No Turning Back: A Witness to Mercy

by Donald H. Calloway

For the past 10 years, the story of Donald Calloway's journey from runaway teen to Marian priest has touched the hearts and changed the lives of thousands of people. Now, in this 10th anniversary edition of No Turning Back, the Very Rev. Fr. Donald Calloway, MIC, looks back on the past decade in a new introduction to this Christian classic, a perennially powerful witness to the transforming grace of God and the Blessed Mother's love for her children. His witness proves a key truth of our faith: Between Jesus, the Divine Mercy, and Mary, the Mother of Mercy, there's no reason to give up hope on anyone, no matter how far they are from God.

Genres: Catholic, Nonfiction, Biography, Religion, Memoir, Christian, Spirituality

290 pages, Kindle Edition

First published January 1, 2010

About the author

Fr. Donald Calloway, MIC, a convert to Catholicism, is a member of the Congregation of Marian Fathers of the Immaculate Conception.

Before his conversion to Catholicism, he was a high school dropout who had been kicked out of a foreign country, institutionalized twice, and thrown in jail multiple times. After his radical conversion he earned a B.A. in Philosophy and Theology from the Franciscan University of Steubenville, M.Div. and S.T.B. degrees from the Dominican House of Studies in Washington, DC, and an S.T.L. in Mariology from the International Marian Research Institute in Dayton, Ohio.

Reviews

[Teresa · Rating 5 out of 5]

Being a HUGE fan of Fr. Don Calloway's conversion story (seeing how my own conversion from a book on Medjugorje was very similar), I was so excited to finally get my hands on this book!

Compared to his audio-testimony (which you can find for under $4 at LighthouseCatholicMedia.org), this book delved much more deeply into his wild lifestyle prior to his conversion to Christianity. It is a universally joyful book to read for all Christians to glorify the mercy and power of God. However, the story did not get into the circumstances surrounding his MIRACULOUS conversion in the same way the audio-testimony did. His conversion is truly amazing...incredible actually! I would suggest that anyone reading this book supplement it with the audio-testimony.

[landrejczyk · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book was surprisingly excellent. As a Protestant, I was so impressed by his devotion to the Catholic faith. Too often, Catholics are lukewarm and “cafeteria catholics” but honestly Fr. Calloway is an incredible witness to the Gospel as show through this book.

[Joseph · Rating 1 out of 5]

Is it wrong of me to wish that Calloway had hired a ghostwriter, rather than attempting to tell his story himself? Honestly, the writing is distractingly bad, transforming what might have been an inspirational story into a cheesy, cliched, and awkward mess.

The book is torn between Calloway's tone-deaf attempts to sound hip and an inherent preachiness. He clearly wants to convey his message in a naturalistic way, using the events of his life as a way of showing, rather than just outright telling his beliefs on spirituality and morality, but these efforts are handled so clumsily that they sound forced and fake. His attempts to recreate conversations he had, in particular, bear little resemblance to the way people actually talk.

The writing aside, I found the book frustrating in that he seemed to skip over the real meat of his story. He does a good job describing his wasted youth, but his actual conversion experience provides little insight into what was going on inside his head and heart as he transitioned from being a non-believer (and apparently, a complete idiot) to falling desperately in love with Jesus and Mary over the course of reading a book (which he goes to great pains to point out as non-doctrinal, suggesting that he places greater value on religious orthodoxy than on an accurate representation of what actually happened). Likewise, although he admits to having his faith tested in the following years, he refuses to delve into the nitty-gritty of his struggles.

In effect, this isn't a conversion story; it's the story of a magical transformation. Within the course of fifteen pages, he goes from being someone who doesn't even know what the word "blessed" means to spouting out what are, for all intents and purposes, Catholic talking points. There's no struggle or learning curve; over the course of a single night, he achieves complete indoctrination.

As someone without a great deal of faith, someone who doesn't know how to believe in a greater power, this is incredibly frustrating. Calloway seems to suggest that the only way for conversion to happen is for it to happen to you from some external source. To me, at least, that's not religion; it's magic.

[Aleieen · Rating 4 out of 5]

No me arrepiento de haber comprado este libro. Si bien había escuchado generalidades de su historia de conversión (una conferencia de un congreso virtual) , quise conocer mas detalles del testimonio del Padre Calloway.
Impresionante su historia de vida y como se convirtió al catolicismo, queda patente en ella la manifestación de la misericordia de Dios. Su testimonio y sus palabras finales me ayudan mucho para mi vida hoy.
Tal como dice Scott Hann en la reseña que sale en el libro, esta historia me la imagino en el cine, sería una película estupenda.

[Kaycee Monnens · Rating 4 out of 5]

Amazing read. Fr. Don is a living testament to the ability of the love of God to bring anyone back to the faith.

[Jess · Rating 3 out of 5]

Fr Calloway shares his story in a humorous and engaging way. It’s crazy how he transformed from a rebellious, homeless thief into a Marian priest, and it’s cool how he shows his old tattoos and teenage pictures to audiences to make his story more believable.
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Our experiences during our impressionable young years can determine our life trajectory. Don’s mother got married when she was only 18 years old. Her husband (aka Don’s biological father) wasn’t a good role model, and neither was Don’s first step-father. During this second marriage, Don’s mom had to join the Navy to provide for the family, often leaving Don alone in their trailer home with his step-father for long stretches of time. At these times, Don missed his mom, and would watch a lot of TV as an escape. TV fostered his fascination for girls, and when he developed a crush on a girl in real life, he enjoyed the thrill of stealing a necklace for her. As Don grew up, he tried to push boundaries as much as he could (such as going as far as “shouting distance” was when playing with friends outside the trailer home). ​After Don’s mother divorced Don’s step-father, she remarried again to a nice Christian man in the Navy (whose last name is Calloway). Even though Don finally had a good father figure in his life, he already developed the tendency to befriend the wrong crowd, no matter where their family moved for his new step-father’s military assignments. At just 11 years old, Don was smoking weed, drinking alcohol (that was supplied by his friends’ older siblings), and looking at pornography. One day, he even accidentally started a forest fire with his lighter and put the firefighters on a wild goose chase for some imaginary culprit (to look like a hero instead of taking the blame).

​Eventually, Don got more and more tired of playing a double-life, so he began to be more and more openly rebellious. This included:
-Extravagant shoplifting trips
-Skipping school so much that his homeroom teacher had thought he had moved
-Running away from home without any planning
-Abandoning his trashed hole-in-the-wall apartment before rent was due since he didn’t have any money
-Flooring the gas pedal to break through a toll gate since he didn’t have any money
-Yelling at a friend for pawning his cassette tapes to bail him out of jail (and not repaying the favor to his “disposable” friend when that friend got arrested)
-Throwing a huge house party when his parents were away (which caused lots of damage)

Even if people are introduced to Christianity, they can view religion as merely some kind of formality. Because Don’s new stepfather was Christian, Don got exposed to baptism and Church. However, he initially didn’t actually believe in any of it. It didn’t help that his rehab counselors were hypocritical “Christians” (by evangelizing in the public eye but talking lustfully about women in private). “Considering my upbringing, I guess it’s no surprise that I didn’t believe in God. For me, God was the equivalent of the tooth fairy or the Easter Bunny, a myth that so-called Christians made up in order to make children happy. It gave parents an excuse to give their kids gifts once or twice a year and get a day off work. People winked and nodded and went along with the charade, but after the holidays were over, people went on with their real lives. I was convinced nobody really believed in God” (67).

Don thought that the Church (and his parents) were oppressing his freedom and keeping him from happiness. “All we really wanted to do was get drunk or high, listen to music, go surfing, and hang out with our girlfriends. What else was there to life, anyway?” (24).

Rehab is only effective if the person actually wants to change their ways. “My problem was not something that could be solved by adjusting my sugar intake or even walking me through a 12-step program. I didn’t know this yet, but my problem was a deep wound within my soul. They offered me nothing but a band-aid. // At the time, I certainly wouldn’t have acknowledged that there was a wound at all. Yet looking back on it now, I see that all the therapy they were trying was a secular approach to a problem that was very spiritual and deep” (46).

The Church can comfort parents who have rebellious children, but it can be difficult to get those children to change their ways. Don’s mom found comfort in the story of St. Augustine (who had a rebellious past but became one of the great doctors of the Church). Don’s mom tried to plant prayer cards in Don’s pockets, and even when he showed no signs of hope, she always forgave him and lovingly provided him with food and shelter.

Eventually, Don realized for himself that his current lifestyle wasn’t giving him fulfillment. “Despite the fact that I was going nowhere and nothing was working in my life, I just couldn’t seem to change my ways. In fact, the worse things got, the more drugs I did. I was caught in a vicious cycle with no end in sight” (143). “Between the house-trashing, venereal disease, and my drug use, I was experiencing so many terrible things that my life was becoming all-out darkness. I was nearly 20 years old but didn’t feel like I wanted to live anymore. I wasn’t exactly suicidal, but at the same time, I wanted to press the delete key on my life. // I had experienced every sensual satisfaction one could possibly have with women, I’d heard every kind of music, done every kind of drug, and at times I’d even have money. But in the end, it all seemed worthless. I always seemed to be back at nothing. Life sucked for me, and I didn’t want to go on with the charade any longer” (155).

When we finally open ourselves up to the truth, it can hit us hard. While Don was looking for a magazine with pictures, he came across a religious book. Out of boredom and curiosity for what lies his parents believed, he snuck it up to his room. At first he felt confused by the unfamiliar terms, but then he felt comforted that God loves everyone and can forgive everyone (thanks to His divine mercy). Reading about the Virgin Mary also brought back his feelings from childhood of missing his loving mother. Don now understood how even though Mary herself should not be worshiped (since she merely points the way to Jesus), she can provide comfort to all. “I found a card in the book that said: ‘If you knew how much I loved, you would cry with joy.’ And there was another card inside the book that had Mary saying: ‘You don’t have to change to love me; loving me will change you’” (164). “Since I was nine or 10 years old, I had put a lot of different things on my tongue looking for happiness. I had drunk a lot of different liquids looking for that eternal high, something that was more, something that would satisfy me forever. Here was the answer. God!” (176). “I knew the Church was like a hospital for ill people like me. Jesus was the doctor and the medication” (176). “God wasn’t taking the band-aid approach with me. He was acting as the Divine Physician and operating on my soul. It was painful at first. But once the spiritual operation was in progress, I realized He was healing me and that He loved me and was restoring me” (183).

It can be awkward to tell others (especially those who are used to us being one way) about the conversion of our hearts. It also can be awkward to learn the gestures/ prayers at Mass for the first time. But we shouldn’t let that fear hold us back. We should also do what we can to help let go of our past life (such as cleaning out our room, cutting our hair into something modest, and cutting ties with toxic friends). Don’s new life pursuit of becoming a priest is a much different lifestyle (since it requires vows of chastity, poverty, and obedience as well as years of living in a community), but Don was willing to make the change. “I considered myself a poster child for Divine Mercy” (198). For his first birthday after his conversion, Don even told his parents that all he wanted for his birthday was their forgiveness for all the financial and emotional burden he’s been responsible for over the years.

Don soon realized that if he’s going to pursue faith, he needs to pursue the entire faith (and not just parts of it). Like Ben Shapiro, Don doesn’t water down any of his messages (whether he’s giving a homily or having a private conversation). “The teachings of the Church are black-and-white. And I firmly believed that Catholicism required an all-or-nothing approach. It’s not like going to a buffet where you take a little bit of this and a little bit of that, then reject what doesn’t taste good to you. // The truth hurts sometimes. If we are going to be taught by God, the fisherman, we first need to be captured by Him. And His hook is going to have a bite. Of course it’s going to hurt. The truth hurts when we are sinners and when we acknowledge we are not surrendering to the truth. // And I didn’t back down when it came to worrying if people were offended by the truth of the Church. I was pretty in-your-face about it all. Looking back, I was about as subtle as a bull in a china shop” (188). “It didn’t take long before I became painfully aware that I was entering the Church at a time when many members were turning away from her teachings because the message is hard — especially in a secular and materialistic world where it is much easier for people to create their own personal Jesus. People aren’t willing to accept objective moral truth, so they fall into moral relativism: ‘I wouldn’t do it, but it’s okay with me if you do.’ A more specific example would be, ‘I wouldn’t have an abortion, but it’s okay if you do” (188). “Even from the earliest days of my priesthood, I was cognizant of the fact that not everyone wants to hear the truth. So, when you are speaking to large and diverse audiences, there are bound to be a few individuals who don’t appreciate a black-and-white stance on issues like abortion, contraception and homosexuality. In fact, I’ve had people stand up in the middle of one of my homilies and begin yelling at me in front of the entire congregation. // On one particularly memorable occasion, I even had a 50-something woman rush up to me after Mass and take a swing at me. She actually tried to punch me in the face. I recall that my homily that day concerned New Age junk like horoscopes, reiki, and ouiji boards. Apparently, this woman had a son who took great interest in such things. After flailing away at me, she shouted: ‘The Jesus I know is the Jesus who accepts people. He’s tolerant and open minded.’ // I calmly responded: ‘Then you don’t know the real Jesus. That’s not Jesus. That’s the one you’ve conceived in your mind to deal with your experiences in life’” (221).

Years after becoming a priest, Don took up surfing again and realized that it can be metaphoric for one’s faith journey. Despite the dangers of stingrays, sharks, large waves that can make you lose control, and underwater reefs that you can crash into, surfing can be a rewarding experience. “I like to say that Jesus was a surfer because he walked on water. And when I’m surfing, I always get the sense that there is something almost supernatural going on. In fact. St. Faustina in her Diary frequently speaks of plunging into ‘the ocean of God’s mercy.’ Well, in my case, I’m surfing on its waters, experiencing God’s goodness, His love and mercy. // Think about it. When you’re surfing, you are not doing your own will. You are simply participating in something that was there before you were, and it continues to occur whether you are there or not. All you can do is ride the waves, not manipulate them or control them. You are allowing yourself to be taken by the water, although the better you are able to ride the waves, the more stoked you get. In my opinion, no sport provides more of a feeling of joy” (257 – 258).

When Don shares his story, some kids react by saying they want to be like him by having fun “now” and putting in work “later”. But that’s missing the point. We don’t want to have wasted opportunities of pursuing what really counts. Don still faces temptation, so he wasn’t magically “saved” in one particular moment. Pursuing faith is a continual process, but he’s on the right track with no turning back.

[Susan Peek · Rating 5 out of 5]

INCREDIBLE STORY!!! I simply couldn't put this book down. If you're a parent with a wayward child, you MUST read Father Calloway's inspiring and amazing autobiography. If you're a teen struggling with sin, this book can truly turn your life around. If you're a Catholic simply wanting an un-put-down-able story, look no further. This is a beautiful and memorable tribute to the Blessed Virgin's motherly love and God's unfailing mercy and grace. One of the most incredible stories I've ever read.

[Hope · Rating 4 out of 5]

This is a rather amazing conversion story of a young man who by all intents and purposes should have either landed himself a life sentence in jail, or gotten himself killed. I was utterly amazed at how the stories of his wild, rebellious, youthful escapades went on and on and way over the deep end. You can certainly see God at work in his life however, that he was spared and given a chance to turn his life around. There can be no question when reading his testimony that his conversion, his "come to Jesus" moment, was directed only by the Divine Mercy of our Lord. This was an exciting book to read. The author's writing is very honest, very easy, very simple and straightforward. There is something about his story that really draws you in. His experiences with the mercy of God and the gentle hand of Our Lady the Blessed Virgin Mary are nothing short of extraordinary. He is living proof. The pure joy of finding his way home to the Catholic Church and into a personal relationship with our merciful Savior and in the arms of our Heavenly Mother is evident throughout this book. Exciting. Tangible. Inspiring. Energizing. His is a story of never giving up hope. Never, ever, ever. The story of second chances and unconditional love. The call to share this life changing joy with others. The call to say YES to the work of the Holy Spirit within your own life and to continue to pray for all of us sinners on the path to holiness and daily conversion.

[Lisa · Rating 5 out of 5]

Well, I'm not sure how much good my leaving another 5 star review is going to be for this amazing conversion story but I just had to put in my 2 cents worth. It was too good not to participate in the reviews.

I found this true story to be very moving and encouraging. Whether you have a strong faith or not - you can't help to be moved by Fr. Donald's life experiences. As a mother of two boys that have turned away from their faith - I was able to relate to what his parents endured. My own boys don't have near the problems Fr. Donald had but they are still not living a faith filled life and that can be very frustrating for a mom. I also found his story to be very encouraging and gives me new hope that some day my boys will find their way back to the Lord. I hope that some day he will be speaking in my area so that I can hear his witness in person and perhaps get my boys to attend also - God willing.

[Kevin · Rating 5 out of 5]

Wow!!! Thank you Fr. Calloway for this beautiful book that my daughter and I read together. Our family is a multi-generation cradle Catholic family and our kids were raised in the church.

My daughter is incarcerated because of her heroin addiction...as difficult as this time in our lives is, we are blessed to visit her in prison instead of at her headstone. My daughter and I read and discuss many books together...this book, was by far, has created the most discussion!

God is so good and what He has done in Fr. Calloway's life and through our Blessed Mother's intercessions is an inspiration for us. We laughed, cried and prayed together throughout this book.

My daughter (and me!) would love to meet the author...she promises to write to Fr. Calloway and me, I would love to meet, hug and pray with his mother!
God bless you Fr. Calloway for sharing this story of your journey and conversion.

[Marybeth · Rating 4 out of 5]

This is a wonderful story of God's mercy and patience. Written in a very conversational tone, it is an easy and engaging read, but what a story Father has to tell! A good reminder for any one struggling to help others along the path to salvation or struggling themselves. God is so much bigger than our mistakes.

[Lynnette · Rating 5 out of 5]

Everyone should read Fr. Calloway's story. His honesty about his checkered past allows the reader to relate to him and find hope for themselves and their loved ones. This book can also help people to see priests as human beings who struggle the same as everyone else.

[Andrew Armstrong]

Pretty powerful witness to Mercy!

[Renea Brotherton · Rating 5 out of 5]

Thank you God for your gift of this servant.

Father Calloway does an amazing job of explaining his conversion, to where I had chills in some places.
I was not like him as a teenager, I had him in female form as two daughters after they turned eighteen. One went to state and federal prison and then came home was clean for ten years, then started back. But guess what happened? She heard Father Calloway tell his story on YouTube while in California in a rehab across the street from a Catholic church. You see I was the Catholic mother praying all the time and sent her the video because my mother and I had her children, and Father Calloway spoke to her with his story and Christ reached her heart and she is clean two years and has all her children back now and is Catholic by desire until she begins RCIA classes.
Thank you for your book, thank you for sharing your story and thank you for staying strong against all that try to beat you back down, because Momma Mary and your momma have your back.
God Bless you

Renea

[Tiffany Kay · Rating 4 out of 5]

Having read more recent Fr. Calloway books, reading this one from 2010 shows how his writing style has GREATLY matured over the years.

Reading the low Goodreads ratings of this book which cite how Fr. Calloway lacks detail in his struggles was a bit of a disappointment for me. Why, as a society, are we mostly fixated on a person's fall, rather than his resurrection? Fr. Calloway has a strong testimony in this book and there certainly was no "magic" to how his conversion came to be. It was simply God doing His best work. If we as readers don't focus on God and rather immerse ourselves into the fascination of Fr. Calloway's sin as the main idea of the book, we are wholly missing the point.

My respect for this priest runs deep and after reading this conversion story, of which I had no clue, I have an even greater affinity for him.

[Lorraine Shelstad · Rating 4 out of 5]

An amazing book and true story of a life turned around. A terrible teen who is rude to his parents, into drugs big time and so bad that he is deported out of Japan to the US. After many more years of unchanged behaviour, he realizes that his life is going nowhere and out of boredom he reads a book from his parent's bookshelf. He has never heard of the Virgin Mary and certainly not about events in Medjugorje but after reading this book he realizes how awful he has been for 20 years and that the Mother of Jesus still loves him, of all people.
What happens next is almost unbelievable and certainly miraculous. I would have given it 5 stars but the reduction to 4 stars is because there were grammar errors that a proofreader should have picked up.

[Edmund Goh · Rating 4 out of 5]

being a catholic myself, this is not a book that i would normally pickup. :-P
but i bought this for my wife and she was very inspired and continued to rant about this priest and his life.

i also listened a few of his talks on youtube and it was pretty darn interesting and engaging
so i was now intrigued enough to finally read this.

overall, i would say, an interesting story of his personal conversion and his continuing conversion.
easy read and i finished it in 2 days as it was quite interesting and he tells a good story.
50% about his days as a wild child and 50% on this conversion story.

[Tyson · Rating 4 out of 5]

A great story about one man's conversion from a very rebellious youth (drugs, arrests, and so on) to a Catholic priest. The powerful thing about Fr Calloway's conversion story is the clear action of grace that is necessary for all conversions. It was a good reminder that God is always offering mercy and the grace of conversion to all people and that our prayers, like those of his mother, can be having an impact even when we do not see it. It is a good simple read that could be understood by anyone.

[Joy M. · Rating 5 out of 5]

What an incredible life story! I enjoyed reading this. It was interesting to read Father Calloway's progression from bored, delinquent teenager living a life of sin, to his swift and all-encompassing fall into the arms of the traditional Catholic Church. He mentions that people often find his story unbelievable, and I can see why. But nothing is impossible with God. Easy to read. Interesting. Unbelievable. Redeeming.

You are exactly where you need to be Father. Congrats on finding your way home.

[Leslea Wahl · Rating 5 out of 5]

I was completely unprepared for this astounding story. His completely unexpected and total transformation is incredible. His story is reminiscent of Saint Augustine – a wild youth whose mother never gave up on him, continually praying that God would transform his life. And boy, did God answer that prayer! Father Galloway is very honest in this book and doesn’t hold anything back. This is an amazing story for parents who worry about their children. What an amazing reminder that God never gives up on us.

[Susan Inglis · Rating 4 out of 5]

I enjoyed this book, but there were a few points I found distracting. He did a great job describing his youth with all his addictions to every bad thing one could lose themselves in. However, what I was disappointed with was his conversion. There should have been as much emphasis on how he felt during his conversion and leading up to his ordination. Spending too much time talking about surfing kind of left me cold.

[Mike Ryba · Rating 5 out of 5]

It is no wonder what the power of God and his Blessed Mother, Mary, can do in our lives. If Fr. Calloway can turn a very troubled life, and that is probably an understatement, into one that helps change the lives of others, who is to say that the same cannot happen for you and me. Thank you Fr. Calloway, for your love of the Catholic Church and for the impact you are making in our world today. Peace and Blessings to you.

[Michael Hermann · Rating 5 out of 5]

There are not enough good things for me to say about this book. This is a great story of a man finding his way to his true calling even if it wasn't the best route to take. I can honestly say after reading this book that I would really like to meet Fr. Calloway and just have a conversation with him about his life and the things he has gone through. I highly recommend this book to anyone who is looking for a good, uplifting and inspiring read

[William Kimball · Rating 5 out of 5]

What a conversion! Certainly a modern-day Augustine (in converting, anyway), Fr. Calloway tells his story honestly and openly (and yet with a good amount of tact). Yet another proof of the power of Our Lady.

Despite a sidetrack on surfing which was a lot of inside talk, the story was well written and more than held my attention - I finished the book in a very short time!

[Katrina Moore · Rating 4 out of 5]

An amazing story of redemption by a former delinquent and drug abuser. I actually saw Fr. Calloway in person and he has certainly come a long way! His turnaround because of a book on Medjugorje found at his mother's home is quite powerful. Having also been to Medjugorje myself, I can only reaffirm the power of The Blessed Mother in changing lives!

[Patrick Brennan · Rating 5 out of 5]

I couldn’t put this book down! Funny enough, I read it while deployed on a US Navy ship based out of Yokosuka, and have been to NAF Atsugi which he mentions in the book. I’ve also been to the Our Lady of Victory Chapel at Naval Station Norfolk numerous times, so it was a really cool experience to read about these places I’ve been and the things that happened there.

[RM W · Rating 5 out of 5]

An easy read of an amazing story of redemption. While Fr. Calloway may be well-known for his many books, his almost unbelievable story of his past sins, errors and, yes, crimes on the way to becoming a priest was so good. I laughed out loud at times imagining some of his escapades. A hopeful story for any parent worried about their own errant child.

[Carrie Robinson · Rating 5 out of 5]

Not your typical conversion story.

Fascinating! I have listened to his talk, so I would hear his voice in my head as I read. I think that added for an even more "authentic" understanding of his journey.

[Glen Young · Rating 5 out of 5]

This was a really shocking story about how bad this kid went into the depths of drugs, despair, crime, and basically just not caring. Comparing where he was to where he is now is an incredible testimony to how he was inspired to become Catholic and take up the cross.

[Allyson · Rating 5 out of 5]

A powerful conversion story. I have heard him speak on television, but I feel like he goes into more detail in his book. I actually have the 10th Anniversary edition, but am too lazy to add it to the website. Maybe later.