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214 pages, Paperback
First published March 3, 2020
"Somewhere in between the tears and the constant waiting, she forgot her worth. She forgot what it means to be the sun, the stars, and the sea. She forgot what it means to love and to live and to be happy."
"That's when I realized the ache will always resurface. Whether it's in the supermarket over a girl you kissed who didn't kiss you back, or a boy who told his friends about you but not his parents, or the job you missed out on, or the sad movie you watched alone on Friday night. The ache comes back around, always in the moments your heart has room; but maybe the ache has always wanted to be loved too."
"You are home, and home can be many things. Right now, home is where I look, to cast away all the doubts I ever had."
"What I have come to know more than anything is that my soul grows and changes. There are moments it feels full, and others empty, but it continues forward, moving with every step I take in this life."
"It hurts to feel as though no one understands your secrets. As though you are the keeper of all these thoughts and nobody else could ever feel them too. But sometimes, on a rainy afternoon, you pick up a book and read it with some wine, and for the first time, someone understands. That even if the sun is shining, you don't feel the glow. But it's okay, because someone else in the world knows."
"Are you really thinking about them, or just the idea of having someone?"
"How would I live this life without you? The way you make coffee on Saturdays, in the mug you bought, simply because it reminded you of me."
"One day, you will find a home, and it won't be a place, it will be a person. And you will be loved in spite of all the baggage and boxes you bring with you."
"Write in journals the things you are grateful for, make time for an old friend, walk in the mornings as the sun is rising, spend less time focusing on your faults, spend even less time reading rants on social media, plant flowers, check the mailbox, cook a new recipe, dance in your living room. Be in love with living."
"I hope you find time for yourself, in between the motions of the week and all the things that keep you up at night. In between it all, I hope you find a moment to breathe."
"She was shedding skin, out in the light of the moon. She knows when things don't feel quite right, she knows when it's time to focus back on the things that make her feel alive."
"It's how you see yourself and the expectations you set. When you expect too much from yourself, you begin to doubt the things you can do. When you base your idea of perfection around ideas that aren't achievable, you begin to believe you are not worthy. But if you stop expecting so much of yourself and set small, achievable goals, you begin to find courage, even on the darkest days."
"She has told you before how hurt she has been. How she has felt fragile and vulnerable with no one to pick up the pieces. She has told you that she cannot survive in between being loved or not loved enough. She has told you that she is all or nothing. So, if you respect her, you will not use her heart."
"There will come a day when they will no longer be your first thought in the morning or keep you up at night. But while they are, you mustn't be so hard on yourself or rush to heal the wounds. Our hearts live on with scars that run deep. Scars are never neat, but you don't have to force them to close if you are not ready."
"I no longer want to be someone who tiptoes around people as though eggshells surround them. I want to overcome all the doubt and be the kind of person I would have looked up to when I was younger. "
"Things happen because of your involvement and your drive to make it happen. Things happen because you put your heart and soul into achieving all your goals. Rising from ashes is so much sweeter when you know you've worked for clear skies."
"To the person I was never meant to be with thank you for showing me what I didn't need. Thank you for making me realize I didn't have to settle, that I could be with someone who wanted the same things I did. I know that I am worthy of love and kindness and someone who loves me equally. Thank you for showing me that. "
"You don't need to feel guilty for feeling so much. For wanting to be more than a flame—a firestorm. You are the center of the house, the glue that holds it all together, the light that keeps it warm."
Poetry is not often something I completely loathe, but this collection was one of the worst forms of “poetry” I have read. I am saddened to say that. I don’t like giving out 1-star ratings and I usually do anything I can do abstain from doing so, but the only thought going through my head while reading each and every page of I Hope You Stay was how much I hated the poems. The poems are short and consist of random thoughts or what I like to call inspirational quotes. Just because you can put it on a refrigerator and it’s two lines does not make it a poem. If you write it like it’s a poem, it does not make a poem. Poetry needs to have structure while also recognizing the constraints of structure and breaking them. Peppernell does not do that. In fact, many of her poems feel like diary or journal entries. It made me want to stop reading poetry which says a lot because I recently discovered my most beloved poetry collected (Tomorrow’s Woman-which everyone seems to hate). I am a black sheep poet critic. I like what everyone hates and love what everyone wants to tear apart. Oh well, I won’t be picking up Pillow Thoughts any time soon.