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The Hate You Drink

4.10  ·  Rating details ·  1,588 ratings  ·  245 reviews
Erik Keston, son of the Keston Real Estate empire, knows what it takes to be successful. Despite his inherent wealth, he holds his own. He works hard, he’s grounded, he’s brilliant. He’s also secretly in love with his best friend.

Monroe Wellman lost his parents three years ago and never grieved, never recovered. Inheriting the family company and wealth means nothing, and h
Paperback, 1st edition, 300 pages
Published May 21st 2019 by Blueheart Press
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~✡~Dαni(ela) ♥ ♂♂ love & semi-colons~✡~

This book won't be everyone's cuppa. It deals with alcoholism and doesn't sugarcoat addiction.

Monroe is a mess: selfish, reckless, hanging on my a thin thread of sanity. He drinks to forget. He drinks to escape. He drinks because it's easier than dealing with the grief of losing his parents.

Monroe's only constant is Erik: his best friend, his keeper, his everything.

But Erik has been in love with Monroe for years, and it's killing him to watch Monroe self-destruct. Finally, Erik gives Mon
May 28, 2019 rated it liked it
Shelves: 2019, m-m
3.5 Star

The Hate You Drink is about two addicted guys, Monroe is addicted to alcohol and Erik is addicted to Monroe. Monroe uses drinking to protect himself, to be in control, to be not himself, to escape reality… His addiction is out of control now…
Erik is his best friend (for years) and he is the guy who can’t say no to Monroe or being mad at him, he just wants to be around him… But at some point, he can’t tolerate anymore…

Told in dual POV, 1st person, it’s a standalone novel. It’s a friends-t
May 21, 2019 rated it liked it
-2.75 stars-

I struggled a lot with this one. I have a feeling it's just me, not the book, though, because this is definitely a typical Walker story and I used to love these.

The beginning was very promising. There was angst, intensity, a lot of feels and the promise of a separation period. I was pleased. But then it all went downhill for me when Monroe started a detox and rehab program.

I know that the author had to focus on Monroe working on getting better and I'm glad she did, but it was too mu
May 24, 2019 marked it as dnf  ·  review of another edition
DNF at 32%

I'd hoped I would want to pick it up after I took a break, but I don't.

N.R. Walker has always been a hit or miss for me. And unfortunately this was a miss.

I just wasn't feeling this. The subject is quite heavy, but somehow it didn't feel heavy (enough) when I was reading this. I never felt as if Monroe really did hit rock bottom. Or that Erik really was at the end of his rope as his best friend/love interest.

Same with the intervention they staged. That felt so forced and even a bit ju
Jun 04, 2019 rated it it was ok
I'm pretty sure it's me and not the book....

From the very first chapters it was clear that we wouldn't be a good match. I couldn't connect with the characters and I didn't believe in their romance.

Erik and Monroe have been friends for many years, they're both gay but they have never crossed that line. Erik is attracted to Monroe and totally in love with him since they met but he never did anything about it. Monroe on the other hand is totally oblivious about his friend's feelings. He's in a roug
I often go for N.R. Walker’s books without hesitation as I enjoy her writing style and the amount of fluff she instils in her romances (even when it’s not a fluffy romance). And she goes with diverse topics, so no boredom.

This time, N.R. Walker goes with 2 MCs who are best friends but at a crossroad in their life : Monroe is spiralling into alcoholism and Erik is too deep into his secret – and unhealthy - love for his best friend. It has to change and fast, for both of them before they lost them
May 21, 2019 rated it liked it
I've said it once, I'll repeat it- 3-star reviews are the worst to write. It makes you explain why it wasn't a complete winner.

There were many positives to The Hate You Drink by N.R. Walker-

-Friend to lovers
-Dual POVs
-Nice set of secondary characters.
-I liked Erik and Monroe.

BUT, it didn't deliver what I wanted most: RELATIONSHIP ANGST. Aside from the first couple of scenes; there was zero conflict between the two main characters. Everything between them was sugary s
Jun 01, 2019 rated it liked it
Probably the only reason I read a book that deals with alcoholism was because of N.R. Walker. I really like her writing style and I admire that she can write about diverse topics.

But, while I liked some of its parts, I don't think this story was for me. It's main focus is on Monroe's recovery, so Erik and Monroe spend a certain amount of time apart. There's also not much about what their friendship was like before. Maybe that's why I never fully connected to the characters.
Monroe's road to recovery

2.75 stars
This book is more so about the process of recovery for an alcoholic. After Monroe's parents died all he has been doing is drinking his problems away. His drinking has become so bad his best friend and his best friends parent step into get him help.
The author does try to throw romance in the book but I do not think she found the proper balance to make this work. The relationship did not feel organic and it was hard for me to connect with Erik and Monroe especia
3.75 stars

I was looking for the angst.

When it comes to the addiction component, the angst was there. This story takes us through the immediate "before" Monroe goes into addiction treatment for alcoholism and then through his first 30 days sober.

He has put his best friend, Erik, through hell for the past three years. Erik has given and given, while Monroe has taken and taken.

I read this book in one sitting, which goes to show why this author is a favorite. I just love reading whatever she writ
4.5 stars!

Before reading this, I saw a lot of negative reviews. Some positive sure, but I was seeing quite a bit more negative ones, and I was wondering if I would feel like they were about this - since it deals with such a serious subject and Walker is usually fairly fluffy and doesn't do crazy angst all that much - so I went into this thinking I maybe wasn't gonna like it.

But that turns out not to be the case. I saw some reviews saying things like after the start of this, things got too easy -
Jun 05, 2019 rated it really liked it
Shelves: mm-contemporary
What a beautiful story - alcoholism is a real issue and is one that was addressed with compassion in this story. Monroe & Erik certainly adored each other and I’m glad that after the fog and pain they could both enjoy their truth. Simply lovely ❤️ ...more
May 20, 2019 rated it really liked it
4 stars.

He's my best friend; he my family. But he's more than that.

This was a tough read. Addiction is not easy for the person itself and those who love you. But I'm glad that the author doesn't sugarcoat it so we get to see what really happens to a person who goes through any type of addiction.

I loved the MCs and most of the secondary characters. Monroe and Erik were meant to be. Even though they're not together for a good chunk of the story, you can still feel the love and romance they h
May 23, 2019 rated it it was amazing
4,5 stars

The Hate You Drink was a roller coaster of emotions; angst, hope, despair, hurt, love, cravings and so much more, all wrapped up in a hefty dose of UST. The first part of this book broke my heart. It’s where we first meet Erik and Monroe. We see Erik desperately in love with his best friend. Feel the longing for Monroe to notice him, to feel the same way about him. We see Monroe doing everything he can to escape any and all feelings, feel how utterly lost he is, the devastation. How alc
Aki | nose buried in books | ❤️ |
One of the best hurt/comfort story I've ever read!
This is not my favourite kind of plot usually, but this book deserves 5+ stars!
As usual, it's beautifully written and the characters are amazing. The epilogue is the best in the world.
Realistic? I don't think so, not even a little, but who cares? It's a novel!
I liked everything about this one❣️
Aug 08, 2020 rated it liked it
I donno.... but this book just didn't make it!
It's weird how fast monroe decided that he was in love with eric from the beginning
Didn't really feel any connection between the mc's
A low angst addiction love story!!

This is a hard one for me to review because of personal reasons. Those reasons really helped me identify with Monroe, the addict, and with Erik, his best mate and enabler.

This was a great read, considering the ugly beginning when we see Monroe knee deep in liquor and it’s consequences. After that, everything is prettied up. I can only imagine that another author used to plunging us in angst like Garrett Leigh, would have taken us to rock bottom and reveled in u

I feel a bit confused about this. The topic was intense and was hard to read about. But I expected to feel it more. I know everyone handles grief differently but Monroe got a bit overboard in my opinion. But I guess that proves the fact. Erik was in over his head, trying to help his friend, enabling him in his behavior.


I liked the dynamics between them although it didn't work the full 100% for me. Still a good read.
May 31, 2019 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: favorites
N.R. Walker tackles addiction well in this story. Monroe's struggle with alcoholism and recovery is tough. Erik's addiction to Monroe or his enabler is also tough, but in Walker fashion this book has all the feels. I loved Monroe's journey to letting go, healing, finding himself and accepting love. I loved that Erik and his wonderful family stood by Monroe all the way. Saul was an amazing character as Monroe's therapist. I love a good friends to lovers story and this one was heartwarming and bro ...more
Believe it or not, I lost my patience a few times throughout the book, because holy waterworks SO much crying [though I understand why they cried as much as they did] ... this felt like bubblegum ... it stretched on and on and on, and I was quite bored :-/, something I never expected myself to be ... !! Also, I'm not a fan of MCs being apart for a lot of the story, which these guys were! The writing was great, the topic was very important, the men were so incredibly sweet [Erik in particular], a ...more
Jun 03, 2019 rated it it was ok
2.5 Stars. Not my favorite NR Walker. I didn't really like Monroe or Eric. Honestly, I don't think you can really turn intervention and intensive rehab into a cogent romance. By their nature they really don't go together. Every time these guys got sexual or emotional (and goodness all the necessary but overwhelming amount of crying) I felt like neither one was in a healthy enough space to make decisions like that and the whole "soulmate" thing was a way to try and make it palatable or acceptable ...more
Charee ♡
Mar 19, 2020 rated it it was amazing
5 stars

Very emotional book! A few pages in, and I was already crying. :( It's definitely not for the faint of the heart. Being in Monroe's mind was a little hard to read at times because I just felt like hugging him whenever he was having a break down, but seeing Erik be there for him through his good and bad times warmed my heart. I adored these two, as individuals and as a couple. <3
4.25 Stars!
This was a very angsty read dealing with addiction, love, friendship and family.
I don’t normally enjoy angsty stories, but if NRW writes it, I’ll read it. She has yet to let me down.
This was another one that must be it’s just me, everyone loved this one and I had been looking g forward to reading it. From the beginning I just didn’t connect to either MC, for me the whole story felt forced and OTT. NR Walker is hit or miss for me.
Dislike the cover, and not my fave Nic Walker read I have to say...I've been putting it off to be honest. Having had my own selfish, self-destructive 'drinker in the closet' in the past, reading it was sometimes quite difficult. Whilst it's true that Erik was an enabler of sorts, I defy anyone who hasn't been in that particularly awful situation to really understand what goes on in the mind of someone who only seems to live to drink...and sod everyone and everything else, no matter that their fa ...more
Oct 23, 2019 rated it liked it
Shelves: mm-romance, australia
This book turned out to be completely different than I expected. I don't know whether it is good or bad. Just different. In a sense, also different than what I wanted at that moment.

I expected it to be a romance of two best friends. And this is indeed at least partly a friends-to-lovers story. But in fact, in this whole book, Eric and Monroe's romance is just an addition, a background to the main story. The main and most important point is Monroe's fight against alcohol addiction, his path to ac
Aug 06, 2019 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
I’m Crying. Tears of joy, sadness, exhaustion and love. I’m not even PMSing and I’m crying.

The Hate You Drink by N.R. Walker was seriously intense. Not for the faint of heart and not for the easy breezy either, this read is harsh and real and it makes for a genuinely authentic reality check. Life is full of trials and tribulations and sometimes you need to hit rock bottom before you can clime your way back to the top.

Addiction comes in various forms. Some good. Some bad. Walker does an amazing
The story deals with the heavy subject of alcoholism and had some really sad and difficult moments which made me cry, but here and there I also got to chuckle and the strength of the love between Erik and Monroe was beautiful.
So all in all a great book! :)
Jun 03, 2019 rated it really liked it
I enjoyed this (as I do with most all N.R. Walker books) one even though the main characters were apart from each other a great deal of the book.
Joyfully Jay
May 25, 2019 rated it really liked it
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A Joyfully Jay review.

4.25 stars

The Hate You Drink is an intense story, but also one filled with so much love and obvious caring between Monroe and Erik that it helps to balance out the more painful elements. N.R. Walker doesn’t shy away from showing Monroe hitting rock bottom with his drinking, nor from the pain his behavior inflicts on Erik. I could really feel Erik’s anguish as he loves Monroe and wants so much to take care of him, but he realizes that Monroe will never get better if he keep
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N.R. Walker is an Australian author, who loves her genre of gay romance. She loves writing and spends far too much time doing it, but wouldn't have it any other way.

She is many things; a mother, a wife, a sister, a writer. She has pretty, pretty boys who she gives them life with words.

She likes it when they do dirty, dirty things...but likes it even more when they fa

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“Someone once said to me that if you drank hate, it would get to a point where that’s all there was inside you,” he said. “And that’s very true. But the same can be said for love. If you drink it in, if it’s the only thing you let in, then love is the only thing in your heart. And I owe that to you, Erik. The love you give me is without limit, undiluted, and the only intoxicating thing I will ever need. You gave me purpose and family, and I will spend every day of forever being the man you deserve. That’s my promise to you.” 2 likes
“But he asked if we could strip away our minds and our bodies and all the physical, material bullshit, if all that was left was the light of our souls in some vastness of space, if my light could recognise your light, and I said yes. Without a doubt.” 1 likes
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