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Before I Disappear

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Rose Montgomery parks her family’s trailer in Fort Glory, Oregon with one goal: to carve out a new life for herself and her little brother, Charlie. They need a fresh start for their family, and she thinks she's finally found it in a town where nobody knows them.

But Rose’s plans come crashing down when, in an instant, Fort Glory disappears and every person in town vanishe
ebook, 320 pages
Published July 23rd 2019 by Feiwel Friends
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ʙᴇʟᴀ.: ☾**:.☆*.:。.
May 18, 2019 rated it liked it
Shelves: arc
ARC provided by the publisher via Edelweiss in exchange for an honest review (Thank you!)

"Because sometimes you have to leave to survive."

Before I disappear is a YA sci-fi that tells us the story of Rose, a teenager with a tragic past that is suddenly thrown into a warped reality where her new town Fort Oregon, is swallowed by an alternative dimension. Rose must find her younger brother, Charlie, to save him. Charlie is the only one able to save the town from the mysterious entity called the
Sheena ☆ Oh, the Sheenanigans!

Rating: ★★★★✬ (4.5/5 Stars)
Title: Before I Disappear
Author(s): Danielle Stinson
Rose Montgomery: 17 years old, Brunette, Blue Eyed
Charlie Montgomery: 10 years old, Black, Violet Eyed
Setting: Fort Glory, Oregon
Tag(s): Young Adult, Fantasy, Romance
Content Rating: PG
POV: First Person (Heroine)
Smexy Level: Subtle
Favorite Quote(s):
― "Can you hear the music, Rosie?"
― "Ever since that night in July, I don't wear makeup, or rebel against authority, or drive above the speed limit. stayi
Feb 28, 2019 added it
Shelves: arc
I decided to DNF this one, sadly. I feel like I dont care at all about these characters and what’s happening. I’m just not feeling any emotions. It’s like I’m being told how to feel about the mystery and about the characters instead of pulling me in. In one part the MC is reminding herself she can’t trust anyone, not even anything she’s seeing, like its supposed to make it so mysterious but it feels like the author is trying to force me to feel it. As if that reminder was meant for me - to make ...more
Danielle Stinson
Oct 11, 2018 rated it it was amazing  ·  (Review from the author)  ·  review of another edition
I'm probably pretty biased, so I'm just going to go ahead and say that I loved writing this book. I've carried Rosie and Charlie in my heart for so long, and I'm excited and awed that they are almost out there in the world.

To anyone who is reading this, thank you so much!
Athena Archeron
Aug 28, 2020 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: siblings, squads, winter
"We are never alone. Never. Even in the darkest places, there is light. Always. Everywhere. We just have to look for it."

I was pleasantly surprised by Before I Disappear. Following Rose, the caretaker of her mother and younger brother, the novel really begins when a science experiment goes wrong, ripping a hole in the fabric of our universe, and causing the small town of Fort Glory to disappear. Rose, along with a few others, are trapped in the Fold, a place between our world and the dimensional
★★✩✩✩ underwhelming stars.

Wow. This was such a mess. I found it extremely difficult to be immersed in a story that is far too convoluted for my taste and be invested in a plot device that seems so far-fetched and over-the-top that I could barely get through the other half of the book. My mind just got weary taking them all in. It was like saving an entire 18-wheeler from drowning in quicksand. Also, how could I ever leave some of the plot holes out? And I wouldn't even try to deny several moment
Regina Hansen
Jun 13, 2019 rated it it was amazing
There is a short but heartbreaking scene in "Before I Disappear" that tells you all you need to know about Danielle Stinson's writing skill. It takes place in drugstore and has to do with a tube of red lipstick. When you get to that scene, and you start crying, remember this review. And the thing is, Stinson's wonderfully inventive science fiction novel has very little to do with lipstick or drugstores, and everything to do with time and space and the hidden places between them. It also has to d ...more
Anna Bright
Jul 31, 2019 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: ya, mystery, paranormal
if you've got a soft spot for stranger things-- this book is for you. it's not got that 80s vibe but it's got all the small-town sci-fi your heart could desire. ...more
Jul 23, 2019 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Rose together with her mother and brother Charlie moves from the city to the city. They are running and trying to find a safe place to live. Their next stop is Fort Glory. Rose wants this city to be their final destination. She works at Rusty where she meets people from the city and a lot of journalists who are trying to gain more information about DARC scientific organization. Rose is trying to fit in and ask her family to do the same. Her brother is very different from other kids. He is absent ...more
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Everything happens for a reason. But what happens when a mysterious force engulfs and entire town and most of the people living within it? Before I Disappear sets its bleak and chilling atmosphere straightaway. It's so captivating, readers all
Tiffany Neal
Mar 05, 2019 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Thank you NetGalley for providing this digital ARC.


This YA sci-fi is an absolute piece of art. There are truly no words to capture just how gorgeous this novel is—the writing, the storyline, the characters—all of it touched me to my core.

World-building & storyline
The very first lines in this book pull you in to a mysterious work where you know things are off kilter, but you can’t quite put your finger on it. When conversations about string theory, wrinkles in time and space continuum, and mu
Mariama J.
Dec 20, 2018 rated it it was amazing
"Mom told me once that every person was a strange land with their own strange weather." BEFORE I DISAPPEAR is an epic SciFi adventure full of strange weather and land. It follows Rose, a teen girl who is more of a caretaker than a child, and who fights daily to mobilize her mother and brother out of poverty and violent circumstances. When the town Rose and her family live in mysteriously disappears into thin air with all of the residents (including her brother Charlie), everything changes for Ro ...more
Olivia Hinebaugh
Feb 07, 2018 rated it it was amazing
What can I say? Except maybe that I'm head over heels for this book. It has everything I love: feels, rich worldbuilding, page turning suspense, and feels. (THE FEELS! OMG!) The writing alone gave me goosebumps dozens of times. The science is woven seamlessly into the story. And this cast of characters is brilliantly rendered. I can feel my heart tugging me back to read this one again.

Also, please watch the book trailer!
Aug 17, 2019 rated it liked it
“(...)he taught me that we are never alone. Never. Even in the darkest places, there is light. Always. Everywhere. We just have to look for it.“

It had mysterious, dark and paranormal vibes, which I love.
But at the end I was quite confused, because I didn’t understand what and why something happened.
Overall I liked this and it showed how people can get stronger and help others even when they themselves are lost in grief, sadness and misery.

Nicole M. Hewitt
This review and many more can be found on my blog: Feed Your Fiction Addiction

You know how sometimes you start reading a book, and within just a few pages, you’re already saying, “I LOVE this!”? That was Before I Disappear for me. Right away, I could tell there was going to be something special in these pages—I was immediately wrapped up in the intrigue: What’s so odd about Charlie? What’s this music he’s hearing? Why have they had to move so much? What are they running from? What dangers are lu
Ashlee Cowles
Jun 20, 2018 rated it it was amazing
Every now and then you come across a story you know you’ll never forget. A timeless story that's categorized as “Young Adult,” but is worth reading at any age or stage of life. For me, BEFORE I DISAPPEAR is one of those stories. This novel is a fast-paced, entertaining read that’s hard to put down, but it’s also so much more than that. I loved the eerie atmosphere that transported me to the lush forests of the Pacific Northwest. I loved the intrigue surrounding an entire town disappearing withou ...more
Roberta R. (Offbeat YA)
Mini-blurb: A resourceful girl and four other teens find themselves stranded in an alternate-universe no-man-land, and have to survive a series of ordeals while searching for her missing brother and a way out of there.


Rated 2.5 really.

I had VERY high expectations for this one, but it was too confusing and it never managed to make me feel connected to the characters (not even Charlie, the brave, sweet, somehow otherworldly missing brother) like I hoped it would. The science bordered on the sup
London Shah
Apr 07, 2018 marked it as to-read
LOVE the premise of this book, can't wait to read! ...more
Jul 06, 2019 rated it it was amazing
Many years ago, I read the book Hyperspace: A Scientific Odyssey Through Parallel Universes, Time Warps, and the Tenth Dimension by the author Michio Kaku. I am not awesome at physics (a reality I've discussed in my review of the book The Big Picture: On the Origins of Life, Meaning, and the Universe Itself, but Kaku's book was written with enough simplicity that a general reader like myself could understand the incredibly complex ideas he was proposing. The idea of alternate dimensions, mirror ...more
Paige Green
Jul 17, 2019 rated it really liked it
Disclaimer: I received this book on NetGalley and from the publisher. I was also given a copy from Fantastic Flying Book Club. Thanks! All opinions are my own.

Book Series: Standalone

Rating: 4/5

Publication Date: July 23, 2019

Genre: YA Fantasy

Recommended Age: 16+ (disappearing people and spooky happenings)

Publisher: Feiwel Friends

Pages: 320

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Synopsis: Rose Montgomery parks her family’s trailer in Fort Glory, Oregon with one goal: to carve out a new life for herself and her little brother,
Jun 13, 2019 rated it liked it
Shelves: arcs, 2019-releases
I'm a little conflicted about this book ughhh. I really enjoyed the characters, their relationships to each other and the siblings vibes in this, the connection and the MC's need to find her brother just, yes, I LOVE this. This book also surprised me with some of the twists and discoveries about the characters. Yet, I felt.... very confused at times, too, by the inner workings of it all to fully immerse myself into it.
Tentative rating: 3,5 stars.
Full review coming soon :)

Thank you to MacMilla
Bethany Miller
Oct 26, 2019 rated it it was ok
Shelves: royal
Grade Range: 9-12
Genre: Science Fiction
Literary Merit: Mediocre
Characterization: Mediocre
Recommendation: Optional Pruchase

Rose, her mother, and her little brother Charlie have been on the move for a long time, trying to escape a man who hurt them in the past. They find themselves in Fort Glory, Oregon - a place that Charlie was drawn to for unknown reasons. Fort Glory happens to be home to the Deep Atomic Research Collider (DARC), which has recently come back online after being shut down for ye
Valerie McEnroe
This author writes with a lyrical voice. At times the protagonist's thoughts are nearly poetic. If you like that sort of thing, you might like this book. However. You must also like incredibly abstract physics talk. Neither of these appealed to me, and I don't foresee it appealing to many teens.

17-year-old Rosie has just arrived in Fort Glory, Oregon determined to make a new start. Things have not been good since her father disappeared with no reason. Her mother suffers from depression and her b
Sabrina Kaye Fox
Jan 30, 2019 rated it liked it
Before I Disappear is marketed as Arrival meets A Wrinkle in Time. I've never Arrival nor have I ever read A Wrinkle in Time, so I went into this novel pretty blind.

Rose Montgomery has had a hard life. After their latest setback, her, her brother Charlie, and her mother find themselves in Fort Glory, Oregon.
Rose's goal is to make a better life for her younger brother and her mother. Before she knows it, everything is flip-turned upside down and Fort Glory seems to be gone. Poof, into thin air. T
Jacqueline Firkins
Apr 14, 2020 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: 2019-debut, ya-sci-fi
Part survival tale, part thematic exploration of darkness and light, this book has a lot going on in its pages: a mysterious disappearing town, family trauma, metaphysics, wormholes, multiple dimensions, magical connective threads, an exploration of male anger and female caretaking, a questionable corporation that *might* be responsible for a whole lot of bad s**t going down, abuse, grief, broken friendships, monsters, a search for a lost family member, and even a hint of romance. Told in Stinso ...more
Before I Disappear is one of those books that grabs you by the hand and doesn’t let go until you reach the last page. So much crazy stuff happens that it’s hard to process what exactly I was reading other than “Oh my gosh, oh my gosh, oh my gosh.” This book is insane and intense with incredible characters and gut-wrenching twists. If you like a good science-experiment-gone-wrong mystery with strong sibling relationships and a whole lot of crazy crap happening, read it.

Full review can be found he
Good book and good book discussion. Some ups and downs for me. I thought the writing was really lyrical full of emotion at times and then other times I thought it was going on a little long. I really think it falls in the category of magical realism more than science fiction.
Katy Upperman
Aug 20, 2019 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: young-adult
This book is so many things — a sibling story, a tale of survival, a testament to friendship, a romance, and a deftly plotted sci-fi that left my mind spinning with wonder. Danielle’s prose is gorgeously lyrical, her descriptions are lush, and she conveys her characters’ emotions with raw clarity. BEFORE I DISAPPEAR broke my heart time and again, but left me feeling ultimately hopeful. I highly recommend this beautiful book!
Forever Young Adult
Graded By: Stephanie
Cover Story: Something’s Missing
BFF Charm: Heck Yes!
Swoonworthy Scale: 5
Talky Talk: Delightful Debut
Bonus Factors: Physics, Survival, Found Family
Relationship Status: Don’t Disappear On Me

Read the full book report here.
Mary Thompson
Jul 26, 2019 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: teen
Engaging, character-driven sci-fi! The book does a great job of integrating the real world struggles of Rose and her brother, Charlie, with an exciting action-packed sci-fi mystery. Highly recommended!
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Stories were a central part of Danielle Stinson's childhood. Growing up in a military family meant frequent moves across the US and abroad. She spent many summers in her room surrounded by unpacked boxes and stacks of library books. She currently lives with her husband and four boys in Virginia, where she writes fiction for young adults. Before I Disappear is her debut novel. ...more

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