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Edge of Living
Sometimes, death can feel like the only escape.
It's been a year since Alex stopped living. He exists. He breathes. He pretends to be like everyone else. But, he doesn't live. Burdened by memories, he dreams of the day when he can finally be free. Until that time comes, he keeps everybody at bay. It's been easy so far. But he never factored in, meeting a man like Austin.
Hard-working mechanic Austin has always gone for men as muscular as himself. So, it's a mystery why he's so bewitched by the slim, quiet man with the soulful brown eyes who works in the library. The magnetic attraction is one thing, but the protective instincts are harder to fathom. Austin's sure though, that if he can only earn Alex's trust then the two of them could be perfect together.
A tentative relationship begins. But Alex's secrets run deep. Far deeper than Austin could ever envisage. Time is ticking. Events are coming to a head, and love is never a magic cure. Oblivious to the extent of Alex's pain, can Austin discover the truth? Or is he destined to be left alone, only able to piece together the fragments of his boyfriend's history, once its already too late?
Trigger warning: Please be aware that this story deals with suicidal ideation. If this is a subject you find uncomfortable, then this book is not recommended.
It's been a year since Alex stopped living. He exists. He breathes. He pretends to be like everyone else. But, he doesn't live. Burdened by memories, he dreams of the day when he can finally be free. Until that time comes, he keeps everybody at bay. It's been easy so far. But he never factored in, meeting a man like Austin.
Hard-working mechanic Austin has always gone for men as muscular as himself. So, it's a mystery why he's so bewitched by the slim, quiet man with the soulful brown eyes who works in the library. The magnetic attraction is one thing, but the protective instincts are harder to fathom. Austin's sure though, that if he can only earn Alex's trust then the two of them could be perfect together.
A tentative relationship begins. But Alex's secrets run deep. Far deeper than Austin could ever envisage. Time is ticking. Events are coming to a head, and love is never a magic cure. Oblivious to the extent of Alex's pain, can Austin discover the truth? Or is he destined to be left alone, only able to piece together the fragments of his boyfriend's history, once its already too late?
Trigger warning: Please be aware that this story deals with suicidal ideation. If this is a subject you find uncomfortable, then this book is not recommended.
268 pages, Kindle Edition
First published October 26, 2018
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March 20, 2021
Audio – 5 Stars
Story 4.5 Emotionally Heavy Stars
If you’re looking for sweet and fluffy, you won’t find it in this book.
Alex is tormented and grieving over something that’s happened in his past. It’s heart-wrenching, and he’s emotionally shut down. Austin comes into his life, and he's loving, supportive and protective of Alex. Alex slowly starts to feel again, but it’s not enough to stop Alex from wanting to end his life.
The story is told mostly in the present with flashbacks into Alex’s past to give insight as to why Alex is the way he is in the present.
I liked the epilogue, but I wanted more in the chapter before the epilogue. That said, I really enjoyed this heavy and deeply emotional story.
I’m hoping there will be a story for Mark (Austin’s brother) and Wilko (Austin’s friend/co-worker) soon.
Story 4.5 Emotionally Heavy Stars
If you’re looking for sweet and fluffy, you won’t find it in this book.
Alex is tormented and grieving over something that’s happened in his past. It’s heart-wrenching, and he’s emotionally shut down. Austin comes into his life, and he's loving, supportive and protective of Alex. Alex slowly starts to feel again, but it’s not enough to stop Alex from wanting to end his life.
The story is told mostly in the present with flashbacks into Alex’s past to give insight as to why Alex is the way he is in the present.
I liked the epilogue, but I wanted more in the chapter before the epilogue. That said, I really enjoyed this heavy and deeply emotional story.
I’m hoping there will be a story for Mark (Austin’s brother) and Wilko (Austin’s friend/co-worker) soon.
November 4, 2018
Others seem to like this book, but I really had a hard time with it. I pushed myself to finish, but it wasn't easy for me to get through.
Trigger warnings: Suicidal ideation, death, abusive relationships.
First of all, I'm not an editor or anything close to one, but this story really needed a professional editor. We had POV changes mid chapter and some very strange transitions that threw me off. To top it off, we had much of the story told in flashback, interspersed throughout the book, which always irritates me. I'm not a flashback person (I think it's disruptive), and so I didn't enjoy that format of storytelling.
The book is also... dark. Like really dark. The things that happen are so messed up, and I was really not prepared for it. I also struggled with the romance. A lot. Alex is so clearly in a headspace that isn't appropriate for a relationship, I could barely read the sex scenes. Alex needed an intervention and intense therapy, and it hurt me to read his scenes. I felt like Austin barely got to know him and was "in love" with him, and Alex was just treading water, trying to survive. It didn't feel balanced, and I didn't buy the love.
I can read angst now and again, but I didn't love how this was done. It wasn't horrible, and most readers seem to see something I'm not seeing, but, other than the lovely cover, the book was a tense, uncomfortable reading experience for me.
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Trigger warnings: Suicidal ideation, death, abusive relationships.
First of all, I'm not an editor or anything close to one, but this story really needed a professional editor. We had POV changes mid chapter and some very strange transitions that threw me off. To top it off, we had much of the story told in flashback, interspersed throughout the book, which always irritates me. I'm not a flashback person (I think it's disruptive), and so I didn't enjoy that format of storytelling.
The book is also... dark. Like really dark. The things that happen are so messed up, and I was really not prepared for it. I also struggled with the romance. A lot. Alex is so clearly in a headspace that isn't appropriate for a relationship, I could barely read the sex scenes. Alex needed an intervention and intense therapy, and it hurt me to read his scenes. I felt like Austin barely got to know him and was "in love" with him, and Alex was just treading water, trying to survive. It didn't feel balanced, and I didn't buy the love.
I can read angst now and again, but I didn't love how this was done. It wasn't horrible, and most readers seem to see something I'm not seeing, but, other than the lovely cover, the book was a tense, uncomfortable reading experience for me.
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January 31, 2024
✰ 3 stars ✰
"My soul likes your soul."
Even though books that deal with mental health are the ones that I tend to read the most, they're also the ones I find the hardest to review; because I am no expert in treating trauma or grief, so I can never know or say for sure if it is accurately portrayed or not. What I can, however, judge is my own emotions while reading about the characters. Whether or not the writing resonates with me, or even if it is written in a way that appeals to my own reading sensibilities. Taking those things into account definitely helps me narrow down what works for me and what doesn't. And when you take a book like Edge of Living, one that deals with suicidal thoughts based on intense grief and emotional trauma, it certainly gives me pause to be as fair as possible.
“A smile crosses my face at the realization. Ironic really, that the thought of death is the only thing that can make me happy.”
Alexander's story is a heartbreaking one; what he went through - his heart and his life has left him shattered - mentally and physically. The way the author showed the difference in personalities as the Alex he was before and the Al he is now when Austin is heart-struck by him at the library was painful. No one should be criticized or judged harshly for being as happy and go-lucky and not be ashamed of enjoying the lust for life and attraction as Alexander was - or even have to face the horrific consequences that he did with one poor judgement call. 💔💔 The past scenes of his life - broke my heart. His inner thoughts about feeling guilty about even being allowed to be happy - at the cost of his happiness - was so sad - not depressing, just sad and tragically true. "And nobody ever seemed to see through the act. They were all fooled. To them I was a real person, instead of a barely functioning shell of a human being.' The sheer intensity in which it was written, followed by latest events that had Alexander reliving those painful memories makes you see how traumatized he is - how giving up on life is his only escape - his chance for forgiveness. 😞
For the guilt that eats away at your soul renders you unwilling and uncaring to live - to survive for the sake of whom? I have read stories with toxic relationships - but this was something so much more hurtful and hateful and painfully cruel. His thoughts about how undeserving he was to live, the grappling taut fear he had of getting close to someone, the aching longing for the person he was before - the author portrayed it very honestly and believably for me. 🥺 'Someone with whom he shared far more in common. Someone who'd hopefully shower him with all the love and affection he needed.' He was coping with his trauma in the way his mind thought best for him and it was only by chance that he met Austin - someone who gave him a reason to step away from the edge of living. 😟
“A no was a no, though. There wasn’t much more I could do. I wasn’t about to start stalking him. He wasn't interested. Therefore, it was time to stop.
I regretted not asking his name. It would have been nice to put a name to the one that got away.”
The topic of consent is a very important part of their story and what really sets the difference between what Alexander has allowed himself to experience in his previous past relationships and what makes Austin so very different from them. It is his ability to discern between what is appropriate to expect from a partner is a positive approach; and it is that understanding that compels Alexander's mind to give Austin a chance. 🤍🤍 With his lean body and pale skin, Alexander was the opposite of Austin's usual desires, but there was something about his quiet aura that drew him towards him. 'The magnetism I felt toward him almost defied description, but I needed to try because he needed to hear it.' It helped that he was such a sweet, caring and understanding soul. I'm glad that the author showed that he respected Alexander's boundaries. He was the healthy response to what could give Alexander a chance to see that he still was capable of having someone to love. 🫂
Austin didn't push him into doing anything he didn't want - that he went to great lengths to make him comfortable and even protected him from the prying eyes of his awful sicko neighbor. My blood curdled and my stomach churned at those moments - at how uncomfortable he made Alexander, how I was ashamed to realize that just like women, men, too, can be subjected to verbal sexual harassment. Luckily, Austin was there to show that not all men are predators. 😥He was a skilled mechanic, 'a gentle giant with his slow movements and carefully modulated voice' who made him feel safe and relaxed in his presence - who showed him that he still had tenderness in him - that there was still softness that he could allow himself to embrace - that he still was worthy of happiness - even before knowing about his tragic past, the connection they felt for each other ran deeper than just mutual dependency or instant attraction. ❤️🩹❤️🩹
“I pulled him over to me, the weight of his body settling on top of mine as our lips met hungrily. I lost myself in his body. In the dark with him, I wasn't Al. I wasn't Alex.
I was just a man allowing himself to feel passion, and refusing to feel guilty for snatching a few precious moments of happiness from life.”
At times the pacing is a bit slow, as Alexander and Austin begin to spend time together, yet the need to be physically intimate together is a bit rushed. There is a reasoning behind it, that, I guess, does make sense - because of Alexander's mental state. 'He put my needs before his. And what did I give back in return? Nothing. I knew he'd be hurt in the short term, but in the long term he'd understand.' 😢 It is because he is on a self-imposed time limit, that he has those feelings of needing to be needed, simply so that he can let Austin have him, while he still can, is perhaps what makes it feel alright - even though, it's something I wouldn't exactly expect in a more balanced give-and-take relationship. It is hard for Austin to comprehend why Alexander is so passive and subservient with him, but he doesn't want to push him away - fear of losing someone that he has such an intense attraction to - the fierce need to protect him. 🥺 And when it comes to the point where the tables are turned - when Alexander strips away his inhibitions - was the moment their relationship really took a turn.
I appreciate always when the person in the relationship recognizes that something is wrong - that they can assess something is troubling the one they are with - note that they may need help, but are unsure or unaware as to what it is, but are trying their best to help them. 'I didn't want to be the person who treated him like a possession under the pretense of protecting him. That wasn't a healthy relationship for either of us.' 👍🏻👍🏻 It makes the love that they start to feel for each other already start off on a healthier note - one that gives me this sense that while it does feel rushed, it's not a blind rush. No one is a professional medical expert readily experienced to handle ones afflicted with trauma. So, I liked how Austin tried to be there for Alexander - how once he saw the severity of his intentions, tried his hardest to reach him from the edge of slipping away.
“Should I have told Austin I loved him? Or would that just have been cruel once he discovered what I'd done. It would be like saying I love you, just not enough to live. ”
I try not to be too critical when it comes to editing mistakes or grammatical errors, but there were a couple of things that bothered me and made it more difficult for me to get the full emotional impact. A few times a character was named incorrectly, which sadly made me do a double take. I also had some serious qualms with the usage of the exclamation point as a punctuation. When it's used for characters to communicate, I tend to associate it as it being yell or a loud exclamation of excitement; for it to be used, even in a passive moment of less intensity - one that is of a more serious tone, it tends to throw me off. I'm not trying to be nit-picky, I just felt that it could have been avoided at those times, so that it could have been a more balanced kind of feeling to the situation, rather than giving the impression of a hyper or aggressive mode. 🤷🏻♀️
Reading books by an unfamiliar author is always worth it, even if it is not perfect. It gives me a chance to know whether or not I can give them a second chance. It wasn't the best of reads, but I'm glad I haven't written H.L Day off - just yet. 🙏🏻
"My soul likes your soul."
Even though books that deal with mental health are the ones that I tend to read the most, they're also the ones I find the hardest to review; because I am no expert in treating trauma or grief, so I can never know or say for sure if it is accurately portrayed or not. What I can, however, judge is my own emotions while reading about the characters. Whether or not the writing resonates with me, or even if it is written in a way that appeals to my own reading sensibilities. Taking those things into account definitely helps me narrow down what works for me and what doesn't. And when you take a book like Edge of Living, one that deals with suicidal thoughts based on intense grief and emotional trauma, it certainly gives me pause to be as fair as possible.
“A smile crosses my face at the realization. Ironic really, that the thought of death is the only thing that can make me happy.”
Alexander's story is a heartbreaking one; what he went through - his heart and his life has left him shattered - mentally and physically. The way the author showed the difference in personalities as the Alex he was before and the Al he is now when Austin is heart-struck by him at the library was painful. No one should be criticized or judged harshly for being as happy and go-lucky and not be ashamed of enjoying the lust for life and attraction as Alexander was - or even have to face the horrific consequences that he did with one poor judgement call. 💔💔 The past scenes of his life - broke my heart. His inner thoughts about feeling guilty about even being allowed to be happy - at the cost of his happiness - was so sad - not depressing, just sad and tragically true. "And nobody ever seemed to see through the act. They were all fooled. To them I was a real person, instead of a barely functioning shell of a human being.' The sheer intensity in which it was written, followed by latest events that had Alexander reliving those painful memories makes you see how traumatized he is - how giving up on life is his only escape - his chance for forgiveness. 😞
For the guilt that eats away at your soul renders you unwilling and uncaring to live - to survive for the sake of whom? I have read stories with toxic relationships - but this was something so much more hurtful and hateful and painfully cruel. His thoughts about how undeserving he was to live, the grappling taut fear he had of getting close to someone, the aching longing for the person he was before - the author portrayed it very honestly and believably for me. 🥺 'Someone with whom he shared far more in common. Someone who'd hopefully shower him with all the love and affection he needed.' He was coping with his trauma in the way his mind thought best for him and it was only by chance that he met Austin - someone who gave him a reason to step away from the edge of living. 😟
“A no was a no, though. There wasn’t much more I could do. I wasn’t about to start stalking him. He wasn't interested. Therefore, it was time to stop.
I regretted not asking his name. It would have been nice to put a name to the one that got away.”
The topic of consent is a very important part of their story and what really sets the difference between what Alexander has allowed himself to experience in his previous past relationships and what makes Austin so very different from them. It is his ability to discern between what is appropriate to expect from a partner is a positive approach; and it is that understanding that compels Alexander's mind to give Austin a chance. 🤍🤍 With his lean body and pale skin, Alexander was the opposite of Austin's usual desires, but there was something about his quiet aura that drew him towards him. 'The magnetism I felt toward him almost defied description, but I needed to try because he needed to hear it.' It helped that he was such a sweet, caring and understanding soul. I'm glad that the author showed that he respected Alexander's boundaries. He was the healthy response to what could give Alexander a chance to see that he still was capable of having someone to love. 🫂
Austin didn't push him into doing anything he didn't want - that he went to great lengths to make him comfortable and even protected him from the prying eyes of his awful sicko neighbor. My blood curdled and my stomach churned at those moments - at how uncomfortable he made Alexander, how I was ashamed to realize that just like women, men, too, can be subjected to verbal sexual harassment. Luckily, Austin was there to show that not all men are predators. 😥He was a skilled mechanic, 'a gentle giant with his slow movements and carefully modulated voice' who made him feel safe and relaxed in his presence - who showed him that he still had tenderness in him - that there was still softness that he could allow himself to embrace - that he still was worthy of happiness - even before knowing about his tragic past, the connection they felt for each other ran deeper than just mutual dependency or instant attraction. ❤️🩹❤️🩹
“I pulled him over to me, the weight of his body settling on top of mine as our lips met hungrily. I lost myself in his body. In the dark with him, I wasn't Al. I wasn't Alex.
I was just a man allowing himself to feel passion, and refusing to feel guilty for snatching a few precious moments of happiness from life.”
At times the pacing is a bit slow, as Alexander and Austin begin to spend time together, yet the need to be physically intimate together is a bit rushed. There is a reasoning behind it, that, I guess, does make sense - because of Alexander's mental state. 'He put my needs before his. And what did I give back in return? Nothing. I knew he'd be hurt in the short term, but in the long term he'd understand.' 😢 It is because he is on a self-imposed time limit, that he has those feelings of needing to be needed, simply so that he can let Austin have him, while he still can, is perhaps what makes it feel alright - even though, it's something I wouldn't exactly expect in a more balanced give-and-take relationship. It is hard for Austin to comprehend why Alexander is so passive and subservient with him, but he doesn't want to push him away - fear of losing someone that he has such an intense attraction to - the fierce need to protect him. 🥺 And when it comes to the point where the tables are turned - when Alexander strips away his inhibitions - was the moment their relationship really took a turn.
I appreciate always when the person in the relationship recognizes that something is wrong - that they can assess something is troubling the one they are with - note that they may need help, but are unsure or unaware as to what it is, but are trying their best to help them. 'I didn't want to be the person who treated him like a possession under the pretense of protecting him. That wasn't a healthy relationship for either of us.' 👍🏻👍🏻 It makes the love that they start to feel for each other already start off on a healthier note - one that gives me this sense that while it does feel rushed, it's not a blind rush. No one is a professional medical expert readily experienced to handle ones afflicted with trauma. So, I liked how Austin tried to be there for Alexander - how once he saw the severity of his intentions, tried his hardest to reach him from the edge of slipping away.
“Should I have told Austin I loved him? Or would that just have been cruel once he discovered what I'd done. It would be like saying I love you, just not enough to live. ”
I try not to be too critical when it comes to editing mistakes or grammatical errors, but there were a couple of things that bothered me and made it more difficult for me to get the full emotional impact. A few times a character was named incorrectly, which sadly made me do a double take. I also had some serious qualms with the usage of the exclamation point as a punctuation. When it's used for characters to communicate, I tend to associate it as it being yell or a loud exclamation of excitement; for it to be used, even in a passive moment of less intensity - one that is of a more serious tone, it tends to throw me off. I'm not trying to be nit-picky, I just felt that it could have been avoided at those times, so that it could have been a more balanced kind of feeling to the situation, rather than giving the impression of a hyper or aggressive mode. 🤷🏻♀️
Reading books by an unfamiliar author is always worth it, even if it is not perfect. It gives me a chance to know whether or not I can give them a second chance. It wasn't the best of reads, but I'm glad I haven't written H.L Day off - just yet. 🙏🏻
November 27, 2018
Okeeehh.. rubbing my hands over my face… that was a….harsh, devastating, heartbreaking, breath stopping story.
I was on the edge of quitting, but of course not really because I just couldn’t stop.. Alexander deserved it to be heard… and to finished his story…
We get to know Austin and how he is intrigued by Alexander.
Alexander decided to let Austin into his life… but also hold him and the whole world at bay.
Austin was very protective but oblivious to the extent of Alexander pain.
It was an almost unbearable journey to go through. Really really hard.
Alexander’s life is difficult … more than difficult… he exists only.
He deceived everyone around him… e.v.e.r.y.o.n.e. to let them think he had sort of a normal life.
He has one goal… o.n.e.
This story was more than overwhelming. At times I had to remind myself to breath… I was just holding it in because it was all so devastating.
Amazingly written in a tentative but also almost unbearable realistic way. Very well done.
The heavyweight topic was palpable throughout the whole story.
This story has some serious triggers so be aware of the content and read the blurb.
Read and reviewed for Open Skye Book Review
I was on the edge of quitting, but of course not really because I just couldn’t stop.. Alexander deserved it to be heard… and to finished his story…
We get to know Austin and how he is intrigued by Alexander.
Alexander decided to let Austin into his life… but also hold him and the whole world at bay.
Austin was very protective but oblivious to the extent of Alexander pain.
It was an almost unbearable journey to go through. Really really hard.
Alexander’s life is difficult … more than difficult… he exists only.
He deceived everyone around him… e.v.e.r.y.o.n.e. to let them think he had sort of a normal life.
He has one goal… o.n.e.
This story was more than overwhelming. At times I had to remind myself to breath… I was just holding it in because it was all so devastating.
Amazingly written in a tentative but also almost unbearable realistic way. Very well done.
The heavyweight topic was palpable throughout the whole story.
This story has some serious triggers so be aware of the content and read the blurb.
Read and reviewed for Open Skye Book Review
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February 16, 2024
Dnf @ 31%
I wanted to like this story more than I did. There was something off-putting about Austin's almost one-sided romantic interest in poor Alex.
I wanted to like this story more than I did. There was something off-putting about Austin's almost one-sided romantic interest in poor Alex.
April 26, 2019
This book was similar to Nicky James's Trials of Fear series, where the focus isn't on relationship between the main characters, but rather on the troubles of the main character, on anxiety/depression/suicidal thoughts and the coping/healing process and how to notice when a loved one is struggling. So if you liked that series by Nicky James, you'll like this one.
But since the main topic of this story was about depression... I found it odd that Alex went along with this relationship thing in the first place. Because in my head, when someone has suicidal thoughts, they do not want to start a relationship. Of course they can't help if the feeling are creeping up on them, but Alex fell into this thing with Austin way too quickly. He protested at first, but then gave in to Austin's attempts. This all happened when I reached the 30% mark and they were practically living together. To me that's fast. And I didn't feel like they spent enough valuable time together in order for Austin to fall in love so quickly. They barely talked, well... Alex barely talked.
But like I said the main focus of this book wasn't about two men falling in love, but about how someone can live with depression without anyone noticing. Alex did a great job of altering his mannerisms, but not that great, cuz it was pretty obvious to me. Austin was so damn oblivious, or he just didn't want to see the signs, I don't know. I think it should've occurred to him sooner that something isn't right.
We got to find out what happened to Alex that made him depressed so much he didn't want to live anymore through flashbacks.
And if anyone needs a trigger warning, let's just say that what happened to him was horrible.
Overall it was good, but the romance was not satisfying to me.
And the first few chapters could've been better edited.
I would be happy to read Wilko and Mark's story, if it happens.
But since the main topic of this story was about depression... I found it odd that Alex went along with this relationship thing in the first place. Because in my head, when someone has suicidal thoughts, they do not want to start a relationship. Of course they can't help if the feeling are creeping up on them, but Alex fell into this thing with Austin way too quickly. He protested at first, but then gave in to Austin's attempts. This all happened when I reached the 30% mark and they were practically living together. To me that's fast. And I didn't feel like they spent enough valuable time together in order for Austin to fall in love so quickly. They barely talked, well... Alex barely talked.
But like I said the main focus of this book wasn't about two men falling in love, but about how someone can live with depression without anyone noticing. Alex did a great job of altering his mannerisms, but not that great, cuz it was pretty obvious to me. Austin was so damn oblivious, or he just didn't want to see the signs, I don't know. I think it should've occurred to him sooner that something isn't right.
We got to find out what happened to Alex that made him depressed so much he didn't want to live anymore through flashbacks.
And if anyone needs a trigger warning, let's just say that what happened to him was horrible.
Overall it was good, but the romance was not satisfying to me.
And the first few chapters could've been better edited.
I would be happy to read Wilko and Mark's story, if it happens.
December 14, 2018
A Joyfully Jay review.
3.5 stars
This may be a difficult book to read for anyone who has struggled with thoughts of suicide, or for someone who has friends or family who have struggled with suicide. But, at the end of the book, Alex is doing better. He has a therapist, he has friends who love him and support him, and he’s taking steps to a healthier life. The greater focus of the story is the relationship between Alex and Austen, but the story does touch on difficult subject matter that not everyone may feel comfortable reading.
Read Elizabeth’s review in its entirety here.
3.5 stars
This may be a difficult book to read for anyone who has struggled with thoughts of suicide, or for someone who has friends or family who have struggled with suicide. But, at the end of the book, Alex is doing better. He has a therapist, he has friends who love him and support him, and he’s taking steps to a healthier life. The greater focus of the story is the relationship between Alex and Austen, but the story does touch on difficult subject matter that not everyone may feel comfortable reading.
Read Elizabeth’s review in its entirety here.
February 15, 2020
4.5 stars audio and story
October 28, 2018
I've just finished the book and let me say I don't write reviews that much anymore. This one won't be long either, I guess nothing I could say now, would do it justice. I just want to say thank you H.L. Day for such an exquisite story. It touched me deeply. THANK YOU for the experience.
November 2, 2018
Beyond beautiful! 💗
July 18, 2021
***3.5 stars***
October 28, 2018
I copy people. Copy their normality because I can’t remember what it feels like anymore; it's been way too long since I experienced it. I watch people. I borrow their mannerisms. I borrow their smiles and their laughter, and use them as emotional armor.
Since the first time I saw the book cover, I must admit that it’s intrigued me in a way I cannot explain. It’s like the book had ‘called’ me and I cannot turn it down…
When I read the blurb, I just knew that this book will gonna be something and I NEED it!
To whoever had read The Silver Cage, I need to warn you that this book give me a déjà vu feeling with that book when I read it, BUT of course with the different ending...
I love story with dark and contain psychological trauma in it. Some books end well and give me satisfaction, but there’s some I found failed in bringing the emotions down and deep into the reader heart and only playing at the surface then turned into a meh reading after blabbing about the potential of being triggered something to reader about some kind of trauma.
This book, surprisingly – successfully gripping me right from the beginning and succeed anxious me at nearly end of it!
The story start with very slow pacing and successfully keep the mystery about what happened to Alex back then stay on board by revealing it piece by piece through the flashbacks. I can feel the story kinda lost it grip somewhere in the middle but so glad that it finally gained back the grip with full of emotional tension at nearly end of the book and ended satisfyingly good.
Edge of Living is an emotional read with a warning of suicidal matters that may caused uncomfortable subject to some readers. But I found that this book also give you a show of unconditional love that will warmed your heart.
H.L. Day is a new author to me, but I found that the writing – surprisingly - suit my liking. Edge Of Living maybe my first book of her that I read, but definitely won’t be the last!
Recommended with warning!
*I voluntarily received and read an advance copy from the author*
January 1, 2019
This would be a 4.5 for me.
Lots of angst, and I do enjoy angst! Honestly, the author did a great job of explaining Alex's head space. I honest to God wasn't sure what he was going to do until the very end. And when he explained his reasons--they made perfect sense. I loved the way he did that and the Al/Alex thing.
I can see where some people aren't sure how Austin could be in love with Alex, but I think that he knew going in that this was a fragile soul. He was drawn to Alex despite the fact he wasn't Austin's usual "type." Austin was careful with Alex, and as one of those patient types of people, willing to go the distance in giving Alex his space until he was ready to talk to Austin. In the meantime, he fell in love. Alex kept his love at bay, but once set free, he was able to fall fro the man who had treated him so well.
Also, I think it's important to remember Alex hadn't been through a sexual assault. His torment didn't lie there, so he wasn't traumatized by having sex with Austin. He just didn't take a lead role as he would once have. He'd changed due to all that had happened to him. Austin had no way of knowing Alex wasn't just a pliant lover, although he was afraid to be too aggressive with him, knowing something had happened in the past. The author made it clear that Alex's recovery was ongoing.
Anyway, all in all this was a good, angsty read that kept me turning the pages and holding my breath. I really liked the fact that it was dark enough that I wasn't sure if I was going to get a HEA or even a HFN as I read. I think I might even have accepted a sad ending because I really believed in what Alex was feeling.
Lots of angst, and I do enjoy angst! Honestly, the author did a great job of explaining Alex's head space. I honest to God wasn't sure what he was going to do until the very end. And when he explained his reasons--they made perfect sense. I loved the way he did that and the Al/Alex thing.
I can see where some people aren't sure how Austin could be in love with Alex, but I think that he knew going in that this was a fragile soul. He was drawn to Alex despite the fact he wasn't Austin's usual "type." Austin was careful with Alex, and as one of those patient types of people, willing to go the distance in giving Alex his space until he was ready to talk to Austin. In the meantime, he fell in love. Alex kept his love at bay, but once set free, he was able to fall fro the man who had treated him so well.
Also, I think it's important to remember Alex hadn't been through a sexual assault. His torment didn't lie there, so he wasn't traumatized by having sex with Austin. He just didn't take a lead role as he would once have. He'd changed due to all that had happened to him. Austin had no way of knowing Alex wasn't just a pliant lover, although he was afraid to be too aggressive with him, knowing something had happened in the past. The author made it clear that Alex's recovery was ongoing.
Anyway, all in all this was a good, angsty read that kept me turning the pages and holding my breath. I really liked the fact that it was dark enough that I wasn't sure if I was going to get a HEA or even a HFN as I read. I think I might even have accepted a sad ending because I really believed in what Alex was feeling.
November 10, 2018
Edge of Living was a let down. I wasn't invested in the characters or their less than typical romance because it was so unbelievable. Technically this one had potential, we had the broken soul in the form of Alexander, who for more than 80% of this plot had no personality, the reason for this was attributed to the horrors he experienced at the hands of a psychotic ex but still, the manner in which this traumatising event was explained left much to be desired. There was nothing about Alex 's character that invited romantic interest yet still we have Austin (an overly zealous, clueless, mildly interesting character) falling for him in no time at all. Really, it was all quite...underwhelming.
I wasn't interested in Alexanders' evasiveness by not confiding in Austin nor was I impressed by the nonsensical length of time it took for Austin to figure out his boyfriend had issues. This story, I would say, was more frustrating than romantic and the characters lacked appeal in so many ways it was disheartening.
The writing was also excessively wordy which made reading a task all on its own. Smh, sigh, it's a no from me, that's all I have to say.
The End.
I wasn't interested in Alexanders' evasiveness by not confiding in Austin nor was I impressed by the nonsensical length of time it took for Austin to figure out his boyfriend had issues. This story, I would say, was more frustrating than romantic and the characters lacked appeal in so many ways it was disheartening.
The writing was also excessively wordy which made reading a task all on its own. Smh, sigh, it's a no from me, that's all I have to say.
The End.
July 5, 2019
Very emotional
I’m not even sure how to start this review but the author did an excellent job in telling Alex and Austin’s story. It’s quickly evident, at least in broad strokes, what Alex has gone through. I appreciated how the author added hints to the narrative beginning with the prologue and easing the reader into more graphic details through well-paced flashbacks. The dual perspectives were helpful in building Austin’s character as well. I did feel something missing with a relationship that felt too one-sided at times. The sudden attraction and sense of protectiveness from Austin and Alex’s response to it was touching and captured my empathy for both men.
There are a few sexy scenes and they’re also important to making them feel a little more balanced as a couple. I was on the edge of my seat once the climactic part of the plot began to build, since how the conclusion would go certainly wasn’t evident. There is an HEA in the epilogue at least, because it was needed after the strong emotions the story pulled from me. Very good, if slightly dark and difficult read.
I’m not even sure how to start this review but the author did an excellent job in telling Alex and Austin’s story. It’s quickly evident, at least in broad strokes, what Alex has gone through. I appreciated how the author added hints to the narrative beginning with the prologue and easing the reader into more graphic details through well-paced flashbacks. The dual perspectives were helpful in building Austin’s character as well. I did feel something missing with a relationship that felt too one-sided at times. The sudden attraction and sense of protectiveness from Austin and Alex’s response to it was touching and captured my empathy for both men.
There are a few sexy scenes and they’re also important to making them feel a little more balanced as a couple. I was on the edge of my seat once the climactic part of the plot began to build, since how the conclusion would go certainly wasn’t evident. There is an HEA in the epilogue at least, because it was needed after the strong emotions the story pulled from me. Very good, if slightly dark and difficult read.
June 3, 2019
2.5 stars
Beautiful, emotional, well written book as always by H.L. Day, however it was unsatisfying as a romance. Alex was so broken, we can't get any feelings besides hurt and despair from him till the epilogue, and unfortunately, there's not a glimpse of what caused Austin to fall so hard for him. I've read such books before, where one MC is infatuated with the other for no apparent reason, and if the book's fluffy enough, I can ignore it. Here however that wasn't the case, it took a great deal to put up with Alex's behavior with no apparent 'benefit' for Austin, except if he was the mother Teresa kind of guy, who got off on helping the invalid. Besides, it seemed more like Alex found comfort and security with him, rather than love or passion, and though I can see how valuable those things can be, they do not make for a great love story.
So, a very moving, even heart-wrenching story about a broken man who's brought back from the edge by a very patient, very loving, very sweet giant (I was reminded of the dynamics of the heroes in Muscling Through while reading this), but an unsatisfying romance nonetheless.
Beautiful, emotional, well written book as always by H.L. Day, however it was unsatisfying as a romance. Alex was so broken, we can't get any feelings besides hurt and despair from him till the epilogue, and unfortunately, there's not a glimpse of what caused Austin to fall so hard for him. I've read such books before, where one MC is infatuated with the other for no apparent reason, and if the book's fluffy enough, I can ignore it. Here however that wasn't the case, it took a great deal to put up with Alex's behavior with no apparent 'benefit' for Austin, except if he was the mother Teresa kind of guy, who got off on helping the invalid. Besides, it seemed more like Alex found comfort and security with him, rather than love or passion, and though I can see how valuable those things can be, they do not make for a great love story.
So, a very moving, even heart-wrenching story about a broken man who's brought back from the edge by a very patient, very loving, very sweet giant (I was reminded of the dynamics of the heroes in Muscling Through while reading this), but an unsatisfying romance nonetheless.
February 11, 2020
Make sure you read the trigger warnings and if you can’t handle those in your stories, do not read this. If they don’t bother you then you need to pick this story up. Okay so it was a very sad read and what happened to Alex's family was devastating. And to think that there are people out there in the world who are like Oliver is very scary. Alex so broke my heart as he is going through life all alone barely living and lost in his own head. But there is an out for him, he just needs to hold on a little bit longer and then he can bring it all to an end. What he didn't expect is to meet Austin. Austin was such a sweet, gentle giant and weasels his way into Alex's life. Austin thinks that Alex will eventually come to trust him, and he is willing to be patient. Slowly, through flashbacks, we find out what happened a year previously. We also see the Alex who did not have this dread hanging over him. I'm glad that we did get to see both POVS, so we could see in Austin's head and what he was thinking/feeling as well as Alex. Aldric March is a new to me narrator and he did a great job and I can’t wait for more from him. There HEA was a hard-fought road and they both deserved it.
Audio ARC provided by the author in exchange for an honest review.
Audio ARC provided by the author in exchange for an honest review.
December 5, 2018
Omg...How to do this review...Ok it's already known that an MC in this has suicidal tendencies....He's actually planning it...but this will break your heart and at the same time give you hope that everything will be ok ....What Alex went through and what happened is horrendous but the way he hides it from Austin when they get together will break you....He falls for Austin quite easily, Austin brings out the good in him....Austin is the kind of man who will wait patiently and not push him.....I love how this book was done...No miracle cures for how Alex is feeling, But I so was wishing for him to tell Austin..Near the end you heart will be in your mouth...I just need to say you will need plenty of tissues and you will want to hold Alex tight and protect him as Austin does....A beautiful book and an absolute must read x
May 23, 2020
Unexpected
I really loved this book. From the start, you could feel something is off. And while it seems like everything is going smooth, there's still a niggling in the back of your mind saying somethings wrong. That feeling, that NEED to know what was going on, why Alex is the way he is...thats what kept me coming back to this book and man, am I happy I did. This was si unexpectedly amazing....I cried along with Alex, my heart thudded alongside Austin's when he offered love and made himself vulnerable to a fragile yet closed off Alex. I loved them together, and even though there isn't much in terms of "couple focus" by showing them of 50 dates or 40 sex scenes...their story feels real and complete, their relationship solid. Read this book. U wont regret it. ❤
I really loved this book. From the start, you could feel something is off. And while it seems like everything is going smooth, there's still a niggling in the back of your mind saying somethings wrong. That feeling, that NEED to know what was going on, why Alex is the way he is...thats what kept me coming back to this book and man, am I happy I did. This was si unexpectedly amazing....I cried along with Alex, my heart thudded alongside Austin's when he offered love and made himself vulnerable to a fragile yet closed off Alex. I loved them together, and even though there isn't much in terms of "couple focus" by showing them of 50 dates or 40 sex scenes...their story feels real and complete, their relationship solid. Read this book. U wont regret it. ❤
March 4, 2020
I dove into this one with an expectation of highly angsty read and was a bit disappointed of how artificial both the relationship and angsty events were portrayed. It's an interesting story with a great potential, but I found the execution lacking, and not believable enough to let me engage with the story and characters on deep emotional level.
November 2, 2018
Piękna. Nie, przepiękna historia o drugiej szansie na życie.
O odzyskaniu sensu i znalezieniu nowej drogi. Napisana w tak niesamowity sposób, że nie można było oprzeć się ani jednemu słowu. Wystarczył prolog, żebym przepadła całkowicie.
Uwielbiam ♥♥♥
O odzyskaniu sensu i znalezieniu nowej drogi. Napisana w tak niesamowity sposób, że nie można było oprzeć się ani jednemu słowu. Wystarczył prolog, żebym przepadła całkowicie.
Uwielbiam ♥♥♥
February 11, 2020
Heartfelt and Riveting!
Wow what a great read. H.L. Day has written another brilliant story. Although it is in part gut wrenching, it is also uplifting and, as with her other work, has an HEA end.
The story opens with one of our two protagonists, Alexander, preparing to end his life. He temporarily postpones his suicide due to some unfinished business. He serendipitously crosses paths with our other protagonist, Austin, and the story goes on from there.
As the relationship between the two men evolves into something special we eventually find out why Alexander is suicidal. It actually caught me off guard and will speak to every reader. I think what impressed me the most about this novel is the author’s spot on portrayal of mental illness as well as the hope of recovery. I literally could not put this book down until the end. Kudos to Ms. Day.
Wow what a great read. H.L. Day has written another brilliant story. Although it is in part gut wrenching, it is also uplifting and, as with her other work, has an HEA end.
The story opens with one of our two protagonists, Alexander, preparing to end his life. He temporarily postpones his suicide due to some unfinished business. He serendipitously crosses paths with our other protagonist, Austin, and the story goes on from there.
As the relationship between the two men evolves into something special we eventually find out why Alexander is suicidal. It actually caught me off guard and will speak to every reader. I think what impressed me the most about this novel is the author’s spot on portrayal of mental illness as well as the hope of recovery. I literally could not put this book down until the end. Kudos to Ms. Day.
February 19, 2023
Una historia triste por la trama, que lo es, pero en la que los MC no dan demasiado juego porque les falta fuerza. Uno tiene un pasado traumático, entonces es entendible que sea triste, pero el que no lo tiene es soso, insulso y apático y no acabé de creermelo así que la relación entre ellos mucho menos.
Me gustó el final, simple y efectivo, ejemplo de que no hay que ponerse melodramático de más para resultar efectivos, "lo bueno si breve dos veces bueno "!
Me gustó el final, simple y efectivo, ejemplo de que no hay que ponerse melodramático de más para resultar efectivos, "lo bueno si breve dos veces bueno "!
March 2, 2020
Emotional devastation & a happy ending (an audio review)
This book comes with a strong trigger warning that is appropriate. Assuming you’re comfortable with (or at least can deal with) suicidal ideation and dark themes, this book is one you should definitely listen to.
I’m struggling to come up with the right words to describe this book. I don’t tend to read blurbs – I just jump in having no idea what to expect. From the first scene, I was hooked. I plowed through the book in a day and was blown away. There were times in the book when heightened emotions were called for – dread, terror, fatigue, devastation. Each time the author brought me right to that place, and I was immersed in the feeling. I felt Alex’s discomfort at his overly friendly neighbour. I rooted for Austin to find a way to break down Alex’s walls, and endured his confusion when he couldn’t.
I liked the slow courtship in this book. Austin was a surprisingly sensitive soul who sensed Alex’s skittishness and respected the other man, never pushing. We all should be so lucky to have an Austin in our lives. Alex is appreciative, even befuddled. He can’t conceive what Austin is getting out of the relationship since Alex is a shell of the man he once was. Of course Austin doesn’t know that. He only sees the sensitive man before him. The man who has panic attacks and is painfully thin. The man who sometimes detaches completely. Yet over and over Austin is there and, eventually, Alex starts to fall in love.
Slight problem? Alex has terminal plans, and if he stays with Austin, he’s bound to hurt the man he’s come to care for. This is clearly set up from the beginning and my heart lurched from moment to moment. I was guaranteed a happy ending, but that didn’t mean there were a few close calls and tears in the meantime. Interestingly, when the Oliver plotline was resolved, I believed the book would draw to a close, but there were more than two hours left. Two heart-wrenching hours of knowing what was coming and yet hoping something, anything, would derail Alex’s plans.
In the end, this book dragged me through the wringer, lurching from emotion to emotion. And I loved that. I adore books who can immerse me in the story and sustain my interest through every word. I can’t say enough good things about the book. If you’re looking for something emotional and powerful, this is the right book for you.
I’m always game to try a new narrator and Alric March did not disappoint. He had distinctive voices for Austin and Alex, fitting how I pictured each man. I also adored his British accent. I’m a sucker for a great Brit. Like I said, this book is definitely worth a listen and I’ll be happy to try out more books by this author. Oh, and if H.L. were to write a follow-up book with the two unlikely characters who sort of got together, that would be alright with me.
This book comes with a strong trigger warning that is appropriate. Assuming you’re comfortable with (or at least can deal with) suicidal ideation and dark themes, this book is one you should definitely listen to.
I’m struggling to come up with the right words to describe this book. I don’t tend to read blurbs – I just jump in having no idea what to expect. From the first scene, I was hooked. I plowed through the book in a day and was blown away. There were times in the book when heightened emotions were called for – dread, terror, fatigue, devastation. Each time the author brought me right to that place, and I was immersed in the feeling. I felt Alex’s discomfort at his overly friendly neighbour. I rooted for Austin to find a way to break down Alex’s walls, and endured his confusion when he couldn’t.
I liked the slow courtship in this book. Austin was a surprisingly sensitive soul who sensed Alex’s skittishness and respected the other man, never pushing. We all should be so lucky to have an Austin in our lives. Alex is appreciative, even befuddled. He can’t conceive what Austin is getting out of the relationship since Alex is a shell of the man he once was. Of course Austin doesn’t know that. He only sees the sensitive man before him. The man who has panic attacks and is painfully thin. The man who sometimes detaches completely. Yet over and over Austin is there and, eventually, Alex starts to fall in love.
Slight problem? Alex has terminal plans, and if he stays with Austin, he’s bound to hurt the man he’s come to care for. This is clearly set up from the beginning and my heart lurched from moment to moment. I was guaranteed a happy ending, but that didn’t mean there were a few close calls and tears in the meantime. Interestingly, when the Oliver plotline was resolved, I believed the book would draw to a close, but there were more than two hours left. Two heart-wrenching hours of knowing what was coming and yet hoping something, anything, would derail Alex’s plans.
In the end, this book dragged me through the wringer, lurching from emotion to emotion. And I loved that. I adore books who can immerse me in the story and sustain my interest through every word. I can’t say enough good things about the book. If you’re looking for something emotional and powerful, this is the right book for you.
I’m always game to try a new narrator and Alric March did not disappoint. He had distinctive voices for Austin and Alex, fitting how I pictured each man. I also adored his British accent. I’m a sucker for a great Brit. Like I said, this book is definitely worth a listen and I’ll be happy to try out more books by this author. Oh, and if H.L. were to write a follow-up book with the two unlikely characters who sort of got together, that would be alright with me.
November 11, 2018
Edge Of Living is one of those rare books that comes along and sweeps you off your feet. This HL Day novel is absolutely fantastic.
To say that Alex is a broken man is an understatement. He is a mere shell of the man he used to be, as he's hiding, terrified of everyone and everything, and has completely locked himself away from others.
When Austin sees the sad and mysterious Alex working at the library, he is instantly attracted and intrigued by this quiet man.
Soon Alex finds himself feeling safe is Austin's presence. It is beautiful the way that Austin helps to calm him and takes away his nightmares.
Their love is powerful, as Austin tells Alex "My soul likes your soul." How swoon-worthy!
The author skillfully uses flashbacks to slowly reveal Alex's tragic past. As well, the tale is emotionally driven, expertly written, giving us not only just a glimpse, but a clear and steady view into Alex and Austin's thoughts. I was brought along for the ride, able to fully feel every single feeling along with them.
Overall, The Edge Of Living is a captivating romance between two men who are traveling life on two completely different paths. One man is looking for his future, the other is stuck permanently in his past. Their relationship at times seems so damn one sided, but it really isn't. These two men need each other.
I cannot rave enough about Edge Of Living. HL Day has done a phenomenal job with this gut-wrenching story. It is a must read!
To say that Alex is a broken man is an understatement. He is a mere shell of the man he used to be, as he's hiding, terrified of everyone and everything, and has completely locked himself away from others.
When Austin sees the sad and mysterious Alex working at the library, he is instantly attracted and intrigued by this quiet man.
Soon Alex finds himself feeling safe is Austin's presence. It is beautiful the way that Austin helps to calm him and takes away his nightmares.
Their love is powerful, as Austin tells Alex "My soul likes your soul." How swoon-worthy!
The author skillfully uses flashbacks to slowly reveal Alex's tragic past. As well, the tale is emotionally driven, expertly written, giving us not only just a glimpse, but a clear and steady view into Alex and Austin's thoughts. I was brought along for the ride, able to fully feel every single feeling along with them.
Overall, The Edge Of Living is a captivating romance between two men who are traveling life on two completely different paths. One man is looking for his future, the other is stuck permanently in his past. Their relationship at times seems so damn one sided, but it really isn't. These two men need each other.
I cannot rave enough about Edge Of Living. HL Day has done a phenomenal job with this gut-wrenching story. It is a must read!
October 28, 2018
To be honest, it took me a couple of days after reading Edge of Living to sit down and write a review. The insight into Alex's mind is as jagged as his emotional state and I wasn't sure after reading the prologue that I would continue. But I did and I'm glad. Although the subject matter is definitely dark and I might not have understood Alex's thoughts and actions, especially jarring after you get a glimpse of how Alex was just a year previous, I did enjoy the journey of his life after he met Austin. Austin was patient and loving, and although it seemed at times that Alex wouldn't make it through his swirling thoughts and nightmares, he does because Austin was there for him. The relationship between the two men grow stronger as the story continued and while you get an understanding that trauma doesn't completely go away, Alex learns to live with it and Austin is there with him every step of the way. An intensely emotional read!!
March 4, 2020
You might think that this is simply a dark story that somehow turns out well by reading the blurb and a few reviews, but it’s much more than that. Alex is a man who has suffered a staggering, unimaginable loss and is simply going through the motions of living. He’s been reduced to a shadow of his former self, almost erased by this tragedy, and can only focus on one very short term goal. Then he meets Austin, who truly sees him, who is ignorant of his past but wants to connect with him, and whose urge to protect and care for Alex is something that he can’t completely understand himself. What seems like an inevitable progression toward a tragically unavoidable outcome will keep you interested all the way through, and the HEA that is promised in the blurb is more like a triumph of the human spirit and the curative powers of selfless love. Highly recommended.
February 25, 2020
Emotional rollercoaster.
An incredibly moving book. Both Alex and Austin pulled at my heart strings. A real emotional rollercoaster, not for the faint hearted. Even so, despite the story content, I loved the way Austin looked after Alex and gave him hope. Also, realistically, love didn't immediately over come all problems. I recently listened to the audio version of this book, it's narrated so beautifully. A very well written and emotional story. So moving, but please be aware of the warnings given by Ms Day. Some people may find the events/emotions described triggering.
An incredibly moving book. Both Alex and Austin pulled at my heart strings. A real emotional rollercoaster, not for the faint hearted. Even so, despite the story content, I loved the way Austin looked after Alex and gave him hope. Also, realistically, love didn't immediately over come all problems. I recently listened to the audio version of this book, it's narrated so beautifully. A very well written and emotional story. So moving, but please be aware of the warnings given by Ms Day. Some people may find the events/emotions described triggering.
February 26, 2020
This was my first H.L. Day novel but it definitely won’t be my last! When gentle and friendly Austin falls for quiet Alex, he doesn’t realise that Alex has been through incredible trauma, mistaking his withdrawn nature for shyness. The budding relationship is tender, in contrast to the slow reveal of the brutal events that have left Alex suicidal. This is an incredibly well written and paced story, the tension carefully ratcheted up. It was deeply moving and utterly gripping!
October 27, 2018
Omg!
What a powerful, emotionally charged story this was!
Please note of the trigger warnings as this book will tear you apart!
I fell in love with both MC’s instantly!
Austin was so wonderful, so supportive, so patient and just wanted the world with Alexander.
But Alexander’s horrible past was his futures downfall!
This story was everything and more and it’s just blown me away!!!!!
❤️
What a powerful, emotionally charged story this was!
Please note of the trigger warnings as this book will tear you apart!
I fell in love with both MC’s instantly!
Austin was so wonderful, so supportive, so patient and just wanted the world with Alexander.
But Alexander’s horrible past was his futures downfall!
This story was everything and more and it’s just blown me away!!!!!
❤️
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