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The Everything I Have Lost

3.88  ·  Rating details ·  92 ratings  ·  20 reviews
12-year-old Julia keeps a diary about her life growing up in Juarez, Mexico. Life in Juarez is strange. People say its the murder capital of the world. Dad’s gone a lot. They can’t play outside because it isn’t safe. Drug cartels rule the streets. Cars and people disappear, leaving behind pet cats. Then Dad disappears and Julia and her brother go live with her aunt in El P ...more
Hardcover, 256 pages
Published September 3rd 2019 by Cinco Puntos Press
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Aug 15, 2019 rated it it was amazing
This book is phenomenal - on multiple levels. So much so that this is the first time I'm writing one of these reviews for a book.

As a Latina American fighting for the rights of my Latin brothers and sisters on both sides of the boarder, this book gave me a better glimpse into the reality that so many Latinx people face. The Everything I Have Lost is a great book to use as a tool to discuss our situation at the boarder, the reality of living in a dangerous country, and more.

Julia is a great chara
Ms. Yingling
Jul 01, 2019 rated it liked it
E ARC from Edelweiss Plus

I liked the premise of the book, but didn't like the voice. It had a sort of Boy in Striped Pajamas feel to it, where it seems like the main character should have a better grasp of what was going on. It would have been more helpful if an older teenager told the story and actually described what was going on more vividly.
ARC - out in September 2019

This would make for a great middle school or early high school discussion for a book club or class.

A Dear Diary young adult novel about a young-for-her-age tween named Julia living between Juárez, México and el Paso, Texas. Her Bis (bisabuela; great-grandmother) is wise and loving even when she's suffering from dementia. Her mamá is obsessed with her papá and deeply codependent. Her papá takes on a new job that she and her brother are vague about, but their tía does no
Jul 08, 2019 rated it liked it
Thank to Edelweiss for the eARC!

I want to begin by saying that I think this story is of vital importance. There is a lot of crucial work being done on these pages -- explorations of borders, crime, family, love, growing up, perceptions of womanhood, danger to females, bilingualism, education. Julia's growth from a tween into a young woman and her time spent in both Juarez and El Paso is a perspective that needs more representation. I'm glad this book exists and I hope more stories like this are
Laura Gardner
Mar 28, 2020 rated it really liked it
What did you like about the book? “ diary is the only place where I get to say what I feel. So, that is it, I will write. I will write everything I feel. Once I figure out what I feel, of course.”
Julia’s experience in Juarez, Mexico and El Paso, Texas is detailed in her diary, which spans her life from ages 12 - 15. She writes about normal coming of age experiences like friendship drama, school, and boys she’s interested in, but these entries are interspersed with signs of trauma. Her fathe
Brandon Pending
Feb 18, 2020 rated it really liked it
Great coming of age YA that captures the unique experience of life on the border.
If you’re from El Paso or a border town city, a must read!
May 04, 2020 rated it it was amazing
This book is one of the most amazing books I have ever read. It tells the story that I see all around me and gives it shape so that others who don't live on the border can read it and know and feel. Sylvia Aguilar-Zéleny, I thank you.
I did not care for this book. I found Julia to be rather whiny & not a particularly good friend. As I was reading this book, I struggled to figure out the target audience. The book starts with a twelve-year-old Julia and ends when she is fourteen. This would normally indicate that the novel is for middle schoolers. However, there is a lot of profanity in this book so I'm not sure how many parents would be okay with their middle schoolers reading it. I'm sure some wouldn't mind but I know this bo ...more
Audrey Kammerer
Jun 16, 2020 rated it it was amazing
Written in diary form, the author deals frankly and graphically with the stresses in this young girl’s life. I wondered as I read whether it is appropriate for the age group it is marked for in my library. Then I realized, more disturbing than reading about these stresses, some young people, too many young people, are living these stresses. She’s got all the healthy teenage drive to be independent and strong, in a world situation that is more than most adults could handle. The characters develop ...more
Amber Brooks Bowie
May 22, 2020 rated it really liked it
I enjoyed this story of Julia who writes (yes, writes) and journals her life in Mexico and in Texas. She goes through the emotions of many teenage girls, but her perspective is a little different. I think that this was uniquely (and wonderfully) written, and it will definitely make its way into my classroom. Do I feel like this book is going to be enjoyable to a lot of adults? No. There were many times when I wanted to stop reading and DNF it, but I was committed to finish until the end. I am so ...more
Cristal Jatip
Sep 05, 2020 rated it really liked it
Julia, a 12 yr old, but almost 13 and don’t forget it, keeps a diary of her life in Juarez, Mexico. People say it’s the murder capital of the world.

It was hard to get into this at first because Julia is young so her thoughts are a little juvenile and choppy. But as the story goes on you notice her grow and try to navigate all the weird things she doesn’t understand. I could not put this book down a and was captured by the world through Julia’s eyes.

Apr 10, 2020 rated it really liked it
I feel like I learned a lot from this book and gained a valuable perspective. There were some moments of such beautiful language. On the other hand, the character's naivety and childish voice felt a little forced/fake to me at moments, as though she referred to herself as a child or fought for her maturity the way adults think 12-14 year olds /should/ more so than the way they actually /do/.
Mar 11, 2020 rated it liked it
For a book in journal format, this took me longer to read than I expected. I'm fairly certain the fault is on my end, but I didn't find the characters and plot gelling in the way I prefer. Which may have been the point?
Sara Stevenson
Aug 09, 2020 rated it really liked it
This book was a tough read, but definitely one worth taking the time to read. There were a lot of things about Julia that irritated the shit out of me, but overall it was 100% worth it.
Sep 17, 2020 rated it really liked it
YA; Realistic Fiction; El Paso, TX; Ciudad Juarez, Tamps. Mex.; Drug Violence; Police Corruption; Coming of Age.
Ann Dickinson
May 31, 2020 rated it it was amazing
Excellent. Well written heart wrenching story of a young Hispanic girl living back & forth in El Paso and Juarez.
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Apr 26, 2020 rated it liked it
I am conflicted about this book & how I felt while I was reading it but I do think that it is a good portrayal of what it's like to live on the border. Thank you, Sylvia Aguilar-Zéleny! ...more
Jenny Schrader
Aug 30, 2020 rated it liked it
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Season Johnson
Oct 02, 2020 rated it really liked it
Quick read.
Feb 26, 2020 rated it it was amazing
YA story abut a young girl coming of age on the American/Mexican border. Very well written
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