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621 pages, Kindle Edition
First published July 23, 2020
↳ Will Grayson (H) has always been obsessed/in love with Emory Scott (h) in high school, though, he would always chase after her and she would always reject him. Once she finally gave him a chance, well, he fucked up which then resulted in him and his friends going to prison.
9 years later, they meet again at Blackchurch - this bougee prison where "troubled" rich kids are placed. why would Emory be there when she's not at all rich? well, it's all a mystery.
“Don’t you know that you can have anything you want?” His eyes searched mine. “I’ll hurt anyone for you.”
“But you’re going to be fucking mine someday,” he growled. “Come hell or high water, Emory Scott. You’re my woman, and you’re going to come home to me every day and sit at my table and warm my fucking bed.” He kissed me. “And you’re going to give me a Will Grayson IV. Mark my words.”
I had no clue what I wanted or who I wanted to be. I just wanted my people, and I wanted the girl of my dreams.
“Don’t you know that you can have anything you want?” His eyes searched mine. “I’ll hurt anyone for you.”
The weight on my chest was too heavy, it almost hurt to breathe.
“Who is it?” he asked. “Who do I have to hurt?”
“But you’re going to be fucking mine someday,” he growled. “Come hell or high water, Emory Scott. You’re my woman, and you’re going to come home to me every day and sit at my table and warm my fucking bed.” He kissed me. “And you’re going to give me a Will Grayson IV. Mark my words.”
“You either have my back,” Michael said.
“You’re at my side,” Kai continued.
“Or you’re in my way,” the rest of us finished.
“Be Lilith,” the girls said.
Athos pulled the Red Death over her eyes, all of us setting off as she whispered. “Never Eve.”
“don’t you know that you can have anything you want?” his eyes searched mine. “i’ll hurt anyone for you.”
“come here,” he said again.
i absently shook my head. “why?”
“because i’m your man.”
🎬 taking her to the cinema because it’s her happy/safe place and showing her unreleased action movies for her to escape into when she was feeling down
“she stared at the floor and then retreated a step, but i grabbed her face, bringing her in close and rubbing my thumbs underneath her eyes. i wiped away the tears, but more just streamed down. and in that moment, i wanted to do nothing else with my life more than change her world, so she’d never feel like this again. goddammit.”
🎬 holding her hand on the bus and covering it with his hoodie so no one else sees becuase he knows she would be uncomfortable with that IM NOT OKAY FUCK OFF. this whole scene had me crying while my heart being healed over by every small thing will does for emory ☹️
“will rubbed his thumb across my finger, and my stomach flipped, the gesture comforting.”
🎬 making everyone leave the pool and just holding her IM SOBBING.
“but instead of a kiss, he just pulled me into his arms, pressed my head to his shoulder, and wrapped his arms around me so tight, it felt like he was the one about to break, not me.”
🎬 will doing her fucking homework for her 💓
🎬 ”come hell or high water, emory scott. you’re my woman, and you’re going to come home to me every day and sit at my table and warm my fucking bed.” he kissed me. “and you’re going to give me a will grayson iv. mark my words.”
i don’t even need to say anything. will speaks for himself.
🎬 will just being a fucking simp for emory and being in love with her and relentlessly chasing her. WHEN IS IT MY TURN.
”i just wanted her to smile.”
and being the sweetest person ever
“morning! smile. or don’t. it’s completely your choice. don’t let a guy tell you you’re prettier when you do. you don’t need to be pretty for anyone. your value does not rely on my opinion. damn the patriarchy.”
UNMATCHED morning text i love him sm.
“i’m sorry,” i blurted out, gripping his t-shirt at his waist and dipping my forehead into his back. “i’m not…” my voice shook. “i’m just…not a happy person, will. and you’re right, i never will be.”
”she breathed fast and shallow, seething like she wanted to end me with her teeth. holy shit. i groaned. god, straddle me, please.”
”in my brain, i reached for you. i never stopped reaching for you.”
📚 damon to emory at the sleepover:
”his head was propped on his hand, his eyes sharp as he brought up his fingers and dragged his thumb across his throat, not blinking once as he started at me.”
LITERALLY LAUGHING I LOVE HIM.
📚 damon and emory hiding a body together
📚 the scene with them in the shower after burying the body <3<3<3 and him asking emory to look after banks if anything happened to him i’m 😭😭
📚 damon (in the present) building emory a new gazebo after will smashed her old one AND THEN APOLOGISING BECAUSE HE DIDNT STOP WILL???? he’s grown so much i adore this man.
📚 emory (in the present) saying, ”damon was right. you are smaller than him.” to will. LMFAOOOO i choose to believe this notion because damon definitely has the bigger dick idc.
📚 ”abuse can feel like love because starving people will eat anything.” damon will always be my number one bye.
📚 btw i will never not ship will and damon
”you wanna fuck me too?” i said in a low voice, a soft smile tilting the corner of my mouth.
he grinned, still not looking at me.
but surprisingly, he replied, “sometimes.”
”and then damon took winter’s hand. “you look so beautiful, it fucking hurts.” he said.”
what we’ve learnt here is that high school willemmy are superior, kill switch is the best book in the series and winterdamon are a god tier couple. thank you.
’”And I’m your man now……….And im asking you for tonight.”
“God, I wanna knock you up……….I want to ruin you for all the times you made me think you didn’t want me. I want to give you a piece of me you’ll never be able to escape.”
“Come hell or high water, Emory Scott. You’re my woman, and you’re going to come home to me every day and shit at my table and warm my fucking bed……….And you’re going to give me a Will Grayson IV. Mark my words.”
“But before I could escape from his lap, he grabbed my chin in one hand and wrapped his other arm around my waist, pulling me in. Against his body, and whispering so softly no one could hear him but me.
“Don’t you know that you can have anything you want?” His eyes searched mine. “I’ll hurt anyone for you.”
The weight on my chest was too heavy, it almost hurt to breathe.
“Who is it?” he asked. “Who do I have to hurt?”
“He pulled me in, and I opened my mouth to protest, but instead of a kiss, he just pulled me into his arms, pressed my head to his shoulder, and wrapped his arms around me so tight, it felt like he was the one about to break, not me."
“Alex was always easy to disappear into. I didn’t have to talk or put up a front. I didn’t have to seduce her or pretend.
She was my port in the storm and I was hers.
I watched her form move as she washed her legs and arms. Her hand drifted up the back of her neck, the water from the cloth dripping back into the tub.
She was the only person I’d ever felt completely safe with. The only person I never feared disappointing because the only thing she expected of me was to be there.
Why couldn’t I love her? She got along with my friends. She made me laugh, and her presence was always a comfort. Always.
She fit in my life.
Watching her, I balled my fists, almost convinced I should do it. I should go and lift her into my arms and take her to bed and sink inside of her and…”
“Years of nights,” I said, and I wasn’t sure if I was saying it more for her or me anymore, but I kept going. “Years of not thinking of you. Nearly an entire life of memories and history that doesn’t include you. You were nothing.”my mind simply couldn't handle this, i had to stop reading for a bit. i was raging.
She stared at me, no longer responding.
“She took care of me.” My voice dropped to nearly a whisper, and I didn’t care that she didn’t know who I was talking about. “She listened to me. Made me smile.”
No movement.
“Stood next to me,” I gritted out. “Fit in with my friends. She’s smart, clever, resourceful, and she took the shitty hand life dealt her and still knows how to love people, unlike you.”
Her eyes blazed, a fire kindling behind them.
“She’s hot in the shower,” I taunted more, “on the beach, against the wall, on the hood of the car in the rain, and in my backseat—”
Them together? How good they look together? Him driving into her like he’s done a thousand times and looking down into her eyes as he does it?”disgusting. there are so many more shit like this, for what reason pls????
I tensed.
“All the times he was alone with her, inside of her, coming and forgetting about you,” he told Emmy. “You can see it, right?”
“It’s a boy?” he blurted out. “Are you sure?”♥♥♥♥♥♥
We leaned in, and I folded my lips between my teeth to contain the laughter.
A baby cried, there was some shuffling, and then we heard Damon’s playful little growl. “Ugh, what am I going to do with you?”
“Damon!” Winter growled. “I’m going to kill you. You better love him. You do, right?”
There was a pause, and I met Alex’s wide eyes with my own.
Drama…
Damon and I ran the construction business together now, him building and me designing, so I’d gotten used to his…brand of humor.
Finally, he answered. “Y–yeah,” he stuttered, not sounding convincing. “Yeah, of course, baby. But like, are you sure there aren’t any more in there or something?”
“You either have my back....”
“You’re at my side....”
“Or you’re in my way...”
“Be Lilith, Never Eve.”