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If I Tell You

3.84  ·  Rating details ·  237 ratings  ·  98 reviews
Life and love don’t wait until you’re ready, but what if finding yourself means losing everything you’ve ever known?

Seventeen-year-old Alex Summers lives with a secret and the constant fear someone will find out. But when a new family moves to town, they bring with them their teenage daughter Phoenix Stone. When Alex falls for Phoenix, there is no warning. In a small town
Paperback, 325 pages
Published March 1st 2018 by Pantera Press
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Sara ➽ Ink Is My Sword
3 “All of my fears” Stars

“The stupid in-between stage where all our feelings are giant and adult and serious, but part of us still clings to the past, licking chocolate icing from our fingers and tossing stones, because deep down we know that once we let go of the edge-once we jump- there’s no going back. And the problem with jumping is that it can’t be undone; you can’t go back once you’ve learned to fly. It’s part of you, and you have to live with it whether you like it or not, because you
✨    jamieson   ✨
“And I feel the anger deep inside of me as I begin to understand the notion – the idea of being proud of who you are in a world that tells you to be ashamed; brave enough to be seen when people wish you were invisible.”

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so this cover catfished me into thinking this would be a fluffy f/f contemporary romance and to be honest, it was NOT. If I Tell You follows Alex, a girl living in rural Australia who knows she's a lesbian but doesn't want to come out in her homophobi
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Rep: f/f romance, lesbian mc, Vietnamese side character 

Trigger warnings: homophobia, lesbophobia, lesbophobic slurs, homophobic slurs, homophobic and abusive mother

Content warnings: mild sexual content 

Arc provided by the publisher in exchange for an honest review 

If I Tell You is set in rural Australia, following Alex Summers, a closeted lesbian. She has known that she is a lesbian for a few years but has kept it secret, fearing backlash from her t
rachel ☾
Feb 23, 2018 rated it it was ok
1.5 stars

• use of a gross trope I really don’t like
• bland af protagonist and sc characters
• so. much. miscommunication. and. lying.
• rushed romance w literally no chemistry
• weirdly overlooked subplots (van’s mi, for one)
May 31, 2019 marked it as did-not-finish
This was supposed to be my first book for Pride Month 2019 (where I only read books that either feature primarily LGBTQ+ characters or are written by LGBTQ+ authors) but sadly I have to DNF. I'm so disappointed with something that the main character, Alex, says in this book, which makes me even sadder because I was actually looking forward to this and I wanted to support an OwnVoices lesbian novel. I thought it was going to be like an Australian Miseducation of Cameron Post, where the lesbian ma ...more
Det. Nidhi
Jun 04, 2018 rated it it was amazing
Spoiler free review: This is a bloody good book. Compelling and thought provoking. Certainly a must read in the YA fiction section, scratch that it's a must read for everyone, straight or not.

Warning: Spoilers ahead.

I look at the girls in the picture and my heart longs to look across and see her sitting in the passenger seat, living the life she inspired in us all. Instead I hear her voice in my ear, telling me I should jump, that she'll be there to catch me.

Never before has a book affected
Review to come! In the mean time,


A huge Thank-You to Pantera Press via Netgalley, for allowing me to read If I Tell You by Alicia Tuckerman, in exchange for an honest review.

Trigger Warning:
Homophobia, Abuse, Death

What I expected from If I Tell You, was a light, but still kind of heavy WLW story. If I Tell You…is, in fact a really heavy book. There’s a lot that the main character; Alex, goes through. First,
Jun 11, 2018 rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
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First things first: I received this book through NetGalley.
actual raiting: 2.5 stars

Summary: What if the secret is more damaging than the lie?
I never planned on falling in love in Two Creeks, but since when has life ever followed a plan?
The day I fell for Phoenix Stone, there was no warning. She shattered the world I knew.

This is a story about being seventeen and growing up in rural Australia. Falling in love for the first time, following your dreams and disappointing your parents. Being brave e
Feb 06, 2018 rated it it was amazing

I cannot even begin to put into words how I'm feeling after finishing this book. Right from the first page it is very obvious that this story is going to be personal. As a reader you are drawn head-first into Alex's life, and together you navigate the scary, harsh world she lives in, falling in love with her, and with other characters, along the way.

Alex is a protagonist we can all relate to, even if we don't share the same fears. I may not he going through what she is,
Kerran Olson
Mar 09, 2018 rated it really liked it
Shelves: 2018, dymocks-ya-club
I really enjoyed If I Tell You, I found the rural setting very authentic, and for the most part I liked Alex as a protagonist as she grew a lot throughout the story. I also really liked Lin, and Alex's dad. I found Phoenix a little bit like a typical strong quirky cool girl who swoops in and changes everything, but even though she was a bit predictable, I did like her and I liked the way her and Alex's relationship progressed. I did really like Van as well and think there was a good mix of perso ...more
Sim ✨(wholesimreads)
✔️ a book that is published in 2018

🌟🌟🌟🌟 4 stars

This novel was top and tailed really nicely but I found the middle to be lacklustre; some parts were a tad melodramatic and unrealistic. However, it was beautifully written and constructed, reminded me of Puberty Blues and I realised how much I enjoy reading Oz YA and books set in Aus. If you’re looking for a heart-warming (and wrenching) wlw LGBT YA novel, I recommend this one!
Brina (Brina and the Books)
3.5 Stars

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The cover was the first the first thing that drew me to the novel. I couldn't just not find out more about the book with the simple yet pretty cover - and I'm glad I did. I wanted to read more LGBT+ novels for quite some time now and Alicia Tuckerman's debut novel came at the perfect time.

I think that If I Tell You is a really important book for not only the LGBT+ community but for everyone out there. Although Alex's story is a piece
Jun 21, 2018 rated it did not like it
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If I Tell You may cause swollen eyes and blocked nose. Avoid reading in public. If affected do not drive a vehicle or operate machinery. Keep a box of tissues handy while reading.

Ash | Wild Heart Reads
I was very excited when I first heard about this book, I mean a queer #LoveOzYA book by an own voices author? Sign me up. And it did not disappoint. If I Tell You by Alicia Tuckerman is a heartwrenching and beautiful debut about bravery, love and life.

If I Tell You follows Alex, a seventeen year old living in a small town. Closeted in fear of the homophobia of small-town mentalities, still all to present, she hides who she is, even from her family. But everything changes when Phoenix and her fam
Alex is a pretty, popular girl in a small country town. She knows she is a lesbian and her plan is to finish High School and get out of town where she can come out, away from the conservative culture she lives in. And then enters Phoenix a new girl in town who wears the tag of lesbian with pride.
I think the author has produced a mighty fine book covering the fear of being different, of being ostracised, of facing parents and friends reactions and taking pride in who you are.
The book also does a
Feb 12, 2018 rated it it was amazing
This was one of my favourite books so far this year - it is set in rural Australia, the writing is accessible and authentic, and it gave me ALL of the feelings. I feel like this is a really important book to have our there for teens - while no one story is going to be everyone's story, the more stories lthat we have out there, the more likely people will see themselves represented. Trigger warning for some really awful homophobia.
Thanks to Pantera press for sending me a review copy!
Feb 26, 2018 rated it it was ok
WARNINGS FOR THIS BOOK: slurs, homophobia, character death.

Spoilers below.

This book was so promising. Key word, was.

Seriously? The bury your gays trope? From a queer author???

The first chapter didn’t sit well with me. To me it basically said, “I am gay and this is how I know. This is why I haven’t told anyone, and this is the girl I’m going to fall in love with.” There are many better ways to say these things and they usually mean showing, not telling, and taking the time to do it right and l
Follows conventions of YA, but does it well. Lots of emotional punch. Authentically real (and sometimes horrifying) capture of small town Australian rural life. Alex is brave. Phoenix is the counter-weight, (and they kind of save each other). Lin, Van and Justin are excellent support.
Samantha Maree
Mar 01, 2018 rated it really liked it
I really enjoyed this book. I loved the characters in this book. I also thought that they were relateable and enjoyable to read about. The book raised a lot of important topics. I didn't expect the story to end the way that it did. However, I did sort of predict the ending. Although, something I didn't like about it was that it the author used a lot of Australian slang. As an Australian myself, I understood it but I felt that if a non-Australian were to read this book they wouldn't understand it ...more
May 16, 2018 rated it really liked it
When I started reading this book, the first thing that popped into my mind was that this could be to other young teens what 'Annie on my Mind' was for me.

This an extremely compelling read, which I finished in one sitting. I love that Alex and Phoenix's feelings are not written off as a teenage romance but they are also not given the maturity of adults. The reader is taken on a rollercoaster of emotions with them and I can honestly say that I sat for a good 30 minutes and sobbed like an overgrown
Feb 09, 2018 rated it it was amazing
This hauntingly beautiful tale was extremely well written. I was hooked on the first page to the main character, Alex, and her daydreams, and followed her through to the end, where she might not have gotten exactly what she wanted, but most certainly got what she needed. With lines like "…but pain is the privilege of the living." the author pulled intense meaning from the sad realities of life, and in a small way helped me cope with my own life experiences. I strongly recommend this book to anyo ...more
I found this hard to put down, it was an emotional and beautiful story about claiming who we are and not being afraid to jump. Alex lives in a small town with a lot of small minded people, especially her mother. I find it hard to fathom the hate and dislike that people feel for people who are gay or different. I felt that this was a realistic portrayal of some peoples behaviour towards gay people, I wish it wasn't so and hope with all my heart that people learn to accept and not judge. It was a ...more
I just mean being comfortable and happy is more important than making some big announcement. If you’re happy being you, proud to be you, people will start to notice and they’ll figure it out for themselves. - Mr Gilroy
If you have to keep something a secret, if you’re too afraid to tell someone about it, then you’re probably doing something wrong. - Andrew Summers

Every book I read owns a piece of me. Books are how I learn, how I feel and how I escape. But not many books can make me cry. Those a

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Feb 27, 2018 rated it really liked it
Alexandra Summers is stuck.

She is stuck in Two Creeks, a too small Australian town where everyone knows everyone and everyone knows everything. Gossip is the town's currency and Alex does not want to add fuel to the fire by becoming the first openly gay high schooler in the entire town. As a result, she is stuck inside her comfortable little closet until it was blasted open by Pheonix Stone. Alex was immediately enraptured by Pheonix, who had quickly and involuntarily taken on the mantle of bein
Rebecca Langham
3.25 stars. I really wanted to give it more throughout the middle chapters, but the opening and the ending influenced my overall thoughts. That said, 3 stars is still pretty good!

This is a pretty solid YA fiction set in a rural Australian town, something I applaud both the author and publisher for exploring. The depth of the homophobia in Twin Creeks was difficult to read about, and certainly a lot worse than I experienced living in Armidale as a student. The overall messages are about hope and
Allyce Cameron
Apr 03, 2018 rated it really liked it
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Aug 28, 2020 rated it it was ok
This book was difficult to put down. In terms of writing, I can't really fault it - it had beautiful description, well-written metaphors, a love story that made me smile. There were some elements of this book that had me a bit on edge, like the rampant and unforgiving homophobia, but I was able to tolerate that.
Right up until that plot twist towards the end.
Now, I have to give it to Alicia Tuckerman - I did not see the twist coming. I assumed something was coming, but I did not think that would
CJ Connor
Mar 20, 2018 rated it liked it
Title: If I Tell You

Author: Alicia Tuckerman

Release Date: March 1, 2018 (Disclaimer: I received an e-ARC of this book in exchange for a fair review)

Rating: 3.5/5

Two-sentence summary: Closeted teenager Alex Summers doesn't expect to find love in her rural Australian town but can't help falling for Phoenix. As they navigate their budding romance in their close-minded community, they make choices that will irreversibly change them.

What I loved: As the recent release of Love, Simon suggests, it seem
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