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If I Ever

(Hell or High Water #4)

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4.14  ·  Rating details ·  485 ratings  ·  118 reviews
Some ghosts refuse to stay buried . . .

Prophet and Tom have been through the wringer more times than they can count, both as partners in the field and in life. Yet despite it all, they’ve built something great together. But now they need to protect it again: Prophet’s old nemesis, John Morse, is back and threatening everything he loves.

Prophet is driven enough to take John
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Kindle Edition, 330 pages
Published January 21st 2019 by Riptide Publishing
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Nancy 2 weeks ago Riptide Publishing put on their website that SE had not even handed them a manuscript for this book yet..they said they could not even…more2 weeks ago Riptide Publishing put on their website that SE had not even handed them a manuscript for this book yet..they said they could not even promise it would come out this YEAR..again (after 4+ years).. they also said no way are we getting Mal's book in November. Not sure why she posted on her website a month/year then as we were getting closer to the date she did not and has not updated her loyal fans. (less)
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Wendy
4,5

It has been a really really long wait for this book. Years even... So when it finally arrived, I got a bit nervous. After waiting so long, I really needed this to be good. 

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And it was....I loved the hell out of it !! It picks up right after the previous book ended and we are in for one hell of a ride !!

So many secrets are about to be revealed, some of them really test the love between Tommy and Prophet. And that's not even the biggest challenge they will have to face... My heart broke for both of
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Kunstix
Aug 24, 2014 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
I don't expect authors to put their books over their personal lifes but a short note like: "I'm going to make a writing-break for a year, for 5 years or whatever would be nice..."
Alisa
*please note trigger warning at end of review*

I went into this with some trepidation. It's been 5 years since the last book came out and I was concerned that my tastes had changed a lot since then. I actually thought about skipping this all together but I really wanted to see what was happening with Mal and Cillian. After reading this I think that was definitely part of my issue with this book but there were oh so may others.

The overall plot was convoluted and drawn out and really over the top.
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Jewel
If I Ever is the looooooong awaited conclusion to Prophet and Tommy's (main) story. I read the other books, originally, back in 2014 so before diving into this one, I did a full reread -- I encourage you to do the same if it's been a while. Now, was it worth the wait? A definite YES!

Prophet and Tommy each have their ghosts, but not all of Prophet's ghosts are content to stay that way. John has haunted him and his team long enough and now is the time to finish things. So much hangs in the balanc
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Trio
Dec 28, 2018 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: mm, arc-r2r
Fans of SE Jakes’ “Hell or High Water” series, the wait is over. Trust me when I tell you it was worth it! The fourth and final episode of Prophet and Tom’s story, If I Ever, has all the action, drama, double dealing, and steamy hot and dirty sex I require in an SE Jakes novel. This one is spectacular!

I don’t want to spoil too much, but since it’s promised in the dedication, I can say that our boys do finally get their happily-ever-after. Before that happens however, Prophet has to face up to so
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SheReadsALot


Part of me is happy to finally reach this point...

But the other part of me will probably be closer to this:



I don't want to say goodbye.
♣ Irish Smurfétté ♣
I couldna ask for anything more:

For all the secrets kept deep inside so many people throughout this series, the payoffs are just as significant.

Mal is still and forever will be... just... everything. **

The bazillion bonds that inform the friendships between all of these people: LOVE. I LOVE. LOOOOOOVE.

Ren, oh Ren, you're a *veeeery* close second to Mal as the brilliant and organic comic relief, just by being yourself. And yes, you read that right: Mal made me snortle and cackle and all that mo
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Bev
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lots of gold stars_zps4ygxak8z

Well...what can I say?? Absolutely Fab-u-lous. Loved it to bits. Not giving any spoilers away here, but I was left with a HUGE smile on my face at the end after much fist pumping and muted cheering [people still in bed here 😉]. I loved the banter, the camaraderie, the fact that Prophet and Tom actually DID have people they could rely on to be there for them [unlike some 🤬] without question and any barefaced lies.

I'm hoping [pretty please??] that the ending means that there'll be many more stor
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Natalia
Jan 20, 2019 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Worth the wait!! Sad to see the end of the series, but hopefully we will see more of the guys in Mal’s books.
Kara
May 28, 2015 marked it as to-read  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: m-m
So I think I made a mistake starting this series... With no one having any idea when this book will release and nothing from the author. Plus the way the third book left everything. Really not a fan of reading series I am not sure will ever be finished. :(
Sandi ♥'s way too many M/M books
Omg I saw an Instagram post she has wrote the words and sent to editor! I might pass out
MishyJo
2 stars. I loved re-reading this series over the last few weeks. I love Tommy and Prophet so much. I didn’t like them through much of this book, however. Also I had trouble following the story. It was all over the place. There was just too much going on. Like a fireworks grand finale gone very wrong. Disappointed.
Chris
Feb 08, 2019 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: lgbtq, military-crime
4.5 stars ... what a fabulous conclusion to this series .. or is it ? I love Tommy & Prophet and they deserved their ending ( no spoilers ) it was intense, non stop and constant. I loved having all the guys together and even though it was a while between books, I fell back into this covert world pretty easily. Well worth the read
⚣Michaelle⚣
Dec 20, 2018 marked it as to-read  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: lgbt
HOLY SHITBALLS! It's got a release date. 21Jan2019

I JUST SAID - only a couple of days ago - in one of my challenges that if I could have any book for Christmas it would be this one. (Well, plus the By Degrees & Shattered Glass books we're not so patiently waiting on.) BUT STILL!

Pre-Ordering from Riptide as a gift to myself.
Natalie
JC what a roller-coaster. I don't know how to rate this one yet, the ending didn't feel like it was enough for me so feeling abit down unless I'm feeling that because it's the end.










If anything, I have learnt a very valuable lesson here. Do not start a series that is not complete.

I have looked and searched and nothing is mentioned about this 4th book. (sad face) I really love the series and have just finished reading it again. But I think I'm done.
MouthLeaf
If I Ever harkens back to a simpler time, when the genre of Man-lovin'-Man Romance was more akin to lady-approved fantasy porn: An amalgamation of toxically masculine yet sensitive heroes, expression of unfulfilled sexual desires, cultural stereotypes and action movie clichés.

It was a world where all men were alpha males and all men were at least partially gay - and by partially gay, that means probably fully gay. It was a world where all men were special forces operatives and lusted after each
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Jinx
*closes eyes, takes a deep breath and slowly lets it out*

Unpopular Opinion Time:

This book was a hot mess. After all these years of waiting for the conclusion of this series I expected a flawless story but, all I got were a bunch of starts and stops and unnecessary side characters followed by their unnecessary POV’s. It was too much and not enough if that makes any sense and if it doesn’t well neither did this book so... *shrugs shoulders*

I re-read the previous books so I wouldn’t be lost but en
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★MC's Corner★
WHEN?!
JustJen "Miss Conduct"
Jan 23, 2019 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: mm, bgirls, ebook
To say this book was a long-time coming would be a gross understatement. However, given the circumstances and what Ms. Jakes has been through for the past few years, I’m grateful she came through with this at all.

That said, it has been approximately five years since the previous book, and had I had more notice of when this was actually coming out, I would have liked to have gone back and re-read this series to freshen my memory. I highly recommend that plan of action. As I started this, there we
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Bitchie
Finally, a book checked off my "lost books" shelf!

I'll be honest, I'm kind of let down, here. It felt like the author was trying to make up for leaving readers hanging for so damned long by throwing everything possible into the plot. There were backstabs and betrayals every where you looked, a surprise revelation (or two) about Tom's old FBI mentor, AND the guy that recruited him for EE, and at least one surprise mission that I kept thinking would figure into the main plot, but apparently had no
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Tully Vincent
OMG... a new release date FINALLY!!!
April 2017... Woot!!

ETA: Well, looks like I got excited too soon. Hope it is at least this year.
Meg Elisabeth
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Shocker. This book was actually released. I'll be completely honest and admit I'm shocked it was released at all - I'd really given up on it.

So... was it worth the wait??? In short, no. For me, at least.

To be frank, this book is a bit of a mess. There was so. much. going on, and most of it seemed... I don't know... convoluted and meandering, maybe? Not a ton of it made sense; there was always something happening in the "background" that seemed to leave the rest of us behind, but was also integra
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Teri
Done
No rating
I don't even want to talk about it right now. I may come back and do a review.
Jazzy
Feb 17, 2019 rated it it was amazing
If I Ever was long awaited and 10 stars did not disappoint! It tied up all the loose ends on an unbelievably long and convoluted story. Prophet and Tommy are my all-time favorite fictional couple and I was worried so much time had passed that the author would “lose” their voices; but not so. The boys were perfect and their HEA was everything they are: sexy, funny and heartwarming.

But I’m not going to lie. I had to go back and re-read to put all the pieces together; and for myself I’m recapping
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Tara♥
Jan 24, 2019 marked it as prolly-not  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: icky-publisher

I was skipping this anyway because of the 5 year gap and the publisher but after reading reviews I'm glad I decided to skip it.

This was one of my first m/m's back in the day and I LOVED IT but like many my tastes have changed and I wasn't sure if reading this would take away from my enjoyment of books I once loved. From the reviews I see that it would.

(view spoiler)
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JenMcJ
Jan 27, 2019 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
3.5 stars rounded up because it's my own fault I didn't do my homework. Well. Ok. My mistake is that I didn't re-read at least the last book (but it would have been best to binge read all 4 prior books) before I picked up this one. With a 5 year gap, I really should have because it took me a long time to remember the people and their interconnections. A lot of what I did remember came from the author pretty adeptly jogging memories without feeling like I just got swamped in an info dump. Althoug ...more
Amanda
I don’t even know if I can write a review that will portray how much I absolutely love this entire series. Not going to try, just going to give myself something to remind me of why I loved it.

Tommy and Prophet:
They started off rocky and both KNOWING they couldn’t take a partner. One because he thought he was bad luck and those other because he thought it would keep a partner safe. But love happens when you are least expecting it. They are matched in every way possible.
Tom helps keep Prophet
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I~❤️~Books
✮5 Stars✮ 💗
Steph
Grr, when the hell is this coming out? I hate it when an author just goes quiet. It sucks!! :(
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“Probably nothing,” Tom ventured, wanting it to be true.
Prophet didn’t argue, but they both decided that school was off-limits for a bit. Remy, of course, didn’t mind a damned bit. Mal offered to tutor him in the interim and that actually worked out quite well. Then again, for all Tom knew, math was a code for bomb building.
When he mentioned that to Prophet, all he got in response was, “They’re both useful life skills.”
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