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The Five
This is not your average love story...
Every man who meets Rainey wants her. Having lived a life of sex, drugs and manipulation, she is a temptation with far too many secrets.
When psychologist, Justin Redding, is assigned to Rainey's case, he has no way of knowing the tale of debauchery he will encounter.
On a twisted path of love, loss and murder, Rainey leads Justin through the events of her life.
Death follows Rainey...
Justin fights to discover her secrets...
But will he discover the secret of THE FIVE in time to resist Rainey's ultimate seduction?
***DISCLAIMER: This book deals with sensitive subject matters that may be upsetting for some readers.
Every man who meets Rainey wants her. Having lived a life of sex, drugs and manipulation, she is a temptation with far too many secrets.
When psychologist, Justin Redding, is assigned to Rainey's case, he has no way of knowing the tale of debauchery he will encounter.
On a twisted path of love, loss and murder, Rainey leads Justin through the events of her life.
Death follows Rainey...
Justin fights to discover her secrets...
But will he discover the secret of THE FIVE in time to resist Rainey's ultimate seduction?
***DISCLAIMER: This book deals with sensitive subject matters that may be upsetting for some readers.
349 pages, Paperback
First published March 11, 2019
About the author
Lily White
37 books2,398 followersLily White is a bestselling author who likes to dabble on the dark side of romance. She is most known for her Masters Series, Target This, Wishing Well, and The Five.
When she isn’t writing as Lily White you can find other books by her under M.S. Willis where she has penned the Control Series, the Estate Series, and Because of Ellison (contemporary romance).
Lily enjoys stretching her writing muscles by continuing to challenge herself with each book she publishes.
When she isn’t writing as Lily White you can find other books by her under M.S. Willis where she has penned the Control Series, the Estate Series, and Because of Ellison (contemporary romance).
Lily enjoys stretching her writing muscles by continuing to challenge herself with each book she publishes.
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January 12, 2021
Wow.
That's the only word I could think of when I finished this book.
My mind is still reeling from the journey this author took me on in the lives of Rainey and Justin! I don't know exactly what I was expecting from this story, but it wasn't this! I would've never guessed the direction the author would take things, or how fucked up it would have me feeling in the end.
It's not often that a book takes me by surprise in this way. I read so much that it's hard to find something new and unexpected. I've been looking for an author to pull the rug out from under me for a while now, and that's exactly what Lily White did here. Discovering this book was like hitting the fucking jackpot!
The Five is so different from any other story I've read before. It's actually difficult to describe it without giving anything away. This is one of those books that I truly feel like you should go into blind.
Don't read any reviews. Even the slightest thing could give away something important that will ruin the book. Just know that this story is dark, gritty, fucked up, graphic, and twisted. There is a mysterious, melancholy feeling throughout the book, and it's definitely not your average romance!
If you're a fan of dark stories, READ. THIS. BOOK. I promise you'll be left with your mouth hanging open, and your brain in fragments on the floor. Your feelings will be so fucked up you won't know what to do with yourself, and if you're like me, you'll love every minute of it!
Dark romance and romantic suspense fans, this one's for your crazy asses! 😂
That's the only word I could think of when I finished this book.
My mind is still reeling from the journey this author took me on in the lives of Rainey and Justin! I don't know exactly what I was expecting from this story, but it wasn't this! I would've never guessed the direction the author would take things, or how fucked up it would have me feeling in the end.
It's not often that a book takes me by surprise in this way. I read so much that it's hard to find something new and unexpected. I've been looking for an author to pull the rug out from under me for a while now, and that's exactly what Lily White did here. Discovering this book was like hitting the fucking jackpot!
The Five is so different from any other story I've read before. It's actually difficult to describe it without giving anything away. This is one of those books that I truly feel like you should go into blind.
Don't read any reviews. Even the slightest thing could give away something important that will ruin the book. Just know that this story is dark, gritty, fucked up, graphic, and twisted. There is a mysterious, melancholy feeling throughout the book, and it's definitely not your average romance!
If you're a fan of dark stories, READ. THIS. BOOK. I promise you'll be left with your mouth hanging open, and your brain in fragments on the floor. Your feelings will be so fucked up you won't know what to do with yourself, and if you're like me, you'll love every minute of it!
Dark romance and romantic suspense fans, this one's for your crazy asses! 😂
May 19, 2019
Title: ➳ The Five
Author: ➳Lilly White
Published: ➳ March 11th 2019
Rainey Summer Day. Was her name. let me 1st start off with I would completely hate my mother for giving me name like that until I could legally change it.
This book just blew me away emotionally, mentally, & physically. The more I read , it seem more Rainey seem have fell down dark hole, & she couldn’t find way out
I must warn you that this isn’t some sweet love stories with hearts & flowers. This is dark & gritty read. You must walk into this book with open mind & eyes wide open Cuz when you Hearing Rainy Talk about hear life . there will so many think that you might just yell out loud.. There also be times you are going to wanna throw your Kindle cross the room. I would suggest you say the easy one that you might want to say over & over again is WTF.. You’ll hear about tragedy after tragedy. Remember you are gonna need that Kindle to finish this story, & trust me you’ll want to hear every dirty detail to understand the ending… k enjoy & I’ll stop blah blah blahing⬇
➦Justin Redding is a professional psychologist that was assigned to get the truth out of Rainey Summer Day about the brutal murders of her friends & yet she the only one to live to tell the tale!
➦Justin need to figure out also what is the meaning of the 5 scars on Rainey arm …. Does it mean
Five years in the neighborhood (Clayton Heights).
Five older men that abused her as a kid.
Five neighbors.
Five victims at the party.
Five times she slept with Rowan.
➦ Reading this book felt like quicksand. No matter how hard I struggled, the situation only became worse. I had no choice but to remain focus on finishing this book. At times it was so hard to continue read Rainey tale. She was hazard to her own well -being. to make matters worse, it was so hard seeing how Rowan was suffering also
➦In the end Rainey may had thought there was So many maybes & So many regrets. But if you take the time & let her finish her WHOLE story, you might just think all her mistakes & sacrifice might worth it
To tell the truth the end wasn’t what I had expected, but doesn’t mean in any sense it not good ending or book isn’t worth reading.
I’ve never read anything from this author
At times I was on the fence with this book…. I truly am aren’t sure if I loved or hated or maybe something in between⬇
➦It took several days to decide if I wanted to read this book after it was Recommended to me…
➦Hope you enjoy this read & also always keep in mind this is just my opinion
✎Paulette Review 💕 "❤ 💙 “
Author: ➳Lilly White
Published: ➳ March 11th 2019
Rainey Summer Day. Was her name. let me 1st start off with I would completely hate my mother for giving me name like that until I could legally change it.
This book just blew me away emotionally, mentally, & physically. The more I read , it seem more Rainey seem have fell down dark hole, & she couldn’t find way out
I must warn you that this isn’t some sweet love stories with hearts & flowers. This is dark & gritty read. You must walk into this book with open mind & eyes wide open Cuz when you Hearing Rainy Talk about hear life . there will so many think that you might just yell out loud.. There also be times you are going to wanna throw your Kindle cross the room. I would suggest you say the easy one that you might want to say over & over again is WTF.. You’ll hear about tragedy after tragedy. Remember you are gonna need that Kindle to finish this story, & trust me you’ll want to hear every dirty detail to understand the ending… k enjoy & I’ll stop blah blah blahing⬇
➦Justin Redding is a professional psychologist that was assigned to get the truth out of Rainey Summer Day about the brutal murders of her friends & yet she the only one to live to tell the tale!
➦Justin need to figure out also what is the meaning of the 5 scars on Rainey arm …. Does it mean
Five years in the neighborhood (Clayton Heights).
Five older men that abused her as a kid.
Five neighbors.
Five victims at the party.
Five times she slept with Rowan.
➦ Reading this book felt like quicksand. No matter how hard I struggled, the situation only became worse. I had no choice but to remain focus on finishing this book. At times it was so hard to continue read Rainey tale. She was hazard to her own well -being. to make matters worse, it was so hard seeing how Rowan was suffering also
➦In the end Rainey may had thought there was So many maybes & So many regrets. But if you take the time & let her finish her WHOLE story, you might just think all her mistakes & sacrifice might worth it
To tell the truth the end wasn’t what I had expected, but doesn’t mean in any sense it not good ending or book isn’t worth reading.
I’ve never read anything from this author
At times I was on the fence with this book…. I truly am aren’t sure if I loved or hated or maybe something in between⬇
➦It took several days to decide if I wanted to read this book after it was Recommended to me…
➦Hope you enjoy this read & also always keep in mind this is just my opinion
✎Paulette Review 💕 "❤ 💙 “
April 11, 2020
This book is brutal and, ugh, disturbing. This might not be the most accurate comparison, but I imagine it’s like, if the story of Joker & Harley Quinn had a crossover with Penelope Douglas’ Credence, then this book would be the meeting point where it’s dark, sexy, and unhinged.
So, here we meet with Rainey Summer Day—god bless her soul for such a ridiculous name. Anyway, she’s basically sex on legs. After one party gone wrong where her friends were pummelled to death leaving only her somehow miraculously survived, she was questioned by the authority to explain her side of the story.
When the interview came to naught, the police called in psychologist, Justin Redding, to help deal with the case. From there, the two start having sessions where she leads Justin through the events of her life full of sex, drugs, and manipulation. As the investigation goes on, Justin finds himself struggling to uncover the truth behind the murder and resist the pull of Rainey’s siren seduction.
The book is told in 1st person dual POV alternating between past and present. Normally, I would be completely turned off by this considering that I don’t quite favor flashbacks in my books. However, this story is told in such a way that makes you want to keep on turning the pages despite all the distress you’re feeling from being inside Rainey’s troubled mind.
Listening to her was difficult, she had a habit of rambling over moments she found uninteresting, but then diving into clear and particularly painful detail regarding the sexual activities she carried on.
I will admit that Rainey’s chapters do get repetitive. In fact, every single chapter from her POV mostly tells a different version of the same messed up routine she goes through to get by every single day. At first, it was sad and heartbreaking. Then, it got very appalling and depressing, and by the end I was frustrated. The quote above describes perfectly how it’s like to listen to Rainey tell her horrible past.
There was something very wrong about Rainey, so infuriatingly wrong that I wanted to shake her and slap some sense into her.
Rainey is not the typical heroine you found in books. She’s gullible to a fault, but also practical and hopeless. I felt for her, but at the same time I was also vexed by her character. I mean, how can someone have zero regard of her own self worth? At one point, I even thought that she was maybe raised in a cult or something.
Some readers are probably upset because of the ending, but I’m not. It makes so much more sense than if it were to end with the other scenario. The main twist is not surprising if you notice all of the foreshadowing. But it knocked the breath out of me nonetheless. I’m a hopeless romantic and an advocate of hea. So, I’m content with how this ends.
Overall, this is the kind of romantic suspense book that makes you want to crawl out of your skin and is filled with convoluted debauchery tale and tons of gruesome scenes. Admittedly, I would categorize this to be on the lighter side of dark romance, but it still is not a safe read and has many triggers. This was my first time with Lily White, and this author’s definitely left an imprint on me.
March 13, 2019
THE FIVE: Is a full length suspenseful romance novel by ‘Lily White’
God where to even start with this review!! This is completely left field to what one would normally come to expect by this author. Going through my mind on repeat once I'd inhaled this was wtf had I just read!! The synopsis doesn't really give you much to go by, our heroine Rainy is unlike anyone you would've encountered before. Her self worth was at a constant zero, she would do literally anything for her next high, and she basically did, she had no shame, you would think she was easily led, easily manipulated but keep in mind this character is a creation of Lily Whites.
But what was shocking and unusual were the many deaths that surrounded Rainy as we sat back and unraveled the story she was telling us in her own words to psychologist, Justin some of these deaths were well deserved, they got what came to them. But living where Rainy does many go unsolved and just chalked up to the location and the characters residing there which ranged from bikers, to drug dealers, and the likes, but this story mainly surrounds one family whom lived next door to Rainy.
Rainy's story is not for the faint of heart, it's brutal, depressing, it's sad and will pull at your heart strings like no other. Her story is toxic, it's a train wreck, it will play on your mind after you've closed that last page. All I can really say is be prepared for the unexpected because Lily White is going to knock your socks off!!
* Teaser used is off the authors facebook page *
May 30, 2020
Incredibly dark and original, it certainly brought out strong emotions!
This book was cra-cra! It was very well written and I liked how it was laid out. It starts at a police station where a police psychologist is being put on a murder case where a bunch of people were brutally murdered at a house party and one girl survived. She was found tied to a bed in the upstairs bedroom after having been beaten. The cops didn’t get anywhere in questioning her because she had no memory of what happened.
So the psychologist, a man named Justin, goes to the home of the young woman to interview her on what happened that night. The girl’s name is Rainey Summer Day and she lives in a bad part of town all alone. She won’t talk about what happened that night but wants to begin by talking about the first day she moved in to the neighborhood and how she met her neighbors next door.
Justin ends up returning each day to hear more of Rainey’s story which is a very dark and depressing tale of how she is used and abused by just about every man in her life, but especially by the neighbors next door. There is a father and four brothers the youngest of which, Rowen, has a crush on Rainey and later becomes her friend. But on that first day, his oldest brother Jacob tells him to get lost while he trades pot for sex with her.
It isn’t long before the father and another brother are using her the same way, and her life goes downhill from there. Her story is like a very slow train wreck that you are watching and no matter how hard you try, you just can’t take your eyes off of it. You keep hoping that she will do something to get it back on track but she never does. Rowan is such a good guy and though he is a few years younger than her, it is hard to watch how his brothers treat him and how she constantly hurts him.
Though she continues to tell him that she isn’t worthy of him and he needs to find someone better than her, deep down she does love him and keeps doing awful things with his brothers and father right in front of him. I pretty much hated her for most of the book, but also felt bad for her, even though most of the stuff that happened to her was really her own fault.
I don’t want to give any more away, but there are more people around her that have died so Justin has to figure out if she is in any way involved in the deaths. It isn’t until the very end that you find out what happened that night at the party. Though there are plenty of clues along the way. Either way, this book is very different than anything I have ever read before and though I didn’t really like Rainey, I liked the love story between her and Rowan. I was in tears quite a few times during this book!
A book everyone who loves crazies should read! Because these people are nuts!
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This book was cra-cra! It was very well written and I liked how it was laid out. It starts at a police station where a police psychologist is being put on a murder case where a bunch of people were brutally murdered at a house party and one girl survived. She was found tied to a bed in the upstairs bedroom after having been beaten. The cops didn’t get anywhere in questioning her because she had no memory of what happened.
So the psychologist, a man named Justin, goes to the home of the young woman to interview her on what happened that night. The girl’s name is Rainey Summer Day and she lives in a bad part of town all alone. She won’t talk about what happened that night but wants to begin by talking about the first day she moved in to the neighborhood and how she met her neighbors next door.
Justin ends up returning each day to hear more of Rainey’s story which is a very dark and depressing tale of how she is used and abused by just about every man in her life, but especially by the neighbors next door. There is a father and four brothers the youngest of which, Rowen, has a crush on Rainey and later becomes her friend. But on that first day, his oldest brother Jacob tells him to get lost while he trades pot for sex with her.
It isn’t long before the father and another brother are using her the same way, and her life goes downhill from there. Her story is like a very slow train wreck that you are watching and no matter how hard you try, you just can’t take your eyes off of it. You keep hoping that she will do something to get it back on track but she never does. Rowan is such a good guy and though he is a few years younger than her, it is hard to watch how his brothers treat him and how she constantly hurts him.
Though she continues to tell him that she isn’t worthy of him and he needs to find someone better than her, deep down she does love him and keeps doing awful things with his brothers and father right in front of him. I pretty much hated her for most of the book, but also felt bad for her, even though most of the stuff that happened to her was really her own fault.
I don’t want to give any more away, but there are more people around her that have died so Justin has to figure out if she is in any way involved in the deaths. It isn’t until the very end that you find out what happened that night at the party. Though there are plenty of clues along the way. Either way, this book is very different than anything I have ever read before and though I didn’t really like Rainey, I liked the love story between her and Rowan. I was in tears quite a few times during this book!
A book everyone who loves crazies should read! Because these people are nuts!
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March 13, 2019
So hold tight because I need to go pet some fluffy bunnies before I start this review...
OK, so...WOW. Where do I start? First, I have to say I think Lily White is one of the most versatile authors I have ever had the pleasure to read. Whenever you pick up one of her books, you never know what you are getting yourself into. Every one of them are unique and frankly, amazing. This book was no different. This is the second book in as many days where I have been blown away by how good it was. It is also the second book in a row where I will leave my review pretty dang vague.
This book was CRAZY. I am not gonna even lie. It was also amazingly well written. It is a relatively long book, but you won't want to skim a single moment. Trust me on that point. It is told in a dual POV format and through the use of "past" and "present" chapters. The plot was super engaging. Dark. Twisted. Heartbreaking. Uncomfortable. Rainy...man...I don't even know what to say about this girl. She made me depressed, but she also made me want to shake the sh!t out of her. I am not even going to touch on the men in this book...oy vey. Last...the ending. The only TINY niggle I had with this one was the ending, and that is only because something is mentioned earlier in the book that gave the ending away. As soon as a character mentioned it, I knew how this book would end. I think if that conversation had been left out the ending would have had a much bigger impact on me. Especially since as far as I could tell that bit of information wasn't pertinent to the story. Still, even with that this book was an amazing read and well deserving of the 5-Stars I am gifting it. I can't wait to see what this author has up her sleeve next!
March 16, 2019
Genre: Romantic Suspense
Type: Standalone
POV: First Person - Dual
Rating:
Rainey Day might be young but life had not been kind to her. Growing up in a toxic environment, she only knew one way to survive even if it hurt her.
Justin Redding had seen it all. As a psychologist, he was trained to uncover the truth behind the facade. But nothing prepared him for his latest case which with a simple misstep could take him down the rabbit hole.
I started this book completely blind and I’m glad because it helped intensified all the emotions I felt. This book made me incredibly mad and also sad about the life choices the characters made. They were hard to turn away from like a mesmerizingly beautiful but brutal train wreck.
It’s been a while since I read a true page turner and this book, I couldn’t put it down. The story was engaging and erotic just the way I like it. However, I did figure out the ending, but still, it didn't detract from my enjoyment.
The Five is a story of love and survival. It would appeal to readers who could appreciate hard to love characters.
❌ 5⃣ ❌ . . . (F)BR With Twinsie CC & Loyda . . . ❌ 5⃣ ❌
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Type: Standalone
POV: First Person - Dual
Rating:
Rainey Day might be young but life had not been kind to her. Growing up in a toxic environment, she only knew one way to survive even if it hurt her.
Justin Redding had seen it all. As a psychologist, he was trained to uncover the truth behind the facade. But nothing prepared him for his latest case which with a simple misstep could take him down the rabbit hole.
She was a tiny bird that had fallen from the nest, so insanely vulnerable and lost that I wondered if she would ever find her way again.
I started this book completely blind and I’m glad because it helped intensified all the emotions I felt. This book made me incredibly mad and also sad about the life choices the characters made. They were hard to turn away from like a mesmerizingly beautiful but brutal train wreck.
It’s been a while since I read a true page turner and this book, I couldn’t put it down. The story was engaging and erotic just the way I like it. However, I did figure out the ending, but still, it didn't detract from my enjoyment.
The Five is a story of love and survival. It would appeal to readers who could appreciate hard to love characters.
❌ 5⃣ ❌ . . . (F)BR With Twinsie CC & Loyda . . . ❌ 5⃣ ❌
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March 20, 2019
Holy heck! How do you even begin to review a book like this? I’ve read a lot of books and many of them have been dark and disturbing, but his one…just, holy heck! Every book I’ve read by this author surprises me and I swore I wasn’t going to let her twist me up this time around. Uh, I’m the fool. She got me. Again.
First, let me say to try to avoid any reviews that go into a lot of detail about this story. The way it slowly opens up and reveals itself is part of the overall experience that you won’t want to miss. It’s written from two different points of view. Justin, the victim advocate who has been assigned to determine if the woman who he’s interviewing is capable of the crimes the police are investigating, and Rainey who is the sole survivor of a “rampage style murder” where four people were bludgeoned to death.
While the weight of this book rests on Rainey’s past, she was broken long before her story actually begins here. You may find yourself empathizing with her. You may cry. You may sneer. You may judge. However, through it all…you will feel.
This is a dark story on the lighter side but with many disturbing scenes and actions. It is not a safe read. It has triggers galore. And if you can handle that, you’re in for the ride of your life.
Dual POV
Safe
Triggers
First, let me say to try to avoid any reviews that go into a lot of detail about this story. The way it slowly opens up and reveals itself is part of the overall experience that you won’t want to miss. It’s written from two different points of view. Justin, the victim advocate who has been assigned to determine if the woman who he’s interviewing is capable of the crimes the police are investigating, and Rainey who is the sole survivor of a “rampage style murder” where four people were bludgeoned to death.
While the weight of this book rests on Rainey’s past, she was broken long before her story actually begins here. You may find yourself empathizing with her. You may cry. You may sneer. You may judge. However, through it all…you will feel.
This is a dark story on the lighter side but with many disturbing scenes and actions. It is not a safe read. It has triggers galore. And if you can handle that, you’re in for the ride of your life.
Dual POV
Safe
Triggers
May 16, 2019
3 Stars
A party has gone horribly wrong and Rainey’s friends were brutalized and killed but she survived. She couldn’t remember much of the party and the police couldn’t get too much out of her so they called Justin. He’s a psychologist (a victim advocate). She was the key to what happened in that house and how she survived, So the sessions begin…
Told mostly in dual POV, 1st person. It’s a standalone novel. I really didn’t like the story. I guessed the main twist right so early in the story and I disliked the ending. I didn’t like the h. I don’t want to be mean; I knew she had been through too much but still I couldn’t see her as a victim! I didn’t like her personality. Alternating between Past and Present, it’s a dark and angsty read. It’s not your usual romance and the sex scene was too many for my liking (If you could name them sex but I think it was inevitable considering the subject matter). Overall, it was an okay read for me (and given all the 5 stars maybe it was just me and not the book), hope you like it more than me!
This novel discusses sensitive subject matters. Readers who are sensitive to triggers are advised to proceed with caution.
A party has gone horribly wrong and Rainey’s friends were brutalized and killed but she survived. She couldn’t remember much of the party and the police couldn’t get too much out of her so they called Justin. He’s a psychologist (a victim advocate). She was the key to what happened in that house and how she survived, So the sessions begin…
Told mostly in dual POV, 1st person. It’s a standalone novel. I really didn’t like the story. I guessed the main twist right so early in the story and I disliked the ending. I didn’t like the h. I don’t want to be mean; I knew she had been through too much but still I couldn’t see her as a victim! I didn’t like her personality. Alternating between Past and Present, it’s a dark and angsty read. It’s not your usual romance and the sex scene was too many for my liking (If you could name them sex but I think it was inevitable considering the subject matter). Overall, it was an okay read for me (and given all the 5 stars maybe it was just me and not the book), hope you like it more than me!
This novel discusses sensitive subject matters. Readers who are sensitive to triggers are advised to proceed with caution.
May 7, 2022
Criminy, this might be the hardest review I’ve ever written. Strictly because I’m afraid of giving spoilers.
First and foremost … holy smokes. Like where has this author been all my life?! Because this book right here just blew me away.
Not just the suspense aspect, although that was stellar. But the entire package. From the awful cast of characters, to the vivid world of this wretched neighborhood to the utter horror of Rainy’s life of degradation.
Jesus Christ! It breaks my heart that she’s convinced herself that she’s not worthy of Rowan’s love. That she deserves every horrible thing that’s happened to her. Gah! I’m literally crying right now.
I cried through half this damn book but I never wanted to put it down. Lily White had me in her firm grip and never let me go from page one.
Also the narrators on the audio were stellar. You know I love Jason Clarke but Rose Dioro made this! She was perfectly emotional, the cadence, the tone exactly right.
I could gush for days but mostly I’m afraid of giving it all away so I’ll stop here. But do yourself a favor. If you haven’t read this … DO IT!
First and foremost … holy smokes. Like where has this author been all my life?! Because this book right here just blew me away.
Not just the suspense aspect, although that was stellar. But the entire package. From the awful cast of characters, to the vivid world of this wretched neighborhood to the utter horror of Rainy’s life of degradation.
Jesus Christ! It breaks my heart that she’s convinced herself that she’s not worthy of Rowan’s love. That she deserves every horrible thing that’s happened to her. Gah! I’m literally crying right now.
I cried through half this damn book but I never wanted to put it down. Lily White had me in her firm grip and never let me go from page one.
Also the narrators on the audio were stellar. You know I love Jason Clarke but Rose Dioro made this! She was perfectly emotional, the cadence, the tone exactly right.
I could gush for days but mostly I’m afraid of giving it all away so I’ll stop here. But do yourself a favor. If you haven’t read this … DO IT!
January 21, 2023
4.5⭐
I won't give any spice rating cz...the details were great, but the context and the situation was sick asf.
FIRST, ROWAN HAS MY HEART 💞😌
The most beautiful, heart-wrenching and truly dark book I've read so far
It was by far the roughest book I read. I was so close to dnf'ing it cz it was that dark. I felt every single emotion reading this book, except happiness.
Not only that, but I must warn you that this isn’t some sweet love story with hearts & flowers or a dark story of couples!. This is a dark & fucked up book.
It's a full journey of grief and horrible mistakes people make just to get some type of high in their system. It also shows that there are parts and people in this world that are worse. And they could be anyone around us, and we wouldn't even know.
Story line
A police psychologist is assigned to a murder investigation involving several people who were brutally slaughtered at a house party, but one girl survived, and the story begins at the police station.
After being assaulted, she was discovered in the upper bedroom, bound to a bed. She had no memories of the incident, thus the police were unable to further with their interrogation of her.
So, Justin, the psychologist, visits the young woman's house to speak with her about what happened that evening. The girl's name is Rainey Summer Day, and she lives by herself in a poor, disgusting area of the city.
She doesn't want to talk about the night so soon, not until she tells him the whole story about how her life got there, all her cruel journey.
Five years in the neighborhood (Clayton Heights).
Five older men that abused her as a kid.
Five neighbors.
Five victims at the party.
Five times she slept with Rowan.
but there's more to that, I can't say without spoiling it 🥺💝
Believe me when I say her journey was the most disturbing backstories I've ever read! I was so mad and angry at Rainey for doing all this stuff to herself, the decisions she took just to get some drugs in her system. But ig she was immature, so I'll let that pass.
BUT still looking as men*gag* took advantage of her in every way possible, was just...no, I can't. I started to skip those scenes ifykyk cz it was soo messed up!
The ending was so beautiful in every way!😭 yes, I was crying crying. BUT THE PLOT TWIST UUFFF tbh I sort of guessed it but still it was perfect. 🥺💞
I would've stopped reading if it wasn't for that one person I don't wanna spoil in any way possible but. So yeah, I could go around and around talk so much about Rainey's story. but this review is going to be so long 😭
"Rainey and Rowan forever"
“I'll always come find you, Rainey.”
“Promise?”
“Promise.”
"Every breath she took was mine.
Every beat of her heart, a pulse in my chest.
Every thought in that beautiful head, a whisper against my ears."
"The way we kissed was poetry, a love forged in fire, two heartbeats pulsing as one, defying the odds we'd overcome to end up here."
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Rtc😭❤
I won't give any spice rating cz...the details were great, but the context and the situation was sick asf.
FIRST, ROWAN HAS MY HEART 💞😌
The most beautiful, heart-wrenching and truly dark book I've read so far
It was by far the roughest book I read. I was so close to dnf'ing it cz it was that dark. I felt every single emotion reading this book, except happiness.
Not only that, but I must warn you that this isn’t some sweet love story with hearts & flowers or a dark story of couples!. This is a dark & fucked up book.
It's a full journey of grief and horrible mistakes people make just to get some type of high in their system. It also shows that there are parts and people in this world that are worse. And they could be anyone around us, and we wouldn't even know.
Story line
A police psychologist is assigned to a murder investigation involving several people who were brutally slaughtered at a house party, but one girl survived, and the story begins at the police station.
After being assaulted, she was discovered in the upper bedroom, bound to a bed. She had no memories of the incident, thus the police were unable to further with their interrogation of her.
So, Justin, the psychologist, visits the young woman's house to speak with her about what happened that evening. The girl's name is Rainey Summer Day, and she lives by herself in a poor, disgusting area of the city.
She doesn't want to talk about the night so soon, not until she tells him the whole story about how her life got there, all her cruel journey.
Five years in the neighborhood (Clayton Heights).
Five older men that abused her as a kid.
Five neighbors.
Five victims at the party.
Five times she slept with Rowan.
but there's more to that, I can't say without spoiling it 🥺💝
Believe me when I say her journey was the most disturbing backstories I've ever read! I was so mad and angry at Rainey for doing all this stuff to herself, the decisions she took just to get some drugs in her system. But ig she was immature, so I'll let that pass.
BUT still looking as men*gag* took advantage of her in every way possible, was just...no, I can't. I started to skip those scenes ifykyk cz it was soo messed up!
The ending was so beautiful in every way!😭 yes, I was crying crying. BUT THE PLOT TWIST UUFFF tbh I sort of guessed it but still it was perfect. 🥺💞
I would've stopped reading if it wasn't for that one person I don't wanna spoil in any way possible but. So yeah, I could go around and around talk so much about Rainey's story. but this review is going to be so long 😭
"Rainey and Rowan forever"
“I'll always come find you, Rainey.”
“Promise?”
“Promise.”
"Every breath she took was mine.
Every beat of her heart, a pulse in my chest.
Every thought in that beautiful head, a whisper against my ears."
"The way we kissed was poetry, a love forged in fire, two heartbeats pulsing as one, defying the odds we'd overcome to end up here."
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Rtc😭❤
November 1, 2019
The Five was fucking awesome! This is my first Lily White read and it was everything I could've wanted and more - an awesome mystery, a dark and gritty path leading to a nice massive mindfuck thrown in and a whole lot of filthy and poor judgement in between. It was simply it's own thing and what a blessing that is!
The Five centers around Rainey Day, what most would call a white trash girl, living with her single mom. At the beginning she's 17 and moving into yet another slum, Clayton Heights. Little does she know the day she moves in how much of an impact the Connor family next door will have on and in her life. Five men - the father and his four sons, the youngest being Rowan, the first she lays eyes on.
But to even get to the start of Rainey's life in Clayton Heights and her involvement with the Connors we start with a psychologist brought in by the police because Rainey is the sole survivor of a party where the other 4 people were brutally murdered. Rainey seems to be murky in her memory of events and the police want to know what the hell went down and also whether Rainey is capable herself of physically harming others. Thus we meet Justin, the psychologist that is assigned the case and spends his days at Rainey's home trying to pluck the details from her mind. But Rainey won't go there, she insists for him to understand, he must first hear her story from the day she moved to Clayton Heights five years ago and her relationship with the Connor men. The scenes go back and forth between Rainey telling her story of the past and Justin reacting and trying to pull more out of her.
Rainey's story packs a whole lot of punches. Her story is truly horrendous. Born with a siren's body and aura, she has suffered sexual abuse as a child but she also makes terrible choices as a young adult and allows herself to be used over and over again. Her self esteem seems to be nil. A lot of the story she recounts is graphic, degrading and she seemingly thinks there's nothing wrong with it as that is all her self worth is. The Connor men are all pieces of work outside of the youngest, Rowan. In Rainey and Rowan was an impossible love story that she still holds dear to her heart even after he died in a car crash.
All of this she recounts to Justin, including much much more than stated above. She seems to know her station in life and accepts it and that's hard for the psychologist in Justin to hear:
“I guess I have to think that things can’t get worse than they already have been. Rock bottom is the lowest a person can go, right? Well, I was born there.”
As the time ticks by and Justin files his daily reports, he becomes twisted up in Rainey's story while trying to rush her to skip to the end and the night of the party. He also finds himself attracted to her and tries to give a wide berth to stay professional.
With all that being said, the above is just the tip of the iceberg. Who is Rainey really? Is she the totally used girl who allows abuse because she's used to it? Is she the young woman Rowan insisted she was although she always denied it? And what is the meaning of the five? You see, Rainey has 5 tally marks on her inner arm and Justin knows they signify the biggest clue. But what exactly are the 5 when so many different things add up into fives in this book?
The slow unravelling of every little detail, every ugly demeaning part and every little slice of beautiful is absolutely delicious. Trying to figure out what it all means is hypnotizing and Lily White takes you through a maze of a journey into Rainey's mind to come to the ultimate truths. And when she does, Wow, just Wow! Mindfuck central!
I loved this ending. I probably shouldn't have but without saying anything to give it away, I did absolutely adore the ending and that probably makes me one sick puppy but I'm owning it and reveling in it. This book rocked from start to finish and I was addicted from page one to the very end, I literally could not stop to take a break. And the ending? So totally worth it even when I didn't see it coming.
So 5**** totally twisted stars for a book that will go down as one of my faves!
The Five centers around Rainey Day, what most would call a white trash girl, living with her single mom. At the beginning she's 17 and moving into yet another slum, Clayton Heights. Little does she know the day she moves in how much of an impact the Connor family next door will have on and in her life. Five men - the father and his four sons, the youngest being Rowan, the first she lays eyes on.
But to even get to the start of Rainey's life in Clayton Heights and her involvement with the Connors we start with a psychologist brought in by the police because Rainey is the sole survivor of a party where the other 4 people were brutally murdered. Rainey seems to be murky in her memory of events and the police want to know what the hell went down and also whether Rainey is capable herself of physically harming others. Thus we meet Justin, the psychologist that is assigned the case and spends his days at Rainey's home trying to pluck the details from her mind. But Rainey won't go there, she insists for him to understand, he must first hear her story from the day she moved to Clayton Heights five years ago and her relationship with the Connor men. The scenes go back and forth between Rainey telling her story of the past and Justin reacting and trying to pull more out of her.
Rainey's story packs a whole lot of punches. Her story is truly horrendous. Born with a siren's body and aura, she has suffered sexual abuse as a child but she also makes terrible choices as a young adult and allows herself to be used over and over again. Her self esteem seems to be nil. A lot of the story she recounts is graphic, degrading and she seemingly thinks there's nothing wrong with it as that is all her self worth is. The Connor men are all pieces of work outside of the youngest, Rowan. In Rainey and Rowan was an impossible love story that she still holds dear to her heart even after he died in a car crash.
All of this she recounts to Justin, including much much more than stated above. She seems to know her station in life and accepts it and that's hard for the psychologist in Justin to hear:
“I guess I have to think that things can’t get worse than they already have been. Rock bottom is the lowest a person can go, right? Well, I was born there.”
As the time ticks by and Justin files his daily reports, he becomes twisted up in Rainey's story while trying to rush her to skip to the end and the night of the party. He also finds himself attracted to her and tries to give a wide berth to stay professional.
With all that being said, the above is just the tip of the iceberg. Who is Rainey really? Is she the totally used girl who allows abuse because she's used to it? Is she the young woman Rowan insisted she was although she always denied it? And what is the meaning of the five? You see, Rainey has 5 tally marks on her inner arm and Justin knows they signify the biggest clue. But what exactly are the 5 when so many different things add up into fives in this book?
The slow unravelling of every little detail, every ugly demeaning part and every little slice of beautiful is absolutely delicious. Trying to figure out what it all means is hypnotizing and Lily White takes you through a maze of a journey into Rainey's mind to come to the ultimate truths. And when she does, Wow, just Wow! Mindfuck central!
I loved this ending. I probably shouldn't have but without saying anything to give it away, I did absolutely adore the ending and that probably makes me one sick puppy but I'm owning it and reveling in it. This book rocked from start to finish and I was addicted from page one to the very end, I literally could not stop to take a break. And the ending? So totally worth it even when I didn't see it coming.
So 5**** totally twisted stars for a book that will go down as one of my faves!
March 17, 2019
“You could feel sorry for me. Laugh at me.Call me stupid or a slut. It didn’t matter because I was still breathing. I was still marching on despite knowing there wasn’t any light at the end of my tunnel”.
Omg this was messed the hell up in the most delicious effed up way!! I don’t even know where to start, how to go about telling you about these characters, and explaining this intricate web of lies plot that had me at a loss for words at times. This author wasted no time in sucking you into the plot with a “ Who’s really innocent/guilty vibe and it’s been one roller coaster ride since.
Rainey Day (yes that’s her name) has just been a part of a gruesome crime. Waking up with no recollection and now being questioned by the police, she’s now being seen as the victim who got lucky. With the help of a young psychologist who’s been assigned to get more information of what really happened that night, the past and present of Rainey’s life, becomes the main attraction in this circus of twisted plots.
Because this book deals with a lot of content that some might find disturbing or uncomfortable, I will refrain from going into further details in the story. What I will say is that these characters are crazy AF!! From the moment I started reading this, I’ve had a nagging feeling in the pit of my stomach. I put it on the back burner for the first half of the book because I felt like nothing was going to come of it and everything was going to be ok. Boy was I wrong… I knew it, I felt, and I saw the big neon flashing sign but you know what? I had hope. So much that did for me!! Shock does not even to begin to describe the buildup to that ending!!
“You have a lot dead people around you, Rainey.
We all die. Just some of us sooner than others".
The lengths that some of the characters went through was not only mind boggling at times, but it’s down right scary. I’ve read a lot of stories where the characters have sacrificed a lot for the other, but this was different and I loved that. I angry when certain decisions were made, felt that flicker of pride for a moment, and held my breath for the unknown that was the ending.
If you like your reads twisted, unconventional, with a side of fucked up, then this is the one for you! Lily White will have wanting so much more from the minute you’ve read the words “The End”
March 18, 2019
5 Stars!
While in high school, Rainey Day moved to a derelict neighborhood. Though Rainey is a beauty, she doesn’t feel like she is smart and chooses to use her looks to get what she wants. While most of her choices are destructive, Rainey befriends the one person who values her, but she doesn’t want to hold him back. However, when Rainey loses what she holds most important, she must continue to as she’s always done.
Justin Redding is a psychologist assigned to interview the lone witness to multiple murders. Upon meeting Rainey, Justin wants to be her advocate, but the case turns out to be complicated. With limited time, Justin tries to obtain all the answers without getting too entangled.
Told in dual POV, the storyline begins in the present then alternates to the past weaving the details of Rainey’s life. While telling her experiences in vivid detail, it becomes immediately clear this isn’t a shiny story. As complex layers are revealed, it just adds to the tension of many unanswered questions.
Throughout reading The Five, I had a strong reaction to Rainey’s decisions, as she is a character than will incite a range of emotions. Additionally, other characters make a strong impression, as they all play a vital role in this cautionary tale. Truly, this story captivated me from the first page. With the author as an impressive puppet master, this twisted plot unfolds perfectly.
The Five is about survival and consequences and will appeal to those who enjoy a dark thriller.
*An ARC was provided in exchange for an honest review.*
*This was a (F)BR with Twinsie Hawkey and Loyda!*
For more reviews/reveals/giveaways visit:
While in high school, Rainey Day moved to a derelict neighborhood. Though Rainey is a beauty, she doesn’t feel like she is smart and chooses to use her looks to get what she wants. While most of her choices are destructive, Rainey befriends the one person who values her, but she doesn’t want to hold him back. However, when Rainey loses what she holds most important, she must continue to as she’s always done.
“I was a survivor. I knew that and clung to the belief.”
Justin Redding is a psychologist assigned to interview the lone witness to multiple murders. Upon meeting Rainey, Justin wants to be her advocate, but the case turns out to be complicated. With limited time, Justin tries to obtain all the answers without getting too entangled.
“Don’t you know that stories are supposed to be told from beginning to end? Jumping around will only confuse things.”
Told in dual POV, the storyline begins in the present then alternates to the past weaving the details of Rainey’s life. While telling her experiences in vivid detail, it becomes immediately clear this isn’t a shiny story. As complex layers are revealed, it just adds to the tension of many unanswered questions.
“She was a woman created solely for the purpose of temptation. Everything about her, everything.”
Throughout reading The Five, I had a strong reaction to Rainey’s decisions, as she is a character than will incite a range of emotions. Additionally, other characters make a strong impression, as they all play a vital role in this cautionary tale. Truly, this story captivated me from the first page. With the author as an impressive puppet master, this twisted plot unfolds perfectly.
The Five is about survival and consequences and will appeal to those who enjoy a dark thriller.
*An ARC was provided in exchange for an honest review.*
*This was a (F)BR with Twinsie Hawkey and Loyda!*
For more reviews/reveals/giveaways visit:
February 5, 2021
“Rock bottom is the lowest a person can go, right? Well, I was born there.”
Rainey (22) is the only one to survive a party (4 others killed) and Justin (a victim advocate, psychologist) has been brought in to try to get the truth out of Rainey. ”Give me something, Ms. Day. How were all your friends brutalized, and yet you lived to tell the tale?”
My Thoughts:
WTF!!!!!!! Here are my emotions as I read this book....😬🤥🤐😲🥴🤮🤬🤯😡☹️💩🤷♀️🤦♀️
Can I say again....WTF!!!
The story flips between present (mostly Justin’s POV) and past (Rainey’s POV). The past is Rainey’s retelling of her life over a period of about 5 years. It begins when she is 17 and moves into Clayton Heights and ends when the truth is revealed about what happened on the night 4 of her friends were killed.
Justin is trying to unravel the secrets and mysteries of Rainey and his POV shines a light on the verbal and non-verbal cues that surround Rainey.
“I was more than ready to sit down and have a long talk with Ms. Rainey Day, an admittedly beautiful girl who’d not only survived five years in Clayton Heights, but also the scene of a rampage style murder.”
His insight and the clues the reader got about Rainey’s appearance and mannerisms pulled me into the story because she definitely is someone you want to try to understand.
“There was an appeal to her, something raw, primal, and carnal. She was the type of girl men would want without knowing why. A siren, her presence so natural and unapologetic that it brought one purpose to mind.”
“Movement caught my eye; she was touching the mark beneath her elbow again.
Her fingers moved over it, and I had a clear view of five tally marks as if she was counting something.”
What did this represent?? 🤔🤔
Front and center during this time in Rainey’s history are the men from the house next door. Paul, Frankie, Joel, Jacob and Rowan. Rainey’s life choices involving these men was incredibly hard to understand. It’s hard for me to imagine how someone can lack so much self worth and respect for themselves. She literally did ANYTHING to get a joint, a tiny bit of coke or some money. I definitely wouldn’t describe her as an addict, so why she willingly agreed to everything they wanted was impossible for me to comprehend. The way this girl just let people use her and toy with her was utterly astounding and it completely boggled my mind. Just when I thought she couldn’t sink any lower, she would agree to something else that thoroughly degraded her worth even further. Once again, her life choices blew my mind. 🤯😬😲 Because I didn’t respect her, it was hard for me to like her.
As Justin met with Rainey and tried to make sense of her actions, he started to come to some conclusions:
”It was clear to me that she was a person who needed human contact, who would undergo abuse so she didn’t have to feel alone.”
“She was a woman created solely for the purpose of temptation. Everything about her, everything, brought out primal instincts that were more animal than human.”
“I would stake my professional reputation on the fact that she was playing a game, one she knew how to play to get exactly what she wanted out of men. There was never an in between. She was innocent or conniving, expertly so.”
As the story comes to a conclusion there are some twists and turns that take the story in an interesting direction. Some I guessed, some were surprising, some I’m not sure I could buy into.
This is a dark and disturbing story and centers around a girl who lacks self worth, self respect, has no shame and willing gives herself to men to be used in any fashion. I have never met a character like her and I honestly hope I never encounter her again. However, the inability to relate to the heroine is actually part of the appeal of the book and I will say that I “felt” things. It’s like a train wreck that you can’t turn away from. There is a love story buried in here, but it is unconventional, not what you expect and your boundaries will most likely be pushed on several occasions.
If you are looking for hearts and flowers, run far, far away from this story. 🏃♀️
If you want a twisted, f’d up story, reach for this. Once again.....WTF!!!🤯
There are too many triggers to list, so my advice is to stay away if you are concerned about what might be in his story.
Quotes:
“Because that’s what girls like me do. That’s what we’re good for. It’s just sex, right? Nothing special.”
“This is where it all started for me three years ago. I’d agreed to have sex with one guy for one joint, and as the days rolled on, I found myself in a moment where I was fucking strangers for cash.”
Quite frankly, had I experienced even one week of her life, I would have found myself strapped to a bed in a Thorazine haze once the doctors and nurses had wrestled me into a mental facility.”
”I wasn’t just going to Hell, I was driving the truck there myself.”
“People think I’m stupid, and in many ways, they’re right. But when it came to manipulating people to get what I wanted, I was a master of moving the game pieces, offering myself up like some poor, dumb girl, too weak and too scared to do anything about it.”
“Our love story was a different beast, one filled with insanity, with heartache and misfortune.
“Still, we survived, and that just goes to show that you should never look down on a person who the world will tell you is unworthy. You never know what that person is willing to do to survive.”
Rainey (22) is the only one to survive a party (4 others killed) and Justin (a victim advocate, psychologist) has been brought in to try to get the truth out of Rainey. ”Give me something, Ms. Day. How were all your friends brutalized, and yet you lived to tell the tale?”
My Thoughts:
WTF!!!!!!! Here are my emotions as I read this book....😬🤥🤐😲🥴🤮🤬🤯😡☹️💩🤷♀️🤦♀️
Can I say again....WTF!!!
The story flips between present (mostly Justin’s POV) and past (Rainey’s POV). The past is Rainey’s retelling of her life over a period of about 5 years. It begins when she is 17 and moves into Clayton Heights and ends when the truth is revealed about what happened on the night 4 of her friends were killed.
Justin is trying to unravel the secrets and mysteries of Rainey and his POV shines a light on the verbal and non-verbal cues that surround Rainey.
“I was more than ready to sit down and have a long talk with Ms. Rainey Day, an admittedly beautiful girl who’d not only survived five years in Clayton Heights, but also the scene of a rampage style murder.”
His insight and the clues the reader got about Rainey’s appearance and mannerisms pulled me into the story because she definitely is someone you want to try to understand.
“There was an appeal to her, something raw, primal, and carnal. She was the type of girl men would want without knowing why. A siren, her presence so natural and unapologetic that it brought one purpose to mind.”
“Movement caught my eye; she was touching the mark beneath her elbow again.
Her fingers moved over it, and I had a clear view of five tally marks as if she was counting something.”
What did this represent?? 🤔🤔
Front and center during this time in Rainey’s history are the men from the house next door. Paul, Frankie, Joel, Jacob and Rowan. Rainey’s life choices involving these men was incredibly hard to understand. It’s hard for me to imagine how someone can lack so much self worth and respect for themselves. She literally did ANYTHING to get a joint, a tiny bit of coke or some money. I definitely wouldn’t describe her as an addict, so why she willingly agreed to everything they wanted was impossible for me to comprehend. The way this girl just let people use her and toy with her was utterly astounding and it completely boggled my mind. Just when I thought she couldn’t sink any lower, she would agree to something else that thoroughly degraded her worth even further. Once again, her life choices blew my mind. 🤯😬😲 Because I didn’t respect her, it was hard for me to like her.
As Justin met with Rainey and tried to make sense of her actions, he started to come to some conclusions:
”It was clear to me that she was a person who needed human contact, who would undergo abuse so she didn’t have to feel alone.”
“She was a woman created solely for the purpose of temptation. Everything about her, everything, brought out primal instincts that were more animal than human.”
“I would stake my professional reputation on the fact that she was playing a game, one she knew how to play to get exactly what she wanted out of men. There was never an in between. She was innocent or conniving, expertly so.”
As the story comes to a conclusion there are some twists and turns that take the story in an interesting direction. Some I guessed, some were surprising, some I’m not sure I could buy into.
This is a dark and disturbing story and centers around a girl who lacks self worth, self respect, has no shame and willing gives herself to men to be used in any fashion. I have never met a character like her and I honestly hope I never encounter her again. However, the inability to relate to the heroine is actually part of the appeal of the book and I will say that I “felt” things. It’s like a train wreck that you can’t turn away from. There is a love story buried in here, but it is unconventional, not what you expect and your boundaries will most likely be pushed on several occasions.
If you are looking for hearts and flowers, run far, far away from this story. 🏃♀️
If you want a twisted, f’d up story, reach for this. Once again.....WTF!!!🤯
There are too many triggers to list, so my advice is to stay away if you are concerned about what might be in his story.
Quotes:
“Because that’s what girls like me do. That’s what we’re good for. It’s just sex, right? Nothing special.”
“This is where it all started for me three years ago. I’d agreed to have sex with one guy for one joint, and as the days rolled on, I found myself in a moment where I was fucking strangers for cash.”
Quite frankly, had I experienced even one week of her life, I would have found myself strapped to a bed in a Thorazine haze once the doctors and nurses had wrestled me into a mental facility.”
”I wasn’t just going to Hell, I was driving the truck there myself.”
“People think I’m stupid, and in many ways, they’re right. But when it came to manipulating people to get what I wanted, I was a master of moving the game pieces, offering myself up like some poor, dumb girl, too weak and too scared to do anything about it.”
“Our love story was a different beast, one filled with insanity, with heartache and misfortune.
“Still, we survived, and that just goes to show that you should never look down on a person who the world will tell you is unworthy. You never know what that person is willing to do to survive.”
June 19, 2022
If you offer your hand to someone and the person won’t take it then stop offering the hand. If someone who is sinking has their hand around you and is pulling you down you are not obligated to drown with them. There is a rule in life guarding too-“ I will save you but that doesn’t mean you get to drown me while I am doing it and if it’s you drown or both of us drown then it’s you drown” and that’s not cruelty it’s wisdom”
- Jordan
This quote stuck with me through the entire book even though it contradicts everything the book stand for. Then again fantasies are meant to be beautiful and so was my Rowan with his Rainey summer day.
I loved you the first time and I still do and will probably reread it again in future.
- Jordan
This quote stuck with me through the entire book even though it contradicts everything the book stand for. Then again fantasies are meant to be beautiful and so was my Rowan with his Rainey summer day.
I loved you the first time and I still do and will probably reread it again in future.
December 22, 2022
The most heartbreaking book
I am pretty sure this was the roughest book I have ever read. I struggled through it the entire time. Specifically Rainey’s chapters.
I was nauseated through every one of her chapters until the very end. My throat felt constricted, my stomach was in knots, I was actively crying. Unfortunately, I’m not exaggerating. I didn’t know I’d be able to finish it because there was never any light. One dark, depraved thing happened after another. So why did I rate it the way I did? Why did I keep reading? Because of two things: Rowan 💔 and that ending…that ending was beautiful and perfect for this story. It was like I could finally breathe again, my entire body relaxed.
I haven’t had this kind of experience reading a book in several years. Maybe ever? I’ll never forget Rainey and The Five. Lily White is powerful.
I would definitely consider this to have a HEA
*Please y’all: this is loaded with triggers. I caution SA survivors to avoid this completely or wait until you are in the right frame of mind and absolutely sure you’re ready mentally. This book is pitch black and stays that way until the very end. Be kind to yourself 💛
I am pretty sure this was the roughest book I have ever read. I struggled through it the entire time. Specifically Rainey’s chapters.
I was nauseated through every one of her chapters until the very end. My throat felt constricted, my stomach was in knots, I was actively crying. Unfortunately, I’m not exaggerating. I didn’t know I’d be able to finish it because there was never any light. One dark, depraved thing happened after another. So why did I rate it the way I did? Why did I keep reading? Because of two things: Rowan 💔 and that ending…that ending was beautiful and perfect for this story. It was like I could finally breathe again, my entire body relaxed.
I haven’t had this kind of experience reading a book in several years. Maybe ever? I’ll never forget Rainey and The Five. Lily White is powerful.
I would definitely consider this to have a HEA
*Please y’all: this is loaded with triggers. I caution SA survivors to avoid this completely or wait until you are in the right frame of mind and absolutely sure you’re ready mentally. This book is pitch black and stays that way until the very end. Be kind to yourself 💛
February 16, 2020
Audio..5 stars
Story..2.5 Ick Stars
No kidding this is not an average love story...not even close. It's a stretch for me to even consider it a love story at all. But if obsessive and dysfunctional behaviors can be considered love and romantic, I'm not going to judge...much. 😉
I'll be honest and say that I found myself mostly grossed out by what was happening in the story. I couldn't stop picturing most of the characters as smelly and desease ridden. 🤮 Soooo many unprotected sex scenes and little to no mention of showers. 🤢
I think most readers will guess the twist but that doesn't make it any less fucked up. 😵
Enjoy!
Story..2.5 Ick Stars
No kidding this is not an average love story...not even close. It's a stretch for me to even consider it a love story at all. But if obsessive and dysfunctional behaviors can be considered love and romantic, I'm not going to judge...much. 😉
I'll be honest and say that I found myself mostly grossed out by what was happening in the story. I couldn't stop picturing most of the characters as smelly and desease ridden. 🤮 Soooo many unprotected sex scenes and little to no mention of showers. 🤢
I think most readers will guess the twist but that doesn't make it any less fucked up. 😵
Enjoy!
May 21, 2020
“My mom did drugs and so did every man she dated. All my friends did. Just about everyone I knew did, so it never occurred to me there was something wrong with it.” This is sad!
This book was a great surprise!
I liked a lot!
This book was a great surprise!
I liked a lot!
March 20, 2019
NOW LIVE!
DAAAAAAAAAAAAMN! I inhaled this book. INHALED! Lily White knocked this fucker out of the park! The Five is going on my favorites list!
Give me something, Ms. Day. How were all your friends brutalized, and yet you lived to tell the tale?
A tale it was. Cleverly written in an ominous, mysterious, uncomfortable way. Now take a seat, Y'all, and prepare yourself for a dark, deeply depraved story like no other. I'd like to cuss all over this review to explain the shock on my face while reading. My jaw was on the dang floor. I'm like, whaaaaaaaaaaat in the hell did/am I reading right now. Edgy, extremely racy, unbelievably erotic. I was shaking my head feeling guilty. You know the feeling, glancing around making sure no one can see what you're reading. HAHA!
I wish I could babble until the sun comes up, this story has too many sharp corners and I don't want reveal any short cuts, if you know what I mean. True Lily White fashion, you will not know what to expect. No. NO. NO. Rainey's journey is completely and utterly disturbing, nail biting, stomach turning. But, wait, you won't want to stop. You'll be flipping the pages in twisted wonder from start to finish. Let me tell you, it was all kinds of wrong.
A dark romance that will leave you speechless! Because, believe it or not, there's a sadistically epic love story built in.
"The way we kissed was poetry, a love forged in fire, two heartbeats pulsing as one, defying the odds we’d overcome to end up here. It was messy, our love, but anything worth having is never drawn within established boundaries and neat ordinary lines."
DAAAAAAAAAAAAMN! I inhaled this book. INHALED! Lily White knocked this fucker out of the park! The Five is going on my favorites list!
Give me something, Ms. Day. How were all your friends brutalized, and yet you lived to tell the tale?
A tale it was. Cleverly written in an ominous, mysterious, uncomfortable way. Now take a seat, Y'all, and prepare yourself for a dark, deeply depraved story like no other. I'd like to cuss all over this review to explain the shock on my face while reading. My jaw was on the dang floor. I'm like, whaaaaaaaaaaat in the hell did/am I reading right now. Edgy, extremely racy, unbelievably erotic. I was shaking my head feeling guilty. You know the feeling, glancing around making sure no one can see what you're reading. HAHA!
I wish I could babble until the sun comes up, this story has too many sharp corners and I don't want reveal any short cuts, if you know what I mean. True Lily White fashion, you will not know what to expect. No. NO. NO. Rainey's journey is completely and utterly disturbing, nail biting, stomach turning. But, wait, you won't want to stop. You'll be flipping the pages in twisted wonder from start to finish. Let me tell you, it was all kinds of wrong.
A dark romance that will leave you speechless! Because, believe it or not, there's a sadistically epic love story built in.
"The way we kissed was poetry, a love forged in fire, two heartbeats pulsing as one, defying the odds we’d overcome to end up here. It was messy, our love, but anything worth having is never drawn within established boundaries and neat ordinary lines."
March 17, 2019
I’ve read everything published by Lily White and this is my favorite by her!!! Rainey is unlike any character we’ve seen from White. The definition of a white trash slut, Rainey will literally do anything (and anyone) for drugs. Rainey was created by the Queen of mind fuckery though, so she is even more than what she initially seems...
I was sucked into this story from page 1 and did not want to stop reading until I finished! THE FIVE was so not only sexy and entertaining but suspenseful and intriguing, causing me to constantly wonder how the story would play out and who had committed the crimes. Nothing was predictable and in the end, I was completely shocked!!!! I absolutely loved this sick, twisted, beautiful romance!!!!
I was sucked into this story from page 1 and did not want to stop reading until I finished! THE FIVE was so not only sexy and entertaining but suspenseful and intriguing, causing me to constantly wonder how the story would play out and who had committed the crimes. Nothing was predictable and in the end, I was completely shocked!!!! I absolutely loved this sick, twisted, beautiful romance!!!!
March 22, 2019
3.5 Stars ⭐️
July 14, 2022
Update: I be missin’ my boo Rowan, so I’m upgrading another star in this bitch.
Edit: this emotional wreck review ain’t about Rainey’s hoe ass, but only about my man, Rowan. 😏🫶🏻😍
3 𝚁̶𝚊̶𝚒̶𝚗̶𝚎̶𝚢̶ ̶ Rowan Stars 💧💧💧
You can’t save someone who doesn’t want to be saved & that’s Rainey.
You can’t help someone who doesn’t want to be helped & that’s Rainey.
But my bf of the year 2022 Rowan has white knight syndrome for this heroine. It just hurt me so much y’all, I’m literally over here & he doesn't see me. 🫶🏻 “She could buy me an entire fleet of cars, a new house and a yacht, and it still wouldn’t make her better. Megan’s not you. She never will be.”
🎶 I'll stop time for you
The second you say you'd like me to
I just wanna give you the loving that you're missing
Baby, just to wake up with you
Would be everything I need, and this could be so different
Tell me what you want to do 🎶
I ain’t got NO empathy for this chick Rainey. *sigh* I ain’t got NO love for this hoe. She’s really a slut for drugs. At least be a slut for LOVE. Heroine is a cruel cold hearted bitch where Stone Cold - Demi come into play.
🎶 Stone cold, stone cold
You see me standing, but I'm dying on the floor
Stone cold, stone cold
Maybe if I don't cry, I won't feel anymore 🎶
My man is confessing his undying love to you like a love sick puppy. U don’t even deserve his virginity & my poor boo thang always getting the leftovers 🤢🤮 becuz homegirl here still wanna be used up & discarded like trash. I swear I FEEL Justin on this. 👏🏻 I feel you, bro. “There was something very wrong about Rainey, so infuriatingly wrong that I wanted to shake her and slap some sense into her.” I wanted to smack tf outta Rainey like how Will Smith did with Chris at the Oscars because how many fucken times you gonna break my man, Rowan’s heart?! 🥹💔
Rowan the realest for even withstanding the suffering homegirl caused him by always hoeing around with his bros & father while he can hear, see, and get taunted about it. What’s nxt? My dude without hesitation gonna cheat on Meg for Rainey. “Rowan, you have a girlfriend.” Untying the straps of my halter, he answered, “A minor inconvenience that I can correct as soon as you tell me you’re mine.” He made quick work of pulling the scrap of cloth from my body to drop it on the floor beside the bed, his hand moving down my stomach to unbutton my shorts. “I’ve already told you a thousand times that if you want me, I’m yours. I’ll take care of you, Rainey. Protect you. Love you.”
🎶 There goes my heart beating
'Cause you are the reason
I'm losing my sleep
Please come back now 🎶
Although Rowan didn’t have his own pov, I didn’t need it because the connection was there between him & I. I understand him because his actions was louder than words. Rowan stole the show for me & was the main highlight & focus.
“I fell in love, like I said. Not just love, hell…I looked at that woman and spent every day of my life learning exactly what she needed in life. The drugs were just an escape, the men she slept with a means to an end, and while she mistreated her body by giving it up, I watched and I waited. I am who I am because of her, and every promise I made, I meant. People are so quick to toss out promises. Nothing but empty words, really. Mine weren’t. They’re eternal, unbreakable.”
I was so angry & hurt for my boo thang, Rowan because Rainey ain’t shit without R. She’s so unworthy of him. I understand him. I get him. I feel his pain. His unconditional love. I had to take breaks between readings cuz I was in my feels (still am). “This man loved me. With every bit of his body, his heart and his soul. He would do anything for me, be anything for me. He would keep every promise he made to me because that’s who Rowan was.”
This stand-alone was messy & upsetting for me, but I was still hypnotized. 😵💫
🎶 You got me so hypnotized,
The way yo' body rollin' 'round and round
That booty keep bumpin'
Titties just bouncin', up and down
You got me so hypnotized
The way yo' body rollin' 'round and round
That booty keep bumpin'
Titties just bouncin', up and down 🎶
Edit: this emotional wreck review ain’t about Rainey’s hoe ass, but only about my man, Rowan. 😏🫶🏻😍
3 𝚁̶𝚊̶𝚒̶𝚗̶𝚎̶𝚢̶ ̶ Rowan Stars 💧💧💧
You can’t save someone who doesn’t want to be saved & that’s Rainey.
You can’t help someone who doesn’t want to be helped & that’s Rainey.
But my bf of the year 2022 Rowan has white knight syndrome for this heroine. It just hurt me so much y’all, I’m literally over here & he doesn't see me. 🫶🏻 “She could buy me an entire fleet of cars, a new house and a yacht, and it still wouldn’t make her better. Megan’s not you. She never will be.”
🎶 I'll stop time for you
The second you say you'd like me to
I just wanna give you the loving that you're missing
Baby, just to wake up with you
Would be everything I need, and this could be so different
Tell me what you want to do 🎶
I ain’t got NO empathy for this chick Rainey. *sigh* I ain’t got NO love for this hoe. She’s really a slut for drugs. At least be a slut for LOVE. Heroine is a cruel cold hearted bitch where Stone Cold - Demi come into play.
🎶 Stone cold, stone cold
You see me standing, but I'm dying on the floor
Stone cold, stone cold
Maybe if I don't cry, I won't feel anymore 🎶
My man is confessing his undying love to you like a love sick puppy. U don’t even deserve his virginity & my poor boo thang always getting the leftovers 🤢🤮 becuz homegirl here still wanna be used up & discarded like trash. I swear I FEEL Justin on this. 👏🏻 I feel you, bro. “There was something very wrong about Rainey, so infuriatingly wrong that I wanted to shake her and slap some sense into her.” I wanted to smack tf outta Rainey like how Will Smith did with Chris at the Oscars because how many fucken times you gonna break my man, Rowan’s heart?! 🥹💔
Rowan the realest for even withstanding the suffering homegirl caused him by always hoeing around with his bros & father while he can hear, see, and get taunted about it. What’s nxt? My dude without hesitation gonna cheat on Meg for Rainey. “Rowan, you have a girlfriend.” Untying the straps of my halter, he answered, “A minor inconvenience that I can correct as soon as you tell me you’re mine.” He made quick work of pulling the scrap of cloth from my body to drop it on the floor beside the bed, his hand moving down my stomach to unbutton my shorts. “I’ve already told you a thousand times that if you want me, I’m yours. I’ll take care of you, Rainey. Protect you. Love you.”
🎶 There goes my heart beating
'Cause you are the reason
I'm losing my sleep
Please come back now 🎶
Although Rowan didn’t have his own pov, I didn’t need it because the connection was there between him & I. I understand him because his actions was louder than words. Rowan stole the show for me & was the main highlight & focus.
“I fell in love, like I said. Not just love, hell…I looked at that woman and spent every day of my life learning exactly what she needed in life. The drugs were just an escape, the men she slept with a means to an end, and while she mistreated her body by giving it up, I watched and I waited. I am who I am because of her, and every promise I made, I meant. People are so quick to toss out promises. Nothing but empty words, really. Mine weren’t. They’re eternal, unbreakable.”
I was so angry & hurt for my boo thang, Rowan because Rainey ain’t shit without R. She’s so unworthy of him. I understand him. I get him. I feel his pain. His unconditional love. I had to take breaks between readings cuz I was in my feels (still am). “This man loved me. With every bit of his body, his heart and his soul. He would do anything for me, be anything for me. He would keep every promise he made to me because that’s who Rowan was.”
This stand-alone was messy & upsetting for me, but I was still hypnotized. 😵💫
🎶 You got me so hypnotized,
The way yo' body rollin' 'round and round
That booty keep bumpin'
Titties just bouncin', up and down
You got me so hypnotized
The way yo' body rollin' 'round and round
That booty keep bumpin'
Titties just bouncin', up and down 🎶
March 11, 2020
I'm still not used to Lily White's arch mysteries and her dark tales. I still get book slapped for not being used to her craziness.
Justin is assigned to interrogate Rainey for being part of a crime. She recollects what happens but not the crime. Onward with the facinating tale she takes us throwing little snippets of the crime but keeps insisting telling the crime story in the end.
This story is of a broken girl, who makes bad dicisions and gets entrapped in its consequences. But hath noth for she has her own saviour to dig her out of her mess.
Do we not find this kind of themed books where heroine falls and hero saves her or vice versa? Here drop a fat dollop of Lily White's craziness and lo you have it twisted.
A large portion of the book is on Rainey's POV. The plot is engaging, heartbreaking and disgusting when you emphathize what Rainey went through.
I don't need to warn this book because we know Lily White is Lily White.
Justin is assigned to interrogate Rainey for being part of a crime. She recollects what happens but not the crime. Onward with the facinating tale she takes us throwing little snippets of the crime but keeps insisting telling the crime story in the end.
This story is of a broken girl, who makes bad dicisions and gets entrapped in its consequences. But hath noth for she has her own saviour to dig her out of her mess.
Do we not find this kind of themed books where heroine falls and hero saves her or vice versa? Here drop a fat dollop of Lily White's craziness and lo you have it twisted.
A large portion of the book is on Rainey's POV. The plot is engaging, heartbreaking and disgusting when you emphathize what Rainey went through.
I don't need to warn this book because we know Lily White is Lily White.
May 20, 2019
3 stars.
March 20, 2019
Whoah!!! What the phuck did I just read!! A painful blow to my vagg would've hurt less than walking in Rainey's shoes.
Lily just waved the wand - stupefy and I'm stunned! I'm so scared of her brain that if I meet her I prolly won't sit next to her. Her devious mind is capable of such barbaric evil that I can almost feel her cackle while she types.
It's convoluted and distressing story of various types of addictions. Drugs, love, hatred and sex. It makes people do stupid things and just obliterates their self worth
"How low can you go?
Rock bottom is the lowest a person can go, right? Well, I was born there.”
The story is quite straightforward. There's a beautiful & stunning girl called Rainey Day, who moves in Clayton Heights, right next door to the Connor men. Paul the dad, Frankie, Jacob, Joel and Rowan the sons and she just mesmerises the men.
She was a woman created solely for the purpose of temptation. Everything about her, everything, brought out primal instincts that were more animal than human. What made her dangerous was that she knew it.
She's a virtual flame that attracts the Moths all around. And they start falling dead like moths too!!
Psychologist Justin Redding is assigned to her case where she's discovered the sole human left breathing in a house where everyone else is massacred.
The story unfolds right in front of us and it's like watching mold grow. The rot that fills some human garbage pails starts to spread from inside out and the putrid souls just are laid bare in front of us.
I was horrified and willing to slap everybody around, and i intended to let no demon left behind. I wanted to kill them all a violent, torturous death myself **breathing hard**
I swear my blood pressure is through the roof!!
And hereforth starts a story so twisted, I'm shattered just by reading it. There's a permanent grimace on my face and smouldering anger in my heart.
I'm livid !
At the Connors
At Rainey
At her mom
At Rowan
At lily....whatever possesses this woman to write such stories!!
Freud would have a field day with my behavior in that moment, his Austrian accent clear in my head, condemning everything I struggled with as some deep seated, repressed and dark desire for violent sexual conquest.
Well.....Freud didn't meet Lily then or he would resurrect and commit suicide
As much as I hated the characterization, their actions and the plot develpment, I cannot but praise the writing skills of this evil genius. Undisputed Queen of The Dark. There's a nervous tension in the story throughout. It doesn't let you breathe much. Every time I feel this is rock bottom, Lily shoves my face in the muck and keeps pressing to show me another level of phucked up low that humanity can sink in.
But you can't walk away from the poignant moments untouched. Rainey was an unfortunate character whose manipulation made me cry. Rowan I could kiss and claim! And the end just was explosive! You must read this story even though some gag-worthy scenarios will make you retch. It's ugly in its truth and honesty, but C'est La vie!
For dark lovers it's caviar served on a gold cracker!!!
5 stars for 5 men, 5 promises, 5 scars
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Lily just waved the wand - stupefy and I'm stunned! I'm so scared of her brain that if I meet her I prolly won't sit next to her. Her devious mind is capable of such barbaric evil that I can almost feel her cackle while she types.
It's convoluted and distressing story of various types of addictions. Drugs, love, hatred and sex. It makes people do stupid things and just obliterates their self worth
"How low can you go?
Rock bottom is the lowest a person can go, right? Well, I was born there.”
The story is quite straightforward. There's a beautiful & stunning girl called Rainey Day, who moves in Clayton Heights, right next door to the Connor men. Paul the dad, Frankie, Jacob, Joel and Rowan the sons and she just mesmerises the men.
She was a woman created solely for the purpose of temptation. Everything about her, everything, brought out primal instincts that were more animal than human. What made her dangerous was that she knew it.
She's a virtual flame that attracts the Moths all around. And they start falling dead like moths too!!
Psychologist Justin Redding is assigned to her case where she's discovered the sole human left breathing in a house where everyone else is massacred.
The story unfolds right in front of us and it's like watching mold grow. The rot that fills some human garbage pails starts to spread from inside out and the putrid souls just are laid bare in front of us.
I was horrified and willing to slap everybody around, and i intended to let no demon left behind. I wanted to kill them all a violent, torturous death myself **breathing hard**
I swear my blood pressure is through the roof!!
And hereforth starts a story so twisted, I'm shattered just by reading it. There's a permanent grimace on my face and smouldering anger in my heart.
I'm livid !
At the Connors
At Rainey
At her mom
At Rowan
At lily....whatever possesses this woman to write such stories!!
Freud would have a field day with my behavior in that moment, his Austrian accent clear in my head, condemning everything I struggled with as some deep seated, repressed and dark desire for violent sexual conquest.
Well.....Freud didn't meet Lily then or he would resurrect and commit suicide
As much as I hated the characterization, their actions and the plot develpment, I cannot but praise the writing skills of this evil genius. Undisputed Queen of The Dark. There's a nervous tension in the story throughout. It doesn't let you breathe much. Every time I feel this is rock bottom, Lily shoves my face in the muck and keeps pressing to show me another level of phucked up low that humanity can sink in.
But you can't walk away from the poignant moments untouched. Rainey was an unfortunate character whose manipulation made me cry. Rowan I could kiss and claim! And the end just was explosive! You must read this story even though some gag-worthy scenarios will make you retch. It's ugly in its truth and honesty, but C'est La vie!
For dark lovers it's caviar served on a gold cracker!!!
5 stars for 5 men, 5 promises, 5 scars
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October 20, 2021
‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾☆ 3.25 stars ☆☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙
*TW: sexual, physical, mental and substance abuse, gaslighting, coercion, violence, death.*
Instead of flying, I’ll crawl.
Instead of climbing the ladder, I’ll squeeze through the lowest rungs.
Instead of scaling walls, you better believe I’ll dig a runner under them.
And instead of jumping a hurdle, I’ll just knock the damn thing down.
This was… a rough one. It was fcking graphic and unsettling. I entered it blind and I suggest you to do the same!!! I was invested and intrigued since the very beginning, but the ending fell flat for me and I feel so sad 😭😭 i had my suspicions and i kinda predicted the end by the 60%. I kept wanting it to switch up on me, but then it was over.
Before the ending, this was a solid 4 — 4.25 story. It was good. It was heartbreaking, but good. Seriously, I can’t even blame the guy. Justin kept saying they were psychopaths, but like… did you hear the story??!?!? And JUSTIN, that’s the other thing. I did not like him AT ALL. I don’t get why he was a psychiatrist. It would’ve made SO MUCH MORE SENSE if he was just a cop or a detective. He was god awful at his job. Didn’t named ONCE a single clinical term. Awful awful character.
I cried a lot lmao, it was just so fcking sad. Rainey really was a product of her environment. I just… it hurt too much at times, the decision she took and the ones that were taken from her. And Rowan… I actually really loved him. What he did to Megan was pretty shitty. Hated the fact that he wasn’t faithful. But like, after everything, he was just a puppy in love.
Idk, I may be too fcked up in the head, but I liked how things ended. It wasn’t surprising and it felt anticlimactic, so I can’t really give it a higher rating. And guys, ITS FICTION OKAY??? I would not feel this way if it was a real life story. I’m sure there’s a case out there similar, but I don’t know it. I just read a FICTION book. With that said, I enjoyed it a lot. And like I said, I couldn’t stop reading.
”I’ll love you forever Rainey. Protect you. Take care of you. There’s nowhere you can go where I won’t find you. Rowan and Rainey, forever.”
“Promise?”
“Promise.”
🥺✨
【SONGS:】
Exit Music (For A Film) — Radiohead
Feels Like We’re Dying —Johnny Goth
*TW: sexual, physical, mental and substance abuse, gaslighting, coercion, violence, death.*
Instead of flying, I’ll crawl.
Instead of climbing the ladder, I’ll squeeze through the lowest rungs.
Instead of scaling walls, you better believe I’ll dig a runner under them.
And instead of jumping a hurdle, I’ll just knock the damn thing down.
This was… a rough one. It was fcking graphic and unsettling. I entered it blind and I suggest you to do the same!!! I was invested and intrigued since the very beginning, but the ending fell flat for me and I feel so sad 😭😭 i had my suspicions and i kinda predicted the end by the 60%. I kept wanting it to switch up on me, but then it was over.
Before the ending, this was a solid 4 — 4.25 story. It was good. It was heartbreaking, but good. Seriously, I can’t even blame the guy. Justin kept saying they were psychopaths, but like… did you hear the story??!?!? And JUSTIN, that’s the other thing. I did not like him AT ALL. I don’t get why he was a psychiatrist. It would’ve made SO MUCH MORE SENSE if he was just a cop or a detective. He was god awful at his job. Didn’t named ONCE a single clinical term. Awful awful character.
I cried a lot lmao, it was just so fcking sad. Rainey really was a product of her environment. I just… it hurt too much at times, the decision she took and the ones that were taken from her. And Rowan… I actually really loved him. What he did to Megan was pretty shitty. Hated the fact that he wasn’t faithful. But like, after everything, he was just a puppy in love.
Idk, I may be too fcked up in the head, but I liked how things ended. It wasn’t surprising and it felt anticlimactic, so I can’t really give it a higher rating. And guys, ITS FICTION OKAY??? I would not feel this way if it was a real life story. I’m sure there’s a case out there similar, but I don’t know it. I just read a FICTION book. With that said, I enjoyed it a lot. And like I said, I couldn’t stop reading.
”I’ll love you forever Rainey. Protect you. Take care of you. There’s nowhere you can go where I won’t find you. Rowan and Rainey, forever.”
“Promise?”
“Promise.”
🥺✨
【SONGS:】
Exit Music (For A Film) — Radiohead
Feels Like We’re Dying —Johnny Goth
February 10, 2020
Our love story was a different beast, one filled with insanity, with heartache and misfortune.
I've finished reading The Five two days ago and I'm still wondering what it is I've read, how to review Rainey's story.
Rainey is a walking temptation to every man she meets. All her life, all she knows is sex, drugs, and manipulation. When she is found unconscious and bound to a bed bleeding from a gash on the back of her head in a house with the four bodies of her friends bludgeoned to death, psychologist, Justin Redding, is assigned to uncover the truths in Rainey’s case.
Is Justin ready to listen to Rainey's tale of degenerate depravity? The story alternates between the past and the present. The past is Rainey's telling of her twisted path of loss, sex, drugs, love and, eventually, murder So many deaths surrounding this girl...
And the present? Forever doesn’t mean until the end of our lives, it means until the end of eternity.
***“Rowan and Rainey forever.”***
I've read a lot of Lily White's books and I must say I am in awe with how she manages to surprise me every time! Her twists are always so unexpected and jaw-dropping.
As disgusted I felt at times, I equally felt so sad. My heart breaking for Rainey and, in the end, for Justin.
February 6, 2020
4 Breathtaking Stars
I wondered if perhaps the soul of the good burned as brightly as stars, the world unable to contain such fire, so it devised different ways to extinguish them.
This book was truly something else. It has been a while since I’ve been so absorbed in a book. This story is filled with so much pain, heartbreak, love. It will definitely make you want to stop reading at times - but it is written in a way that sucks you in until you finish it.
If it took being crazy to love him, then I hoped to God I would never regain sanity again.
Perhaps the most unconventional love story I’ve read to date. A gem of a book!
This man was the beginning and end of my life. He was my shelter. My rock. The star that had swallowed me whole just to absorb me in its light.
I wondered if perhaps the soul of the good burned as brightly as stars, the world unable to contain such fire, so it devised different ways to extinguish them.
This book was truly something else. It has been a while since I’ve been so absorbed in a book. This story is filled with so much pain, heartbreak, love. It will definitely make you want to stop reading at times - but it is written in a way that sucks you in until you finish it.
If it took being crazy to love him, then I hoped to God I would never regain sanity again.
Perhaps the most unconventional love story I’ve read to date. A gem of a book!
This man was the beginning and end of my life. He was my shelter. My rock. The star that had swallowed me whole just to absorb me in its light.
May 16, 2020
Holy fucking shit! 🤯🤯🤯
Fair Warning; This book is not for a faint heart.😬 OMG it was so sick&twisted and just the way I liked it. 😆😆😆. That end literally blew my mind. Wow 😎😎😎
Ms.Lily White, you're officially on my favorite authors list now. I admire you. Bravo! 🙏🙏🙏
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