5 ⭐ 5 words:
wistful, romantic, whimsical, captivating and mythological.
Tomorrow is my last day in this world. I am not afraid.
summary
: as emi's time comes to an end, she is still determined to make a difference with shiro, yumei and the earthly gods & goddesses, and put an end to the looming deities that threaten to steal the power and destroy the human world. yet her ever-growing feelings for shiro make the inevitable even harder to face: their tragic fates.
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that summary i wrote does NOT do this book justice for how incredible it is. nothing will be able to do this series justice or describe how it made me feel, how deeply i connected with all these characters. this is the last novel, and my heart feels so full yet hollowed out. i don't know what i'll do without this series in my life anymore... it's time to write the review 💔
writing: throughout this trilogy, annette's writing has been nothing short of poetic, descriptive and enchanting. her prose mirrors exactly what i try to achieve when i write, which is why i often start my reviews with this aspect. i'm so immensely inspired by the way she strings beautiful yet deep words together, the way she gives a distinct voice to each one of her characters in a way that makes u actually feel. everything she has written has been incredible and i can't help being so fascinated by her books for this. genuinely, i was so fucking upset when i finished this because i realized, "what am i going to read when i need writing inspiration?"
i just cannot thank her enough for creating this beautiful world and writing it so well, because as we all know the bar for writing has recently been set SO low by popular books that just throw decent writing out of the window. annette blew 'decent writing' out of the WATER. it had that ouabh feel but in its own specific font. the dialogue felt realistic yet distinct to a fantasy setting, emi's internal monologue did not bore the hell out of me. she made me love EVERYTHING about this book ... i just can't. ❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹
plot: i absolutely love how the events of this one played out, the foreshadowing and the smart placing of certain scenes in the favor of others ... she's a genius 😫😫 by this point i was well-acquainted with all important names in the glossary (yes, it took me 3 books) so the plot was not difficult to follow. with every scene and plot point u felt fear or wonder or disappointment, just for annette to turn it around in the next pages and leave you staring at a wall. the maddening parts served a purpose. the beautiful parts would later destroy you. a specific scene towards the end genuinely felt like an "i'm sorry" from the author for what she was about to put her characters through 😭😭
the pacing was mostly perfect but there was that same problem from the last book, where action scenes were too prolonged, chaotic or descriptive to properly keep up. but again, for those who love action this likely won't be an issue. the whole trilogy also has occasional illustrations which are just divine !!!!! and very useful for imagining some scenes properly. it was all beautifully depicted and i always looked forward to the illustrations.
"I don't want to lose this. You are my fire, Emi. You are my warmth. Before you, the flames within me were cold as ice."
characters
emi ... i have no idea what to say 😓😓 literally top 3 best fmcs i've ever read idc . soft yet incredibly strong, so fucking smart and always takes advantage of the few powers she has as a human & the privileges that came with her role in the story. THAT is what made her great and incredibly powerful by the end. not everybody is willing to sacrifice themselves for the world, not everybody has the courage to face their darkest fears head-on rather than dance around reality.
in this story she was the human vessel of the heavenly goddess of the wind. the way she allowed the goddess, amaterasu, to guide her yet carved her own paths and chose the hard decisions was so admirable. literally this series was so crazy bc so much shit happened yet emi came out of everything mostly sane which was baffling ...
emi had her vulnerable moments and her strengths, CLAWED her way out of situations and through all of it she was just INCREDIBLE like the story and all the events shaped her and her way of thinking but she remained positive/kind mostly???? i just fucking love her so much in a world where fmcs love to be insufferable emi just stands out. she's so intelligent. so sad that she had to endure so much pain but it was worth it. in the first book she'd been so conflicted and angry but everything really changed her perspective, and thinking back it's such a satisfying shift. quotes will be added momentarily... i can't find the pages
shiro stole my heart, AGAIN !!!!!!! no one is surprised. shiro had an irresistible charm since the first book but in this one you could really sense when his mind was tapping into his past life. it gave him so much depth and added another layer of sentimentality. emi constantly worried about him 😫😫😫 kill me rn . the way he was so protective and supportive of emi, always looking for a way to reverse things that would be harmful for her even if there was no true way out. shiro also sacrificed things extensively, as his power grew so did his awareness. i need a boyfriend that will scale mountains for me, slay monsters and willingly endanger himself for me . i don't want to spoil but that ending destroyed me so bad, i was wondering what the fuck he was thinking before reality hit me.
yumei oh my god.................. MY prince of shadows. i cannot be within 10 ft of yumei without a fan because hes so fucking HOT . HE WAS NOT EVEN A LOVE INTEREST, the way annette marie wrote not one but TWO incredible mmcs is so shocking to me. yumei has no business being so hot and charismatic he basically kills ppl for a living. he was so closed off in the first book, and in the second book too. in this last one omg he visibly cared for emi and shiro even when though he visibly didn't want to.. one of my fav mmcs ever.
the way u could tell he cared for emi, a human girl that used to be a mere inconvenience to him, towards the end when she was genuinely going insane because of everything that had happened... i can't even tell you how much that made me sob like i lost it. i can't believe annette marie would do this to me. the way yumei allowed shiro to take care of him even while it disgusted him. she wrote yumei as another mc but was able to make him NOT a love interest and evidently appalled by the idea of love or anything touchy-feely UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH STOP . I LITERALLY NEED HER TALENT INJECTED IN MY VEINS.
Yumei resumed walking, keeping hold of her hand in a small, uncharacteristic offering of comfort. Perhaps he could sense the edge of panic clinging to her, the bone-deep terror that she would lose this, lose everything of this world that she was already terrified would someday slip from her grasp.
Emotion stormed through her, and unexpected tears pooled in her eyes. [...] She couldn't even look at Shiro, afraid she would lose all control. Instead, she threw her arms around Yumei.
mind you i'd willingly sell my sister to get my hands on yumei's novella 'prince of shadows'.
the ending. when ariana grande wrote no tears left to cry she was talking about ME. i don't know if i should spoil whether it was happy or sad, but even if i did want to i don't think i'd have an exact answer for that. i feel one way but i also feel another. my heart has been torn apart and then put back together. no matter how much i feel fulfilled i still just want more of these characters, i'll never get enough of this world. i still feel for what emi went through especially during the ending, i'm still curious about yumei and everything about the other side characters. this story was written in such a way that properly closes the events but leaves the reader hanging and wondering all the same. this book definitely made me feel more than the rest in the series, and it's an ending i'll never be able to forget. ❤️❤️❤️
on a side note i need everyone to add this series to their tbr, it is so beautifully consuming and romantic and chaotic as fuck. i wish annette would sign me for the marketing team already i'd be screaming about this series at the top of my lungs on the internet. i envy everyone who is yet to read this for the first time, and i 100% will reread this series eventually because as it turns out i cannot stay away from annette marie's writing, this story or yumei
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OH MY GOD GUYS. IF YOU SAW ME CRYING OVER THIS BOOK DON'T WORRY! EVERYTHING TURNED OUT FINE, SUICIDE ATTEMPT POSTPONED !!! devastated that ive finished this series however. RTC SOON 5 FUCKING STARS
pre-read: my hands have been itchin and twitchin to start this book yet im not ready for this series to end. it has been the love of my life. wish me luck.