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To Have

4.45  ·  Rating details ·  58 ratings  ·  41 reviews

They say forbidden fruit is the sweetest.
Those people have obviously never tasted her kiss...

When I was eight years old, I met my soul mate.
Charlotte Kasen.Little sister to my best friend and the only girl I ever loved.
Her family saved me from Hell on Earth when I was eleven.

How did I repay her? I took her first kiss, then pushed her away for more than a decade.

I mad
Kindle Edition, 288 pages
Published December 22nd 2019 by self-published
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Stacie R.
Dec 23, 2019 rated it it was amazing
Life hasn’t been nice or easy for Deacon Devereaux. He suffered more in the first years of his life than many do. His saving grace was meeting Charlotte Kasen, and her family welcoming him with open arms. He’s always loved Charlotte, but the timing has never been quite right, and he made a vow to her brother at the tender age of 14 to keep his distance. The problem is now that they are older, keeping his distance is the last thing he wants to do.

Charlotte swore she was over Deacon, but she just
The Lusty Literarians
Dec 23, 2019 rated it it was amazing
To Have is a stunning debut novel from new writer Kali Brixton. She immediately sucks you into the action and the fast pace never lets up. The story is told in what is mostly a series of flashbacks from Charlotte and Deacon’s POVs. I loved that and thought it made for a unique way of story telling. Deacon and Charlotte have a past that is so interconnected and we are afforded a wonderful view into their shared history. Deacon is a swoon-worthy hero and Charlotte is an absolute delight.

While this
Feb 05, 2020 rated it really liked it
I need to think about this book review. I want to word it right.

Sweet Romance.

Two lives forever entwined, no matter what hurdle is thrown at them. They might go down different paths, to begin with, but in the end they meet up again.

Amy [Book Addict Reviews]
Dec 24, 2019 rated it it was amazing
Kali Brixton is a new author and To Have is a fantastic debut novel. I really had no idea what to expect going into this book, but it was such a beautiful, emotional surprise. I fell in love with this story, with these characters. My heart broke for them, I wanted everyone to get the happy ending and the second chance they truly deserved.

Deacon has had a rough life, he has experienced pain, suffering, love and loss all from a very young age. My heart broke for him, but despite everything he has
Jan 08, 2020 rated it really liked it
To Have by Kali Braxton
𝕊𝕥𝕠𝕣𝕪𝕝𝕚𝕟𝕖: Deacon Devereaux survived a rough start to life, escaping his brutal father by spending time at the home of his best friend, Aiden Kasen. Aiden had an ideal home life - loving, hard-working parents, two brothers - Grey & Mason, a kid sister - Charlotte, and warm meals and hugs. When the Kasens discover Deacon’s abuse they take him in and raise him as their own.

Charlotte grows from a tiny 4 year old with a big heart to a savvy young wom
Lynne Garlick
Dec 24, 2019 rated it it was amazing
Be still my heart!

Holy crap! Let me just catch my breath, because that literally took it away! This book is the debut book by this author, yes, you read that right! This is her first ever book baby and let me tell you this, I could not put it down at all! From that first page I knew it was going to take my heart and emotions and throw them six ways Sunday!
It's angsty, heartbreaking and breathtaking! You will experience all and more as you read this. The author has a way of drawing you in with h
Dec 26, 2019 rated it it was amazing
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Jan 15, 2020 rated it it was amazing
A beautiful introduction



Just a beautiful story!!!!

ReviewWhat a way to start off as an author. Kali Brixton did such a great job with this being her first book.I couldn't pick up on any first book jitters that are normally noticeable with new authors.

Deacon and Charlotte's story has a few surprises that you didn't see coming. I enjoyed so much from this book, from the characters, the storyline and the writing 👌👌👌 The characters are intriguing, I enjoyed the way they bantered back and forth. Th
Kitty Rio Sol
Jan 06, 2020 rated it it was amazing

This is Brixton’s debut book and I love it. She creates such a sweet solid world. All the characters are intricately drawn, and I want to know more about each of them.

Charlotte and Deacon grew up together. Deacon, best friends with Charlotte’s older brother, always made sure Charlotte felt a part of every adventure, even when the other boys would’ve been happy to leave their annoying little sister out of it.

Deacon grows up into a barrel of a man, who’s dark, stormy and irresistible to Charlott
Bree Rock N Read
Dec 30, 2019 rated it it was amazing
To Have by Kali Brixton is one heck of a debut novel.

I was gripped by this story from the opening scene and was never let go.

What I loved about Kali’s writing is that she provides two amazing main characters in Deacon and Charlotte, wraps their story in plenty of angst and chemistry, and delivers an HEA to make you swoon.

The way the characters bring flashbacks into the story support such brilliance into how Deacon and Charlotte experience the obstacles that they do. There is plenty of pain and h
Kyra Fox
Feb 01, 2020 rated it really liked it
This is a second chance meant to be story of two souls who got woven together at a very young age, and no matter what life threw at them those bonds never broke.
Brixton has a great writing style and her storyline is cohesive and flows well.
We have sweet moments, heart-wrenching moments (A LOT OF THOSE) and a lot of intrigues.
The only thing I took issue with, and this is a bit of a peeve for me, is the overabundance of bad things that keep getting in the way of Charlotte and Deacon getting togeth
Shanna Swenson
Jan 17, 2020 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: romance
Heart-breaking, endearing, beautiful. A great start to a new series.

This book had me pulled in from the first page.

Deacon Deveraux is charming, devoted, humble--the perfect broken alpha. And I love those broken alphas…plus he’s raven-headed and blue-eyed; it doesn’t get much better than that in my book ;-)
Charlotte Kasen is a lot sweet, a little sassy and has a heart of pure gold.

These two have been meant for one another from the moment of their meeting when little Charlotte came to help a d
Jan 16, 2020 rated it it was amazing
OMGoodness! This book was AMAZING! It was well written, and detailed to the point where I can actually picture the events taking place. The story starts off somber and in the present. I love how the story flips back and forth between past and present to keep you up to speed and give you insight as to how certain events got them to where they are. Add in a sour deal that went astray, to mixed lovers and add a touch of comedy and you have the ultimate book! The chart were phenomenal as well as the ...more
Skye Yanovsky
Dec 29, 2019 rated it it was amazing
To Have is the debut novel by Kali Brixton and it is hard to believe this is a debut novel. It is wonderfully written with a fast-paced & engaging storyline. ⁣
This story has so many layers. Deacon is finally home for good after leaving town two years ago to deal with his own demons & issues. Demons and issues caused by both being injured and losing his best friend (the oldest Kasen sibling) when they were in the Army together. Now he’s back in the town that holds the best and worse memories o
Dec 24, 2019 rated it it was amazing
Wow, Ms. Brixton hit the ball out of the park with her debut book To Have. It’s an amazing love story following Deacon and Charlotte through their life. From their fateful meeting during childhood, through heartbreak and hurt to adulthood packed with the regret of having waited too long. This story is amazing. I shed so many tears for Deacon throughout the book as his life, while packed so full of love and friendship has also been littered with pain and sorrow throughout his years. Ms. Brixton s ...more
Jan 15, 2020 rated it it was amazing
Considering that this is Kali's debut novel you wouldn't think so with how amazing this book is.

This book had so much emotion and was such a page turner that I didn't want it to end. I loved how it was told from different POV so you could understand the story more. I fell in love with Charlotte and Deacon and honestly can't wait for her next book! It does touch some topics that may be a trigger but it was such an amazing story regardless.

I love a bad boy so this was a perfect book for me. Enemie
Rachel - Read with Rach
Jan 23, 2020 rated it it was amazing
This was a fantastic debut novel by Kali and I cannot wait to read more from her. I don't want to spoil anything because I think you should all read it. Deacon and Charlotte were perfectly imperfect characters. This story made me feel so many things. I read it in one sitting because I could not put it down! This was a definite five star for me and I cannot recommend it enough. ...more
Jan 15, 2020 rated it it was amazing
Such an amazing story, so emotional and touching! The story is something you can truly relate to, a second chance at love, life being happy it's all just so absolutely beautiful!! Kali did a flawless job writting this book and it hooks you in from the first page can't wait to see what else she has for us!! ...more
Dec 29, 2019 rated it it was amazing
Emotional. Everlasting love. Second chances. This is a tale that will withstand the test of time. A love story like no other that makes you long for a love story like theirs. These words, characters and epic background will blow you away!

Are you serious that this was a debut novel? This book seems to have been written by a much more veteran author. I was absolutely enthralled from the beginning by Deacon and Charlotte. The way these characters come to life in front of me was absolutely amazing.
Lynn Stifle
Jan 07, 2020 rated it it was amazing
This was such a wonderful debut novel by Kali Brixton! I'm a huge fan of second chance romances and this one was absolutely incredible and I loved every single page of it. It has the perfect balance of emotion, romance, wonderful characters, and love. I simply adored Deacon and Charlotte's story and can not wait to see what this author will write next. ...more
Dec 28, 2019 rated it it was amazing
What an amazing debut was To Have by Kali Brixton. From the very first page I knew this book was going to grab a hold on my heart without letting go. Deacon and Charlotte were the main characters and their journey was one of a kind. From their very first encounter as kids I could sense this relationship was going to be an emotional one. Deacon suffered so many horrible things as a boy but luckily for him Charlotte showed up one day extending her hand and heart to him and without even knowing she ...more
Pretty_Book_Whore  Narissa
Dec 27, 2019 rated it it was amazing
To Have was by far the best first book written ever! Kali really knows how to tell a story and pull on your heart strings. Charlotte and Deacon grew up together and of course her older brothers told him she was off limits, but Deacon fell in love with her the first day she met him when she helped bury his only friend, his dog, and held his hand while telling saying she would always love him because he wasnt here to do it. From the start of this book you will have tears in your eyes for the broke ...more
samantha mcconnell
Jan 02, 2020 rated it it was amazing
An awesome emotional story. I loved it. Kali really knows how to pull your heart strings and get your feels going. A must read
ToniAnn Papa
Dec 30, 2019 rated it it was amazing
This book will make you laugh. It will make you cry. It will make your heart stop. But, I promise, it will be worth every word.
Rosie's Bookshelf
Dec 23, 2019 rated it it was amazing
What an absolute fantastic story from first time novelist Kali Brixton.

The this story captivated you from the very beginning and keeps you engrossed and entertained the entire way through.

Full of all the ups and downs you would expect from a great romance novel l, I can’t wait to read more from this author
Lexi Miles
Jan 28, 2020 rated it it was amazing
To Have by Kali Brixton
Novel: To Have
Author: Kali Brixton
Rating: 5 STARS
Reviewer: Lexi Miles
Posting: MF, Epic Romance, HEAs, Head-hopping
Series: Vows (Book 1, Can Be Read as Stand-Alone)
Released: December 2019
Review Date: 1-27-2020

It was everything you want in an epic romance and more!–Lexi Miles, Romance Author/Reviewer


Charlotte Kasen and Deacon Devereaux meet at a young age and become friends. Instantly they form a deep connection. Soon after, complications arise in Deacon's life and h
Feb 08, 2020 rated it it was amazing
Wow this story was brilliant, i cannot put into the right words to say how much i enjoyed this book, the characters are beautiful! Plenty going on to keep you hooked and needing to know what happens next. Deacon & Charlotte are such beautiful souls trying to find their way to be together ❤
Kali you did amazing and i cannot wait to see what is next 😘
K.O. Newman
Jan 27, 2020 rated it it was amazing

Brixton's debut novel is nothing short of extraordinary. Deacon and Charlotte's story is filled with pain and anger, guilt and old hurts, with a good dose of secrets from both side, to round out all the pieces that have been keeping that's second chance lovers apart.

This book grips you from page one, tearing your heart out with the first chapter, and it doesn't slow from there. With just enough humor to keep from diving into depression, and steam to fog up your Kindle, this book has it
Egle (readingfreakquotes)
Dec 27, 2019 rated it it was amazing
I had huge pleasure reading this debut novel by Kali Brixton, it was a perfect holiday read and what a way to start the series! There were few things mentioned throughout the story that didn't get closure in this book yet so I'm sure we'll find out more about everyone in Kasen's family and will get to know how those turned out at the end.

I fell in love with the main characters Charlotte and Deacon from very first pages. The chemistry these two share is through the roof, but unfortunately, they h
Kristen Granata
Apr 22, 2020 rated it it was amazing
I’m a sucker for flashbacks that pull you into the present story. I enjoyed this book so much! Loved watching Deacon & Charlotte develop, and I also loved Charlotte’s brothers (books for them, please!) I can’t wait to see what this author comes out with next.
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Kali Brixton is the alter ego of a mild-mannered English teacher who adores the written word and a good ol'-fashioned love story (or song). Cinderella will forever be her bread, butter, and jelly, and glitter runs in her veins.

She believes in the healing power of hugs, humor, and HEAs. All things sparkly, cheesy, and Wizard of Oz-zy are guaranteed attention-grabbers.

Although rooted deep within the

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