Oh i can’t. It’s actually over om.
มาหนึ่งคุณต้องคาดหวังคำพูดมากมายในตอนนี้
(Ignore the fact that well…half of its in Thai and half in English. Oh, some things are really just too embarrassing to say in my mother tongue. Using english for some of the shit i say…yeah i can’t imagine that. Thai can cover most of my responses ฮ่าๆ, you’re on your own to translate it. ฉันรู้สึกเขินอายแค่คิดว่าจะพูดบางส่วนเป็นภาษาอังกฤษ)
‘"What about the rice?"
This is bad.
I forgot to cook rice.... HOW COULD I FORGET THE RICE’
(Oh, P’North, how could you forget the rice?? มันเป็นส่วนที่สำคัญที่สุดใช่ไหม?)
“I wanted to be close like this forever.”
(Is thirteen stories high enough? ฉันเขินอาย โอ้พระเจ้า)
“"It seems like they are talking about the gear. I think he the protects the gear more than his Rolex. That costs what, three million more?"
Is he in love with me?”
(Yes, P’North he’s very much in love with you. ต้องใช้เวลาหลายเดือนในการสังเกต)
“"What thing?" I turned to ask the person sitting next to me, not understanding.
"You'll move in with me."
"I don't want to." I immediately shook my head in denial .
Phi Johan looked at my attitude. Not very satisfied.
"Are you going to move in with me forever or do I have to kick you out of the dorm?"”
(A few points about this passage, ทั้งฮิลและโจฮานมีความหวงแหนคนของพวกเขามาก..
โยฮานยังใช้เงินเป็นจำนวนมากในภาคเหนือ…I mean seriously we get he’s rich, but buying out three companies just to keep him from working? On top of that saying he would buy North’s dorm just so he had to live with him. จริงๆแล้วเขาเป็นคนกล้าหาญ)
The next few oh…i wouldn’t dare quote more than a few short sentences. ฉันตกใจมาก แต่มีโมเมนต์น่ารัก ๆ ในกอง NC ฉันก็เลยต้องทำ.
“Yes... l lost.
I really lost it completely.”
(Who wouldn’t? ฉันหมายถึงมีเพศสัมพันธ์มัน ถ้าเขาเป็นแบบนั้นกับฉันล่ะ? โอ้ ฉันจะเป็นลมแล้ว)
“I looked into those half-lidded eyes that always made me feel like I was under a spell”
(เขียนยังไงให้สวยครับพี่….I couldn’t, i was about to scream over this part)
"I really couldn't take it anymore."
(endurance is key….until is comes to P’Johan 5555)
“Now that I started calling him "Hia", I'm so weak. Normally, we talk to each other formally, but because of our change in status, and hearing him call me by my name, it makes me melt…”
(IM SCREAMING. THE SECOND HE CALLED HIM ‘HIA’ I HAD TO STOP READING FOR A SECOND AND COLLECT MYSELF. จริงๆแล้วใจฉันทนไม่ไหวแล้ว)
“I am a realist dreaming the impossible”
(Fuck…i mean really just damn. เส้นที่ตีลึกจริงๆ)
"One kiss, one question."
(Common P’Johan behavior honestly)
“"About the kiss you talked about just now."
"Yes, what's wrong?"
"Johan doesn't kiss his partners," Phi Prang said.
That statement made me raise my eyebrows. I'm surprised to hear it.
"Have you ever heard of people who flirt everywhere? There are a lot of people who don't kiss their partners. Which is bad because it's a natural thing for the body to do." I nodded as if I understood. I once had an acquaintance who was like that too.
Sex is human nature. But kissing is not something exclusive to love, although many decide to save it for someone special.
"....."
"That means... you were Johan's first kiss."
"Yes," was all I replied before lowering my head and bringing the porridge to my mouth. I began to feel the heat on my face again. My heart beat faster as I slowly thought about Phi Prang's words.
If that's true, that would be good.”
(P’Prang really just loves spilling P’Johans secrets. เขาเปลี่ยนจากเพลย์บอยกลายเป็นคนรักทันทีใช่ไหม? ฮ่าๆ. Seriously, you would’ve never thought P’Johan used to play around with girls with how attached he is to P’North.)
“"Phi Hill, but North and I can't leave yet or we won't get the deposit for the dorm," Ter said. He did a great job. Sometimes we have to argue. They can't force us to do everything like that.
"How much is it?" Phi Hill asked.
"Five thousand each."
"Hill and I can give ten thousand each," Phi Johan said.
"Hia, but you can't force me to leave the bedroom like this," I said with a frown.
The staff cleaning the room turned to look at us for a moment before continuing to clean.
"Because?"
"Because this is my room."
"Oh, but it's my building now."”
(HE ACTUALLY BOUGHT OUT THEIR DORM IM SOBBING. Is it even surprising tho? ฮ่าๆ. P’Hill and P’Johan really have no problem spoiling these two. ทิ้งเงินล้านเหมือนเป็นดอลลาร์. เมื่อไหร่จะมีคนถูกใจแบบนั้นซักที ขอเพียงครั้งเดียว...หรือแค่เงิน 555)
Really, these flashback scenes have so much in them. Especially when P’Johan is just straight up jealous of P’North…
“Living life to have fun every day without worrying about what tomorrow will bring. Doing what you want, and whatever money can buy.
Yes... No need to strain yourself.”
(เหมือนเด็กรวยเขา...)
Honestly, i just want to quote a bunch of things from P’Norths interview:
“The world is never fair, is it?….. If the world is unfair, we have to try harder."
(well said, well said.)
“If you want to spend your parents' money until you die, that's not wrong. It's your right. But deep down, do you feel worthless? Does it really feel good to be looked down upon all the time?”
(Honestly, such an important line. มีคุณค่าในตัวเองบ้าง สร้างชื่อให้ตัวเอง)
“But do you really think that means that by doing that, you are okay with the way things are?"
(ขวา? คุณอาจมีเงิน แต่นั่นทำให้ชีวิตคุ้มค่าหรือไม่?)
“Using money I earned myself makes me feel more proud."
(Real..honestly it’s such a good feeling. This changed the way P’Johan viewed everything honestly. เขาล็อคอินจริงๆ หลังจากได้ยินสิ่งนี้)
Also from these flashback scenes, just P’Johan going crazy over P’North honestly:
“It seemed like all he was trying to do was make that woman happy.
And I started to think that... Why is that person not me?
"Fuck, when are they going to break up?" I cursed in frustration as I kept thinking why the person there wasn't me, why did it have to be that woman? Why does he have to have a girlfriend? And why didn't l even get a chance to approach him?
"He's sitting next to his cute girlfriend while you watch them and wish they would break up," Frank said, laughing. "You're a bad person."
"Oh, when did I say I was a good person?" I said.”
(P’Johan, maybe instead of sitting around for a year and watching him you should’ve made a move? Really, it’s your fault that he had a girlfriend at the time. Another thing, this is definitely the reason P’Johan has such a high alcohol tolerance. Drinking every night for a month straight because you’re jealous? เขาไม่กล้าแม้แต่จะนอนกับผู้หญิง ฉันไม่แปลกใจเลยถ้าเขานึกถึงนอร์ธในขณะที่ทำ...โอ้พระเจ้า นั่นคือสิ่งที่เขาจะทำ)
“"Does he realize that someone is going crazy because of his smile?" Frank said.
"That's true, dammit." I cursed again, annoyed. What Frank said was true.
Doesn't he realize that there's someone who's going crazy because of his smile? I'm dying. These days, l'm really addicted to his smile. I really like it when he smiles. I feel like after I start work, I feel tired, but when I see him, I feel better. Just listening to him chat with his friends, hearing what's happened today, seeing his joy, it's like my refuge without him even knowing it.”
(You know what you’re also addicted to? Straight vodka trying to get over him. This was such a sweet scene tho. เป็นคนพูดจานุ่มนวลมาก มีใครพูดถึงฉันแบบนั้นได้ไหม? ฮ่าๆ ล้อเล่นนะ….. นอร์ธจะไม่รู้ได้อย่างไรว่าจอห์นจ้องมองเขามาหลายเดือนแล้ว? เขาโง่ขนาดนั้นจริงๆเหรอ? ฮ่าๆ)
"Thank you so much. Thank you for waiting for me all this time. Thank you for not changing your mind. I love you. I love you so much."
“I love you too”
(ขอให้ความรักแบบนี้ตามหาฉัน สาธุ)
ได้โปรด มันน่าอายมากที่จะต้องพูดเกี่ยวกับสิ่งเหล่านี้เป็นภาษาอังกฤษ
“"You... You're almost driving me crazy, you know?"”
(โยฮันยังไม่เบื่อที่จะจูบนอร์ธ…really P’Johan is addicted to him)
“I'm going crazy just seeing the smile on the corner of his mouth and the look in his eyes. The gesture of carelessly brushing his hair back, both hands…”
(Yeah, i don’t dare finish that quote. นอร์ธให้โยฮันหนึ่งนิ้ว เขาเอาไปหนึ่งไมล์ ฮ่าๆ)
“I almost had a heart attack because of him. Did you know that...?”
(Yes P’North, we know you can’t handle his flirting…หรือวิธีที่เขาเย็ด เรารู้ว่าคุณคลั่งไคล้เขา)
“It feels so good... so good. l... am going to die.”
(Hmmm? What feels good…. ฮ่าๆ. คุณไม่บ่นว่าเขาจูบคุณแรงเกินไปเหรอ? หรือเขาแกล้งคุณแรงเกินไป. แม้ว่าคุณจะบ่น แต่คุณสนุกกับมันอย่างชัดเจน)
“Phi Johan hugged me, kissed away my tears before pressing his lips to my forehead. The familiar scent and warmth made me move a little closer to him, and then my consciousness finally faded away.
"Good night. My only love."
(ถูกต้องฉันกำลังกระโดด. I can’t handle these two any more)
“"Are you jealous of me?"
... Uh... I have to be jealous. You're my boyfriend."
"Yes, I'm your boyfriend. I'm North's only boyfriend."
"Stop making fun of me. Please," I said as I buried my face in the blanket. Oh my god, the deep voice he whispered in my ear just now almost made my heart stop. I'm so embarrassed I want to cry.”
(YOUR EMBARRASSED? พี่เหนือช่วยคิดถึงจิตสำนึกของเราหน่อยนะครับ เราทุกคนก็หน้าแดงเช่นกัน)
“He was the only person I wanted to make smile often. I liked his laugh, I liked his eyes when he smiled. He was someone who made me very happy to be with him. His personality, his thoughts, his teasing words, even if they were a little annoying. However, it is his personality.
The personality of the person who made me fall in love again and again for many years.
I always think the most fascinating thing is his attitude.
He's not an optimist, but he sees the world as it is. I like that he always waits to hear from me first, no matter what he hears from anyone he will ask me and tell me straight up what happened. He will also explain and tell me straight up anything, no matter what it is.”
(need someone to talk about me like this…ร้องไห้)
“And I like something else. When he says my name.”
(บริบทไหน...555ผมหมายถึงเวลาเขาพูดจาน่ารักครับ หรือเวลาเขาคราง...(i’m embarrassed even writing that in Thai om))
“"No, Fah. I don't like it," I turned around to tell him.
"You don't like HillJo shipping?"
"I don't like my name being in second place."”
(When ghost shipping becomes so advanced even the characters are shipping themselves together. Really, authors do a great job of getting fans to make ghost ships. JoHill is definitely a duo…555)
“The warm embrace made me realize that my fears meant nothing. I didn't have to be afraid of being hurt, I didn't have to be prepared, I didn't have to be afraid of anything changing.
Just to love as much as I could ever love anyone in my entire life, and... if the word "forever" really existed, I wanted to use it with this person.”
(ร้องไห้)
“The same thing happens to Ai Ter. I always notice the red marks on his neck.
Why those doctors...?
Oh my God.”
(5555 อาจเป็นความผิดของคุณ คุณมีรสนิยมดีไหม? ดูเหมือนโจฮานจะชอบกินคุณ...อะแฮ่ม)
“Let's go together... Even if the sky, the stars, the sun or the moon change, as long as the person who sits and watches everything with me, will always be the same person...”
(I’ve had enough, i can’t handle them. It’s too sweet. Quoting P’Arthit on this one when he says his eyes has cavities now. These two i are really to flirty with each other.)
“The first time I said yes... and we became a couple.
The second time... we got engaged.
And the third time... will be when we get married.”
( เราต้องการสคริปต์งานแต่งงานโดยเร็วที่สุด)
"What I like the most is when you say my name like that, with this kind of voice."
(Hmmmm…. เขาจะครางเมื่อไหร่? ใช่ แน่นอนคุณสนุกกับมัน)