This muthafuckin installment was e-mo-tion-al!!! So much happened in this one. Ethic killed Cream, they buried Love Ezra Okafor, Alani and Ethic had sex after the debutante pageant - mind you, she literally hates him and loves him so equally that she's tormented - Yaya came to visit with her and Indie's son, Messiah broke down over his feelings for Morgan, and Alani gave Ethic an ultimatum - get to know God or lose me.
WHEW!!!
This book took me on a fucking roller coaster, but the main shit I wanna talk about is a theory I have that if I'm right my feelings are gonna be so fuckin hurt; I am 99.9999% sure that Messiah is Mizan's brother. Yes, the same Mizan who tricked Raven into letting him rob her father, who then called the police and left a brick for them to find so Benny would go to jail for life, leaving the streets open to grimy ass Mizan, which caused Benny to be shot by the police in front of his wife and children in front of their home, which then caused Justine to be arrested as some type of accessory and jailed, where she ended up killing herself, which left Morgan a fucking orphan who Raven had of take care of. The same Mizan who beat the fuck out Raven so regularly, that she had poorly healed broken bones and permanent bruising all over her body. The same Mizan who deserved those bullets that killed Raven and Nicki and almost killed Ethic's son because Raven had his car when the hit was on Mizan was carried out. Ethic ended up killing his fucking ass and he deserved that shit!
It was hinted at that Messiah was hiding something from Morgan that was so bad he knew that WHEN she found out she was going to leave him. So I think in book 2, maybe in this book...I don't remember, Messiah casually mentioned something about something his brother used to tell him. And Morgan was like she didn't even know he had a brother. I ignored that little hint, because it got played off as more of the fact that Morgan didn't know as much about his life as he knew about her life because he never talked about it. But I did peep the fact that he clearly didn't mean to let that piece of information slip out. Then he said something about being on the wrong side or the opposite side of a family war. Then when she got out the shower she over heard him on the phone talking about how he was done, he wasn't doing it, let that beef die with HIM, fuck family, only family I need is under my roof right now (talking about Morgan), and if whoever want it done so bad then they should do it. That's when I started thinking Mizan is his brother and he been infiltrating Ethic's inner circle all this time to get at him for killing his gutter butt, grimy, shitty, snake ass brother!!!!! He going against a real ass nigga, a straight fucking shooter, to avenge that piece of shit.
I still wasn't convinced, because if this shit is true when I say my fucking feelings are going to be so hurt. So then, while him and Morgan were making the most passionate of love - bitch that shit had me feeling like I was intruding, that shit was so emotional, Messiah mean ass was crying and shit...it was a LOT - she start talking about having his baby and how she wants to be in his life forever. He is so overwhelmed by her love for him and the fact that she sees so much good in him, and the fact that he wants a permanent connection to her, he wants her to have his baby. He sees a family and a future with her.
The kicker? He hopes he has a son and he will name him Nazim...THAT'S MIZAN BACKWARD!!!!!
Bitch, I'm done. Because I already know what the fuck it is. I'm so sad about that reveal, I'm not even pressed about reading book 4 right now. Who knows when it's gonna be delivered, but I need some time to get ready for this bullshit. I'm hurt. Messiah is so loyal. How he met Noah, and how he's conducted himself with Ethic, I can't fucking believe this nigga was plotting the whole time. I'm really hurt.
So what the fuck is Morgan gonna do? Because he definitely nutted all up and through her guts. I bet her ass got pregnant immediately. Is she gonna choose Messiah when she finds out what he's doing? Not only because he's going against Ethic, who she slapped the shit of his ass and put her out her place for disrespecting, but he's doing it on behalf of the man who took her entire family away.
I didn't even think about how she was so thrown off by Messiah's sudden disrespect of Ethic. He pulled the gun on Ethic when Ethic tried to get him off Cream after he killed Nish, thinking it was Morgan, then said fuck Ethic, that ain't your daddy to Morgan. I thought it was Morgan being more upset about Messiah scraping at the biggest insecurity she had, which was her not feeling genuinely loved by Ethic - even though he loves her so much.
After this intense ass sex they had (which I'm bout the read again 'cause that shit was GOOD!!!!) Messiah told her he loved her. He rarely says it, and when he does, it's normally in response to her saying it first. So she says she loves him too and for the first time since she lost her family she felt like she finally belonged to someone. She gonna choose that nigga over Ethic? Or she gonna leave him and make his ass go nuts, just like Ethic was worried about when he saw how volatile Messiah was with his temper when his emotions were involved.
With as much as Ashley Antionette makes me feel inadequate as a writer, THIS book literally makes me never want to even think about writing again in my life.