4.5 ✩
i'm going through a quite difficult time right now and this book really made me emotional because it really said everything that i desperately needed to hear. it felt like a therapy session. i read this at the right place at the right time and i am so grateful that i did.
.・゜゜・✧・゚: *✧・゚:* .・゜゜・
my favourites:
"i can’t sleep
it’s almost as if
the night needs me more
than i need rest"
"The later it gets, the deeper I dwell in an unforgiving pit of confusion.
Maybe I’m in love with an illusion. Maybe I hold on to the idea of holding
on to you out of fear of losing. Strangely, it’s the loss of something I never
had that keeps me hoping for something you’ll never give me. And each
night I’m right where I left off come morning. Somehow I find myself back
where I began. A start with no actual finish. This never-ending feeling for
something that should have ended a long time ago. It turns out that I’ve
been searching for a silver lining in a bronze space.
I’ve been searching for some sort of light in a sky that is absent"
"sometimes i avoid mirrors
because a reflection never lies
the mirror doesn’t concern itself
with showing you something that isn’t true
it has no concern for how you feel
it knows your insecurities
and it doesn’t mind throwing them back at you"
"a love that feels real
a love that doesn’t hurt
a relationship filled with truth
a relationship filled with effort
this is all she ever wanted
this was all she ever thought about
while tears rolled down her face
painting her skin the color blue"
"I WANT TO .
I want you to feel—
to remember what it was like
when you first laid eyes on
something you loved.
I want you to breathe,
to inhale.
To run your fingers
through the air
and collect the memories
as they pass you by.
I want you to remember
the way we spoke.
The way we looked
into our eyes
as the scent filled
the empty
space in the room.
I want you to feel it.
To remember it.
To be
attracted to it.
I want the company
of me
to remind you
how to live,
how to laugh,
and, above all,
how to love."
"MISS YOU MISS THEM
People will miss you
the moment you stop caring.
The moment you moved on.
Because that’s how it works.
Most people only want
what no longer belongs to them,
what they once had
but failed to appreciate.
And it’s sad,
you know?
Because you can spend
so much time devoted
to someone
while feeling ignored,
but the moment you realize
your worth,
things begin to change.
You begin to do things
for yourself.
You begin to see the light,
feel it, and become it.
You move on to bigger
and better things.
You meet different people
and for a moment
you find yourself being happy.
And it’s just sad
but also very good
because you had to let go
of someone who was once
important to you
to find yourself again.
You had to water your own soul
and find your own smile.
And you spent
and wasted so much time
doing so,
without knowing
how to love yourself before.
And that’s what’s terrible here.
That’s the tragedy.
How you always need someone
to help you discover your worth
and how you always need
to lose someone you once cared about.
Need someone
you once loved
to dig a hole in you,
in order for you to finally
learn to appreciate yourself
for who you are."
"ENTIRE LIFE
You spend your whole life
worrying about being alone,
that you’ve let
so many good people
pass you by.
The same way you’ve spent
so much time
thinking of those who don’t care
rather than the ones
who do.
And this is what your life
has turned into.
Chasing people
who don’t understand you
while overlooking
the ones who relate
to you the most.
You’ve let so much
time slip,
you’ve let too many
people slip,
and now you’re slipping yourself .
by chasing people
who’ve caused you the most harm.
When does it end?
When do you finally realize
who you are?
Whom you deserve?
Does it ever stop?
The pain.
The brokenness.
The emptiness
and the longing of being
understood—of being
held by the right hands.
I get you.
You feel like the ocean—
the rain—
but that doesn’t mean
you’ve got to drown on your own.
With water comes life.
And with pain comes love.
So hang in there,
my sweet friend .
life isn’t meant
to destroy you.
People aren’t meant
to hurt you .
and all the things you feel
aren’t meant to bring you closer
to your doom.
Because everything around you
is a lesson waiting to be learned,
and how you let it
affect you
is completely up to you.
So cry now and laugh later .
it’s okay .
because something better
is on the way.
Just stay humble,
learn from your mistakes,
and keep your heart open
for when the right
opportunities come."