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Forgiven Are the Starry-Eyed
Naïve sixteen-year-old Andrea Cavanaugh is elated when Josh, a charismatic, bright-eyed piano prodigy, becomes her first boyfriend. But the closer she gets to him, the more she realizes that he is not the boy she first fell for. In its poignancy and emotional darkness, Forgiven Are the Starry-Eyed takes you deep into the delicate and devastating web of shame that spirals from the depths of dating violence when dreamy teenage love turns dark. Andrea must find not only an escape, but a belief that she is even worthy of freedom.
- GenresYoung Adult
Published April 26, 2019
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Christine Doré Miller
2 books26 followersChristine lives in the Los Angeles area with her husband and their two children. She works full-time as a marketing operations director for a large media company and holds a Bachelor's of Business Administration degree from Western Michigan University where she studied marketing. Growing up in the chilly midwest, she developed a deep passion for dramatic writing and alternative music at an early age, which still peaks through in her adult-corporate-mom life today.
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May 21, 2019
4.5 Stars
‘In my mind, he was a tortured, brilliant artist, and I could be the one who helped him, who figured him out. So it became my mission.’
Forgiven Are the Starry-Eyed by Christine Dore Miller has a compelling synopsis and the story captured us immediately, what with its morose and emotional tone. The writing is superb and has an undercurrent of hopelessness and dejection. We are in awe that this is the first book by this debut Author, it was well written and touched on hard-hitting topics.
“What happens between us in private stays private. Okay?”
This Teen YA story deals with horrifically sensitive and extremely pertinent issues in today’s society. You’ve only got to turn on the news or scroll through social media to find stories like these on an almost regular basis. And those are only the ones we know or hear about or have been publicised. There’s still a dreadful silence and uncomfortable avoidance where topics of relationship abuse, violence, and sexual aggression are concerned. However, with the #metoo campaign, hopefully, awareness and support will be given, become a right and a deterrent.
‘I didn’t cry this time. And I was proud of that. Maybe I was getting better at this. Maybe he would be proud of me too.’
Forgiven Are the Starry-Eyed is not an easy read, however, it is an extremely important and a compelling read. The characters are well developed and relevant, their story an honest spotlight on what is sadly real –relationship- life for some, for many, for people we know and don’t know. It just takes that one person to notice, to care and not let go.
‘I smiled back at people who smiled at me, I answered questions when I was called on, but I otherwise just existed. I just took up space, floating through the halls, sitting in desks. And it was…easy, comfortable. And at this point, that felt like a win. Nobody got upset, nobody was worried, nobody was bothered. And that was a very welcome change.’
Whilst this is a fictional story it should be read by every young adult, parent or grandparent. Andrea could be a friend, a daughter or a granddaughter. Her life, in some parts or all, could be that of someone in your life. It is not impossible nor implausible. A healthy relationship is not a given. Sixteen year old, Andrea’s story is emotionally raw, tragic, yet beautiful in its strength and hope as she manoeuvres teenage life, wanting to be accepted and loved. Finding herself. Sometimes the skin within which we live can feel ‘too tight’ in the sense that our emotions, our worries, our pain feels overwhelming and we’re unable to release them. The path of ‘release’ someone choses to breathe, overcome and exist is what matters the most. Our heart broke for Andrea and the path on which she finds relief. However, it’s okay not to accept what you’re forced to live with, it’s okay to ask for help and it’s okay to say no, no more. I deserve better. I am worth more.
‘I told myself I had very few options now. I could just exist and accept that this was my life from now on. I’d be broken, but at least I’d be alive.’
We feel exhausted after Andrea’s journey and have to admit that whilst we felt like we could breathe at the end with some kind of comfort, we needed more. Perhaps an epilogue, just something. When you go through the ringer you need that extra bright light at the end. We’re so glad we picked this book up. What a read!
“I feel like this isn’t real…”I said, closing my eyes tightly.
“Open your eyes, beautiful,” he said, his hand stroking my cheek. “This is very, very real.”
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May 5, 2019
Andrea is that teen who doesn’t get into trouble, is pretty much “wash and wear,” an uninvolved parent’s dream, the girl who gives no one any problems, therefore is overlooked by those who should be watching for “changes.” She was also ill-equipped to know where to turn, who to turn to and how to speak up for herself, she is a teen drowning in trouble.
Christine Dore Miller’s FORGIVEN ARE THE STARRY-EYED will gut you, bring out your rage and hopefully open some eyes and hearts.
Andrea is a victim of parents who are uninvolved, friends who betray her, peer pressure and her own emotional immaturity and insecurities and she fell for a predator and lost what little self-esteem she had.
Josh is a mentally twisted predator and he uses his power over Andrea to quickly tear down her heart and ravage her soul, as well as her body. She gave him the power to control her, because she was never provided with the tools or the strength and support to say stop.
This author has brilliantly told a tale of pain as seen through the eyes of Andrea, a sixteen-year-old girl. Readers will see that many details are left foggy, underdeveloped, but that Andrea stands in stark relief, after all, we are looking through Andrea’s eyes.
Be prepared to be in uncomfortable, guilty disbelief. Be prepared to rage and to realize that the system, her family, all of us let her down. Posters do not work, billboards will not work, handouts piled on a desk will not work, people shaking their heads will not work…action works and if action or “getting involved” works for just one person, it is a start. But always start by looking at your own world and never be afraid to reach out to someone who may be screaming inside for help. And let's not forget about those who let Josh down, too.
A must read for anyone who knows how to read. Share it, talk about it and make a difference. Thank you Christine Dore Miller for one of the most powerful reads I have ever seen.
I was invited to read a complimentary ARC edition from Evernight Teen! This is my honest review.
Publisher: Evernight Teen (April 24, 2019)
Publication Date: April 24, 2019
Genre: YA | Abuse |Social Issues
Print Length: 172 pages
Available from: Amazon | Barnes & Noble
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Christine Dore Miller’s FORGIVEN ARE THE STARRY-EYED will gut you, bring out your rage and hopefully open some eyes and hearts.
Andrea is a victim of parents who are uninvolved, friends who betray her, peer pressure and her own emotional immaturity and insecurities and she fell for a predator and lost what little self-esteem she had.
Josh is a mentally twisted predator and he uses his power over Andrea to quickly tear down her heart and ravage her soul, as well as her body. She gave him the power to control her, because she was never provided with the tools or the strength and support to say stop.
This author has brilliantly told a tale of pain as seen through the eyes of Andrea, a sixteen-year-old girl. Readers will see that many details are left foggy, underdeveloped, but that Andrea stands in stark relief, after all, we are looking through Andrea’s eyes.
Be prepared to be in uncomfortable, guilty disbelief. Be prepared to rage and to realize that the system, her family, all of us let her down. Posters do not work, billboards will not work, handouts piled on a desk will not work, people shaking their heads will not work…action works and if action or “getting involved” works for just one person, it is a start. But always start by looking at your own world and never be afraid to reach out to someone who may be screaming inside for help. And let's not forget about those who let Josh down, too.
A must read for anyone who knows how to read. Share it, talk about it and make a difference. Thank you Christine Dore Miller for one of the most powerful reads I have ever seen.
I was invited to read a complimentary ARC edition from Evernight Teen! This is my honest review.
Publisher: Evernight Teen (April 24, 2019)
Publication Date: April 24, 2019
Genre: YA | Abuse |Social Issues
Print Length: 172 pages
Available from: Amazon | Barnes & Noble
For Reviews, Giveaways, Fabulous Book News, follow: http://tometender.blogspot.com
May 20, 2019
4.5 Stars
‘In my mind, he was a tortured, brilliant artist, and I could be the one who helped him, who figured him out. So it became my mission.’
Forgiven Are the Starry-Eyed by Christine Dore Miller has a compelling synopsis and the story captured us immediately, what with its morose and emotional tone. The writing is superb and has an undercurrent of hopelessness and dejection. We are in awe that this is the first book by this debut Author, it was well written and touched on hard-hitting topics.
“What happens between us in private stays private. Okay?”
This Teen YA story deals with horrifically sensitive and extremely pertinent issues in today’s society. You’ve only got to turn on the news or scroll through social media to find stories like these on an almost regular basis. And those are only the ones we know or hear about or have been publicised. There’s still a dreadful silence and uncomfortable avoidance where topics of relationship abuse, violence, and sexual aggression are concerned. However, with the #metoo campaign, hopefully, awareness and support will be given, become a right and a deterrent.
‘I didn’t cry this time. And I was proud of that. Maybe I was getting better at this. Maybe he would be proud of me too.’
Forgiven Are the Starry-Eyed is not an easy read, however, it is an extremely important and a compelling read. The characters are well developed and relevant, their story an honest spotlight on what is sadly real –relationship- life for some, for many, for people we know and don’t know. It just takes that one person to notice, to care and not let go.
‘I smiled back at people who smiled at me, I answered questions when I was called on, but I otherwise just existed. I just took up space, floating through the halls, sitting in desks. And it was…easy, comfortable. And at this point, that felt like a win. Nobody got upset, nobody was worried, nobody was bothered. And that was a very welcome change.’
Whilst this is a fictional story it should be read by every young adult, parent or grandparent. Andrea could be a friend, a daughter or a granddaughter. Her life, in some parts or all, could be that of someone in your life. It is not impossible nor implausible. A healthy relationship is not a given. Sixteen year old, Andrea’s story is emotionally raw, tragic, yet beautiful in its strength and hope as she manoeuvres teenage life, wanting to be accepted and loved. Finding herself. Sometimes the skin within which we live can feel ‘too tight’ in the sense that our emotions, our worries, our pain feels overwhelming and we’re unable to release them. The path of ‘release’ someone choses to breathe, overcome and exist is what matters the most. Our heart broke for Andrea and the path on which she finds relief. However, it’s okay not to accept what you’re forced to live with, it’s okay to ask for help and it’s okay to say no, no more. I deserve better. I am worth more.
‘I told myself I had very few options now. I could just exist and accept that this was my life from now on. I’d be broken, but at least I’d be alive.’
We feel exhausted after Andrea’s journey and have to admit that whilst we felt like we could breathe at the end with some kind of comfort, we needed more. Perhaps an epilogue, just something. When you go through the ringer you need that extra bright light at the end. We’re so glad we picked this book up. What a read!
“I feel like this isn’t real…”I said, closing my eyes tightly.
“Open your eyes, beautiful,” he said, his hand stroking my cheek. “This is very, very real.”
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July 22, 2019
5 of 5 stars for this one! This book was so hard to put down!
This book deals with relationship abuse in a high school relationship, so it is a sensitive topic for some but so important. I read this book is less than 24 hours and was sad I had to stop to sleep (and I love and normally look forward to my sleep 😂) because it was THAT GOOD. I’m excited for the sequel and to find where Andrea’s story goes next. I 11/10 suggest you read this one!
Some spoilery stuff below that I just want to mention because it's important:
Minor Possible Spoiler Below
I loved how this book had relationship abuse in a public space with many witnesses and everyone brushed off the problem as "couple stuff." But the second there was a rumor of one person cheating on the other, everyone had an opinion and became angry. I think this is a pretty true reflection of how people react and something that needs to be fixed.
DO YOURSELF A FAVOR AND GO READ THIS BOOK.
This book deals with relationship abuse in a high school relationship, so it is a sensitive topic for some but so important. I read this book is less than 24 hours and was sad I had to stop to sleep (and I love and normally look forward to my sleep 😂) because it was THAT GOOD. I’m excited for the sequel and to find where Andrea’s story goes next. I 11/10 suggest you read this one!
Some spoilery stuff below that I just want to mention because it's important:
Minor Possible Spoiler Below
I loved how this book had relationship abuse in a public space with many witnesses and everyone brushed off the problem as "couple stuff." But the second there was a rumor of one person cheating on the other, everyone had an opinion and became angry. I think this is a pretty true reflection of how people react and something that needs to be fixed.
DO YOURSELF A FAVOR AND GO READ THIS BOOK.
May 1, 2019
A must-read for teenagers, parents, educators, and anyone looking for a fantastic, meaningful book.
This novel is truly one that I could not put down until I read the very last word. In the first chapter, I was immediately swept up into the confused and shattered world of teen Andrea Cavanaugh, a high school student trapped in an abusive relationship. The danger of the situation unfolds to both Andrea and the reader, with the turn of each page - I felt as if I was experiencing every emotional high and low as she went through it all.
This author should be commended for pulling no punches in tackling the very difficult yet critical subjects of dating violence and teen sexual abuse, The story is raw and emotional, but never unrealistic. All of the characters, both major and minor, are well fleshed-out and definitely relatable to persons of a similar age, as well as an older audience. The story itself is at times dark and devastating, but always captivating and entertaining. And, in the end, hopeful.
I have a young son and daughter, and this is a book I will definitely give them to read when they are of age. For my daughter to know that when horrible things like this happen to a young woman, it is not their fault and they should not feel ashamed or afraid to seek help. And for my son to understand that there is absolutely no excuse whatsoever for a man to treat a woman like Andrea’s despicable boyfriend treated her.
In our world today, a number of sexual predators in powerful roles are finally being exposed and prosecuted for what they’ve done. But far too many are still getting away with it. The education and awareness need to start with the youth because that’s when most of the abusing starts. This book should be in every high school library. It could be an extremely useful tool to help parents and teachers talk about the issues of dating violence and sexual abuse with their teenagers. Ms. Miller has a true gift for impactful storytelling, and I look forward to seeing more from her. Highly recommended for young adults and older readers alike.
This novel is truly one that I could not put down until I read the very last word. In the first chapter, I was immediately swept up into the confused and shattered world of teen Andrea Cavanaugh, a high school student trapped in an abusive relationship. The danger of the situation unfolds to both Andrea and the reader, with the turn of each page - I felt as if I was experiencing every emotional high and low as she went through it all.
This author should be commended for pulling no punches in tackling the very difficult yet critical subjects of dating violence and teen sexual abuse, The story is raw and emotional, but never unrealistic. All of the characters, both major and minor, are well fleshed-out and definitely relatable to persons of a similar age, as well as an older audience. The story itself is at times dark and devastating, but always captivating and entertaining. And, in the end, hopeful.
I have a young son and daughter, and this is a book I will definitely give them to read when they are of age. For my daughter to know that when horrible things like this happen to a young woman, it is not their fault and they should not feel ashamed or afraid to seek help. And for my son to understand that there is absolutely no excuse whatsoever for a man to treat a woman like Andrea’s despicable boyfriend treated her.
In our world today, a number of sexual predators in powerful roles are finally being exposed and prosecuted for what they’ve done. But far too many are still getting away with it. The education and awareness need to start with the youth because that’s when most of the abusing starts. This book should be in every high school library. It could be an extremely useful tool to help parents and teachers talk about the issues of dating violence and sexual abuse with their teenagers. Ms. Miller has a true gift for impactful storytelling, and I look forward to seeing more from her. Highly recommended for young adults and older readers alike.
April 21, 2020
Age doesn't matter if you are a woman - getting assaulted some way or the other is a constant risk, at whatever degrees it may be defined as in that place. This book by Christine Doré Miller throws light over problems that any girl might face without seeing their own inner soul. Having a boyfriend is not the only way one can prove that she's beautiful or of substance. She should and can believe in herself to put a stop to others comments on her body or the talent that she has😤
I could easily give this book a 5 on 5 because of how it touched my heart. I haven't gone through each line to verify and judge the authenticity of the facts mentioned in this story. I simply enjoyed it in its flow because it showed how important it is to choose a good friend with whom you feel safe and can openly express your deepest feelings no matter what, even if that means showing your most extreme foolish side! ❤️ This helps you with instilling a sense of social acceptance and maintaining the self esteem levels you need to have in handy at all times. Just trust your instinct on what makes you happy and what's good for you, rather than being afraid to come out about the rotting relationship you maybe in and are trying to save- trust me, it's not worth you, girl! 🚫💪
I think today's generation needs to read this book for the atmosphere it created- filled with truth, with awareness. One whole of just a minute of tension and depression could start taking down your entire life, but that doesn't mean you should end your life or are not worth those that truly love for who you really are!
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I could easily give this book a 5 on 5 because of how it touched my heart. I haven't gone through each line to verify and judge the authenticity of the facts mentioned in this story. I simply enjoyed it in its flow because it showed how important it is to choose a good friend with whom you feel safe and can openly express your deepest feelings no matter what, even if that means showing your most extreme foolish side! ❤️ This helps you with instilling a sense of social acceptance and maintaining the self esteem levels you need to have in handy at all times. Just trust your instinct on what makes you happy and what's good for you, rather than being afraid to come out about the rotting relationship you maybe in and are trying to save- trust me, it's not worth you, girl! 🚫💪
I think today's generation needs to read this book for the atmosphere it created- filled with truth, with awareness. One whole of just a minute of tension and depression could start taking down your entire life, but that doesn't mean you should end your life or are not worth those that truly love for who you really are!
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July 3, 2019
The cover is what initially drew me in, the synopsis solidified my need for this book. It's such an emotionally raw and powerful read. It portrays an abusive relationship in such a real way and doesn't gloss over the ugly parts.
Andrea's story is an all too familiar one. Unfortunately, so many people can relate to what she goes through. It's so well written, you really get in her head and feel her hopelessness. It's an honest portrayal of a sensitive subject that is still shrouded in silence and avoidance.
This is a difficult read due to the subject matter and how realistically it's portrayed, if abuse is a trigger to you be warned that it does feel real.
Andrea's story is an all too familiar one. Unfortunately, so many people can relate to what she goes through. It's so well written, you really get in her head and feel her hopelessness. It's an honest portrayal of a sensitive subject that is still shrouded in silence and avoidance.
This is a difficult read due to the subject matter and how realistically it's portrayed, if abuse is a trigger to you be warned that it does feel real.
April 13, 2019
Andie is a sweet and under the radar kind of girl. She has a small group of friends that do everything together and she knows her place in the world. One day a new boy transfers to her school and changes everything. Josh and Andie start dating and it’s great for a couple months but then she starts to see some changes. It’ll take everything she has to fight this change and come out if it in one piece.
Let me start off by saying that this book is not for the faint hearted and it is very heavy in nature. Saying that I have to commend the author for writing this book and sharing his story with the world. The attention to detail from the most minor thing, like the colour of a cardigan, to the most explosive scenes is impeccable. You really get a sense of who these people are and you are pulled along in their life stories. Andie is the girl you root for and wish the best for so it does break your heart to see her struggle through. Josh’s personality is infectious at first and the switch happens so seamlessly. The whole character grouping from the MCs to the “supporting staff” are filled out very well and you can imagine your own friends in their places. We are not given a clean ending that has the answers all wrapped up but it does provide an insight as well as hope.
This book does have a lot of triggers; manipulation, self harm, abuse-both verbal and mental and rape. It’s not a light and fluffy read but it’s an important read!
I implore anyone who has found themselves in this situation to reach out and talk to someone. Help can come to us in the most random of places so don’t give up. Again, well done to the author, Christine Doré Miller.
Let me start off by saying that this book is not for the faint hearted and it is very heavy in nature. Saying that I have to commend the author for writing this book and sharing his story with the world. The attention to detail from the most minor thing, like the colour of a cardigan, to the most explosive scenes is impeccable. You really get a sense of who these people are and you are pulled along in their life stories. Andie is the girl you root for and wish the best for so it does break your heart to see her struggle through. Josh’s personality is infectious at first and the switch happens so seamlessly. The whole character grouping from the MCs to the “supporting staff” are filled out very well and you can imagine your own friends in their places. We are not given a clean ending that has the answers all wrapped up but it does provide an insight as well as hope.
This book does have a lot of triggers; manipulation, self harm, abuse-both verbal and mental and rape. It’s not a light and fluffy read but it’s an important read!
I implore anyone who has found themselves in this situation to reach out and talk to someone. Help can come to us in the most random of places so don’t give up. Again, well done to the author, Christine Doré Miller.
June 28, 2019
'They'd just tell me to break up with him without understanding what the consequences would be if I made him really angry. Plus, I didn't want them to look at Josh in only bad light. I knew they already weren't crazy about him, and this would be the final straw. Josh wasn't a bad guy. He just went through these angry episodes, and I knew nobody else could understand him as I did.'
Read this book!
Usually, I do in-depth reviews analyzing the characters, the world setting, the plot, the pacing, and the writing. In this case, I have so many emotions I don’t have the heart to write a sterile review.
Read this book because:
1. It is heart-warming as it is heart-breaking.
2. It makes you feel the whole spectrum of emotions.
3. It depicts perfectly the feelings of a teenager who is in an abusive relationship.
4. It doesn’t romanticize the abuser.
5. The protagonist is flawed and insecure. She feels like a real teenager and despite liking her or not, you end up sympathizing with her.
6. The writing is engaging and truly beautiful.
7. It doesn’t let you relax or get bored. You won’t want to put it down (I’ve literally read it in one sitting).
8. We have to give voice to these kinds of stories in the YA genre. The topic of abusive relationships is rarely touched and we must spread awareness towards it.
The only thing I need now is the next one. I need closure and I need to see Andrea happy.
Lastly, I have to thank the author Christine Doré Miller for giving me a copy of Forgiven Are the Starry-Eyed in exchange for my honest opinion. I'm really grateful I got to read it!
Read this book!
Usually, I do in-depth reviews analyzing the characters, the world setting, the plot, the pacing, and the writing. In this case, I have so many emotions I don’t have the heart to write a sterile review.
Read this book because:
1. It is heart-warming as it is heart-breaking.
2. It makes you feel the whole spectrum of emotions.
3. It depicts perfectly the feelings of a teenager who is in an abusive relationship.
4. It doesn’t romanticize the abuser.
5. The protagonist is flawed and insecure. She feels like a real teenager and despite liking her or not, you end up sympathizing with her.
6. The writing is engaging and truly beautiful.
7. It doesn’t let you relax or get bored. You won’t want to put it down (I’ve literally read it in one sitting).
8. We have to give voice to these kinds of stories in the YA genre. The topic of abusive relationships is rarely touched and we must spread awareness towards it.
The only thing I need now is the next one. I need closure and I need to see Andrea happy.
Lastly, I have to thank the author Christine Doré Miller for giving me a copy of Forgiven Are the Starry-Eyed in exchange for my honest opinion. I'm really grateful I got to read it!
July 29, 2019
I am a Prevention Educator for teen dating violence. I shared this book with a group of teens I work with. We all loved this book. Here is the combined review from all the teens:
*We received a free autographed copy of this book from the author for an honest review.
SPOILER WARNING: Parts of the plot are discussed in the following review. Direct quotations from the book are used.
This book follows Andrea’s journey through an abusive relationship with her boyfriend Josh. This book grabs the reader right away as the author describes feelings so real.
Readers get sucked into the internal turmoil of someone in an abusive relationship; the confusion, self-blame and fear. It helps readers understand why someone would stay; “…The wreckage I’d caused….walk back into the havoc and face what I had done.” “It was over for now, that latest incident, and there was no way to tell when there would be another one… but there would definitely be another one, I was too broken for it to be any other way.” “How could he still love me after this? He deserved better. Everyone did.”
Readers can also gain insight into how all abusive relationships start- just like any other: the attraction, attention, and affection from the partner. “It was exhilarating to be around Josh.” “No one had ever called me pretty before.” “I wanted to remember the way I felt right then…I felt insatiable, invincible…even Ethan said he’d never seen me so happy. I was different.”
Readers can spot the red flags before Andrea knows what is happening. “Even though I was enjoying myself, I couldn’t shake those odd intricacies that would pop up every once in a while…I felt a little uncomfortable, but mostly confused. I shrugged I off, reminding myself that everyone had their own idiosyncrasies, and this was just one of Josh’s.”
“I wanted to be a good girlfriend and it wasn’t worth arguing…I thought about the playlists, the cute text messages, and his affectionate behavior. And I reminded myself how lucky I was to be with such a sweet, vivacious guy. I could overlook something like this for the good of our relationship. So I told myself it would be all right, that everything would be okay. But it was never okay again.”
Readers cringe at the escalation of verbal, physical and sexual abuse and want to save her as she is focused on saving the relationship. “My relationship had to be my first priority if I didn’t want to lose the only guy who might ever care about me.”
Andrea’s parents started noticing, her good friend Ethan and others started noticing. They try talking to her about him, but she was not ready to see the truth yet. When something went wrong, Andrea could not talk to anyone about it. “They’d just tell me to break up with him without understanding what the consequences would be if I made him really angry. Plus, I didn’t want them to look at Josh in only a bad light. I knew they weren’t’ crazy about him, and this would be the final straw. Josh wasn’t a bad guy. He just went through these angry episodes, and I knew that nobody else could understand him as I did. I would just have to fix this myself.”
Incidents began happening at school and just as in real life, the culture is to ignore the problems. Most people, even a teacher, did just ignore it. One friend, Stephanie confronts Andrea with her worries. Stephanie explains what she saw and how it made her feel and said she was worried. Andrea denies, Stephanie says she is here whenever. This is exactly the right way to handle it, you can’t force someone to listen or tell them they are stupid if they stay. Just be honest about what you saw and that it is not the victims fault and that there is help.
Our only complaint is that we wish Andrea wasn’t focused on another guy and that she could to learn to love herself through her own eyes.
We won’t give out any spoilers about how this ends. We will only say that this book was well written and accurately portrays teen dating abuse.
You can find this review at www.weRbrave.com
*We received a free autographed copy of this book from the author for an honest review.
SPOILER WARNING: Parts of the plot are discussed in the following review. Direct quotations from the book are used.
This book follows Andrea’s journey through an abusive relationship with her boyfriend Josh. This book grabs the reader right away as the author describes feelings so real.
Readers get sucked into the internal turmoil of someone in an abusive relationship; the confusion, self-blame and fear. It helps readers understand why someone would stay; “…The wreckage I’d caused….walk back into the havoc and face what I had done.” “It was over for now, that latest incident, and there was no way to tell when there would be another one… but there would definitely be another one, I was too broken for it to be any other way.” “How could he still love me after this? He deserved better. Everyone did.”
Readers can also gain insight into how all abusive relationships start- just like any other: the attraction, attention, and affection from the partner. “It was exhilarating to be around Josh.” “No one had ever called me pretty before.” “I wanted to remember the way I felt right then…I felt insatiable, invincible…even Ethan said he’d never seen me so happy. I was different.”
Readers can spot the red flags before Andrea knows what is happening. “Even though I was enjoying myself, I couldn’t shake those odd intricacies that would pop up every once in a while…I felt a little uncomfortable, but mostly confused. I shrugged I off, reminding myself that everyone had their own idiosyncrasies, and this was just one of Josh’s.”
“I wanted to be a good girlfriend and it wasn’t worth arguing…I thought about the playlists, the cute text messages, and his affectionate behavior. And I reminded myself how lucky I was to be with such a sweet, vivacious guy. I could overlook something like this for the good of our relationship. So I told myself it would be all right, that everything would be okay. But it was never okay again.”
Readers cringe at the escalation of verbal, physical and sexual abuse and want to save her as she is focused on saving the relationship. “My relationship had to be my first priority if I didn’t want to lose the only guy who might ever care about me.”
Andrea’s parents started noticing, her good friend Ethan and others started noticing. They try talking to her about him, but she was not ready to see the truth yet. When something went wrong, Andrea could not talk to anyone about it. “They’d just tell me to break up with him without understanding what the consequences would be if I made him really angry. Plus, I didn’t want them to look at Josh in only a bad light. I knew they weren’t’ crazy about him, and this would be the final straw. Josh wasn’t a bad guy. He just went through these angry episodes, and I knew that nobody else could understand him as I did. I would just have to fix this myself.”
Incidents began happening at school and just as in real life, the culture is to ignore the problems. Most people, even a teacher, did just ignore it. One friend, Stephanie confronts Andrea with her worries. Stephanie explains what she saw and how it made her feel and said she was worried. Andrea denies, Stephanie says she is here whenever. This is exactly the right way to handle it, you can’t force someone to listen or tell them they are stupid if they stay. Just be honest about what you saw and that it is not the victims fault and that there is help.
Our only complaint is that we wish Andrea wasn’t focused on another guy and that she could to learn to love herself through her own eyes.
We won’t give out any spoilers about how this ends. We will only say that this book was well written and accurately portrays teen dating abuse.
You can find this review at www.weRbrave.com
June 29, 2019
Andrea (Andie) is the quintessential good girl. She follows the rules, listens to her parents, she doesn't break curfew and she enjoys being the student conductor of her band. She has a small circle of friends, her best friend Harper(I can't stand her.....you'll see why) , her friend Ethan (The best!) and her childhood friend Stephanie (Such an amazing person)
Josh is the new guy at school. He's rich, handsome, and a piano prodigy. Most of the girls have their eye on him including Andie and Harper. Josh instantly takes a liking to Andie, he's the first guy to ever show her this kind of attention which she absolutely loves. She's worried it will cause tension between her and Harper since she's seemed to develop a crush on him as well but Harper tells her to go for it.
Andie and Josh become serious pretty quickly and the butterflies she feels soon become feelings of dismay when slowly and then all at once Josh starts showing his true colors.
First it was little things, manipulations veiled as jestures of love, red flags from displays of affections that were actually acts of possession, power and control.
As each chapter passed, the knot in my stomach grew tighter and tighter. The situations, the scenes, and the subject matters in this book are extremely hard to read about. Emotional abuse. Sexual Abuse. Mental Abuse. It is not for the faint of heart but it is such important issues that need to be discussed.
Criticism, humiliation, guilt trips, threats, betrayal, shaming, self harm, depression and anxiety. Andie faced so much but strength and hope still wins out, even through the darkness and even while so much is falling apart there's still a chance that love can bloom again in a form of a long time crush, Carter.
Forgiven are the Starry-eyed is a heart-rending, disturbing, poignant, emotional story of endurance and survival.
Josh is the new guy at school. He's rich, handsome, and a piano prodigy. Most of the girls have their eye on him including Andie and Harper. Josh instantly takes a liking to Andie, he's the first guy to ever show her this kind of attention which she absolutely loves. She's worried it will cause tension between her and Harper since she's seemed to develop a crush on him as well but Harper tells her to go for it.
Andie and Josh become serious pretty quickly and the butterflies she feels soon become feelings of dismay when slowly and then all at once Josh starts showing his true colors.
First it was little things, manipulations veiled as jestures of love, red flags from displays of affections that were actually acts of possession, power and control.
As each chapter passed, the knot in my stomach grew tighter and tighter. The situations, the scenes, and the subject matters in this book are extremely hard to read about. Emotional abuse. Sexual Abuse. Mental Abuse. It is not for the faint of heart but it is such important issues that need to be discussed.
Criticism, humiliation, guilt trips, threats, betrayal, shaming, self harm, depression and anxiety. Andie faced so much but strength and hope still wins out, even through the darkness and even while so much is falling apart there's still a chance that love can bloom again in a form of a long time crush, Carter.
Forgiven are the Starry-eyed is a heart-rending, disturbing, poignant, emotional story of endurance and survival.
July 29, 2019
Trigger warning
This was a very heavy intense read that deals with issues in eating disorders, rape, self harm, emotional and physical abuse.
My trigger warning might put you off from reading this review or novel however all these things happened to a young impressionable teenager. I really thought the author did an amazing job bringing to light such tough issues. I was really able to feel such emotion and compassion for the main character as she went through this journey. The book was so raw and realistic it was a heavy intense read, bringing up so many feelings and was very well executed.
" I sobbed at the relief of freedom from no longer being tied to Josh in an official capacity since we were technically now broken up, and partially because of the gripping fear that reminded me I was not, and may never be, truly free of him.
I really want to thank Christine Doré Miller for sending me a copy to review.
I want to remind everyone that they are never alone, that there is always someone or someplace that you can reach out for help.
A raw emotional story; true to the struggles a teenage girl encounters in this day and age. The pain and torture of feeling so helpless, alone, afraid and unwanted when she had so many people trying to be there to support her, such as her friends and parents but she wouldn't let them in, feeling like she deserved this and it's the way a relationship is suspose to be. This book focuses on Andrea and her struggles as she goes through a toxic highschool relationship where she thought she was in love. The boy lied, cheated, berated, manipulates and rapes her. Andrea tries to leave this relationship that she questions what a relationship should be and that maybe she deserves to be treated this way.
This was a very heavy intense read that deals with issues in eating disorders, rape, self harm, emotional and physical abuse.
My trigger warning might put you off from reading this review or novel however all these things happened to a young impressionable teenager. I really thought the author did an amazing job bringing to light such tough issues. I was really able to feel such emotion and compassion for the main character as she went through this journey. The book was so raw and realistic it was a heavy intense read, bringing up so many feelings and was very well executed.
" I sobbed at the relief of freedom from no longer being tied to Josh in an official capacity since we were technically now broken up, and partially because of the gripping fear that reminded me I was not, and may never be, truly free of him.
I really want to thank Christine Doré Miller for sending me a copy to review.
I want to remind everyone that they are never alone, that there is always someone or someplace that you can reach out for help.
A raw emotional story; true to the struggles a teenage girl encounters in this day and age. The pain and torture of feeling so helpless, alone, afraid and unwanted when she had so many people trying to be there to support her, such as her friends and parents but she wouldn't let them in, feeling like she deserved this and it's the way a relationship is suspose to be. This book focuses on Andrea and her struggles as she goes through a toxic highschool relationship where she thought she was in love. The boy lied, cheated, berated, manipulates and rapes her. Andrea tries to leave this relationship that she questions what a relationship should be and that maybe she deserves to be treated this way.
July 31, 2020
Love isn’t supposed to hurt.
I appreciated the way the author showed the audience the many warning signs of an abusive relationship through multiple examples in the storyline itself. This was so much more effective than sharing a list or having another character spout them off once Andrea was more deeply involved with Josh. It also gave the audience a chance to think for themselves, especially when it came to the small moments of discomfort the main character felt on her first date that can so easily be brushed off.
There were some pacing issues in the beginning that I found distracting. What made them even more noticeable was that one scene from a faster-paced section was included out of chronological order early on. This was the only thing I wish had been written differently about this tale. Everything else about it was so accurate, interesting, and sympathetic that I wish every teenager would read it before they jump into the dating pool for the first time.
The ending was perfect. I often wondered how Ms. Miller was planning to resolve everything, especially since this was a fairly short novel and there were still so many loose ends to tie up by the time I got to the last ten pages or so. It was delightful to see where she went with the plot at that point. It was satisfying but also left room for a sequel if she ever decides to write one. I, for one, would love to know what happened to Andrea next!
Forgiven Are the Starry-Eyed was a timely, educational read that I’d recommend to teen and adult readers alike.
I appreciated the way the author showed the audience the many warning signs of an abusive relationship through multiple examples in the storyline itself. This was so much more effective than sharing a list or having another character spout them off once Andrea was more deeply involved with Josh. It also gave the audience a chance to think for themselves, especially when it came to the small moments of discomfort the main character felt on her first date that can so easily be brushed off.
There were some pacing issues in the beginning that I found distracting. What made them even more noticeable was that one scene from a faster-paced section was included out of chronological order early on. This was the only thing I wish had been written differently about this tale. Everything else about it was so accurate, interesting, and sympathetic that I wish every teenager would read it before they jump into the dating pool for the first time.
The ending was perfect. I often wondered how Ms. Miller was planning to resolve everything, especially since this was a fairly short novel and there were still so many loose ends to tie up by the time I got to the last ten pages or so. It was delightful to see where she went with the plot at that point. It was satisfying but also left room for a sequel if she ever decides to write one. I, for one, would love to know what happened to Andrea next!
Forgiven Are the Starry-Eyed was a timely, educational read that I’d recommend to teen and adult readers alike.
May 23, 2019
2.5 stars
This was soo tough to rate. I appreciate what the author was trying to do here, but I think it fell short for a few reasons. :( There was no wrap-up, for one thing. I feel as if this was setting up for a second book, but I may be wrong. Perhaps the author is unsure of where she is taking it (if anywhere), or maybe it is meant to be speculative. Either way, it was missing a lot as far as the ending and closing up details. If a sequel were to come out, I would read it for the simple fact that I need closure, lol.
This book is focused on abusive relationships and trust, and I think the author covered a lot of it well, but fell short in the details. Something about the book felt like an imitation of what someone thinks an abusive relationship is like, rather than what it is actually like. I speak from experience. It was just missing something, but A for effort.
FULL REVIEW TO COME
This was soo tough to rate. I appreciate what the author was trying to do here, but I think it fell short for a few reasons. :( There was no wrap-up, for one thing. I feel as if this was setting up for a second book, but I may be wrong. Perhaps the author is unsure of where she is taking it (if anywhere), or maybe it is meant to be speculative. Either way, it was missing a lot as far as the ending and closing up details. If a sequel were to come out, I would read it for the simple fact that I need closure, lol.
This book is focused on abusive relationships and trust, and I think the author covered a lot of it well, but fell short in the details. Something about the book felt like an imitation of what someone thinks an abusive relationship is like, rather than what it is actually like. I speak from experience. It was just missing something, but A for effort.
FULL REVIEW TO COME
May 5, 2019
This book was written by one of my favorite people in the world. I told her I would be honest with my feedback, and honestly, this is a book that ALL teens should read. It presents teen dating violence in an approachable, realistic light. The characters are relatable and will resonate with young readers. The writing is brilliant. I have no doubt that this book will save lives. It is the most important book that’s been published in 2019 so far. Please - do not sleep on this one! It’s too valuable.
May 7, 2019
Forgiven Are the Starry-Eyed is thrilling and devastating. Painting the picture of a girl who suffers through an abusive and spiraling relationship, it hits close to home for so many women and girls. It's beautifully written and quick to read, but it'll take a lot longer to leave your mind. Even if you've never found yourself in Andrea's position, reading this book will leave you in a better place to be compassionate and perceptive to those quiet cries for help you may not have otherwise noticed. It's an important read.
September 21, 2019
The story:
Sheltered high school junior Andrea Cavanaugh believes she hits the jackpot when Josh McMillan, a piano prodigy, becomes her first-ever boyfriend – he’s talented, handsome, popular, everything a girl could want. However, she quickly learns that Josh has a very dark side, and their storybook romance soon turns into a nightmare that could very well destroy Andrea in every conceivable way.
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Sheltered high school junior Andrea Cavanaugh believes she hits the jackpot when Josh McMillan, a piano prodigy, becomes her first-ever boyfriend – he’s talented, handsome, popular, everything a girl could want. However, she quickly learns that Josh has a very dark side, and their storybook romance soon turns into a nightmare that could very well destroy Andrea in every conceivable way.
Read the rest of the review at Young Adult Books Central:
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May 19, 2019
A poignant and heart-rending story that is so relevant to the times. This book should be read by every mother of a young teenage daughter, as well as by that teenager herself. So many situations in our formative years affect the path our lives take, but none so much as the one depicted in this read. Kudos to Ms Dore Miller for bringing this problem to light in a well narrated and meaningful way.
July 7, 2019
Forgiven Are the Starry-Eyed is a raw, honest look at an abusive teen relationship through relatable, realistic characters. The prose is fast-paced and easy-to-read. While the ugliest aspects of abuse are difficult to take in, Andrea's story of survival is an eye-opening look at a very important topic, all the more worth reading because these issues aren't discussed frequently or readily enough. Recommended reading for teens and adults alike!
June 14, 2019
I could not put this book down until I finished it. I was not happy with the ending I need to know what happened to Andrea and Josh. If you want an insider to what a abusive relationship feels like and or simply want to know how bad it can get, the author Christine has nailed it. The characters are very relatable, either you can relate as the victim or a friend who's been there and seen it happen or you might even be the friend who cheated. The book is outstanding everyone should read it.
May 24, 2020
Thank you for an important book, that I will gift to the teens in my life; to start some difficult but needed conversations.
July 6, 2020
This book is not for the faint of heart. If abuse is a trigger for you, please do not put yourself thru that.
What I loved most about this book is that the author did not gloss over anything. All of the emotions and feelings that go with being abused are front and center. If you or someone you know is being abused, please get help. Be that person who holds a card out to a stranger.
What I loved most about this book is that the author did not gloss over anything. All of the emotions and feelings that go with being abused are front and center. If you or someone you know is being abused, please get help. Be that person who holds a card out to a stranger.
June 22, 2019
Forgiven are the Starry Eyed
4 stars
I think this is truly one of the most important stories that needs to be told, especially in Young adult literature, as it isn’t seen nearly enough as it should be.
I was given a copy by the author in exchange for an honest review and I am so grateful because this was phenomenal. I was instantly hooked because this is one of the most capturing and emotional stories I’ve read in a long time.
There were intense topics introduced and over the course of the novel you can’t help but feel hopeless along with the main character because there were so many aspects that were wrong in her life. Parents who weren’t present, friends that were quick to betray, a manipulative exploitative boyfriend who not only physically abuse her but mentally and emotionally and made her feel worthless of even living.
The story is written in first person point of view which really helped bring out the rawness of the story and the desperateness of the main character. Her acceptance of her fate and her reluctance and fear to find help accurately convey how one in her position would feel. I think the author did an amazing job in writing out this story in a way that every reader can connect with and perceive this sort of situation.
I loved how the author also expressed the importance of getting help and the route to taking help through the main character’s thoughts because that precisely depicted how one would feel in this circumstance. It is important to relevantly display these issues and all emotional ties of it so a wide range people can understand and learn from this which is the best thing a book could do.
I am very satisfied with the ending although I do wish there was more. I wish the resolution was more fleshed out and took a little more time to get to. I would have liked to see more of our main character healing and “repairing” relationships or dealing more with the aftermath of what occurred. I do feel the story was missing in that aspect but overall a great read and I would recommend to everyone.
“I wasn’t scared anymore. I could deal with desolation, I knew bleakness and despair like the back of my hand, and I was still alive. If I could learn how to live in that world, maybe I could let someone teach me how to live in the other world, where the starry-eyed really were forgiven and the lovers really did prosper.”
4 stars
I think this is truly one of the most important stories that needs to be told, especially in Young adult literature, as it isn’t seen nearly enough as it should be.
I was given a copy by the author in exchange for an honest review and I am so grateful because this was phenomenal. I was instantly hooked because this is one of the most capturing and emotional stories I’ve read in a long time.
There were intense topics introduced and over the course of the novel you can’t help but feel hopeless along with the main character because there were so many aspects that were wrong in her life. Parents who weren’t present, friends that were quick to betray, a manipulative exploitative boyfriend who not only physically abuse her but mentally and emotionally and made her feel worthless of even living.
The story is written in first person point of view which really helped bring out the rawness of the story and the desperateness of the main character. Her acceptance of her fate and her reluctance and fear to find help accurately convey how one in her position would feel. I think the author did an amazing job in writing out this story in a way that every reader can connect with and perceive this sort of situation.
I loved how the author also expressed the importance of getting help and the route to taking help through the main character’s thoughts because that precisely depicted how one would feel in this circumstance. It is important to relevantly display these issues and all emotional ties of it so a wide range people can understand and learn from this which is the best thing a book could do.
I am very satisfied with the ending although I do wish there was more. I wish the resolution was more fleshed out and took a little more time to get to. I would have liked to see more of our main character healing and “repairing” relationships or dealing more with the aftermath of what occurred. I do feel the story was missing in that aspect but overall a great read and I would recommend to everyone.
“I wasn’t scared anymore. I could deal with desolation, I knew bleakness and despair like the back of my hand, and I was still alive. If I could learn how to live in that world, maybe I could let someone teach me how to live in the other world, where the starry-eyed really were forgiven and the lovers really did prosper.”
July 24, 2019
*I received this book from the author for my honest opinion.*
This book is really really good. It is dark, and heavy, and deep. But a must read for those that want to know more about an abusive relationship.
The story follows a junior in High School, Andie. She's a type of girl, that might be not popular, but she is active with her school, a good student, a good friend, one that follows all the rules, and has an interest in music. When Josh, a heartthrob and a piano genius enters the school, every girl is fawning over him. Somehow, Andie ends up dating Josh. It seems like a cute high school love drama, but the relationship turns dark very fast.
So here are the trigger warnings: mental and physical abuse, sexual assault, rape, self harm, alcohol and drug use.
I'm providing these TWs because the relationship of Andie and Josh turns abusive real fast. And it might be difficult to read about. The books is really beautifully written. It's very descriptive, and allows for the reader to get into Andie's head. It makes you feel exactly as she felt during the good times and the bad. I loved how her thought process worked, it sounded realistic - exactly as an abused person would think. All the excuses and decisions she was making in her relationship are exact reason why so many women are having a hard time leaving such a relationship. I felt for Andie, I wanted to cry for her, I wanted to shake her, and yell at her that she doesn't see that she's not alone. Obviously she felt isolated and alone because it is all part of the mental abuse.
I'm glad this story ended on a happy note. It is a must read for those that suspect, or know of someone in such a relationship. It explains all the signs, and all the feelings that the abused feels. It might help someone to get out of such a relationship.
This book is really really good. It is dark, and heavy, and deep. But a must read for those that want to know more about an abusive relationship.
The story follows a junior in High School, Andie. She's a type of girl, that might be not popular, but she is active with her school, a good student, a good friend, one that follows all the rules, and has an interest in music. When Josh, a heartthrob and a piano genius enters the school, every girl is fawning over him. Somehow, Andie ends up dating Josh. It seems like a cute high school love drama, but the relationship turns dark very fast.
So here are the trigger warnings: mental and physical abuse, sexual assault, rape, self harm, alcohol and drug use.
I'm providing these TWs because the relationship of Andie and Josh turns abusive real fast. And it might be difficult to read about. The books is really beautifully written. It's very descriptive, and allows for the reader to get into Andie's head. It makes you feel exactly as she felt during the good times and the bad. I loved how her thought process worked, it sounded realistic - exactly as an abused person would think. All the excuses and decisions she was making in her relationship are exact reason why so many women are having a hard time leaving such a relationship. I felt for Andie, I wanted to cry for her, I wanted to shake her, and yell at her that she doesn't see that she's not alone. Obviously she felt isolated and alone because it is all part of the mental abuse.
I'm glad this story ended on a happy note. It is a must read for those that suspect, or know of someone in such a relationship. It explains all the signs, and all the feelings that the abused feels. It might help someone to get out of such a relationship.
June 29, 2019
"Forgiven are the starry-eyed, for they know not why they love."
This quote describes the book really all to well. Andie is the reinbodyment of a goody-two-shoe. Good grades, band, never breaks curvew, straight edge, very kind, but with a horrible taste in men. Or.. man, to be precise. This book shows, in a very graphic manner, how horrible teen dating violence can be, and how hard it can be to see or even realise it is happening to yourself.
I absolutly loved, hated and cried for this book. I could not put it down until i had finished it. The author gave me this book for a review and wow, i really seriously am happy for it. This book she be playing in the big league with other amazing ya, or contemporary authors. AMAZING!
This quote describes the book really all to well. Andie is the reinbodyment of a goody-two-shoe. Good grades, band, never breaks curvew, straight edge, very kind, but with a horrible taste in men. Or.. man, to be precise. This book shows, in a very graphic manner, how horrible teen dating violence can be, and how hard it can be to see or even realise it is happening to yourself.
I absolutly loved, hated and cried for this book. I could not put it down until i had finished it. The author gave me this book for a review and wow, i really seriously am happy for it. This book she be playing in the big league with other amazing ya, or contemporary authors. AMAZING!
July 6, 2019
Andrea is a high school senior who falls for the new boy in town, Josh. Josh is handsome, smart, and seemingly in love with Andrea. Andrea is the good girl who follows all the rules, gets good grades, and never lies to her parents. Quickly, Josh starts to show his dark side. Andrea and Josh fully delve into an abusive, toxic relationship.
Christine Dore Miller has an ease and realness about her writing. This novel is about all the worst things the a teenage girl can go through. If you cannot relate to a single thing that Andrea goes through when you were in high school, then you were extremely lucky.
T/W: sexual assault, eating disorders, emotional abuse
Christine Dore Miller has an ease and realness about her writing. This novel is about all the worst things the a teenage girl can go through. If you cannot relate to a single thing that Andrea goes through when you were in high school, then you were extremely lucky.
T/W: sexual assault, eating disorders, emotional abuse
May 19, 2019
Very insightful- this novelist really takes it up a step in how teenagers deal with bullying. All teenagers should read this and make it would help them when the time came for them to decisions. Very well written.
July 18, 2019
I think the idea of this book was a good one but the execution of the book with such a sensitive topic wasn’t the best. I just had a lot of issues with it. Full review here
November 3, 2019
Read it because it was written by a person who grew up where I live.
July 10, 2020
This is an emotional but necessary read for young adults (and those who love them) to serve as a warning of the potential dangers of relationship violence! Well written, couldn’t put it down!
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