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The Existence Of Amy

3.91  ·  Rating details ·  351 ratings  ·  125 reviews
Amy has a normal life. That is, if you were to go by a definition of 'no immediate obvious indicators of peculiarity', and you didn't know her very well. She has good friends, a good job, a nice enough home. This normality, however, is precariously plastered on top of a different life. A life that is Amy's real life. The only one her brain will let her lead.
Kindle Edition, 247 pages
Published August 2nd 2019
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Brenda - Traveling Sisters Book Reviews
Lana Grace Riva joined us for a Q & A in the Behind the Pages group and gave us some great insight into The Existence Of Amy. You can find the Q & A here.

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Amy seems like she functions on the outside, but she is good at hiding the daily struggles going on in her head. I instantly connected with our main character Amy and was completely drawn into her life. In some ways, many of us can relate to some of Amy's life and thoughts; however, Amy battles w
Lindsay - Traveling Sisters Book Reviews
4 stars!

Insightful. Heartbreaking. Informative. Eye-opening. Hopeful.

This novel offers an intimate look into OCD, social anxiety and depression. Amy, the main character who narrates this unforgettable novel, suffers with all of these. Amy holds down a full time job, has a home and maintains friendships. However, those around her don’t know the dark depths of her personal issues. They don’t understand the constant, mentally exhausting thoughts and concerns she struggles with every minute of every
Sep 21, 2019 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
What I particularly liked about this book is how author Lana Grace Riva has explored the topic about OCD, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Many people suffer from OCD in different ways, that takes over the suffering persons life.

The challenge for Amy is every day tasks like traveling to work by bus, like she can't even press the bell to stop the bus or hold onto the pole to steady herself from the bus jolts. It's clear to Amy Do NOT TOUCH ANYTHING ON THIS BUS.

Amy has a job, which made me wonder
Sep 29, 2019 rated it really liked it
This was a really good mental health book, which follows Amy and her experiences with OCD and depression.

I didn't know much going into this one as it was kindly sent over by the author, free, for review.

I have to admit that adult contemporary books aren't usually my thing but I quite enjoyed this one probably because there was a large focus on mental health.

I really saw myself in Amy. As someone who has lived with OCD and depression, I really felt for Amy and I definitely got a bit choked up at
Jayne Anderson
Sep 17, 2019 rated it really liked it
I was thrilled when this author contacted me to see if I would be interested in a copy of her book to review. Of course, I accepted and then the fear set in. What if I didn't like the book and I had to leave a review that was a bit sugar coated. I've always prided myself in being totally honest when providing my feedback. Thankfully, I can honestly say I truly enjoyed this book.

It was written in the first person, which is not a style I have read a lot of, but for this story it worked perfectly a
Feb 25, 2020 rated it really liked it
The Existence of Amy by Lana Grace Riva is a book that gives a fabulous insight to what living with OCD and depression is like. 

Told from Amy's point of view, we really get inside her head and understand how her own brain is ruining her life. 

Amy struggles to leave the house, use public transport and attend social events with work friends, even just going to the pub after work is a huge battle. It's not that she doesn't want to do these things. It's that her brain tells her it's not safe. 

I have
Jan 22, 2020 rated it really liked it
Amy seems like a normal woman. She has a good job, loyal friends and a nice home. As you probably think, it’s everything that wants to achieve in life. However, the real life of Amy looks completely different. She lives how her brain allows her to and it’s making everything harder. She can’t fight it, even if she wants. It controls her life, relationships and moods. It’s hard for her to leave her apartments because it’s her safe place and outside waits for her a lot of hazards.

She’s good in hid
Anika  | Chapters of May
TW: mental health disorders

This book is hauntingly realistic. From the first two paragraphs I could identify with Amy and it struck a chord straight away. All she wants to feel is “normal”, but instead she feels she’s anything but. Her brain has complete control over her, it’s almost like she can’t think independently of her anxieties.

While reading this book, I really felt like I was transported into Amy’s head. Halfway through, I could almost predict what her next thought of action would be be
May 26, 2020 rated it liked it
I am a sucker for books that tackle mental health issues, so I was so excited when the author reached out and asked if I’d like a copy of her book, which is all about a woman suffering with obsessive compulsive disorder.

I have mental health issues myself, which is probably why I find the subject so incredibly fascinating, but I know very little about OCD. Obviously, I know what it is and what it drives people to do, but I don’t know how a person suffering with OCD really feels, or the full exte
Jan 13, 2020 rated it really liked it
Amy should be happy. She has a great job that she loves, where people care about her. She has friends. She has a great place to live in England. She has her freedom to do whatever she wants with her life.

But Amy has a secret. It’s a secret that keeps her from spending time with friends. It keeps her alone and isolated, exhausted and unhappy. Amy struggles with her mental health. Her anxiety and depression sometimes conspire to wreck her life, or that’s how it feels to her anyway.

As she goes th
Nov 10, 2020 rated it really liked it
"I can't hide the crazy so well when I'm in plain visible sight of all my colleagues."

The Existence of Amy is a story about a woman who to the outside world looks like a normal working woman going about her day to day life. Yes, she may come across as anti-social when she refuses countless invites to after work drinks nights. But, how many of us shy away from socialising with our work mates.

But, as we delve deeper into the story we see that Amy isn't as grounded as we first thought. There's a p
Aug 16, 2020 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
The language/writing was a bit simple for my taste, but that also made it easy to get into and a quick read. I really loved the OCD/depression rep in this book. Didn't love the step-by-step discussion of the character's day, as it's just not to my personal taste, but it also really helps us see the effects of mental illness on her day-to-day life!
✩⋆ Victoria ⋆✩
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Mar 11, 2020 rated it really liked it
Shelves: march-2020
Thank you to Lana Grace Riva for sending me a copy of The Existence Of Amy for an honest review.

Amy suffers from OCD and depression. The Existence Of Amy is from the viewpoint inside her mind and life struggling to control it herself. The story was very interesting as it highlights regular things that might not be a problem for most but were insurmountable for the main character. It was an easy and fast read, and the only thing I can say I didn’t love was maybe it was too easy a read considering
I won a free Kindle copy of this book in a Goodreads giveaway, for which I'd like to thank the publisher and the author.

I have to rate this book as "okay." Reading it, you quickly realize that there's something different about the main character, Amy. The story moved along (sometimes painfully slowly, but it did move), but at times I wondered what the point of the story was and in about the last 10% of the story, when the story then really moves, everything aligns and the point is, kinda sorta,
Hailie Norman
Sep 13, 2020 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: adult, 2019-release
Going into The Existence of Amy, I knew that the main character would be dealing with some sort of mental illness. I was pleasantly surprised that our main character, Amy, is going through her life dealing with OCD and depression. I have someone close to me with similar issues, so I enjoyed gaining more insight into what dealing with OCD and depression is like.

The book is about Amy's struggles with living a "normal" life despite her intrusive thoughts and days where she struggles to leave her b
Lynn Brown
Sep 21, 2020 rated it it was amazing
When I began the book I wasn't sure it was going to be for me as Chapter 1 was a first hand experience of Amy's bus journey. I had empathy with her issues on the journey, but I worried it was going to be a little depressive to read. Chapter 2 came and I was hooked!

Over the years I have met and worked with many people who others have considered not "normal". I've been laughed at for giving them the time of day or even being friends with them. When Chapter 2 begins Amy is at the office and I could
Kirsty Procter
Jun 09, 2020 rated it it was amazing
I was lucky enough to be sent a copy of this book in exchange for a review.
This book was a very important and informative read highlighting the difficulties of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, anxiety and crippling depression.
From the very first page of this book I knew it was going to be a very hard-hitting read. I found it difficult to read through Amy's life, seeing how something that would be the smallest deal to me is something that would cause her serious issues and discomfort. Being written
Liza | The Inharmonious Heroine
My rating: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ (4 stars)

“Not the jokey kind of OCD where someone might occasionally double check they’ve locked the door and say ‘I’m so OCD about that door!’. There’s nothing remotely jokey about the kind I have.”

The Existence of Amy – simply put – is a lovely book.

I think Riva manages to capture the daily struggles of someone suffering from untreated OCD and depression really well. Not only does what Amy deal with seem realistic, but it’s told in a way that feels immediately relatable
Brooke Garratt
Sep 22, 2020 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
"Am I ever going to be able to properly function as a human being?"

In this story we follow our protagonist Amy through her journey suffering with OCD and depression. As someone with OCD, I was delighted to read a book with such accurate and amazing representation, I had no idea that OCD was involved in the story before reading it and was so happy upon my discovery.

This book is so raw and does not hold anything back to keep the reader comfortable and that is so important to educate people on the
Megan Smith
Jun 10, 2020 rated it really liked it
Lana Grace Riva has done an outstanding job of portraying life with a mental illness (in this case Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and Anxiety/Depression). Throughout the whole book, I felt like I wanted to wrap my arms around Amy and give her a huge hug (although really, that would be the worst thing to do to her).

The story was written in a way that was digestible and especially relatable for anybody who has suffered from this illness. I couldn't help but feel so desperately sad for Amy who was m
May 06, 2020 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Full review

I’ve read a lot of fiction with a main character living with anxiety, depression and OCD. This has been one of my favourites. It was so refreshing to read a book where the character had a mental illness and they were an adult. I found Amy incredibly relatable and a breath of fresh air. It was told from her perspective and was a realistic portrayal of living with OCD, trying to juggle mental illness with triggers, work-life, social occasions and
Peter Baran
Dec 26, 2019 rated it it was ok
Shelves: read-harder-2019
A decent insight into OCD and depression which is frustrating by the very nature of the lead character. Not really much that can be done about that, though she is placed in a surprisingly supportive world, with people who look out for her. Lack of family, and insight into triggers, also seem to be there to make this more of a universal narrative, to include anyone who may recognise themselves and feel they need help, but the book is non-committal about place, space, time and even if the pharmaco ...more
May 31, 2020 rated it it was amazing
A realistic story of true OCD and depression and the journey out.
Aug 12, 2020 rated it liked it
The Existence of Amy allows readers to get into Amy’s head and experience her battle with mental health. From the outside looking in, Amy has a great life. She is a single woman with a good job, a two-bedroom apartment, and caring coworkers that become friends. You may even be naive enough to wonder, what is she missing?

I found myself becoming increasingly frustrated with Amy in the first half of the book. Readers receive insight on her struggles with daily tasks like taking public transportatio
Amy Ingalls
Jan 25, 2020 rated it liked it
Shelves: giveaways
I won this book in a giveaway.

I think this book does a good job of showing us what it is like inside Amy's head as she suffers from debilitating OCD and Depression. However, I would have liked to see a bit more of Amy's personality from the perspective of her friends. We are told she is funny and well-liked, and she must be since her friends are amazingly supportive. I just think it would have been nice to see it, since so many people go through life hiding their true anxieties and emotions just
Georgia - whatsinmywonderland
Here is my no-spoiler review of The Existence of Amy by Lana Grace Riva. (4/5 stars)

The Existence of Amy follows the story of a young woman who seems to live the perfect life from the outside looking in. But inside Amy is dealing with undiagnosed mental health problems that are beginning to rule her life. They are affecting her ability to live, work and have a relationship with anyone.

Amy loves her job and has a great relationship with her work collegues d
Quina (aprettystory)
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Oct 20, 2019 rated it it was amazing
This is an important read if you want to get a glimpse inside the mind of someone that suffers from Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and Depression. Along with obsessive compulsive thoughts and actions, anxiety is a main component of OCD. As someone who suffers from anxiety, I was very involved in the reading of this book. There were a few moments that I had to put the book down and breathe and remind myself that I was ok and this wasn’t real. The feelings were very accurate.

Was the writing perfect
Lauren Archer
Oct 30, 2019 rated it really liked it
This book is all about Amy, who has a job, some great friends that she meets from her work. She wants a relationship and everything else that appears to be “normal”. What you get is a story about a girl struggling with OCD and Depression. Riva gives a great own voices story about how Amy struggles with practically everything,

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