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If I Fall
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How do you survive when your best friend takes his own life?
Khloe has no idea how she’ll live without her best friend by her side. Carter was not the suicidal type, and Khloe can’t understand his leaving her so abruptly. When she finds Carter’s journal, it’s a secret portal holding all his deepest secrets. As Khloe unravels the hidden darkness of her best friend’s life—hop ...more
Khloe has no idea how she’ll live without her best friend by her side. Carter was not the suicidal type, and Khloe can’t understand his leaving her so abruptly. When she finds Carter’s journal, it’s a secret portal holding all his deepest secrets. As Khloe unravels the hidden darkness of her best friend’s life—hop ...more
Kindle Edition, Second Edition, 270 pages
Published
March 4th 2020
by Blue Tulip Publishing
(first published January 19th 2019)
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Looking for an edgy read and one that will tug at your heartstrings as it delves into a lot of edgy topics including suicide, drugs, abuse, and alcohol. It also shows readers that sometimes you need to hit rock bottom for you to decide to change and do something to turn your life around. The book starts with Khloe getting a phone call from her best friend Carter, she gets a vibe that something is wrong. Khloe then rushes to her friend's house and finds him dead. The book then jumps to the funera
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This is an incredibly emotionally charged intense book,
Dealing with real issues which I had great empathy towards and I found reading difficult for me at times.It really got to me and shattered my heart in places,I cried unapologetically for Khloe and the journey she embarked on to come to terms with her best friends tragic suicide.
Amber Thielman has written a very compelling story,with a flare that was respectful,raw and beautiful. Anyone who wants to read a book that will make you cry ,and fe ...more
Dealing with real issues which I had great empathy towards and I found reading difficult for me at times.It really got to me and shattered my heart in places,I cried unapologetically for Khloe and the journey she embarked on to come to terms with her best friends tragic suicide.
Amber Thielman has written a very compelling story,with a flare that was respectful,raw and beautiful. Anyone who wants to read a book that will make you cry ,and fe ...more

I would especially like to thank the Booksprout site and especially the author without whom I would never have been able to read this book.
I was immediately attracted by the beautiful cover of this book, it shows the pretty Khloé sitting against a wall and seems sad.
It all starts when Khloe's best friend dies, how is she going to survive without him by her side. Yet Carter would never do that. Until the day she stumbles upon his secret journal. She's gonna come across a lot of things she never ...more
I was immediately attracted by the beautiful cover of this book, it shows the pretty Khloé sitting against a wall and seems sad.
It all starts when Khloe's best friend dies, how is she going to survive without him by her side. Yet Carter would never do that. Until the day she stumbles upon his secret journal. She's gonna come across a lot of things she never ...more

If I Fall is a book of truth. Its a book that will give u a look into the dark and pain of what some of our youth deal with. Its heartbreaking and stomach turning at some points. Its also amazing and beautiful and i believe this should be a required reading for our youth. Always remember u are not alone .

Wow ... what can I say about this book other than it is absolutely fantastic! Read it in a day, just couldn't put it down!! Hard hitting, sad, happy ... a rollercoaster of emotions! 5 stars isn't enough to say how good this book is... definitely my favourite book of the year so far! 💖
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I enjoyed reading the book it's shows a lot of how an addict struggles day to day I will be watching out for more books by Amber Thielman I received this book free from voraciousreadersonly for my honest review
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Khloe Daniels is in absolute shock when she gets a phone call from her best friend Carter Drake that confuses her and when she arrives at his house she finds him dead from suicide. Now she finds herself falling apart without him and doing everything that he would disapprove of as she tries to go on living.
When Carter’s younger sister, Gracie, secretly gives her his journal, Khloe hopes it will fill in the pieces of why he would do something without letting her know what he was going through.
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When Carter’s younger sister, Gracie, secretly gives her his journal, Khloe hopes it will fill in the pieces of why he would do something without letting her know what he was going through.
Yet ...more

This was a beautifully written book about the dealings of suicide on those you love and the dark slippery slope it can lead others to. I found one part I struggled a little bit with is the rampant drug and alcohol use which led to a lot of casual sex and really put Khloe at risk for so many different things.
My heart broke for Khloe as Carter was her main family but I also found that she really disrespected him which may have been her way of coping as she did everything that she knew he would not ...more
My heart broke for Khloe as Carter was her main family but I also found that she really disrespected him which may have been her way of coping as she did everything that she knew he would not ...more

Wow! This book is so emotional, moving, and gut wrenching. Khloe gets a call from her best friend Carter and sensing something is wrong she goes to his house to find him dead. We also meet Khloe’s friend Ava, that is addicted to drugs and alcohol. Which leads Khloe to turn to drugs and alcohol to forget about Carter’s suicide. Khloe gets Carter’s journal and starts reading to try and discover the reason for his death. On her journey she meets Jay, Carter’s ex boyfriend, and Ty, the paramedic tha
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Intense , dark and emotional best describes this story. The author does a fantastic job bringing a deep,raw feeling with her vividly detailed scenes. She shows the despair and grief of addiction and the effects on her characters and their relationships. This is not an easy read and I have to admit I shed many tears while reading this story. It's well written,realistic and unfortunately true to life. Well done!
I voluntarily reviewed an ARC of this book. All opinions in this review are my own and ...more
I voluntarily reviewed an ARC of this book. All opinions in this review are my own and ...more

I was dubious about this, given that it ties romance to recovery. I worried the author would fall into the trap of allowing the main character to be rescued by love, but it was actually a well balanced resolution, ensuring that the plot doesn't hinge on reliant or codependent relationships but instead gives good examples of interdependence and the importance of multiple platonic as well as romantic relationships.
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This one was a little different from what I was used to from this author. It was a little darker, a little more serious and not at all so carefree than for example Almost paradise in my opinion. Still very strong, meaningful storyline that I enjoyed reading. 5 stars. I received a free copy of this book via Booksprout and am voluntarily leaving a review.

A wonderful powerful well written emotional story. This engaging storyline is intense showing amazing strength that kept me addicted page after page. It's an amazing journey through loss, grief, addiction, all the way to recovery. Very poignant and heartfelt story that I voluntarily read and reviewed.
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*I received a free copy of this book from the author via voracious readers only in exchange for an honest review*
I can understand why some other readers liked this one and it was a nice concept, however there was far too much drug use and needles in this for me. Not really my thing so I didn't really end up enjoying it. ...more
I can understand why some other readers liked this one and it was a nice concept, however there was far too much drug use and needles in this for me. Not really my thing so I didn't really end up enjoying it. ...more

This is the 1st book I've read written by Brittiany Morgan; she has done a great job at writing a good book; I can’t wait to read more of her books.
The story line caught my attention at the very beginning and kept me interested throughout the entire book.
I loved the characters.
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The story line caught my attention at the very beginning and kept me interested throughout the entire book.
I loved the characters.
I received a free copy of this book via booksprout and I’m voluntarily leaving a review. ...more

I couldn’t put it down. I read the whole book in something like 6 hours. I’ve read similar stories, but they weren’t quite as intense as this. A great read for struggling teens, but definitely not for the faint of heart.
I received a complimentary copy of this book from the author in exchange for an honest review
I received a complimentary copy of this book from the author in exchange for an honest review

ten stars! amazing characters. fast paced storyline. Lots of drama and suspense. Read cover to cover because I couldn't put it down.
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OMG!!! I have to warn you readers, this book will rip your heart out and shove it back in your chest. You know the movie Romancing The Stone...the part where Joan Wilder is finishing her book and crying so hard and out of tissue....Yep it is like that! So be prepared with a huge box of tissues. So here it is my review as I am currently trying to get my tears in check.
Khloe is young and has many problems and addictions. A high school drop out, who’s life is not going anywhere. Then on one fatefu ...more
Khloe is young and has many problems and addictions. A high school drop out, who’s life is not going anywhere. Then on one fatefu ...more

The subject matter of this novel is intense, which makes it a difficult novel to read. Having said that, I found that the author handled the material in as sensitive a manner as possible. It's a disturbing read, but I found it to be a very worthwhile one.
This novel reminds me an awful lot of Go Ask Alice, which I read several times in junior high, and, I believe, at least once as an adult. This novel is both lighter and darker than Go Ask Alice.
The story does move along at a good pace, and is se ...more
This novel reminds me an awful lot of Go Ask Alice, which I read several times in junior high, and, I believe, at least once as an adult. This novel is both lighter and darker than Go Ask Alice.
The story does move along at a good pace, and is se ...more

If I Fall
By Amber Thielman
Main Characters: Khloe, Carter, Ty and Jay
I voluntarily and honestly reviewed this book without bias or persuasion from the author.
5 out of 5 stars
Wow, this book was a doozy! I'm not even sure what to say about it but I will try. First this deals with teen suicide, drugs, pills and alcohol. It was extremely depressing to me as it hit a little close to home as I lost my only daughter at 17 to suicide. No drugs or anything like that but we were left in the same predicamen ...more
By Amber Thielman
Main Characters: Khloe, Carter, Ty and Jay
I voluntarily and honestly reviewed this book without bias or persuasion from the author.
5 out of 5 stars
Wow, this book was a doozy! I'm not even sure what to say about it but I will try. First this deals with teen suicide, drugs, pills and alcohol. It was extremely depressing to me as it hit a little close to home as I lost my only daughter at 17 to suicide. No drugs or anything like that but we were left in the same predicamen ...more

Amazing, emotionally charged, soul touching and heart warming
I don't have words to fully describe what this book done to me. It was so intense emotionally that it took me a while to get my thoughts around and finally put them into review. The emotions put into the words by the author, and then delivered in the story line that was perfectly thought through, were raw and touched me deeply, straight to my soul. The subject is not easy to even think about. This book made me cry but also in the cours ...more
I don't have words to fully describe what this book done to me. It was so intense emotionally that it took me a while to get my thoughts around and finally put them into review. The emotions put into the words by the author, and then delivered in the story line that was perfectly thought through, were raw and touched me deeply, straight to my soul. The subject is not easy to even think about. This book made me cry but also in the cours ...more

I voluntarily reviewed an advance reader copy of this book. This is a difficult review for me to do. This book is beautifully written and full of emotion. It is also very dark - much darker than books I normally feel comfortable reading. It deals with suicide and drug and alcohol addictions and the havoc these things can wreak on people and their families. The author embraces all of these subjects with sensitivity and realism. And while the subject matter throughout is very dark and bleak and th
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Amber Thielman is a contemporary author who creates adult, young adult, and new adult stories that her readers are sure to love.
Despite her adoration for drama-filled romantic suspense, Amber grew up reading too much Stephen King and spent endless summers devouring every Fear Street novel R.L. Stine ever wrote.
You can find Amber on social media when she's not writing the pretty words. Come say hi, ...more
Despite her adoration for drama-filled romantic suspense, Amber grew up reading too much Stephen King and spent endless summers devouring every Fear Street novel R.L. Stine ever wrote.
You can find Amber on social media when she's not writing the pretty words. Come say hi, ...more
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