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Until I Find You

4.03  ·  Rating details ·  917 ratings  ·  477 reviews
"In Until I Find You, celebrated author Rea Frey brings you her most explosive, emotional, taut domestic drama yet about the powerful bond between mothers and children…and how far one woman will go to bring her son home.

""Frey is a rising star in the suspense scene"" - Booklist

2 floors. 55 steps to go up. 40 more to the crib.

Since Rebecca Gray was diagnosed with a degener
Paperback, 320 pages
Published August 11th 2020 by St. Martin's Griffin
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Amishi Bubna I feel like the author put in those incidents to plant the seed in our heads but eventually forgot to give reason behind why those things happened...o…moreI feel like the author put in those incidents to plant the seed in our heads but eventually forgot to give reason behind why those things happened...or for us to believe that Rebecca was forgetting or imagining things due to lack of sleep maybe (less)

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Jul 20, 2020 rated it liked it
I'm definitely in the minority with my rating of Until I Find You, so I encourage readers of this review to check out more reviews before they make a decision on whether or not to read this book. I think it wasn't right for me. I couldn't turn off my critical mind and go with the story. 

Rebecca Gray slowly went blind in her mid twenties. About twelve years later, she is a new widow, whose mom has just died, and the mother of a three month old baby boy. The book opens with Bec making her daily tr
WOW! This book was SO addictive, could not tear myself away! OK before I get to the book I want to share something about myself that many of you don’t know. Like the MC in this book Rebecca I also have a degenerative eye disease. I have been losing my sight slowly since the age of 10, I am now 50 so it’s been a slow process. Also like Becca I am a mother, but when my kids were babies my vision was not as bad as hers in this book. The reason I share this is because it is very rare that you read a ...more
Dorie  - Cats&Books :)

The premise of a baby being switched and a mother believing that this is not her child, is not a new one. In this novel, what makes it unique, is that the mother in question is blind.

Rebecca has certainly been through a lot. Her husband died before Jackson was born and she was relying heavily on support from her mother. A few months later, her mother passes away. So we have a mother who is losing her vision, is almost totally blind, and is trying to care for a newborn
Nilufer Ozmekik
Apr 12, 2020 rated it really liked it
Bring out your tissues and get ready to be highly tensed! This book may rock your world and break your heart at the same time!

This story wrenched, ached and hurt my heart deeply. Rebecca (Bec) Gray, widowed mother suffers from degenerative disease and loses her vision, and the darkness grows and seeps through her life, slowly destroys everything she worked on. And she has responsibility of her three month old baby Jackson. She needs to accept more help! How can she handle all those burdens and m
Aug 13, 2020 rated it liked it
Shelves: netgalley
Imagine that you have slowly lost your sight, then your husband and on top of it all, your baby is crying, you go to pick him up to comfort him, but the baby you are holding is not yours! Not only that, no one believes you! Friends think you are stressed out, exhausted, etc. But you know your own child, you have been feeling as if someone has been following you, things have been moved in your home, etc.

Bec goes through a string of emotions when she discovers that her son is gone. No one believes
Jennifer ~ TarHeelReader
Rea Frey is back with another emotional thriller winner!

Bec, a new widow and young mom, has a degenerative eye disease, so each day, it gets worse.

One night, Bec wakes to her young son crying. She goes to the nursery to soothe him, only it’s not her son. She knows this with all of her heart, but no one believes her. Where is her son?

Until I Find You has Frey’s trademark tension throughout. I was stressed out alongside Bec wondering where her son was. The author did a great job capturing Bec’s pe
Aug 21, 2020 rated it really liked it
This was an empowering glimpse into the life of a young mother who has had to undergo horrific loss. She, Rebecca, has just lost her mother and husband within months of each other and also has a degenerative eye disease which means she is slowly losing her sight. Wracked by grief, she soldiers on, confident in the love and protection she gives to her tiny son. Jackson is only a baby, but he is perfectly happy and healthy. The only thing that can unsettle her is of course what happens.

Until I Fin
Jul 21, 2020 rated it really liked it
Shelves: kindle, netgalley
Thanks to NetGalley and St Martin's Press for an egalley in exchange for an honest review.

Dear Rea Frey, how is it that you manage year after year to put your characters and me in such tense situations and I always come back for another? All I can say is keeping waving that magic spell because I fell for this one instantly. We have widow Rebecca(Bec) who is raising her infant son all by herself after losing her husband and mother. If that's not enough heartache for one person to go through, Re
After losing her husband in an accident, Rebecca Grey (Bec) tried her best to bring up their three-month-old son, Jackson. But with each passing day Bec was finding life was becoming more challenging because when she was in her twenties, Bec was diagnosed with a degenerative eye disease and she has gradually been losing her eyesight.

Bec takes Jackson to the local park each day where she meets up with other mothers and their babies. Lately Bec has a strong sense that someone is stalking her, but
Aug 12, 2020 rated it it was ok
Shelves: fiction
This book annoyed me from the moment I started reading all the way to the very end. The story was far-fetched and the way much of the plot played out, I basically had to suspend disbelief the entire time. But what annoyed me most was actually the main character Bec (short for Rebecca), who was so overwritten as a character that I ended up tremendously disliking her (even though I think the intention was, based on the way she was portrayed, the reader is supposed to sympathize with her). Bec is d ...more
Marialyce (absltmom, yaya)
3.5 stars

Sometimes the implausible becomes plausible given the times we live in.

This was quite the tale about a young mother who faces insurmountable obstacles, for you see, she is blind, has recently lost both her husband and mother, and has a new baby to care for. Rebecca Gray, has certainly had a lot stacked against her, but through a group of wealthy neighborhood friends she seems to have formed friendship alliances which are helping her through this tough time.

Then the unthinkable happens a
Rebecca (Bec) Gray, mother of three month old Jackson is doing it really tough. Once an accomplished musician she has gradually been losing her sight and is now almost blind. To make matters worse she lost her husband almost a year ago and then her mother a few weeks ago. Still grieving both of them, she is slowly adapting to life on her own back in her mother's house, where she grew up, in suburban Chicago. She has made friends with other women with babies in the neighborhood park and another s ...more
Aug 04, 2020 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Recommended to Jonetta by: Tina Woodbury
Rebecca (Bec) Gray has made so many adjustments in the last year. Her husband died in an accident before she gave birth to their son, Jackson. She has a degenerative eye condition where she’s lost her sight and has learned to live as a blind woman. Her mother recently succumbed to cancer and she’s now alone to care for her three-month old son who is the center of her life. But recently, Bec’s suffering from extreme anxiety, particularly around Jackson, imagining something happening to him. She’s ...more
Suzanne Leopold (Suzy Approved Book Reviews)
Rebecca Grey is recently widowed and caring for her three-month-old son Jackson. She is also coping with a degenerative eye disease that will eventually leave her blind. She is lucky to have a circle of supportive mothers that meet daily at a nearby park. These friends support Rebecca as she raises her child without a spouse and almost no vision.

One day at the park, Rebecca faints. Her friends bring her home to rest and take turns watching Jackson until she feels better. Later when she retrieves
Christina McDonald
Feb 28, 2020 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: domestic
A beautifully, poignant, emotional story, Until I Find You examines what it means to trust yourself, even in a world where seeing is believing, and you can’t see to believe.

Recently widowed and now blind, Rebecca is finding raising her new baby challenging, to say the least. But one day she faints and when she wakes up she finds that the baby in her arms isn’t her own. Nobody believes her, but Bec knows her baby. And she’ll stop at nothing to find him.

With well-written characters and suffused wi
Aug 18, 2020 rated it really liked it
This is a book that GRABS you from the very first page. The story is told from two friends perspectives. I love a multi-POV book...especially a thriller! We have Bec, a new mother who is visually impaired, and Crystal, a mother of a 10 yr old cello prodigy. Both women met in grief group.⁣
There are so many heart pounding moments. Can you say, "page turner"?? Frey has an amazing way of really getting us to put ourselves in the characters shoes.⁣ Although much of it seemed far fetched....I was engr
Mary Jackson _TheMaryReader
Mar 25, 2020 rated it really liked it
Shelves: 2020
This book was slow to start and middle ways it picked up and I could not turn the pages fast enough. This is my third book by Frey and she gets better with every book. I loved the twists and my heart pounded so hard many times while reading this book.
I highly recommend this 4 star book.
The Mary Reader received this book from the publisher for review. A favorable review was not required and all views expressed are our own.
Lindsey Gandhi
I wanted soooo badly to just love this book. I've read other books by Rea Frey and loved them, raved about them. She is an extremely talented author. The premise behind this book is brilliant. A blind mother who is absolutely positive her baby has been swapped with another, yet no one believes her. This is the stuff nightmares are made of!!

I honestly can't pinpoint why I didn't connect with this story. It was slow to get rolling, that may have been it. Or possibly my extreme annoyance that no on
Rating: 3.5 rounded down to 3 stars

This was a solid book, but it was not fast-paced enough for me to consider it a tippy top-notch thriller. While reading this on my Kindle, I kept looking at the percentage read indicator, and wondering when something would actually start happening. Rebecca ‘Bec’ Gray is a new mother to three-month old Jackson. She is almost totally blind. She lost her husband and her mother within the last year. This lady has a lot on her plate! With all that going on, I was at
Elizabeth of Silver's Reviews
How can she cope with so many losses in her life?

Rebecca lost her sight, her husband, her mother, and now the nightmare of losing her son seems to have come true.

When Rebecca absolutely knows this is not her baby, she goes to all lengths to find him even though no one believes her because they see no difference between this baby and Jackson.

Rebecca’s friends do help her, but they can’t be there 24/7 if she needs help.

Besides all these things happening and her friends seeming to help, they appe
Judy D Collins
UNTIL I FIND YOU is another slam dunk by the amazing Rea Frey. I will read anything she writes. The minute you start it is a rare treat, and you know you will be hooked. It is impossible to put her books down and this one is no exception.

Heart rendering, I loved everything about this book. Unpredictable. It is suspenseful, mysterious, plot, and character-driven. It is hypotonic, atmospheric, and absorbing. Can you imagine being blind and raising a baby alone?

More coming closer to pub day. I wan
Aug 02, 2020 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: netgalley
Review coming soon.
Aug 11, 2020 rated it it was amazing
Rea Frey has honed her skills at writing the domestic thriller. From the first pages the main character, Rebecca(Bec) is navigating her stroller with her newborn toward a park. Why is this of note? She's partially blind. Within the first few pages I'm wondering how this is going to unfold. BUT within the first few chapters, I'm on the edge frantically turning pages because I can't take not knowing what's going to happen.

Bec has fallen on dire times. First her husband passes away after the birth
After a fall in the park, Rebecca (aka Bec) realizes the baby in her care is not her son. Bec suffers from a degenerative eye disease and lives as a blind woman. She finds it difficult to get the police and her friends to believe the baby isn't hers. After all, they believe the baby looks like her son.

Bec is an intriguing character. Losing her sight is challenging enough, but Bec has also recently lost loved ones. Her husband passed away nearly a year ago and her mother passed weeks ago. She's a
Jul 19, 2020 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: netgalley-ebooks
4.5/ 5 stars

Until I Find You is my third book by this author. I would categorize it as a mystery/thriller.

I went into this book completely blind, which is what I would recommend. There are quite a few things that are mentioned in the book blurb that were surprising. And honestly I don't know if I would have been on the edge of my seat like I was if I had already known about these things beforehand.

The main narrator is Rebecca/Bec (1st person POV). She has a disability. And I found that part of t
Mar 03, 2020 rated it really liked it
Shelves: netgalley
4.5 stars!

This was a taught thriller, which kept me anxious throughout.. I was so nervous thinking how it would be to be deaf, a new mother, and a new widow. Its hard enough managing with sight and a new baby, this woman was an incredible force. I don't think I would have been able to even leave the house with my baby,

Rea Frey is an incredible author, this is my third read from her and it was wonderful. I put it on my too be read list on Goodreads before there was a synopsis or a cover and req
Erin Clemence
Apr 15, 2020 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: first-reads, kindle
Special thanks to NetGalley and the publisher for a free, electronic ARC of this novel received in exchange for an honest review.

Expected publication date: August 11, 2020

Rebecca Gray has suffered immeasurable lost in the last year. After her husband, Chris, passed away, Rebecca started to lose her sight, thanks to a degenerative eye disease. Almost totally blind, Rebecca is hit with another loss when her beloved mother passes away. Left with only the house she grew up with, and her three m
May 21, 2020 rated it really liked it
Until I Find You by Rea Frey was a book that really tugged at my heartstrings. I quickly became engrossed in the story and wanted to keep turning the pages to find out what would happen. It definitely made me think about how well new mothers know every part of their children when they are babies. What distinguishing traits did their babies possess that were different from other children especially when they were young babies? Would a degenerative disease, like Stargardt disease, where for all in ...more
Karen R
Aug 11, 2020 rated it liked it
I initially found it quite hard to believe that blind mother Bec’s friends couldn’t see that her baby was swapped with another, yet I carried on and glad I did. The twists and ratcheting tension kept me on my toes and I liked Frey’s cast of characters. I thought I knew where this story was going but then questioned myself time and again. An enjoyable read in which I became emotionally connected. Thanks to St. Martin’s Press for the ARC in exchange for my honest review.
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***Thanks to NetGalley for providing me a complimentary copy of UNTIL I FIND YOU by Rea Frey in exchange for my honest review.***

Recently widowed and recently blind, Rebecca faces challenges raising three-month-old Jackson. One day she believes Jackson has been replaced by a different baby. No one believes her. Not her friends. Not her former lover. Not the police. Bec knows her son and he is not the baby in Jackson’s crib. She’ll stop at nothing to find him.

A few streets away, Crystal, also rec
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Rea Frey is the author of Not Her Daughter, Because You're Mine, and her upcoming release, Until I Find You.

She is also the founder of Writeway, where aspiring authors become published authors. To learn more, visit or

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