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This Is What It Feels Like

4.05  ·  Rating details ·  637 ratings  ·  177 reviews
It doesn’t matter what the prize for the Sun City Originals contest is this year.

Who cares that’s it’s fifteen grand? Who cares about a gig opening for one of the greatest bands to ever play this town?

Not Dia, that’s for sure. Because Dia knows that without a band, she hasn’t got a shot at winning Sun City. Because ever since Hanna’s drinking took over her life, Dia and Ju
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Published November 6th 2018 by HarperTeen
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Cece (ProblemsOfaBookNerd)

This book manages to tackle tough subject after touch subject but it does it with ease and still manages to be infused with so much joy. I fucking loved reading this.
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I won this book in a Goodreads Giveaway. Special thanks to Harper Collins Publishing & Rececca Barrow.

"This is what it feels like to be alive"

Rebecca Barrow is Black Girl Magic and her book This Is What It Feels Like a fantastic read. I almost didn't even enter the giveaway for this book because it didn't sound like something that would interest me. A book about 3 teenage girls in a Rock Group entering a Rock Contest. I don't listen to Rock music and don't care about it at all.

Nov 09, 2018 rated it it was amazing
4.5 stars

This Is What It Feels Like is a story about recovery.
I have read many stories about mentally ill main characters and characters going through trauma, but I know very few stories that talk about what happens afterward. What happens when you're not an addict anymore, what happens when you finally get out of a toxic situation.
Not only this is a story about recovery, it's a story about recovery in which the romance, while present, is not the reason the main characters get better.

This Is Wh
Faith Simon
Apr 21, 2019 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
This is literally the perfect summer read and I read it a month before summer but that's fine. Whenever I wasn't reading this, all I wanted to do was pick it back up and read where I'd left off. This is a beautiful story about friendship, grief, love, healthy/toxic relationships, and so much more. This book covers a variety of topics, but it never feels like it's juggling all these things into one storyline, it all feels seamless. All these different plot points connect and compliment each other ...more
Lea (drumsofautumn)
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hardcover copy of this is what it feels like on a grey blanket with fairy lights

“She played for the girls they used to be and the ones they were now, and all their fallen-apart pieces that had gotten lost or ruined or discarded along the way.”

This Is What It Feels Like is a really wonderful YA Contemporary, that has so many topics and issues packed into it.

At the centre of the story are three girls, Hanna, Jules and Dia. The three were in a band together for a long time but then two years before this story starts, a lot of things happened in
Jun 08, 2019 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: 2019, lgbtq
This was a beautiful contemporary read that was so soft with normalised sapphic love and I adored this.

This story didn’t break any new ground but it was wholesome, honest and so well written; tackling many topics without trivialising any and the character development was truly 10/10 and didn’t feel like a ‘young’ young adult novel which made me love it more.
Fadwa (Word Wonders)
Yet another book i read this month that owns my ass. And it's sapphic too. So like, i'm living my best life.

i knew this would be a 5 star book from p17 when a character used the word lesbian to describe herself

Rep: Black mc, Black li, Black lesbian mc, wlw li, bi(?) mc with alcohol addiction, wlw side character

CWs: past death in a car accident, past alcohol abuse
3.5 stars

Wow. This book was not at all what I was expecting. I picked up this book expecting fluff, and friendship, and music, and maybe a cute romance. While I certainly got friendship and music and a cute romance or two, there was also so much more to this book. And while there were a few fluffy scenes... this book was definitely not entirely (or even mostly) fluff.

So many layers. So much pain and heartbreak, but also so much hope. Relationships that were ultimately good, but also really messy
Danielle (Life of a Literary Nerd)
I had absolutely no interest in this and could not focus, which is a shame because it has the potential to be at least a 4 star read for me, but my enjoyment was maybe a 2. This is probably one of the elusive DNF books that I’ll consider picking up again sometime in the future because I desperately want to like this but I don’t know if the timing was off or I’m just in a rut of perpetual 2 star and under books. This is a case of it’s not the book, it’s me. So put no weight on this review, it’s j ...more
Danika at The Lesbrary
Feb 23, 2019 rated it really liked it
Who doesn’t love a “getting the band back together” book, especially when it’s literal? . . . The three of them have a lot to work through, but I was relieved to see that they do talk about their problems. They air their grievances in a reasonable time frame–this isn’t one of those “Why don’t they just talk??” books where the only conflict is miscommunication. The problem is that they have a lot to work through, and it takes time, and more than just one conversation. They have to keep bumping up ...more
✯ livia ✯
My Rating: 5 stars!

This Is What It Feels Like is a story about love, loss, and most importantly, best friends. When Dia finds out about the Sun City music contest, the last thing that you'd expect is for her and her best friend, Jules, and ex-best friend, Hanna, to form their band again. But the prize is $15,000 AND opening for the famous band Glory Alabama, who just happen to be their idols. But the three girls can't forget their past like they "forgot" each other - will they put everything
Oct 25, 2018 rated it really liked it
Shelves: 2018-releases, arcs
This was such a fantastic read. I loved the focus on friendship, loved the characters and their growth thorough the book, the romantic relationships were adorable, too. Definitely recommend it!!

Read my full review of This is what it feels like on the blog.

A million thanks to my incredible bookish fairy Laura for sending me her ARC of this book <3

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Honestly... I just saw this cover and ran to Goodreads as fast as I could to add it to my TBR because, well, LOOK AT IT. <3
Laura (bbliophile)
Sep 30, 2018 rated it it was amazing
I loved this so so so so so much
Marianne (Boricuan Bookworms)
Loooooooooved this. There aren't nearly enough books about second chance friendships and this was amazing. ...more
Sep 03, 2020 rated it really liked it
ciara if you read this i’m free on thursday night and would like to hang out. please respond to this and then hang out with me on thursday night when i’m free
Jun 20, 2018 rated it really liked it
My full review can be found on the Epilie Aspie Chick blog!

Thank you to HarperCollins Publishing for providing the ARC in exchange for an honest review.

Musical fame can be a real double edged sword - just look at the news. As soon as you gain popularity, it gets far too easy to become trapped into the pitfalls of alcoholism, drug addiction, and a far too inflated ago. Its this type of problem that causes our three leads Hanna, Dia, and Jules to go their separate ways.

This one starts out rea
To everyone sitting in their bedrooms in the 2am stillness,
listening to that song that makes your heart ache.

That is a good dedication.

I liked this. In that way where you know you're reading a good story, but it'll never be a story/book that you completely love. It was fine, but it's not necessarily something I would recommend in a "you MUST read this now!" kind of way.

I did love how the focus of the story was not on all of the bullshit the three girls had gone through in the past, but rather on
Chidimma Desiree
Do you know that feeling you get when you read a book and you realize it blew all your expectations out the water? Yeah that’s what I got after reading this book. This book filled me up with so much joy and nostalgia. It felt like I was watching a disney channel original movie from my childhood and I mean that in all the best ways. If you love Lemonade Mouth you’ll love this book. The getting the band back together story we got here was phenomenal. This book is painfully underrated. I really did ...more
It's books like this that cure my anxiety. I keep asking myself why I didn't pick it up sooner, because it's been on my shelves for around a year, I think. But I also think there's something valuable in picking up a book at the right time for you. I'm a massive mood reader, so I just click with books more when I read them at the right time, and it makes them more meaningful to me.

I'm very much a sucker for slice-of-life contemporaries that focus on friendship and I loved the different perspectiv
Mary Kate
Apr 13, 2018 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: contemporary, ya
This is such a fun read! Each of the main characters is incredibly well-drawn--the author was able to capture the unique personalities and struggles of each girl so well. I liked the romances in this book, but the best thing was how the friendships are the most important relationships here -- the romances are really more side plots. Not enough YA does this. I also love how Rebecca is able to take complex, heavy stuff -- death, addiction, heartbreak -- have the characters go through it, and ultim ...more
Samantha (WLABB)
Rating: 4.5 Stars

Three life changing events caused their friendship to crumble, but when the opportunity of a lifetime presents itself, will Dia, Jules, and Hanna be able to overcome their past in order to forge their future?

• Pro: The characters in this book were dealing with a lot of life issues. Some were small and some were LARGE, but watching them navigate these rough patches, and seeing them learn and grow was so gratifying for me.

• Pro: What stood out to me was the friendship between Dia
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Jan 08, 2019 rated it it was amazing
messy, realistic, beautiful girls. girl power friendships. music.
already one of my favorite reads of 2019.
Cabiria Aquarius
This book took my breath away. It was so soul shattering and well written. The character arcs were well done and noticeable. The characters chosen and their personalities all made sense to the story and I absolutely adored the story. I kinda wish I could hear them play in real life that would be neat to hear what I’m reading. Really enjoyable and an eye opener too. Well done and loved it!
Apr 14, 2019 rated it it was ok
To everyone sitting in their bedrooms in the 2am stillness,
listening to that song that makes your heart ache.

So I didn’t have any expectations going into this, and its one of those moments where I liked going in blind because it pleasantly surprised me and I mean that in regards to the emotional aspect of this story.

All you need to know is that this follows a set of 3 best friends who were once in a band and they reconnect through music. This is what it feel's like is about how each girl finds
Dec 11, 2017 rated it it was amazing
It's not overstating things to say that I'm obsessed with this book. Rebecca Barrow's sophomore offering has more of what we all loved about You Don't Know Me but I Know You (intense female friendships! familial Realness! queer girls of color!), dialed up with creative heartbreak, resilient dreams, and rainbow-haired swooniness. If you love girl bands, this book is for you. If you can't resist resourceful, even-keeled Mom Friends finally getting the big dramatic kiss with a dreamboat, this book ...more
Jan 19, 2019 rated it it was amazing
I LOVED THIS BOOK. I went into it not knowing anything about it beforehand and I ended up enjoying it much more than I thought I would so that was nice and refreshing. I cried and laughed throughout this book. This book was well-written and I loved the characters so much. Dia, Jules and Hanna are all such strong female characters that all kinds of people can look up to and I love, LOVE their friendship. I also really liked some of the supporting characters like Autumn, Elliot, Jesse and Molly. I ...more
Lulu (the library leopard)
Ahhhhhhh I loved this SO MUCH!

This book has a lot of good things in it, like complicated female friendship, recovery-focused characters arcs, and a dog named Waffles. You can read my full review on my blog here!
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Rebecca Barrow writes stories about girls and all the wonders they can be. A lipstick obsessive with the ability to quote the entirety of Mean Girls, she lives in England, where it rains a considerable amount more than in the fictional worlds of her characters. She collects tattoos, cats, and more books than she could ever possibly read. You can find her on Twitter @RebeccaKBarrow.


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