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The Girl I Used to Be

3.76  ·  Rating details ·  1,629 ratings  ·  308 reviews
The morning after real estate agent Gemma Brogan has dinner with a prospective client, she's furious at herself for drinking so much. But there will be more to regret than a nasty hangover.

She starts receiving mementos from that night: A photo of a hallway kiss. A video of her complaining about her husband. And worse...much worse. The problem is she doesn't remember any of
Paperback, 368 pages
Published April 24th 2018 by Berkley Books
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Susanne  Strong
May 20, 2018 rated it really liked it
4 Stars.

Gemma’s happy little world is about to explode. Little does she know. Someone desperately wants to destroy her. Everything Gemma has built and worked so hard for, is about to shatter just like a pane of glass. She is like a pawn in her own chess game. Now, it’s Gemma’s move.

If your interest isn’t piqued, it should be.

Mary Torjussen has written a compelling and truly interesting read in which I was fully invested. The characters are full of intrigue and complexity and they pulled me in
Aug 08, 2018 rated it really liked it
4 Thrilling Stars 🌟🌟🌟🌟

This was a quick compelling read... The true brilliance of this book is the fact that gemma the main character could be any of us.... she could be you... she could be me... so throughout this entire book all I could think is..... what would I do in this situation? And there are definitely no easy answers... and truth be told even after finishing this book I still have no idea what I would do!

Gemma has a pretty good life... a loving husband, a beautiful son, a successful bus
Apr 14, 2018 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: netgalley
When Gemma Brogan gave birth to her son she and her husband agreed that he would be the one to stay at home and care for their child while she got her real estate business up and running. Now four years later Gemma is beginning to resent being the only bread winner in the marriage and the long hours she puts in at the office although she still loves her family.

When a business trip calls Gemma away she gets a bit upset again when her husband had already put their son to bed and she missed talking
Mackenzie - PhDiva Books
A wonderful, psychological thriller that will make you wonder what you would do if this happened to you!!!

I am a big fan of Mary Torjussen’s last book Gone Without a Trace. As a psychologist, I always find books that deal with the character’s mindset effectively to be so compelling, and this is an area Mary really excels in as an author. This book was one I read in two days (which, for someone who works full-time and has a dissertation to write is quite an endorsement). The steady building of su
Diana • Book of Secrets
Apr 19, 2018 rated it really liked it
THE GIRL I USED TO BE is a fast paced psychological thriller that sucked me in right away. Most of the book is told from main character Gemma Brogan's point of view. She's a successful real estate agent with her own firm, and supporting her stay-at-home hubby, Joe, and their young son, Rory.

Though Gemma loves her career, she feels stressed and stretched thin, and misses Rory during her long hours of work. Then a business trip to London goes terribly wrong, and now she's in danger of losing every
Aug 17, 2018 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Having thoroughly enjoyed Mary Torjussen's debut novel 'Gone Without A Trace' released in November 2016, I was eager to read this follow-up psychological thriller. Needless to say, it didn't disappoint.

The book opens with our main protagonist, Gemma, and her friend attending an end -of-year school party having passed their exams with flying colours. Gemma drinks a substantial amount of alcohol and ends up falling asleep in one of the empty bedrooms. The narrative then jumps forward by fifteen ye
Sep 15, 2018 rated it really liked it
Shelves: netgalley

Gemma runs her own Estate Agency which involves working unsociable hours. Her husband Joe stays home and looks after their son Rory, which has become a bone of contention between them as Gemma would like to spend more time with her son!!

Gemma is away for the night on a business trip for the night and has dinner with prospective client David Sanderson. The next morning she wakes up hungover, not remembering much about the night before.

The problems begin when she starts getting messages and it see
May 06, 2018 rated it really liked it
Shelves: netgalley
In a culture where we snap pictures and videos of even the smallest and mundane parts of our lives, Mary Torjussen took that idea, that societal truth and gave it a creepy, sinister twist. Imagine yourself at a bad, maybe even indelicate moment, you want nothing more than to just forget it ever happened, and just when you start to relax someone taunts you with photographic evidence of your misdeeds. It makes me uneasy just to think about something like this happening to me and that’s basically t ...more
Chandra Claypool (wherethereadergrows)
After reading Gone Without A Trace last year, when I saw Mary Torjussen's new book on NetGalley I had to hit the request button. I couldn't remember, at the time, what my rating for that book was, but I do remember liking her writing style and was excited when I received the email telling me I was approved for this title.

What Torjussen does well is hooking you right from the start. Immediately you're brought right into the story until you get to Part 2, where the twist comes into play. While it'
Lily (Night Owl Book Cafe)
May 04, 2018 rated it really liked it
I received this book for free from Publisher in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.An exciting, fast-paced, page turning thriller that had me gripped until the very last page.

The book mostly follows Gemma Brogan, a hard working real estate agent that is also a mom to a little boy that she hardly get's to see. Gemma has worked hard for her business and it frustrates her that her husband is refusing to look for work and is instead
Apr 12, 2018 rated it really liked it
Shelves: first-to-read
The Girl I Used to Be was a solid 4. I felt very tense while I read this book wondering what would happen next. The main character, Gemma Brogan, was a likable character; although I haven’t been in her situations I could empathize with her fully and wanted the messages and packages to STOP!

Gemma Brogan owns her own real estate company while her husband stays home to care for their three year old son, Rory. This worked out perfectly in the beginning but now poor Gemma is working 7 days a week and
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ / 5

SO MUCH YES! Full disclosure, I was not a fan of Mary Torjussen's other novel, Gone Without a Trace, but The Girl I Used to Be is amazing!

What it's about: Gemma Brogan owns her own real estate company in the UK. After taking a client out to dinner and drinking too much, she is startled to learn that there are a lot of things she can't remember from that night. When she starts being blackmailed with photos and a video of herself, she fears for her marriage... and must revisit a stron
May 20, 2018 rated it it was ok  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: crime, suspense, mystery
Oh, the horror!

I’m going to be in the minority on this one – 1.5 stars rounded up.

I’m not even sure where to start. The plot, the characters, their behaviour, and the dialogue were cringe-worthy. I would class it as contemporary fiction, with a bland mystery on the side. Slow paced, stretches of chapters where nothing happened, with twists you can see coming from space. The motivation for the protagonist’s harassment was weak in my opinion, and the harassment itself was pathetic – it neither esc
May 07, 2018 rated it it was amazing
A very suspenseful, good read! Gemma is a busy woman. She is the owner of a real estate business in Chester, England. Her husband is a stay-at-home Dad to their 3 year old son.

While on a business trip to London, she encounters David, a man she had recently shown properties to and they have drinks and dinner together. Gemma drinks far too much and has little memory of what happened on that evening.

When she returns home, she begins receiving mail, phone calls, texts with pictures of herself parti
Jill McGill
Apr 05, 2018 rated it really liked it
THE GIRL I USED TO BE by MARY TORJUSSEN is a great psychological thriller that didn't disappoint! It started out slow, but once it picked up I couldn't put it down! Suspenseful with a few twists and turns. A very unique story that I definitely recommend! 

Many thanks to First to Read for the ARC!
Joanne Robertson
May 08, 2018 rated it really liked it
I ADORED the last book I read by Mary Torjussen so I was really looking forward to picking up her new one and, as expected, I became completely gripped as soon as I started it. Mary Torjussen has a wonderfully engrossing writing style and once again I found myself unable to put this book down, reading it in one tension filled afternoon. She’s fast becoming a favourite author of mine, her books tick a lot of my boxes so to speak, and I know I’m in for a rompingly good read when I pick up her nove ...more
Malina Skrobosinski
May 09, 2018 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: netgalley
"You made me what I am."

That's the thing with deception, the victim relents all the power.

This is my first Mary Torjussen novel, and I have to say, I have no regrets. I will definitely have to check out her other work, and I'm sorry that I haven't done it sooner. I kept seeing awesome reviews for this one popping up from my friends on Goodreads, so I was very intrigued and had entered the giveaway on Goodreads and put in a request on NetGalley only I didn't seem to be getting anywhere. I wa
Apr 24, 2018 rated it really liked it
Shelves: partner-read
Thanks to Berkley Pub for the advanced copy in exchange for my honest review!

Last year I read Torjussen's novel, GONE WITHOUT A TRACE, and I was really excited to see that she had another one coming out this year! Naturally, I had to request it on Netgalley. This one is more on the lighter side of the thriller genre, but still had a great pacing to it.

Gemma Brogan is a real estate agent and wakes up one morning with an awful hangover. Why did she drink so much the night before with a prospective
Lynda Kelly
May 05, 2018 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: favourites
I loved her first story and didn't think she'd top that but I enjoyed this one even more. It was well worth the wait....I was very impatient for its release as I preordered it last April for a November release and then it got put back 6 months !! I was gutted !
I did get pretty irritated by Gemma, our victim, at times. A lot of her issues were down to her own actions. She had everything, really. She was one of these women who wanted a baby and then wanted her career as well, so hubby was a stay-a
Fifteen years ago, Gemma went to a party with her classmates to celebrate exam results. The next day, she was not the girl she used to be.

Flash forward to present day in this work of psychological fiction. Gemma is married to Joe and they have a son named Rory. She owns her own business, an estate agency, and Joe is a stay-at-home carer for their child. Gemma works all the time trying to make a go of her business and has several employees. She doesn't think anything of David Sanderson when he co
I have never read a book by Mary Torjussen but I am a fan now! I always know a psychological thriller is good when I can’t forget the characters and I don’t want to put the book down. Sometimes I dream about the characters. In The Girl I Used To Be, Gemma Brogman and her husband Joe have a little boy Rory. Joe is a stay-at-home-Dad while Gemma works long hours, seven days a week as a real estate agent. One day Gemma shows a nice looking man (David) a few apartments. Then she heads to London a fe ...more
Jun 04, 2018 rated it really liked it
Que up a married woman who's overcome a secret past. Now a successful businesswoman, she's "taken advantage of" by a shady character who's now sending mysterious messages and demeaning photos. She can't go to the police, nor trust any of her friends to stay mum, because her husband might find out. And if he does, it's for sure he'll immediately stop loving her and take away the young son she loves so much. Instead, she decides to handle everything all by herself - meaning that she must up the an ...more
Sherri Thacker
This is a psychological thriller that is hard to put to down. Gemma is the breadwinner of her family while her husband is a stay at home dad. Suddenly she is being harassed by private messages and letters so she’s gotta figure out who’s sending her those messages. There’s many twists and turns throughout and a few i saw coming, a few i did not. This is my 2nd book I’ve read by Mary Torjussen and i gave her book “Gone Without A Trace” 5 stars!!
Mar 28, 2018 rated it it was amazing

This book took only a short time for me to really get interested in it. And, when it took off, WOW!, it took me on a whirlwind of a story.

There were so many plot twists, the author should be looking to some whiplash lawsuits. HA! JK
Seriously, I am still shaking, thinking that dude could be out. He's evil incarnate.

I do have to say, this was the second book by this author that I have read. I went back and read my review on the first one and remembered the book. I do remember Hannah
Gemma Brogan, in her late twenties, is married and the mother of a three-year-old son, Rory. She owns and runs her own estate agency in Chester, England. Life is pretty good, though she laments not having more time to spend with her son. The real estate business is not as successful as it once was due to a downturn in the economy -  therefore she spends every spare minute at the office. She is the breadwinner of the family because Joe is a 'house husband' who stays at home to care for their youn ...more
Apr 23, 2018 rated it it was amazing
Gemma Brogan works non-stop to make her real estate company a success. Her husband is a stay-at-home dad, which is a help to Gemma’s career but she wants more time with their son. She begins to resent her husband not working and the amount of time he spends with their son. However, there’s not much she can do about that now. She’s the one bringing in the money.

Then, during a work conference she meets with a client and has a bit too much to drink. She complains about her husband and she shares a
Jennifer Parr
May 02, 2018 rated it it was ok
Shelves: arc, won
Not terrible but not great either. Dialogue felt unrealistic and there were a few things here and there that just weren’t right. Overall the story was predictable but okay
Concetta Kellough
Dec 26, 2017 rated it it was amazing
This is the story of a woman, Gemma, being harassed by someone after a relatively innocent dinner with a male client. She doesn't let her husband, Joe, know because she lied about what she was doing the night of the dinner. One lie leads to another until she's drowning in lies while still facing exposure by the man threatening her. The characters were believable, and I had a hard time putting the book down. There weren't any unexpected plot twists, it was pretty easy to see where the story was t ...more
Aug 11, 2018 rated it really liked it
This is a twisty psychological thriller that has two parts and is voiced mainly by our protagonist real estate agent Gemma Brogan. Gemma is married to Joe and they have a young son called Rory. When Rory was born Gemma and Joe agreed that Joe would be a stay at home dad while Gemma got her business up and running. But four years later,real estate sales are declining forcing Gemma to have to work more and more hours which means she hardly gets to see her son. Gemma loves her husband and would nev ...more
Donna Hines
Imagine a crime of passion, violent, obtrusive, degrading in every way cast upon you unwillingly becoming a distant memory only to find those memories hidden in the recesses of your mind.
Would you at a young ripe age of 18 be able to stand up and courageously ID the perpetrator based on just a few limited details having been under some time of hazy fog administered to you?
This is the story of Gemma (Taylor) Brogan who had to try as she might to move on for the sake of herself and her family.
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Mary Torjussen has an MA in Creative Writing from Liverpool John Moores University. She worked for several years as a teacher and lives outside of Liverpool, where Gone Without a Trace is set.

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