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In Search Of Us

4.09  ·  Rating details ·  2,129 ratings  ·  486 reviews
Angie considers herself unremarkable. She likes history and science, running hard, grilled cheese with burned edges. But today, everything will change.

A photo in an old box, in a drawer. Of her teenage mother with a boy she's never seen before - and yet Angie instantly knows it's her father. The father who died before she was born. But Angie begins to understand that there
Paperback, 389 pages
Published March 6th 2018 by Hot Key Books
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Apr 27, 2018 rated it really liked it
Oh gosh, this story was incredibly and beautifully written.
So, the book is about Marylin and Angie who is mixed race. A mother and her daughter. Set in two different time frames, it follows both of their stories, intertwining beautifully, to tell the story of how they came to where they are now.
I don't want to get too detailed about the synopsis, so I'll leave it at that.
The tone of the story was just sad, full of melancholy and hope and the attachment got deeper as I read on. The type of feeli
Jun 27, 2018 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: library-2
This was so SO good! A cleverly woven tale told in two timelines about two sets of mothers and daughters. Angie is biracial and has grown up with her white mother, having never met her father (who her mother claims is dead.) While their relationship is loving, her mother is very secretive, and Angie has always felt a need to know about her past. She has an on again off again relationship with Sam, which is one of my favorite parts of the book. The author is really good at writing flawed, interes ...more
Jan 08, 2018 rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
Actual Rate 3.5
Ava's (author of Love Letters to the Dead) new book was released in México and other Latin-America countries first. It'll be out in the USA (and the rest of the world, I guess) next month and you should definitely read it then.

In Search Of Us is Angie's story, she's an African-American seventeen-year-old girl who grew up without a father. Her mother, a white woman, has never been able to tell her much about him without crying.

When Angie finds out a picture of he
Olivia-Savannah  Roach
This was quite a lovely, gentle read with an emotional punch to it too. I had some highs and lows with this one, but overall I liked it!

I was a bit unsure of the changing perspectives. I didn’t like the immediate change we had at the beginning because I didn’t care about Angie enough yet… but at the same time I completely understood why the author did it that way as well. I liked that we got to see Marilyn, the mother, as a teenager while also seeing Angie as a teen. We got to see their similari
Alice (MTB/Alice Tied The Bookish Knot)
I won a copy of In Search Of Us via the website Readers First!

This was such an emotional novel, I can't even begin to sit down to type this review up and process my thoughts because my mind is a freaking mess. But what I will say is the plotline and characters were very well-developed, the settings of California and New Mexico were interesting to witness. There are two POVs: Marilyn and her daughter Angie. Angie is a seventeen year old who never knew her father, he died before she was born. With
Whispering Stories
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In Search of Us is the story of Marilyn and Angie told from two points of view and two different timelines. We first meet seventeen-year-old Angie as she sets out on a road trip to Los Angeles after she discovers that her mum has been lying to her for years about her father. We then go back in time to when her mum Marilyn was herself just seventeen.

Marilyn lives with her mum and her uncle in Hollywood. Her mum tells people that her daughter is a star nea
Kate (beautifulbookland)
I must admit, I wasn’t the biggest fan of Love Letters to the Dead - I read it while I was in hospital, and I literally can’t remember a thing about it aside from the fact that I struggled to finish it. But now I’m thinking I might try it again, because In Search of Us is one of the most beautiful and heartbreaking books I’ve ever read. It made my heart soar and then drop and then break, and I am going to shove it in everyone’s faces because I love it so much.

This story is set in two different t
Feb 24, 2018 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: netgalley2018
I wasn't ready for something so beautiful.

Told in two timelines, we follow Marilyn's romance with her neighbor, who is a black boy, while she struggles to follow her mother's dream and bear with her uncle's addiction to gambling. And we also follow her daughter's search for her father eighteen years later, having been lied to a whole life Angie comes across an article on her uncle, who was supposedly dead. Now she has a chance to travel all the way to LA, even if she has to beg her ex-boyfriend
Jun 17, 2018 rated it really liked it
4.5 stars
This is just one of those books that really fill your heart and makes you sad and smile and it’s all happening at the same time you know. There’s a mystery and a love story at the base of this novel. They’ll meet in the proverbially perfect and heart-shattering middle.

The novel switches between Angie wanting to know more about her father and trying to find out if he’s dead or alive, and how it all started with her father and Marilyn, Angie’s mother. I loved seeing the romance between Ma
Stacey Kicklighter
This is Ava Dellaira's second novel and it did not disappoint. It was not at all what I was expecting but was pleasantly surprised at the racial injustice message worked into the storyline...very pertinent to today's atmosphere. I found this novel very comforting at times. It was an easy read for hot summer days. 🙂
Charley Cook
Apr 25, 2018 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
In Search Of is the parallel love story, told by a mother and daughter when they are aged just seventeen. Marilyn is new in Los Angeles, pushed into the spotlight by her fame hungry mother but still living in the poverty of hopefulness. Angie feels suffocated by her mothers grief, torn apart by her mothers protective gaze and her need to know her fathers roots.
As you flip between the views of Marilyn and Angie you begin to see not only correlations but cause and consequence of actions years befo
Carrie (brightbeautifulthings)
I received a free e-ARC through NetGalley from the publishers at Macmillan Children’s Publishing Group/Farrar, Straus, and Giroux. I fell in love with Dellaira’s writing from the first time I read Love Letters to the Dead, and I’ve read it several times since. I was so excited to get a copy of her new book!

Angie has never known her father. Raised by a single mother, Marilyn, who would do anything for her, she still feels as though an important part of herself is missing. Her dad was African Amer
Feb 14, 2018 rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: netgalley-arc
Actual rating 3.5

I admit, I wasn't the biggest fan of Dellaira's previous work Love Letters to the Dead - the idea was stellar, the execution meh. Thankfully, this wasn't the case with In Search of Us.

This is a tale of a multigenerational conflict, told in a compelling dual POV - one is Angie, an African-American teen, the other Marylin, a white woman and Angie's mother. The story jumps back and forth between Marilyn in her teens as she falls in love with Angie's father James, and Angie living i
Apr 19, 2018 rated it really liked it
4.5 stars

I went into In Search of Us not really knowing much about the book, I’d seen Sam give the book a five star rating and that’s all I needed to give this book a go. To be honest I really did struggle with the beginning of the book, the chapters alternate with perspectives from Angie in the present and her mum Marilyn in the past. And I found myself more interested in following Angie’s perspective, I wanted to follow her story and longing in discovering the truth in what happened with her f
Samantha (WLABB)
Rating: 4.5 Stars

I had wanted to read this book for many reasons. One, I really enjoyed Love Letters to the Dead. Two, I love multigenerational stories. Three, coming of age tales always work for me. Four, I never pass up a good romance. I am not quite sure what I was expecting from this book, but it delivered a total feelsplosion and was so beautifully tragic, I am kind of choked up right now just thinking about it.

•Pro: I wasn't sure at first, but I grew to love the alternating timeline. Contr
Feb 23, 2018 rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: read-in-2018
3.5 stars. I dove right into this one without recalling exactly what it was about, but I certainly couldn’t make myself stop turning the pages every time I picked it up. There was something compelling about this story, about Angie’s present day experiences and Marilyn’s moments more than a decade before, and I ended up really getting into it overall. The writing style took a little acclimatization, and it’s a heavy book, and I would have certainly liked to see more of both characters interacting ...more
Jan 23, 2020 rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
The book got off to a slow start but eventually it had me hooked. The last few chapters pulled my heartstrings.
Femke (booksfemme)
3.5 stars

It's midnight. I'm ugly sobbing.

In Search of Us is the kind of book that creeps up on you. I had a hard time connecting to two main characters (Angie & Marilyn) in the beginning, but only in the end did I realize that I had started to care for them somewhere along the way. All the other characters basically shot straight through to my heart, which is also the reason for the ugly sobbing.

So as I said I struggled with the MCs in the beginning and I also had to get used to Ava Dellaira's
May 18, 2018 rated it really liked it
Shelves: 2018-releases
This was such a beautiful story - loved the two timelines, the characters and the story overall <3
Full review coming soon! :)
catherine ♡
*Thank you to the publisher for a free copy in exchange for an honest review!*

Actual Rating: 4

YES I CRIED. Now that we have that out of the way...

In Search Of Us was a poignant intergenerational story following two characters. There's Marilyn, living in LA in the late 1990s and counting down the days until she can escape to college; she feels trapped in the world her mother has built for her, a world of acting and modeling jobs that barely earn enough to feed two people. But then she runs into
Mar 03, 2018 rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
This was emotional and heavy and so, so good.

IN SEARCH OF US follows Marilyn and Angie, mother and daughter, at seventeen years of age. And let me just say, right off the bat, that multigenerational stories are my absolute favorite. Marilyn’s story is set in the ninetees and Angie’s in modern time, and one of the many things I noticed and loved is that the time periods are described with their own unique characteristics (ie, pink panther ice cream).

This is what I want from stories such as thes
alice (arctic books)
I really enjoyed this one! IN SEARCH OF US was my first Dellaira book so I was a bit unsure of what to expect buuuuut I was pretty pleased with this novel in spite of the few reservations I had.

Things I liked:
- the writing was super poetic and lovely and easy to follow. It was somewhat enchanting so I couldn't stop reading.
- I enjoyed the parallel timelines between Angie and Marilyn. It was pretty easy to follow, and I really enjoyed reading about each girl's struggles.

A few reservations:
- Al
Star Rating: 3.5 Stars

Well that was better than I expected.

The story is beautifully written. However, it starts out rather slow, but the middle really delivers. And I wasn't totally satisfied with the ending. I thought it wrapped up a little to nicely.
Marta :}
Aug 06, 2018 rated it it was amazing
You can find my review on my blog as well here

“The funny thing about beauty, James writes, is that in no way does its presence negate the truth of suffering, of injustice, of pain, but it does stand stalwart in its own right, as its own truth.”

Ava Dellaira did it again for me and I might have to call her one of my favorites authors now because I thought there was no way she could make me this sad after I’ve read Love Letters to the Dead. I knew what to expect. I was coming in prepared, but som
3.5 stars.

“Seventeen years is too short to see on the cosmic timetable of our universe, of our planet, or even of our species. She doesn’t know how many years she’ll get, but right now, she’s here, among the living. Conscious and breathing. She’s alive on this day, in this world full of violence and unthinkable horror, cruelty and kindness, wonder and so much love.”

In Search Of Us follows Marilyn and Angie, a mother daughter pair and their multigenerational love stories. To seventeen-year-old An
may ☆彡
I cried my heart out.

Okay, so I know people say things like that all the time, (and granted, I do too), but I’m pretty sure my heart actually broke while reading this. My friends can vouch for me- I texted that I was crying and they facetimed me and the first thing they saw was my distraught expression with tears streaming down my face.

So that happened.

Really, though, this was one of the most beautiful books I have ever read. The mother-daughter bonds made me think of Gilmore Girls, except a l
Apr 23, 2018 rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
Y’all this book had SO MUCH potential. So much and for me it flopped because of Angie. There are some issues that will always be important to address and I feel like Angie’s character dulled my senses so much the first 80% that was just read to know what happened. Now Marilyn and James, this whole book could’ve been their story with way less inner dialogue from Angie. Half of the time I found myself skimming her parts because it was very bland. I really liked the book mainly for Marilyn and Jame ...more
Samantha Lewis
Feb 24, 2018 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
i would recommend this book 100% i loved every minute from start to finish. There was so much going on , I loved the way the story was two different perspectives the mother when she was 17 and then her daughter when she was 17. It was beautifully written. I loved all the characters within the story each one had there own personality. I felt when reading the story that i was there and that the author painted a picture when telling the story it was so visual when i was reading the book i could see ...more
Mar 31, 2019 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
There's no way I could describe how beautifully written this tragic love story is so I'm not even going to try. My recommendation is it's a MUST READ! I'm so glad I did.
Marie the Librarian
Apr 19, 2019 rated it really liked it
Shelves: feels
This hit me right in the feels at the end. I was a crying mess. But it was so beautiful and heartbreaking and I loved it. I love the way Ava writes and I loved the characters.
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