“You are now at a crossroads....Don't think about who you have been…Who have you decided to become? Make this decision consciously. Make it carefully. Make it powerfully. Then act upon it.” ~ Anthony Robbins
Marcus Light, of ‘Crossroads’ by Logan Meredith, is not happy with his life. He hates his job, but needs the money that comes with it. He has obligations that keep him from doing what he wants to do, but doesn’t know how to move forward. Things begin to look up when Ethan Yoder comes to work for his company. Suddenly, Ethan doesn’t mind going to work at all. He even comes in early to the surprise of his coworkers, who aren’t used to Marcus spending even a second extra at work.
Having worked so hard to get away from his hometown, Ethan wants to make a good impression at work. He is determined to get a good job and make it on his own in the big city. It is not what he is hoping for, but he manages to obtain employment as an intern; Ethan is hoping it will lead to a full-time position. Ethan is assigned to work with Marcus, but finds him dismissive and difficult. Yet, at the same time, Marcus flirts with him incessantly. When Marcus finally convinces Ethan to go out with him, he fires Ethan by having him reassigned so they can date without fraternization being a problem.
Marcus has three very close friends from college whom he trusts with his secrets; one of the biggest has to do with his failures in the romance department. In the beginning, things go well, but inevitably, they fall apart. Marcus hasn’t been able to sort out what happens, but he does know that he craves romance and affection, but yet he is seldom, if ever, interested in the sexual part. When his friends learn that Marcus is seeing someone new, understandably, they are concerned. They have seen him hurt too many to not say anything. For this reason, Marcus delays telling his love interest as long as he can; usually, this omission leads to disastrous results, leaving him sad and brokenhearted. Marcus knows that he should explain how he feels, but he is so afraid that Ethan won’t understand that he delays the inevitable.
Ethan has never been on a real date with a man and can hardly wait for the time to arrive. When it does, they have a wonderful time. Over the next few weeks, they enjoy each other’s company doing a variety of activities. Yet, Ethan is a little disappointed that the physical relationship is not evolving the way he hoped. Ethan begins to wonder if he has misread Marcus’s intentions, or if his interest in him is waning. At the same time, Marcus is overly attentive, sending an overabundance of emails, texts, tweets, and is still flirting. In fact, Ethan can hardly get his work done! When Ethan asks him what’s going on, Marcus has to admit the truth; he loves the romance but that he very seldom feels physically aroused. With this revelation, the ball is in Ethan’s court. He loves being with Marcus and feels that their relationship is growing into something deeper, but can they find a way to accommodate both of their needs?
It was sad to me that Marcus had to pretend to feel something that he didn’t, that he felt he was somehow “wrong” for not feeling it. It’s difficult for me to imagine not feeling aroused, but I can appreciate the fact that it was his reality. Not everyone fits into the same cubby hol’; there is no right or wrong way. What’s best for you is what’s best, period, and if you are fortunate enough to find someone who loves you as you are, it’s a glorious thing. Thanks, Logan, for the reminder that we are all different, and that’s okay.