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Holding on to Forever

4.25  ·  Rating details ·  836 ratings  ·  318 reviews
Secretly dating Coach Parker’s daughter was never part of the plan. Neither was becoming her dealer…

Returning to my drug-dealing past wasn’t on the agenda when I accepted the full ride to play ball at Cypress U. But Mom lost her job. And my sister’s medical bills are mounting. So, I’ve no choice but to change the playbook.

When Emily walks into my life, like a fallen
Kindle Edition, 317 pages
Published September 15th 2019
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Catherine Russell
Book: Holding on to Forever
Author: Siobhan Davis & S.B. Alexander
Type: Standalone
POV: First Person - Dual
Genre: Contemporary Romance
Rating: 4 Stars!

Age: Emily Parker - 19, Adam Miller - 20/21.

Triggers: Drug abuse, Sexual Assault, Violence, Rape and motherfucking emotions that hit you like a brick, directly in your face. .

I’m in love with Adam Miller. I love him with every part of me. Enough to want to be a better version of myself because he deserves the absolute best.

Sep 15, 2019 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: arc, 2019
Five emotional stars for Emily and Adam 💞!


I love Siobhan's and Susan's writing style and this is the first book I've read that it was written by both authors. I love their co-writing and can't wait for their next book.

I have to admit that this book shocked but in a good way because I didn't expect that this book will be so emotional.

I thought it will be typical college romance but it wasn't and because of that, I love it more.

It was more than romance...

It was a story about a broken person
Siobhan Davis
Aug 15, 2019 rated it it was amazing  ·  (Review from the author)  ·  review of another edition
Meredith Wilson
Sep 10, 2019 rated it it was amazing
Wow! This is a heartbreaking depiction of college life and how they process and deal with some difficult situations. It was such a real and raw portrayal of addiction and the toll that it takes on all of those involved. My heart absolutely ached for Emily and what she was going through. And Adam too. He had such a big heart and loved so hard. He sacrificed so much to protect and take care of those that he loved. It was the sole reason that he was driven to sell drugs. It was dangerous and reckle ...more
Tasha Mahoney
Now, before I go any further. I should tell you that this book deals with the dark subjects of sexual assault and the drug world. Does  it deal with them well? I believe that it represents just how dark these things are and how they impact someones life so yes, they deal with them well.

Due to the subject matter this is predominantly not a warm fuzzy romance. It is raw and shows both the good and bad in people and that while some people are pure evil, many people are not and they cannot be easily
Sep 14, 2019 rated it it was amazing
So I’m not new to Siobhan Davis but S.B Alexander is a new to me author, so when I saw that SD had calibrated with her... someone I had never read before I was intrigued, and holy crap... I’m not sure what I was expecting when I went it to this book, but it sure as hell wasn’t what I go, but that’s not a bad thing. This book had me clenching my kindle, on the edge of my seat and totally and utterly obsessed with this plot.

It’s definitely not a light hearted read. It hit some pretty real and rela
Sep 11, 2019 rated it really liked it
How deep into the dark side of life would you go again, to save your family? Adam took that chance to leave his drug dealing days behind, but as his sister’s life lay in the balance and medical science needs money to perform its miracles, he resumes his old profession. Little did he know, he would be an enabler to the girl who steals his heart…can he save her from herself? Can he save his own soul or must he choose between family and his heart?

Siobhan Davis’s HOLDING ON TO FOREVER is a painful l
Anne OK
Full up and over-flowing with angst -- imagine college campus frat parties on steroids + nightmarish sexual abuse and drug addiction. I don't think I was prepared for what this book put these characters through and how it was accomplished. Too far-fetched in too many areas and didn't fully convince me either in the ongoing storyline or the final wrap (although a happy ending is accomplished).

I didn't care much for any of the characters -- except for Sam, the nerdy computer genius.
Sep 14, 2019 rated it liked it
I’m always happy to dive into a new Siobhan Davis release, but I fear I’m going to be in the minority with this one. I was ready for an emotional book, one that broke me, but I found myself unable to connect with this one. Whilst the story had me reading to the end, I was never invested in the way I had hoped to be.

Siobhan Davis and S.B. Alexander make a great writing team, the story flowed so well together. Although I was able to work out who wrote what, this was nothing to do with their styles
Bookgasms Book Blog
Sep 10, 2019 rated it really liked it
Shelves: ratula
The minute I heard that Siobhan Davis and S.B. Alexander had an angsty NA romance coming I knew I had to read it. Emily and Adam's story was a huge angsty trip! It was sexy and engaging but also dealt with some pretty serious topics including drug addiction and sexual abuse. I was hooked from the start and did not look up once!

Without giving away and spoilers, just know this story is so addicting and will make your head spin. Adam, a college quarterback and NFL prospect is in a difficult positio
Aug 27, 2019 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Prepare to cry, swoon and fall in love with Adam & Emily. This is such a heartfelt and romantic story, that you’re not going to want to miss.

Written by two of my favorite authors, they wrote as one. It was seamless. It was such an honest, raw depiction of addiction. I cried so much through this book for Emily and what she was going through. Adam loved so hard. It was one of the things that drove him to sell drugs. A stupid and dangerous idea, but it is how he first met Emily. He was drawn to he
Jessica Robbins
Sep 16, 2019 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: blog-tour, own-kindle
*I received a free copy of this book which I voluntarily chose to write an honest review for.

Whoa buddy what a romance! Adam is the star QB with a home life of debt thanks to a sickly sister and a runaway dad. With no other option to help he finds himself agreeing to something sketchy. Emily has plenty of her own issues when the two of them meet through circumstance. Neither wants a relationship but I do believe fate has other plans. Can they save each other in time? An emotionally edgy romance
Paula White
Sep 10, 2019 rated it really liked it
Shelves: arc
Loved loved Adam, Emily took a bit more warming up to. Adam would do anything for his mum and sister and because of this he has to do something that he knows is wrong. Through this he encounters Emily and feels a connection. Emily is a drug addict due to something that happened in her past. Adam supports her through a raft of things - blackmail, abuse, the mother from HELL. They have a rocky road with twists and turns. We do get a HEA and two rather satisfying epilogues.
The Book Lover
Sep 11, 2019 rated it it was amazing
This book is not what you expect it to be! its sooooo good and soo different! Miss Davis has become a go to author to go when I want something different.
Heather 'Confessions Of A Bibliophile' Creighton
Confessions 4 Stars

Holding On To Forever by Siobhan Davis and S.B Alexander have blown me away with this tragic and emotional, new adult, college romance! This book was sp seamlessly written and just flowed so well that there’s no way I would have known it was a collaboration between TWO authors if I hadn’t already known. Siobhan is one of my TOP 3 all-time favorite authors and although S.B Alexander is a new to me, author, I most definitely wouldn’t be upset if these two decided to do another collaboration!😉

Sep 14, 2019 rated it it was ok
I really adore S. B. Alexander's books and I really like most of Sioban Davis's books but I just couldn't get into this one. I found myself quitting this one so many times but then picking it back up only because it was an ARC book. I even went as far as to quit in the first half and write a DNF review but decided to delete that review and give it one last chance but it didn't really help. I did end up finishing the book and did give it one more star than the first time but I didn't really like ...more
Sep 13, 2019 rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: arcs
3.5 Stars

Holding on to Forever is a new adult romance with heavy themes and topics, which is par for the course with any Davis book. So, trigger warnings for substance abuse, rape, and sexual assault.

Holding on to Forever follows Adam and Emily who are both in impossible situations. Adam returns to dealing drugs when his sister's medical bills become unmanageable. Adam ends up dealing to Emily, who is quickly spiraling out of control. Throw in a whirlwind romance and things turn ugly.

The chemist
Stefan Eveline
Sep 15, 2019 rated it really liked it
Shelves: 4-stars-2019, arc
I received this Arc for an honest review. Thank you.
This book is about Emily and Adam two teenagers who have problems and both of them choose the wrong way to deal with their problems. But both of them feel that it's the only way and they don't feel that they have a choice.
I loved Adam because he will sacrifice everything for his family. Adam is a football player who has the chance to be draft by the NFL but he will risk his career for his family. He adores his family.
Adam meets Emily and he
Amber Hodges
Aug 28, 2019 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
This is a book that grabs you from the get go and makes you not able to stop reading until you finish the last page. I couldn't help but want to keep going to find out what happens to Emily and where things are going to go.

Emily is one of those characters that even though she does some things that are annoying you can't help but have her in your heart and want to help her along the way. She is a super smart give that makes bad decisions until you find out why she does them then you will have you
Sandy Knox
Sep 10, 2019 rated it it was amazing
I voluntarily received this advanced copy for my honest review.
I ABSOLUTELY LOVED THIS BOOK! This book deals with some dark issues that could be a trigger for some people. It's a very emotional read. At times I cried. Most of the characters are so easy to fall in love with but some are absolutely evil hateful people. Adam is the gorgeous, sweet, kind, caring sexy as sin drug dealing Hero, the Knight in shining armour, he's the big protective brother to Phoebe this sweet beautifu
Jess Boschock
Sep 10, 2019 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: siobahn-davis
This did not disappoint one bit. Siobahn Davis and S.B. Alexander and two amazing authors. And together this story is one of a kind
It touches lots of dark subjects and I applaud these ladies for bringing it out of the dark. This story is about addiction, depression, abuse, sexual abuse. And all the trauma that comes along with that.
Emily and Adam are ment to be. I loved how they did POV from both. Adam is hot shot QB that Emily's dad coaches. Em is a lost soul struggling in her addiction. Then t
Patricia Rohrs (words we love by blog)

I love when authors take on the tough subjects and bring issues to light! There were many in this book from drug addiction, sexual assault, and dealing drugs just to get by! The story shows you that there are shades of grey and life isn’t just black and white, right or wrong! We make choices based on what we feel is necessity and Adam and Emily did just that!

Though Emily was dealing with her addictions she was also dealing with a much bigger monster! She had secrets and was scared to reveal
Penny Leidecker
Sep 10, 2019 rated it it was amazing
This is a beautifully written story that deals with some tough subjects. Holding on to Forever centers around Adam and Emily. Emily and Adam attend Cypress University and Adam is very attracted to her from the first time he sees her. Emily is off-limits, since she is Coach Parker’s daughter. Adam is the quarterback. Emily has an addiction to “Molly” and when Adam’s family has some financial troubles, Adam starts dealing. I won’t leave any spoilers as to what lead Emily to using, but no one shoul ...more
Abby J Capps
Sep 09, 2019 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
I was lucky enough to get an ARC for this and I’m so glad I did!!
In the face of struggles with family, money, addiction and trauma, love is born. Adam and Emily cross paths and start up something that should be off limits. The struggles they go through are realistic and so well written. Their love is believable. This story was so good, you won’t want to stop reading! I even stayed up until 4 am to finish it! Plus who doesn’t love a hot, quarterback with pretty green eyes! Read this book! It’s w
Sep 11, 2019 rated it it was amazing
I absolutely loved this book, I couldn’t put it down. Emily has had a tough go at life and really isn’t in a good place but once she meets Adam who has problems of his own you really get to see the type of person that emily could be. I adored Adam. The way he loves is amazing. His mother and sister are his world and you can tell he’s do anything for them. Siobhan and really becoming a new favorite author of mine. She writes the type of stories that you just have to know what’s going to happen ne ...more
Nicki - The Overflowing Bookcase
This book had me on the edge of my seat. The gut wrenching storyline of past abuse and addiction was so honestly portrayed the reader feels like they are walking in the character's footsteps. Add in the lovable but so misunderstood Emily and the Superman Adam and you will not be able to put this book down. I wish I could give it more than 5 stars - this is a must read!! ...more
Rhonda Ziglar
Sep 09, 2019 rated it it was amazing
5 OMG MOMENT STARS!! This book was crazy busy that sucked me in from the first page. Adam and Emily both have had lots of drama, but these two will touch your heart. Their story will hit all your emotion button with some tough subjects and keep you turning pages. These two authors compliment each other writing and turned out a fantastic story.
christine harris
Sep 10, 2019 rated it it was amazing
Omg this book was so good, i went back and reread it. This is the type of book you wont be able to put down. Adam and Emily story catches your interest right away. I really enjoyed how its started off with each of them having a story that worked into them being togeather.
Sep 15, 2019 rated it really liked it
It's been a few days since I finished this book and I really wanted to wrap my head around it and get my thoughts together.

The synopsis of this book grabbed my attention and knowing that Siobhan Davis was one of the two authors, I had high expectations of this being executed very well.  

This book hits on a few subjects that may be tough for some to handle (drug addiction, rape, abuse).  Siobhan has always been able to handle tough subjects in her book by keeping it real but also doing it respect
Jenifer Briggs
Sep 12, 2019 rated it it was amazing
**Before I write my review, I want to state that this book contains drug use and sexual violence. If these are triggers for you, this is not a read for you.**

This book.. wow, am I ever blown away. This is not a light hearted meet cute story of two college aged people falling in love and facing diversity. This is a story of drug use, of sexual assault, of emotional demons, parental neglect, and depression. This is a book that needed to be written to shine light on what happens to someone's psyche
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