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really liked it 4.00  ·  Rating details ·  24,939 ratings  ·  2,437 reviews
An arresting story about starting over after a friend's suicide, from a breakthrough new voice in YA fictiondear caitlin, there are so many things that i want so badly to tell you but i just can't.

Devastating, hopeful, hopeless, playful . . . in words and illustrations, Ingrid left behind a painful farewell in her journal for Caitlin. Now Caitlin is left alone, by loss and
Paperback, 272 pages
Published February 26th 2019 by Penguin Books (first published September 25th 2009)
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Jan 11, 2012 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
”You might be looking for reasons but there are no reasons.”

It was this simple line that made me realise that I not only liked, but respected this book.

Out of context, it is an ambiguous, awkwardly phrased sentence that makes my fingers itch to shove in some punctuation. In context, it’s one of the most powerful statements in the entire novel. It’s a deeply insightful expression of understanding, an extension of empathy, distilled into one potent line.

Mental illness is not a choice. And had
Mar 29, 2021 rated it really liked it
Baby, when a book makes me tear up in public...that's how you know it's real.

I'm the type of emotionally unavailable where you've only one time cried in front of your best friend of several years, and also the only time you did was mostly by accident (a closed door was opened), and also that was in spite of the fact that you lived with said friend for three of those several years.

So for me to cry is already momentous. But in PUBLIC?! Now we're really getting wild.

Nina LaCour is like Emily Henry
Charlotte May
“You might be looking for reasons but there are no reasons. The sun stopped shining for me is all. The whole story is: I’m sad. I’m sad all the time and the sadness is so heavy that I can’t get away from it.”

As my first Nina LaCour book, I thoroughly enjoyed Hold Still. Caitlin is left reeling after the suicide of her best friend Ingrid; when she discovers Ingrid’s secret diary she finds a way to be close to her again. Through her diary she discovers a side of Ingrid she never knew, full of se
Larry H
Jul 31, 2019 rated it it was amazing
"How amazing it is to find someone who wants to hear about all the things that go on in your head. You just think that things will stay the way they are. You never look up, in a moment that feels like every other moment of your life, and think, Soon this will be over."

Caitlin and Ingrid were best friends. They were practically inseparable, sharing a love of photography, music, laughing at themselves and others. One night they were talking about their futures, and the next morning, Ingrid was dea
When I read Thirteen Reasons Why and complained about the believability of the story, several people came up to me and said, “Read Hold Still instead”. It took me a few years, but I never forgot about the book recommendation. Finally, here I am, I’ve read the book, and I gladly join the group of people who tell you to read Hold Still instead.

Whereas Thirteen Reasons Why lacked in depth for me, there’s plenty of it in Hold Still. One evening, Caitlin and Ingrid are talking about their futures, an
I want to say that this book broke me—because in many, many ways, it is exactly what it did—but what it did much more than that is made my heart lighter, more at peace, and so much more … whole than it was before I read it.
Kai Spellmeier
Jun 28, 2020 added it
Shelves: owned
“Maybe there is no right thing to say. Maybe the right thing is just a myth, not really out there at all.”

I don't need to tell you how much I loved We Are Okay and that You Know Me Well has a firm place in my heart. Hold Still was a beautiful book, too, although it did not quite meet my expectations. It's beautifully written and has many quotable lines. It has that poetic sense of loneliness and sadness that Nina evokes so well through her writing. It's a quiet but powerful book. I also adored t
“Maybe there is no right thing to say. Maybe the right thing is just a myth, not really out there at all.”

Upon finishing this, I found myself curled on the floor of my bedroom, hands cradled to my stomach, eyes closed, simply taking in life one breath at a time.

Hold Still paints a picture of grief in vivid, unflinching colour. It doesn't shy from the ugliness of loss or attempt to smooth over life’s jagged edges. It snags at the sadness buried deep in the pit of your stomach, but it does so wit
Jan 03, 2019 rated it really liked it
this new cover is one of the most beautiful things i have ever laid eyes on. what a masterpiece.
Jun 21, 2019 rated it really liked it
Shelves: read-in-2019
*Book #1 for Summerathon: Read a book while drinking your favorite summer drink.*

I really enjoyed Hold Still and managed to read it in less than a day because it was such a quick read. However, while I enjoyed it, I also kind of thought it would move me a little more. Nonetheless, I still highly recommend you check it out!

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Jul 31, 2019 rated it really liked it
Shelves: released-2019
My advice: Listen to a really, really sad Daughter song while reading the final 20 pages. My heart feels like it's been shredded by a cheese grate.

rtc, I need a moment to gather my thoughts and to know what I actually want to say instead of just writing a love letter to Nina LaCour in which I express how eternally grateful I am to have discovered her for myself.

* * *

Me: Maybe I should read something happy for once-

My brain: Here is another book about loss!

Me: Yes why not.
Aly (Fantasy4eva)
I love the cover! *pets book* Isn't it just gorgeous? ;)

I think I had such a good feeling about this book for such a long period of time, that I was bound to be disappointed in some way or the other. Don't worry, though. It had some very redeemable qualities.

The premise.

Caitlin's best friend, Ingrid, committed suicide. The thing is, the two were pretty much inseparable. Both were exceptional at photography, and it was this talent of theirs which I enjoyed being explored in the novel. Their pass
Jan 15, 2010 rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: 2011
Comparatively speaking, Hold Still is well done. It is always refreshing to see a young adult author, a new one at that, who isn’t reduced to writing about paranormal romance, popular clichés, or originating as a geeky outcast only to later ditch the glasses, swap out the t-shirt for a sundress and become part of the popular cliché. Hold Still actually attempts to flesh out a harsh reality, a reality that sadly, many teens may one day be forced to face. With that said, I couldn’t give it more th ...more
Faseeh Ilahi a.k.a Sunny
Apr 17, 2019 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: ebook
So I finished "Hold Still" by Nina LaCour.

Rating: 4/5 🌟

This book basically follows two friends i-e Caitlin and Ingrid, who are best friends for a long time. They both have enjoyed their life to the fullest and had many memories.
But Ingrid was keeping something from Caitlin due to which she ended up committing suicide.
The story follows Caitlin, how she dealt with her best friends death. .

It was really emotional and I literally had tears in my eyes.

It was kind of slow for me but I enjoyed it.
cel ✼ readwithcel

that's it that's the review.


me 2 weeks later: i changed my mind i have Thoughts

“you might be looking for reasons but there are no reasons.”

grief can feel a lot like drowning. its even more suffocating when you encounter it at a younger age; punches even harder when the person gone is young too.

hold still is the story of caitlin and ingrid. one night ingrid tells caitlin that she’ll go wherever caitlin goes but the next day - gone. ingrid’s suicide pulls the rug out beneath caitlin’s
This was the third book I read about suicide in a short amount of time (and the second in a row), and it was the one that touched me most on an emotional level. Nevertheless, I think I’ll now move on to some lighter topics ;). I can only take that much …

Hold Still is a quiet, but noteworthy book. It tells the story of Caitlin, whose best friend Ingrid commits suicide. The only thing she leaves behind for Caitlin is her last journal, with drawings and entries that speak of depression, loneliness
3.5 stars

Hold Still revolves around Caitlin, a high school junior whose best friend, Ingrid, dies by suicide. Ingrid leaves behind a journal filled with words and illustrations, and it forces Caitlin to reconsider what she thought she knew about her best friend. But with the help of her family and new friends, Caitlin moves on to embrace a new life consisting of self-discovery and hope. And with Ingrid's journal, Caitlin puts together the pieces of her friend's death, just enough so she herself
If the breathtaking cover of Hold Still hasn’t already captured your attention, the beautiful writing inside certainly will. LaCour’s debut is an ambitious piece, taking on grief, confusion, and the swirling unknown of despair that leads to teenage suicide. While I can’t say that this is an easy read, because the sadness in it is practically overwhelming, it is a very well-written and powerful novel, one that every lover of moving prose, three-dimensional characters, and realistic approaches sho ...more
Jul 26, 2010 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: favorites
August 2010 - I'm not sure there are words to express just how much this book changed me. If there are words, they are too personal to share. This wasn't just a book to me, it was a lifeline I wasn't aware I was in need of, a way of understanding things I hadn't quite considered before. I started this book with a much different approach than I came out with, but I say that in the best way possible. Most reviews go on to tell you about the book, but you can read that for yourself. These reviews a ...more
Jan 12, 2017 rated it it was amazing
i picked up this book because i wanted read a book that focused on friendship, but i also knew going into this book that it dealt with a subject (suicide) that's always been hard for me to read about. while caitlin and ingrid's story broke my heart, this book filled me with hope and optimism and by the end of it a sense of joy. i don't suffer from depression now only anxiety, but i have had episodes of depression and i feel like nina la cour captured the heaviness of it through the journal entri ...more
Stories about suicide aren’t the type that I’d pick up right off the bat– it can feel like I’m just being manipulated if the plot is nothing but grief and pain. And so when I saw HOLD STILL sitting on the YA shelf of the library, I glanced at it briefly before putting it back down. Which was a mistake, because this book is beautifully written and achingly gorgeous, and the ultimate message (I hesitate on calling it a ‘message’, because you don’t just come across messages in real life, and Caitli ...more

This is my second Nina LaCour novel, the first was WE ARE OK, and now HOLD STILL.

Surprisingly, this was not as sad as I thought it would be, it was more weighty in the same way of something sitting heavy on your heart. But the pages were pulled by sadness in all directions until they were pulled to reach for hope and a fresh start. "Heart longing, heart sorrow, and heart hope" was the last line and the best description of this beautifully written story about a young woman who is stunn
Drew's ambitious reading
This was really good not my favorite by her but I just realized that this is my 4th contemporary novel that I have read this month and it's my second least favorite. IK!!! I hate to say that but I didn't excpect it to be as heavy as it was. So for that reasons there are trigger warrings for self harming & suicide!
Also thanks to my friend Heather for buying this for me as a bday present last year I really did enjoyed it!(:
kav (xreadingsolacex)
Book Bound Society Read

trigger warnings: suicide, self-harm, depression

I am not a darling. I am a girl ready to explode into nothing.

Hold Still is Nina LaCour's debut novel, a heartbreaking young-adult contemporary that follows Caitlin Madison's life over the course of a year following the suicide of her best friend, Ingrid. Ten years after the initial release of this novel, a beautiful new paperback edition of this novel has been released with a moving author's note from LaC
I got this after reading oh-so-many stunning reviews. And it's one of my fave reads this year.

I am most astounded with just how deeply I sunk into these pages. Nina LaCour knows teens and she's pitch prefect at capturing them.

I personally not only related to Caitlin, but also to Ingrid (who, wow, she's dead from the outset, but her presence is so keenly felt throughout the pages).

It's beautiful and hopeful and brave and captivating and I wish I could go back to my teen self and give her this b
There are so many things that I want so badly to tell you but I just can't.

The first time I picked Hold Still up, I didn't finish it. I can't remember why or even how far I got into the book. It couldn't have been much at all, because this book was beautiful from the very first page.

I can't find the words to explain just how much I loved Hold Still. It's completely heartbreaking but still leaves you with hope.

The characters alone are enough to give this 5 stars. From Ingrid to Caitlin to Ms. Del
Nov 04, 2010 rated it did not like it  ·  review of another edition
I've suffered through the first 50 pages, bored out of my mind. Every page reads like the diary of someone with a very uneventful life. I get that the chick is having a hard time dealing with the suicide of her best friend, but she lacks any emotion. She's numb, but she's incredibly dull too. The book is a constant stream of 'I did this. I did that.' It's just dry and I can't get into it. I flipped through the rest of the book to see if maybe the writing got any better or more interesting, but i ...more
John Gilbert
Mar 09, 2021 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition

I really like Nina LaCour's writing style. This was my third and her first. Narrated by Caitlin, at 16, describing her life post the suicide of her best friend Ingrid. The story is never maudlin or exploitative, but an examination of Caitlin's feelings, as well as their families and friends.

This was written sensitively and was based on Ms LaCour's own experience of a classmate committing suicide when she was 14.

Recommended (less)
Elizabeth Scott
Sep 28, 2009 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
I was lucky enough to read this as an ARC, and I still remember sitting on the train and thinking, "This book is amazing!" It's beautiful and sad and hopeful all at the same time, and to top it all off, this is Nina's first novel!

Definitely one to check out when it shows up in stores in October--it is one of the best young adult books I've ever read.
Apr 19, 2019 rated it it was amazing
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Nina LaCour is the Michael L. Printz Award-winning and nationally bestselling author of six young adult novels, including Watch Over Me and We Are Okay; the children's book Mama and Mommy and Me in the Middle; and Yerba Buena, a novel for adults. She's on faculty at Hamline University's MFA in writing for Children and Young Adults program, and teaches an online class of her own called The Slow Nov ...more

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