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3.50  ·  Rating details ·  42 ratings  ·  14 reviews
Raven De Winter: loner, loser, poet with a razor blade, trapped in a tormented relationship for the sake of his young son.

Pegasus Belmont: melancholy dreamer, haunted by the smile of his dead mother, silver wings tattooed on his shoulder blades like a wish.

Both have their own secrets, their own reasons for trying to deny the intensity of their feelings for one another, but
Paperback, 340 pages
Published March 31st 2020 by Lost Violet Press (first published October 15th 2009)
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Mar 17, 2012 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
This is one book that is completely intense and it's kept that way throughout the book as you keep reading it. I won't delve into what it's about, because the excerpt provides that for you, but don't be fooled by it. It does NOT tell you the majority of the content or even what you're about to experience once you start at page one, but I sure as hell will tell you about the emotional clusterfawk I experienced while reading it.

The story is so exceptionally written that it even messed with my own
Sep 13, 2011 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Trapdoor is the story of the complicated and intense relationship between Raven and Pegasus; two lost souls that learn to have faith and trust in one another, when the rest of the world has let them down. Set in the 90’s, this dark story is unique and doesn’t follow the typical and predictable plot line that most books do these days. It’s very intriguing and keeps you wanting more, making you care about the main characters and see a bit of yourself in each! I also love the fact that Trapdoor tel ...more
Nov 13, 2011 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: mm, self-harm
I read this book a while ago but found it difficult to rate. At times it was hard to read because of the themes it deals with and at times I almost wanted to quit but ultimately I just couldn't put it down and it stayed with me for days, which is why I decided to give it 5 stars. It's very fascinating and intriguing, not to mention very well written. I'm definitely going to read it again, to take in the story better. Kudos for the beautiful cover, something that's rare in m/m books. I suggest re ...more
Jess Scott
Oct 20, 2011 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
I bought a paranormal romance book at the same time that I got a copy of Trapdoor (in terms of colour scheme only, the books have slightly similar-looking covers).

The pararom book had something to do with the "salvation of the soul." I tried very hard to get through the book, but found most of the dialogue completely vapid, the plot shallow and unremarkable, and I was just left with the feeling that the book completely lacked any substance.

I took a much longer time to read Trapdoor, and I'm so
Feb 16, 2010 rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: Teenage goths, Poppy Z. Brite fans
It took me quite awhile to properly review this book. The problem is that I'm no longer in the targeted audience. If I was still a 19 year old pseudo-goth, I would have absolutely adored this. My copy would have ended up in tatters from being read over & over.

It caused me to be all nostalgic for the 90s, and for the days when I loved Poppy Z. Brite books.

The author has a list of songs that she recommends one listens to while reading. I did listen to them. It helped me understand how the characte
Nov 18, 2012 rated it did not like it  ·  review of another edition

There is something compelling about this book. Besides the ick factor of the violence, there is something that is attention grabbing. BUT (1) it moves too damn slow. I got irritated. And (2) as they show interest in each other, they turn into whiny brats and back off on how they felt in the first place.

I also don't understand plot elements. I have to stop and ask myself "why are they doing this." it doesn't make any sense.

I gave up. :(
Rachel Eliason
Dec 10, 2011 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: transgender
Very dark and brooding. Also very engrossing. I don't normally read things this dark or intense but I loved this book. The characters were very dysfunctional but quickly endearing. The emotional wounds that Pegasus and Raven have are realistic and well drawn. The beauty of their souls shine through their pain.
The only thing I will say about the plot and the ending is this, I cried like a little baby. It was that good.
Sep 03, 2011 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: kindle-leandable, own, m-m
Despair...that is what I feel.

This is a hard book...emotionally, it strips you down.

You want a glimmer of hope so badly, which makes you ache because you are feeling what these characters are.

Raven and Pegasus, how much I love these characters, how much their actions made me cringe or made me so deeply sad.

This book is definitely not for everyone, it starts dark and gets darker with every page, there is no happy here.

It was hard to read, it was hard not to read.
May 31, 2017 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Recommends it for: anyone who loves angst
I don't usually review but this book completely wrecked me emotionally. I couldn't put it down. The prose is hauntingly gorgeous. The characters, so beautifully broken. I dreamed of their dreams. My heart broke through the entire read and I wanted it to break. Just stunning.

Jun 02, 2016 rated it it was ok  ·  review of another edition
This was a nice book. I was expecting to like it more, but there was something about it that didn’t allow me to enjoy it that much.

The plot is very interesting and some of the issues they deal with were very realistic. I was very attracted to the interaction with Wendy who is not mention in the summary, but has an important part on the development of the plot. She was as destructive as both main characters and I felt very interested on the motives she had for acting the way she did. She was not
Carrie Clevenger
It's really, really, really long. I think had I read it ten years ago I'd been in love with the way things went, so I'd say it's great for younger readers, but not too young as it does get graphic and some of those scenes are really delicious while others set my teeth on edge in commiseration. Phillips taps into the vein of post-teen angst well, although I feel that the book could be shortened by a third and move faster. Read it if you want a stunning display of deep love and emotion, but it's n ...more
Moxie Mezcal
May 29, 2010 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
At times reading this tale of star-crossed lovers can feel like gorging yourself on dark chocolate truffles, it's intensely sensual and undeniably indulgent, yet still made the bitter by the knowledge that it can’t lead anywhere pretty. If beautiful tormented boys are your thing, this book could become your next guilty pleasure. ...more
Indra Vaughn
Nov 02, 2013 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Ouch. Ouchouchouch. This was almost too much for me, and I love my angst. The writing is absolutely stunning though, but man, this was painful. I have to sit on this for a bit, but I may be back to say more about this. Right now I'm too busy wiping up the puddle that is what's left of my soul. ...more
Mar 08, 2011 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
i am engrossed by this book although i'd only read half of it. the way the author potray every character are excellent, well in my opinion.
will continue to read at the moment.
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Vixen Phillips was born in Ballarat in 1975, but has lived on both the east and west coasts of Australia, as well as having spent some time in Los Angeles during the early part of the 21st century. Mostly she writes fiction, poetry, and computer code, but her interests also include drawing, watching anime, creating music, and playing old-school JRPGS.

You can find her dispersed among the wildwoods

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