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If I Fall
(A Lakewood Romance #4)
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How do you survive when your best friend takes his own life?
Khloe has no idea how she'll live without her best friend by her side. Carter was not the suicidal type, and Khloe can’t understand his leaving her so abruptly. When she finds Carter's journal, it's a secret portal holding all his deepest secrets. As Khloe unravels the hidden darkness of her best friend’s life—hop ...more
Khloe has no idea how she'll live without her best friend by her side. Carter was not the suicidal type, and Khloe can’t understand his leaving her so abruptly. When she finds Carter's journal, it's a secret portal holding all his deepest secrets. As Khloe unravels the hidden darkness of her best friend’s life—hop ...more
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Woah. Heartbreaking, such an emotional book.
This was the first time reading this author and wow.
Honestly not a fan of sad books, but this one was something alright. A little slow, BUT sooo worth the read.
This was the first time reading this author and wow.
Honestly not a fan of sad books, but this one was something alright. A little slow, BUT sooo worth the read.
OMG!!! I have to warn you readers, this book will rip your heart out and shove it back in your chest. You know the movie Romancing The Stone...the part where Joan Wilder is finishing her book and crying so hard and out of tissue....Yep it is like that! So be prepared with a huge box of tissues. So here it is my review as I am currently trying to get my tears in check.
Khloe is young and has many problems and addictions. A high school drop out, who’s life is not going anywhere. Then on one fatefu ...more
Khloe is young and has many problems and addictions. A high school drop out, who’s life is not going anywhere. Then on one fatefu ...more
If I Fall
By Amber Thielman
Main Characters: Khloe, Carter, Ty and Jay
I voluntarily and honestly reviewed this book without bias or persuasion from the author.
5 out of 5 stars
Wow, this book was a doozy! I'm not even sure what to say about it but I will try. First this deals with teen suicide, drugs, pills and alcohol. It was extremely depressing to me as it hit a little close to home as I lost my only daughter at 17 to suicide. No drugs or anything like that but we were left in the same predicamen ...more
By Amber Thielman
Main Characters: Khloe, Carter, Ty and Jay
I voluntarily and honestly reviewed this book without bias or persuasion from the author.
5 out of 5 stars
Wow, this book was a doozy! I'm not even sure what to say about it but I will try. First this deals with teen suicide, drugs, pills and alcohol. It was extremely depressing to me as it hit a little close to home as I lost my only daughter at 17 to suicide. No drugs or anything like that but we were left in the same predicamen ...more
Amazing, emotionally charged, soul touching and heart warming
I don't have words to fully describe what this book done to me. It was so intense emotionally that it took me a while to get my thoughts around and finally put them into review. The emotions put into the words by the author, and then delivered in the story line that was perfectly thought through, were raw and touched me deeply, straight to my soul. The subject is not easy to even think about. This book made me cry but also in the cours ...more
I don't have words to fully describe what this book done to me. It was so intense emotionally that it took me a while to get my thoughts around and finally put them into review. The emotions put into the words by the author, and then delivered in the story line that was perfectly thought through, were raw and touched me deeply, straight to my soul. The subject is not easy to even think about. This book made me cry but also in the cours ...more
I voluntarily reviewed an advance reader copy of this book. This is a difficult review for me to do. This book is beautifully written and full of emotion. It is also very dark - much darker than books I normally feel comfortable reading. It deals with suicide and drug and alcohol addictions and the havoc these things can wreak on people and their families. The author embraces all of these subjects with sensitivity and realism. And while the subject matter throughout is very dark and bleak and th
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Wow! What an impactful book. At times you want to scream at Khloe and her friend Ava due to all of the alcohol and drugs that they are using.
Khloe was on a journey to find out why her bestfriend would commit suicide. She ends up spiraling out of control drinking and drugs to kill her pain.
Ava is in many ways a good friend but was also an enabler. She supplied drugs and introduced Khloe to people who did harder drugs. All the while using herself, making it easier for Khloe to do the same.
Along he ...more
Khloe was on a journey to find out why her bestfriend would commit suicide. She ends up spiraling out of control drinking and drugs to kill her pain.
Ava is in many ways a good friend but was also an enabler. She supplied drugs and introduced Khloe to people who did harder drugs. All the while using herself, making it easier for Khloe to do the same.
Along he ...more
This book traces Khloe’s exploration of her best friend Carter’s journal, and, at times, it drags. In many ways, this is more Carter’s story than Khloe’s, an exploration of the traumas he’s faced, rejections, love, worry over Khloe herself. The Khloe we meet at the start of the book is very different from the Khloe that closes it; she becomes a much more likeable, rounded character, as does her friend Ava. The book is not an easy read; it is at times heartbreaking, at other times horrifying – an
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This book was so bitter sweet. How do you go on after losing someone so important to suicide? Khloe lost her best friend Carter. She goes through the whole book to figure out why he did it because she could not see the signs. She turns to alcohol, drugs, and sex to try and get through her sorrow. This journey she is on, leads her to the two men, Jay, Carters ex boyfriend and Ty, the paramedic that tried to save Carter and saved her other friend Ava. Through the love of them, she discovers things
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As much as this story is Khloe's dark, raw, gritty and sometimes hard to read story this is also Carter's. He may have ended his life but we still get to hear his powerful and emotional words through his journal.
His voice was very moving and had me in tears. His life and hiding his true self shouldn't have happened.
These two friends still communicate beyond the grave (you'll get what I mean). Khloe has her own demons and travels down the life of hell. But their friends are the light she needs. ...more
His voice was very moving and had me in tears. His life and hiding his true self shouldn't have happened.
These two friends still communicate beyond the grave (you'll get what I mean). Khloe has her own demons and travels down the life of hell. But their friends are the light she needs. ...more
Gut wrenching and at times almost difficult to read, If I Fall takes you on a poignant and deeply moving journey. This isn't your typical love story. Its a devastating and uplifting read that deals with family, profound loss and friendship. It unashamedly shows the ugly and often brutal side of addiction and the impact of suicide on those left behind. I was incredibly moved by the characters. They were, each and everyone, unforgettable. Amber Thielman is an exceptional storyteller and I promise
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A heartbreaking but very worthwhile read. When Khloe's best friend Carter takes his own life, her life is thrown into turmoil. As she grieves Carter, she falls into a dark place of drugs and alcohol to help her cope. On her journey to find an answer as to why her best friend would do this, she finds friends who stand by her and help her find the inner strength to put her life back together. A very poignant and powerful story that was hard to read at times and heartbreaking and tearful at others,
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This book was very well written. It explores the process of healing after a loss. For me this book had an overwhelming feeling of gloom and sadness that I could not shake. Not to deter anyone from reading it because it is a well thought out book and quite relatable if you share the same experience (whether it is an old wound or a fresh scar). This is a book I would recommend for the right person (know your friends). Enjoy!
Angsty and emotional.
Carter has taken his life and its through his journals that we find out why. His friend Khloe is on a similar downward spiral. But Ty, a paramedic, is there with a hand in her darkness.
Recommend
Carter has taken his life and its through his journals that we find out why. His friend Khloe is on a similar downward spiral. But Ty, a paramedic, is there with a hand in her darkness.
Recommend
When Khloe loses carter she loses her mind and she thinks drugs & alcohol will help her cope but his journal helps her a lot. This book def emotional! Wow such a great book!
I received a free copy of this book via Booksprout and am voluntarily leaving a review.
I received a free copy of this book via Booksprout and am voluntarily leaving a review.
I really enjoyed this book. Really good plot to the story. Very well written. Would highly recommend it to anyone who likes this kind of stories. Can't wait to read more from this author. Fast paced to the end.
I received a free copy of this book via Booksprout and am voluntarily leaving a review.
I received a free copy of this book via Booksprout and am voluntarily leaving a review.
This is Khloe's trip from the hell of losing her best friend to suicide. It is a very emotional book that takes you down low and gives you a great ending. It can be hard to read at times but is worth reading it to the end.
ABSOLUTELY AMAZING!! This was the first time reading this author & I was blown away.
I cried (but that's just me, cry at everything). This book opened my eyes to the other world of.. well everything. Could not put book down..
I LOVED THIS BOOK, HIGHLY RECOMMEND!!
I cried (but that's just me, cry at everything). This book opened my eyes to the other world of.. well everything. Could not put book down..
I LOVED THIS BOOK, HIGHLY RECOMMEND!!
*Warning* This book will rip your heart out and put it back together. There are also a few triggers in this book. This book is beautifully written and has a positive message. I highly recommend this book!
Great book!! Anybody who has experienced addiction and peer pressure can relate to this book... Captures feelings with the loss of a loved one....
Feb 09, 2019
Tammy Boyd
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Tragic falls when Khloe doesn't make it in time and Carter committed suicide. He wasn't the type he was loved by everyone. Carter was Khloe's rock and was always there for her. Now grief stricken and not coping with the loss of Carter, Khloe is falling down the rabbit hole. Alcohol, drugs and blackout having sex when she normally wouldn't would have done that. Now after receiving Carters journal Khloe is looking for Jay, Carters ex. Khloe and Ava are taking a path that can end them and now Khloe
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Amber Thielman is an avid reader and writer of dark, edgy Young Adult and New Adult books that push the boundaries and challenge your comfort zone.
Despite her love for a sappy Happily Ever After, Amber reads too much Stephen King and grew up devouring every Fear Street novel R. L. Stine ever wrote. When she’s not writing, Amber enjoys traveling, practicing the art of staying on her horse, binge-wa ...more
Despite her love for a sappy Happily Ever After, Amber reads too much Stephen King and grew up devouring every Fear Street novel R. L. Stine ever wrote. When she’s not writing, Amber enjoys traveling, practicing the art of staying on her horse, binge-wa ...more
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