will leave you with ALL THE FEELS!!

Remy and Parker are an amazing couple and I loved their story. Their connection and love is one you want for yourself. The way he loves her through all that they went through is the rare kind of love we all want!
Books, Coffee & Passion
Books, Coffee & Passion

Balls to the Wall is a very emotional friends to enemies to lovers romance. In my opinion, this book felt a lot like a second chance romance except it wasn’t really one because Remy and Parker never really dated each other. But there were a lot of past (and present) feelings between them.
I was a bit confused at first when I started reading because I couldn’t quite figure out what could’ve possibly happen between Remy and Parker. Honestly, it took me a while to really gras
Feb 08, 2021 rated it liked it

3.5 stars

So Im not sure where this title fits into the story but that is just the first of many times this book had me scratching my head.

This book is built on a drunken night that led to a tangled web of misunderstandings, built up resentment and misguided anger.

Remy and Parker are friends and have been forever, but always wanted more....when Remy knows he is going to boot camp with his best friends, he pushes Parker away saying some horrible things. Parker gets drunk - to the point she doesnt
Feb 16, 2021 rated it it was amazing
Parker Hayes is raising her son on her own since she lost her husband in the war. Life hasn’t been easy since they married, and she lost him. Growing up in the small Maine town has been a curse on her since everyone knows everyone’s business and everyone in the small town believes that she broke Remy’s heart by cheating on him. Too bad the only people who know what really happened that night six years ago aren’t talking. Parker doesn’t want to tarnish Danny’s reputation. His family knows most of ...more
Feb 15, 2021 rated it it was amazing
Secrets and Lies, Honour and Passion – it’s all here!

This is my first taste of Author April Canavan’s writing, and although I knew from the blurb it was going to be an angsty kind of book, she had me crying into my drink from the first chapter. Her words were emotive, poignant, and nothing short of heart-breaking. How much loss could a mother and her 5-year-old son live through?

Balls to the Wall is the first book in Ms Canavan’s new small town police romance series, Birch Police Department, and
Feb 16, 2021 rated it it was amazing
Balls to the Wall is the first book in the Birch Police Department series, but make sure you bring some tissues. Parker and Remy have a convoluted past with a lot of love and hatred and secrets on both sides. But when Parker is threatened, will they fight together for so much more than just safety, or will Parker‘s worst nightmares come true?

Listen. I didn’t expect to read this book in one sitting. I didn’t expect to feel my heart shatter and then fuse back together while reading this book. And
Feb 09, 2021 rated it it was amazing
This is the first book in the new Birch Police Department series. It's fire stars, two thumbs up kinda wonderful for me. I definitely have a new author to add to my favs list! There is a prequel novella Whiskey Tango that introduces some of the people in this strong and gives a little background on them and takes place well before the start of this book. It is not necessary to read it first to enjoy this book. This is a second chance romance with a little suspense thrown in. Remy and Parker are ...more
Feb 15, 2021 rated it it was amazing
After reading Bent, I couldn’t wait to find out the story between Remy and Parker!

Parker and Remy have so much history together. But feelings changed, someone got rejected, and the course of both of their lives were forever altered. Both of them regret some of their words and actions.

I was completely engrossed from the very beginning! It took a little bit for most of the story of what really happened to be revealed. And there were a few shocks that I definitely wasn’t expecting. I loved how st
Jennifer Pierson
Feb 16, 2021 rated it it was amazing
Balls to the Wall was a very angst filled story with a lot of it caused by miscommunication like crazy. Parker was truly a great person who was best friends with Remy, but when she let him know that she wanted more, things took a turn that broke her heart. She ends up marrying someone else & has a kid with him, but he didn't come home from deployment because of dying in combat. Now she's on her own with her son, and the only reason she hasn't left town where everyone treated her very badly is be ...more
Charmaine Nouwen
Feb 18, 2021 rated it it was amazing
Balls to the Wall by April Canavan is an emotional,entertaining,intriguing and steamy filled with drama and a bit of suspense.. a second chance romance story of Remy and Parker..Remy,a tatoed ex marine and a state police..Parker,single mom,and being a pariah in her small town.;Remy and Parker is childhood friends and both inlove with each other when Remy and the rest of their friend enlist and go to a boot camp and Parker told Remy ho she feel about him but young Remy is stupid he thinks hes doi ...more
Brenda M.
Feb 13, 2021 rated it it was amazing
April Canavan reaches down your throat and grabs you by the heart from the get go with Balls to the Wall.

Parker and Remy have a tempestuous past, and neither one of them can bring themselves to straighten out the hurt and misunderstandings between them.
When Parker has to make an emergency trip to the Vet, the last thing she expected to happen, was to come across the man that despite having broke her heart several years before, still holds it in his hands.
Past hurts, misunderstandings, secrets,
Parker & Remy and her son Nox have a history. Nox's dad is Danny who sadly dead in action had some words of wisdom for them. I love the second chance romance and the suspense! Danny Spirit has been visiting both characters and I loved ot cause it give more depth to the story. Especially the secret she been keeping for Danny and he told her you must go and tell Remy you love him. Danny been telling Remy to go for Parker. He said that to them when he was a live and in death.

This is a second chanc
Feb 09, 2021 rated it really liked it
Get the tissues ready. I am not a crier but this book got me from the very first chapter.
Living in a small town, everyone knows your business or they always assume to.
Parker has been living with this for 6 years and almost everyone has treated her poorly from what they think they know. And the worst of them all is Remy. And when you live in a small town you also see the same people over and over, even if you don't want to. She tries to avoid Remy but what she doesn't know is that he is always t
Feb 11, 2021 rated it it was amazing
Parker & Remy

All I can say is...there is much more to the story! The town, friends, family none of them know the whole story. Parker is the only one who knows what led to the events that put them where they are. She has an adorable son that everyone loves. He never saw his dad but honors him and speaks to him every night. She is strong and will be the best mom ever. And she is.

Things had gotten a little easier until Remy came back home. He seems to hate her and they are no longer the best friend
Vivian Chrisman
Feb 16, 2021 rated it really liked it
This is a new author to me. When I read the blurb, I was interested and since it was the first in a new series I decided to give it a try. I will admit that I felt at times I was missing information. I need to look at reading Ms. Canavan's other series based in the same small town. Maybe the missing info is there. As for the story-line, it was well written and highlighted the problems of living in a small town. Everybody knows everybody and everybody thinks they know the truth. This can make lif ...more
Sharon Grow
Feb 13, 2021 rated it it was amazing
WOW! What a ride! Non-stop emotion, action and suspense from beginning to end. Parker Hayes has been in love with Jeremy “Remy” Townsend for years. When he left for the military, she poured her heart out to him in letters, but never received a response. When her son Nox was the result of one lonely night with their friend Danny, he became her whole world, especially after Danny was killed overseas. Remy is now a K9 Officer with the Birch Police Department and he loves Nox as if he were his own s ...more
Feb 20, 2021 rated it it was amazing
This book had me after the 1st two pages, I had tears in my eyes and it just got better and better all the way to the end Remy and Parker were best friends forever and when he and some of their others close friends graduated from the marine corp, she wanted to be more than friends, she wanted him for herself. But Remy couldn’t or wouldn’t face his true feelings because he was afraid to lose her friendship. That night he rejected her and broke her heart to pieces changed their lives in the worst ...more
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