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A missing girl on a journey of revenge. A Serial-like podcast following the clues she's left behind. And an ending you won't be able to stop talking about.

Sadie hasn't had an easy life. Growing up on her own, she's been raising her sister Mattie in an isolated small town, trying her best to provide a normal life and keep their heads above water.

But when Mattie is found dead, Sadie's entire world crumbles. After a somewhat botched police investigation, Sadie is determined to bring her sister's killer to justice and hits the road following a few meager clues to find him.

When West McCray―a radio personality working on a segment about small, forgotten towns in America―overhears Sadie's story at a local gas station, he becomes obsessed with finding the missing girl. He starts his own podcast as he tracks Sadie's journey, trying to figure out what happened, hoping to find her before it's too late.

Courtney Summers has written the breakout book of her career. Sadie is propulsive and harrowing and will keep you riveted until the last page.

308 pages, Hardcover

First published September 4, 2018

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Courtney Summers is the author of several novels, including the breakout hit Sadie, which appeared on over 30 ‘Best of’ lists and was published in 26 territories. In 2018, Electric Literature proclaimed her “a master of the bitch” for her years of writing “nuanced, wrenching stories about angry [and] unlikable girls.” Her work has been released to critical acclaim, multiple starred reviews and has received numerous awards and honors, including the Edgar Award and the Odyssey Award. Courtney has reviewed for The New York Times and is the founder of the 2015 worldwide trending hashtag #ToTheGirls. She lives and writes in Canada. You can follow her on Instagram and subscribe to her newsletter.

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1,921 reviews290k followers
September 5, 2018
And it begins, as so many stories do, with a dead girl.

Holy hell, this book hit me hard.

I've been reading Summers' books for seven years now and she is both consistently good and continually getting better. I remember thinking that Some Girls Are was one of the most powerful and vicious books I'd ever read back in 2011. Then All the Rage came along and destroyed me some more.

Whether Summers is writing a contemporary high school novel, a mystery, or a zombie apocalypse, she crawls right inside the deepest, darkest parts of teen girl minds. She explores their grief, their love, their hopes, fears and passions, and she does it in such a way that her characters become unforgettable, feeling at once completely unique AND universal.

And this book? This book made me cry. I felt so deeply for Sadie as she goes in search of the man who hurt her sister. Her sister, Mattie, who was her whole world. And yeah, yeah, we've read the "doing it for my sister/brother" a million times in YA but here it's so different. Sadie played the role of mother to Mattie when their own mother disappeared. Their relationship is special; complicated.
“She’s dead,” I whisper and I don’t know why this is the thing I choose to say out loud because it hurts to say it, to feel the truth of those words pass my lips, to have them be real in this world. But She’s dead is the reason I’m still alive.
She’s dead is the reason I’m going to kill a man.

Sadie goes on a journey from place to place, fighting against her severe stutter along the way, all to find one man. And West McCray’s investigation leads him along the same trail, the before and after racing each other to the end.

I think the framing of this story was PERFECT. The author splits the narrative between a radio presenter, West McCray, as he investigates Sadie’s disappearance, and the first person perspective of Sadie herself, as she hunts down her sister’s killer.

The juxtaposition of McCray’s detached radio voice with the passion and determination in Sadie’s account works really well. You can just imagine it - Sadie’s story becoming the latest True Crime special - and it honestly hurts to read. You want McCray to just move faster, work harder, care more about this poor girl from a disadvantaged background.

Please save her was running through my mind the whole time. I felt a little panicked while reading, especially as Sadie becomes ever more reckless. It’s heartbreaking to see this girl who believes she has lost everything important in her world.

It could be likened to any book with a badass female character on a mission, from The Female of the Species to True Grit, but really, it stands on its own. In the end, it feels like a book about all the ways Sadie is let down by the people who should have helped and protected her; all the ways poor young girls are let down by the people who should have helped and protected them.

And still, despite it all, this is a Courtney Summers book, so even at her lowest, weakest moments, Sadie still has claws. The sad thing is that she ever had to use them.

TW: Pedophilia; sexual abuse; drug abuse.

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328 reviews66.4k followers
November 1, 2018
CW: Pedophilia, sexual abuse, drug abuse, murder

This was a raw, emotional, and incredibly dark book. There are zero moments of levity and as someone who reads a lot of contemporary romances, it took a lot out of me to get through it. I am grateful that Courtney Summers did not sensationalize any of the abuse that went on before and during the events of this book. Though it's definitely present, it happens off of the page. She focuses on the toll it took on the victims rather than the acts themselves. If you can handle the subject matter (which I wasn't sure I could at first), I'd highly recommend it!

Sadie reads like a puzzle, with half of the story being told from Sadie's perspective and half from the perspective of a man doing a podcast on Sadie's disappearance. It's partially up to you to piece together the timeline, which I loved!

Make sure you listen to it as an audiobook as it's partially told in the style of a podcast with a large cast of voice actors! They even added ambient noises to set the scenes during interviews. I mean WOW - one of the best audiobook experiences ever.
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321 reviews150k followers
January 11, 2022
Sadie splintered in my heart, and I’m sure the author meant it to. I finished it, shivering with a chill inside me that nothing could possibly drive away. It’s been days and I still can’t swallow past the unaccountable lump in my throat. But I guess that’s just it—all that is harder to read, proves much slower to heal.

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461 reviews1,208 followers
September 17, 2021
Sadie, wherever you are, I hope you found peace.
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1,152 reviews97.7k followers
September 15, 2020

“I don’t know why this is the thing I choose to say out loud because it hurts to say it, to feel the truth of those words pass my lips, to have them be real in this world. But she’s dead is the reason I’m still alive. She’s dead is the reason I’m going to kill a man.”

Sadie is worth all the praise and hype you’ve heard about it. I had a feeling I was going to love this book, but I didn’t know that I would give it a piece of my heart. This is such a bright light in 2018 releases, and even though it handles some really tough topics, I recommend it with my entire heart and soul. And I will never forget Sadie or her story, and I will never stop listening to, and I will never stop believing, the voices of girls who have their own stories to tell.

This story is told in alternating chapters between a podcast and Sadie. We follow nineteen-year-old Sadie who is on a mission to murder the person who she believes has murdered her thirteen-year-old sister. The podcast is about five months behind the steps of Sadie, but the two storylines come together so very beautifully. But again, this is a dark book and this review is going to talk about some of those elements, so please use caution. Content and trigger warnings for pedophilia, loss of a loved one, bullying, assault, sexual assault, murder, death, extreme parental abandonment and neglect, talk of suicide, drug use, and underage drinking.

We get bread crumb after bread crumb from Sadie, while she travels to get revenge for her sister, the only person she has ever loved in this world. And the story really is so expertly crafted with the podcast element. I will say that I did listen to this on audiobook because so many people recommend the story to be experienced that way, but I didn’t love it as much as most people. But then again, I do have a hard time with audiobooks. But I fell so in love with Sadie and her story, that I listened to this in one day and one sitting.

And I know a lot of people don’t love the ending, but I think it is one of the most powerful endings I’ve probably ever read in my entire life. Plus, I feel like the choice of the cover of Sadie is genius, because Sadie truly is a faceless girl. She is a girl like so many whose stories don’t get to end happily, a girl whose story rarely even gets to be heard, and when it does it isn't believed.

Something that I think is a really easy concept, but is hard for so many people to understand, is that rapists and pedophiles can be kind, and successful, and funny, and pillars of their community, and it will still never take away from the fact that they are rapists and pedophiles. The other titles and attributes do not lessen the fact that someone is a rapist or a pedophile. And how we teach girls at a very young age that the crimes committed against their bodies, and against their wills, is something to feel shame over. And how we live inside a broken system where rapists can commit the same horrific crime over and over, because no one wants to listen or believe the victims, especially if they are poor and uneducated. And Courtney Summers really illustrates that point so very beautifully throughout Sadie. Because our own world proves every day that people would rather believe powerful men over loud girls. But Sadie takes action into her own hands, and reclaims her power, her body, and her heart, along with getting her vengeance. And it is one of the best journeys I’ve ever experienced.

“Sometimes I don’t know what I miss more; everything I’ve lost or everything I never had.”

I also want to talk a little bit about the representation in Sadie. First off, Sadie has a very severe stutter. I didn’t know this going in, and as a matter of fact I don’t think I’ve ever read a book where the main character has a stutter before, but it was perfection. Heartbreaking perfection though, because seeing Sadie unable to get the worlds out when she was feeling extreme anger or sadness was so heart wrenching. But Sadie always got the words out, and she always got her hurt across, and it was so beautifully done. Also, I know the scene is brief, but Sadie is so not straight, if anything she sounds rather pan to me. Lastly, Sadie has some of the most realistic poverty rep I’ve ever read, and I still feel like in 2018 that is something that is hard to find.

And I obviously think Sadie is a masterpiece of a story, and the themes are so important and relevant, but I think the biggest reason I loved this book so much was because I felt so connected to Sadie because of what she felt for Mattie. I will be completely honest with you all, I wouldn’t want to live in a world without my little brother. Me and my brother are a bit closer in age than Mattie and Sadie, and we were never abused or neglected, but the pure unconditional love that Sadie feels for Mattie, and how responsible and protective she felt, it was so pure and so realistic and just completely ripped out my heart and left me feeling so raw and vulnerable. I would do anything in the universe to protect my little brother, and I feel like I fell in love with this book just because Sadie’s love for her sister resonated so strongly in my very soul. There is a line in this book about Sadie feeling alive when her sister comes home from the hospital, and how she laid a hand on her baby sister’s chest and felt her breathing, and I was uncontrollably weeping while reading it. I don’t think I’ve ever seen the love I have for my brother depicted so closely than to that passage, and I know I will carry that inside my heart forever.

“I stood over her crib and listened to her breathing, watching the rise and fall of her tiny chest. I pressed my palm against it and felt myself through her. She was breathing, alive. And I was too.”

Overall, this book just really meant a lot to me. And even though this book is heartbreaking, it has some of the most beautiful quotes I’ve read all year. I read it with tears in my eyes for at least half, but I wouldn’t trade this reading experience for anything. And I am now going to read every single thing Courtney Summers has created. I truly loved this one, and I recommend it with my entire heart and soul, especially if you have a close sibling relationship, if you enjoy murder mystery podcasts, and if you also want to change the world so that more victims’ voices not only get heard but get believed.

Lastly, I want anyone who needs to hear it to know two things: First, if you need to talk to someone, RAINN is always there. They are completely confidential, and available 24/7. You can also call 800.656.HOPE at any time, too. Secondly, I believe you and your voice deserves to be heard and believed.

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1,079 reviews17.2k followers
September 10, 2020
I didn't know what to tell her. That I tried not to think about that kind of stuff, because it was painful, because I thought I could ever have it, but when I did end up liking someone, it always made me ache right down to my core. I realized pretty early on that the who didn't really matter so much. That anybody who listens to me, I end up loving them just a little.

Heartbreaking, hopeful, and impossible to look away from.

I am really loving this recent trend in YA thrillers of killer women. Books like The Female of the Species, Far From You, Big Little Lies, Black Iris, Dangerous Boys, The Girl from the Well, and Dare Me. What do all of these have in common? They are about women taking back power from men who hurt women.

I think the narratives we are used to give men the agency, and it is so interesting to see the trend of women fighting back.

So what is this book? Sadie follows podcaster West McCray, a mid20s man investigating a two-sister disappearance for posterity. And in scenes throughout, we see Sadie herself, off to kill her sister’s murderer.

There’s not exactly a wide cast of characters for a novel, but Sadie makes up for it. Sadie is such a fantastic lead character; she’s out for a revenge, bitter and angry, a sexual assault victim, pansexual, grew up poor, and has a major stutter. I absolutely adored her, and watching her go further down this awful track was so horrifying.

There’s a really interesting element of this book where, at least in the arc copy, no one in the book really does anything beyond imply pedophilia until around 60% of the way through the book, when Sadie asks a man point-blank whether he's a pedophile. It’s a horrifying reality for Sadie; it’s a simple accepted fact of her life. And she attempts to push it down, but when the sentence is finally said, when Sadie finally calls it out, I winced so strongly. That element is just one facet of the horror of this book - that Sadie knows it's wrong, and yet she refuses to say it.

Courtney Summers does not shy away from the harsh realities of this world - the contrast between poverty and wealth, the idea that privileged people often get away with horrifying deeds, the lack of agency given to girls in our society. I really think the most accurate description of this is stark . I could not look away, but I think it was worth it. This will haunt me for a very long time.

TW: sexual abuse, child abuse, addiction.

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647 reviews28.6k followers
October 12, 2018
To say I’m not much of a YA reader is underplaying reality a bit. To say that I’m extremely choosy, ready to renege at the first sign of any juvenile antics and pretty much dragging my feet through the first few chapters, when I do finally cave, is all too accurate. My point being, if you’ve hesitated to pick up Sadie because you don’t frequent YA reads, let those preconceived notions go and take a chance. Live life through Sadie’s eyes—I'm betting you won’t regret it. Hers is a bleak and tormenting reality at times, but one worth acknowledging.

"And it begins, as so many stories do, with a dead girl."

Sometimes the story isn’t about the dead 13-year-old girl, left in a field behind a burned out schoolhouse, but rather the disappearance of her nineteen-year-old sister. A girl that took on the mothering role when her own drunk and drugged out mother didn’t care enough to bother. An older sister that did everything in her power to keep her little sister safe . . . until that one moment she took a beat for herself and wasn’t there. One single night—a time out of sorts—that spelled goodbye.

Armed with a switchblade to do the dirty work and driven by a thirst for revenge, Sadie sets out to find the monster responsible for killing her sister. She’s gutsy and reckless, but raw and so darn young. Left with a gaping hole her sister once occupied, will happiness ever be an option or is Sadie’s final act imminent?

"I’m going to carve my name into his soul."

It’s a podcaster that finds himself playing detective, piecing together Sadie’s disappearance for her pseudo-grandmother and his listeners—dueling Sadie’s timeline along the way. Initially denying there was even a story to tell—“Girls go missing all the time.”—until the evidence left him no choice but to succumb to the hunt.

The truth is harsh, soul-crushing and just downright awful. I think we can all agree, there’s nothing worse than innocent children being hurt at the hands of a demon and even more so when their parents don’t care enough to pay attention. Knowing there are kids out there living this life right now, makes this story that much harder to stomach.

Courtney Summers gives just enough of the story to make assumptions about the finale—all of the pieces are there, waiting to be assembled as the reader sees fit. My optimistic side liked that she left the door slightly cracked for the teeniest tiniest bit of hope to slip through—although probably extremely unlikely given the evidence—with the only other option being one no one wants to consider.

I have to admit, there’s something truly engaging about the author’s style. There’s almost a quiet beauty to the way Courtney Summers strings thoughts together, while simultaneously working to keep the reader in the dark. A few times her words made me pause, reread and reflect—making it easy to see what all the fuss has been about. Like this lovely passage:

"I wish this was a love story. A love story about lovers whose mouths meet like two puzzle pieces fitting perfectly into place, about the electric feeling of one person’s name on the other’s tongue because no one has ever spoken them out loud like that before. About people who spend the night together looking at the stars until entire constellations exist within them. Everyone is perfect in that indistinct way most characters are and every perfectly constructed scene in their fictional lives is somehow more real than anything you’ve known or lived."

Regardless of the genre label, Sadie left a mark on my heart. To say that I’m a YA convert—not quite. A new Courtney Summers fan—yes!

**Thank you to St. Martin’s Press & Wednesday Books for a review copy.**
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Author 16 books7,220 followers
November 4, 2022
Hello Sadie readers! The audio version of Greetings from Sunny Los Angeles (the epilogue to Sadie, via West, and bridge story to I'm the Girl) is now included on I’m the Girl’s audiobook, and is available wherever its audiobook is sold. Its inclusion should be mentioned in the description and, if not, the runtime will be over 8 hours. If you’ve already purchased it, you have it or have access to it. If you missed previous opportunities to find out what happens to West following his podcast, how Sadie fits into his life now, and how all roads lead to Aspera, here’s another. Dan Bittner’s narration begins in the epilogue at 7 minutes and 29 seconds in and it’s beautifully done. I highly recommend experiencing his story this way.

You can hear a sample of it here: https://www.instagram.com/p/CkixD8WAgE3/

And read more about what it was like to write from West's perspective and how this short story serves my body of work as a whole: https://courtneysummers.substack.com/...

You can also add the short story to goodreads here: https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/6...

The I'm the Girl audiobook is available to buy from a list of retailers here: https://us.macmillan.com/books/978125...
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317 reviews116k followers
October 6, 2018
4.5 stars! I picked this book up on a whim and I GREATLY enjoyed it. This is a must-read for my fans of crime fiction.

CW: sexual abuse, pedophilia, violence, drug abuse, death/murder

I really did not know what to expect from this novel going in. All I knew was that it was half-podcast, half-novel which tells the story of a girl searching for her sister’s killer. I was totally unprepared for the true darkness of this book, which was a (weirdly) wonderful surprise. This is my first read from Courtney Summers, though I’m aware she does not shy away from tough topics in her books, and the same can be said for Sadie. This is an extremely heavy book that uncovers the evilier side of our society, but it is expressed in a way that is raw, authentic, and not at all sensationalized.

I feel the framing of the story is one of it’s shining points. The combination of Sadie’s first-person perspective with the podcast featuring interviews of those she encountered on her journey was truly mesmerizing. If you can, I’d highly recommend the audio version. Full casts are always enjoyable in my opinion, but the production value of this story is off the charts. From added tape-recording sounds to birds chirping in the background, it truly is a full-sensory experience that is far beyond what I typically get out of audiobooks. Piecing the story together through Sadie’s search and Wes’ investigation made for a unique and compelling reading experience. I can say with sincerity, I’ve never read anything like it.

The only thing I really struggled with in this novel is that it felt slow at some points. There are some high intensity moments that are true page-turners, but other moments were a little stagnant for me.

Overall, Sadie is truly a one-of-a-kind story. I can’t wait to read more from Courtney Summers after such a pleasant time reading my first work of hers.
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1,424 reviews8,980 followers
August 27, 2022
((disillusionment with the world intensifies))

Alternating between the perspectives of a Serial-type podcast and Sadie, a teen girl with a need for revenge, this hard-hitting YA Contemporary novel is a gut-punching piece of modern-American noir.

By the time she has reached her mid-teens, Sadie has accepted the fact that she is the main caregiver for her little sister, Mattie.

Although dealing with Mattie can be infuriating at times, Sadie loves her with her whole heart and has done her best to provide a safe environment for them both.

Their mother, a junkie, whose main concern is what man she'll be hooking up with next, has failed to provide the girls with a stable home.

Sadie has never felt loved by her mother and this lack of connection displays itself through her outlook on the world.

Jaded and cynical, Sadie has good reason to be, her situation made more difficult by the severe stutter that has plagued her since early childhood. Her stutter makes it challenging for her to express herself, and because of this, she feels judged and underestimated by many people.

When her mother runs off again, seemingly for good this time, Sadie's fate is sealed. She is left to provide for Mattie around the clock.

After a fight regarding their mother's whereabouts, Mattie flees their home, only to be discovered later, murdered. Sadie, overcome with anger and despair, is determined to track down Mattie's killer and bring him to justice.

In fact, she knows who killed Mattie and won't rest until he pays.

As sad as this story is, it is boldly realistic and I respect the fact that Summers never shied away from tough, taboo topics.

I would recommend if you are a sensitive reader, however, that you check other reviews for trigger warnings.

I listened to the audiobook for this, while also reading the hardcover version. The audiobook is definitely worth listening to.

The podcast sections were particularly well done and I do believe listening to it enhanced my overall reading experience.

While I did enjoy this a lot, I wasn't as blown away by it as others seemed to be. It was really well told and the topics were well handled. I just think the hype made me expect a little more.

I read a lot of gritty, dark stories, so nothing about this surprised me, or felt particularly groundbreaking besides the format. Overall, the story is depressing, but important. I would recommend it to anyone, particularly the audiobook.

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Author 5 books13.5k followers
December 2, 2020
"Imagine having to live every day knowing the person who killed your sister is breathing the air she can't, filling his lungs with it, tasting its sweetness. Imagine him knowing the steady weight of the earth under his feet while her body is buried six feet below it."

Sadie was everything I wished and more than I could have fathomed.
I always try to keep my expectations low, especially if it’s a debut author, an overhyped book or a book by an author that I’ve never read before. If I do not keep my expectations in check, they will get out of control, like children running towards a playground, screaming from excitement. And then they realise the swings and everything else has been burned down. Yeah. I don’t want my expectations burned to the ground. I don’t want any crying children.
Sadie, however, added a swimming pool, a bouncy castle and a super cool cave to the playground. But don’t kid yourself, this book is so not funny. I actually want to join the crying children, that’s how depressing it was. Aaand this metaphor officially got out of hands. What I'm trying to say is, if you're ever in the mood for a gut punch, this is your book. It hurts so much because it's real. It's a vicious story, but it's not a fantasy book, it's not a fairytale set in a faraway land. And Sadie is so vulnerable and lonely. She doesn't deserve any of the things that have happened to her because nobody deserves anything like this. But you cannot help her, you cannot take away her loneliness and misery and that realisation will crush you.

I honestly cannot find anything to criticise. And I’m nitpicky, believe me. So if you want my word for it, just go and read the book now or pick up the fantastic audiobook. Because from here on this review will stop being spoiler-free.
The characters are fantastic. Sadie is absolutely relatable. She is a caring, protective woman who will fight with everything she’s got for the people she loves. Her life is far from easy; many would go so far and say that it sucks big time. But she has her sister, Mattie, and that’s a life worth living.
When Mattie is found dead, Sadie’s world shatters to pieces. But she knows who killed her and she will find a way to take revenge for every injustice that has been done to her sister – and to herself. Sadie disappears. And here, Wes McCray joins the game.

West McCray is a journalist who stumbles upon the story of a girl found dead and a second girl reported missing. His side of the story is told in the form of a podcast titled The Girls. On his journey to find Sadie he interviews a great number of people and reports all his findings to his listeners. The combination of these two narratives – Sadie’s point of view and Wes’ podcast – was so intriguing that I could not close the book. That and the excruciating cliffhangers at the end of every chapter nearly killed me. And killed one or the other fictional character in the process.

I will shove this book under every person’s nose who will tell me All the Ugly and Wonderful Things is suuuuch a good book. Sadie is the anti-christ toAll the Ugly and Wonderful Things. Or rather, the Harry to his Voldemort.
If you have not already realised it yourself, adult men who have sex with children and teenagers are scum. And Sadie has come to end them. This book is basically YA Kill Bill.

I appreciated that the author managed to not shy away from the grim reality of sexual abuse while staying away from painting a too vivid and explicit picture of the horrible crimes at the same time. It left enough room for your imagination to fill the gaps and protected the reader – especially younger ones – from possible nightmares.

Also, let’s talk about sexuality. We’re finally at this stage (at least in YA literature) where a character’s sexuality doesn’t define their plot. It’s a part of them that is no longer discussed, like the fact that someone’s favourite colour is blue. I know it sounds stupid to point this out, but it made me so happy. Every time in this novel when a character’s sexuality was brought up, it lacked a positive/negative/surprised reaction because PEOPLE ARE GAY KAREN GET OVER IT.

Sadie was one of my favourite reads of 2018 and I hope it will get super famous so that I can talk to people about it.

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251 reviews25.1k followers
September 8, 2018
*5 solid stars!*

"I’m dangerous. You shouldn't underestimate people, I want to call out. I have a knife."

SADIE has lost herself and she doesn't want to be found. Not by the few remaining people in her life, not even by life itself. She lets the reader know right away that she is being fueled only by revenge, and there is no question that Sadie is surviving for the sole purpose of killing the man she believes murdered her little sister.

"I’m going to kill a man. I’m going to steal the light from his eyes. I want to watch it go out."

This was a heinous crime whose victim has obtained no justice; a case gone cold, until Sadie herself goes missing and the host of a serialized podcast is persuaded to revive it.

The podcast portions are handled extremely well and are delivered in chapters that alternate with the saturated darkness of Sadie’s first-person narrative. We get right in her head, and it is wholly intense at the very least.

I would say that Sadie’s falling apart, but that would imply she’d once had it all together, and she has never. Not with an absentee father, and an addict of a mother. Not when she’d been forced to raise her younger sister as though she wasn't also just a child herself.

Sadie has stripped away the outer layers of herself until all that remains is this primal, animalistic being whose desire to kill this man has become the only thing in life that matters. I could sense her wasting away, eating only because she has to and because not eating would steal the strength she needs to carry out her plan.

You will feel Sadie’s desperation as it all but suffocates her. You will witness her becoming a machine—one who feels only pain, if she feels anything at all. Her eyes are focused, and she’s seeing red as she paves her own way through the road splayed out in front of her—god help anyone who tries to stand in her way.

Courtney Summer’s writing continually impresses me, and frankly just keeps getting better. I’ve come to love the sharpened edges of her young adult stories, but this one in particular seems to break through the confines of YA altogether, targeting a much wider audience than teens.

This plot is driven; a reckless drive, and it’s Sadie behind the wheel, the reader sitting shotgun alongside her. It’s brave and it’s raw and it feels so close to real that you may just have to remind yourself to come up for air at times.

Sadie’s character, with all of her pain, is sharp and witty, and even funny at times. She speaks with a stutter, which only endeared me to her even more, and she’s easy to love even though she’s not intentionally casting out lovable vibes.

Every element in the story came to life—all of it—and it wasn't pretty to look at, but it was powerful and it was important. A mother’s addiction. A sister’s reliance. A child abused. A daughter, so in need of her mother’s love that the lack of it has hollowed out her insides, leaving a hole that can only be filled with pain and uncertainty.

"Sometimes I don’t know what I miss more; everything I’ve lost or everything I never had."

This book is more than a story—it is a voice, and it begs to be heard.

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▪  Genre/Category: Contemporary/Young Adult/Mystery
▪  Characters: Sadie's character is sole focus of story. She's painfully broken and highly driven in her pursuit.
▪  Plot: Sadie sets out to kill the man she believes murdered her sister.
▪ Writing: Edgy, witty, brilliant! This author is a favorite of mine!
▪ POV: 1st Person Perspective: Alternates between Sadie's POV and Podcast transcripts
▪  Cliffhanger: None. Standalone

*Thanks to St. Martin’s Press for providing an advanced digital copy via Netgalley!*
Profile Image for karen.
3,968 reviews170k followers
November 6, 2018
oooh, goodreads choice awards semifinalist for best YA 2018! what will happen?

In our last episode, I introduced you to the two girls at the center of this podcast, Mattie Southern and Sadie Hunter. Mattie was murdered, her body left just outside her hometown of Cold Creek, Colorado. Sadie is missing, her car found, abandoned, thousands of miles away, with all her personal belongings still inside it. The girls’ surrogate grandmother, May Beth Foster, has enlisted my help in finding Sadie and bringing her home.

For those of you just tuning in, this is a serialized podcast, so if you haven’t listened to our first episode, you should do that now. We have more story than time to tell it - but I suppose that’s true for all of us.

this book is such a ballpunch.

i don’t even have balls, but i felt it - the sharp whitehot flashes of sudden impact; boof, boof, boof, followed by a deep nausea.

courtney summers is gonna ballpunch all of you.

this book’s got some things in common with The Female of the Species and Are You Sleeping, but it has a ferocity all its own, and as much as i loved the fierce energy of The Female of the Species, with its teengirl vigilantism and Hard Candy revenge-killings, Sadie is much darker and more realistic, which makes it much, much scarier. and if there are still any adults out there who think they are 'too grown' for YA books, think again, because although this is targeted at a teen audience, the quality of summers’ writing is better than many adult-market books i’ve read, and she doesn’t pull any of those punches - they hit and hit hard.

there are two narrative voices: the rawnerve howl of nineteen-year-old sadie, on the trail of the man she believes killed her thirteen-year-old sister mattie, and west mccray - the creator of the podcast The Girls, whose contributions are mostly in the form of transcripts from that podcast, with all the rounded-edged detached professional compassion of an NPR host.

sadie has zero rounded edges left. all she has is a car, a backpack, some cash, and a plan:

”She’s dead,” I whisper and I don’t know why this is the thing I choose to say out loud because it hurts to say it, to feel the truth of those words pass my lips, to have them be real in this world. But She’s dead is the reason I’m still alive.

She’s dead is the reason I’m going to kill a man.

sadie dropped out of school at sixteen to raise her sister after their addict-mother left, both of their fathers long out of the picture, and she struggled for years to make ends meet with her truncated education and severe stutter in a small-town trailer park full of bad memories and no prospects for the future.

For some people, the future ahead is opportunity. For others, it’s only time you haven’t met and where I lived, it was only time. You don’t waste your breath trying to protect it. You just try to survive it until one day, you don’t.

what she did have was her devotion to mattie, and with mattie gone, she’s got nothing left to lose and she’s a mama-bear incandescent with vengeance.

i'll say no more, but oh, man, this is a powerhouse of a book. it'll getcha.


might bump this up to five stars - gotta let it all settle.
review to come, but in short: magnificent.


it's here!


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Profile Image for Ariel.
301 reviews64.2k followers
December 18, 2019
The best audiobook I've ever listened to.. it has genuinely raised the bar for audiobooks for me that other audiobooks are never going to compare. If you work in publishing, please make all audiobooks like this, it was SO GOOD. The story and characters didn't hit me hard, I didn't connect with anyone, but I had a great time listening to the audiobook.
Profile Image for destiny ♡ howling libraries.
1,609 reviews4,999 followers
March 9, 2022
At the time I’m writing this review, it’s been a couple of days since I finished Sadie, and I still haven’t fully processed it. This is one of those stories that seeps into your bones somewhere along the way, and it changes the way you look at the world a little. It is the best mystery—and one of the best books, period—that I have ever read, and it is also one of the bleakest, most devastating reading experiences of my life.

And it begins, as so many stories do, with a dead girl.

You know, going into this story, that Sadie’s little sister’s body has just been found, and Sadie is on a mission to track down the man she believes is responsible. Besides the fact that it’s a story partially told through podcast episodes (which is such an incredible touch), that’s all you really need to know. This isn’t about what happens so much as it is about coming to know and love Sadie—and to know and love Mattie, too, through her memories. It’s about recognizing that the society we live in has this terrifying, grimy layer that nobody wants to talk about, where little girls are never really safe, and children are forced to grow up way too fast, to become adults in replacement of the parents they didn’t ask for.

Imagine having to live every day knowing the person who killed your sister is breathing the air she can’t, filling his lungs with it, tasting its sweetness. Imagine him knowing the steady weight of the earth under his feet while her body is buried six feet below it.

With a mother suffering from addiction, a community that looked the other way far too many times, and a life of barely keeping food on the table, much less having any real opportunities to succeed, Sadie feels like such an old soul. I don’t know how many readers will struggle to relate to the age of her inner monologue, but from another woman whose circumstances never quite allowed me to feel like a child, I saw so much of myself in the cynical, pragmatic way Sadie views the world around her.

I realized pretty early on that the who didn’t really matter so much. That anybody who listens to me, I end up loving them just a little.

It’s hard enough to grow up poor and in a broken family, but Sadie’s also queer—she doesn’t label herself, but explains her sexuality in ways that heavily point to pansexuality—and she stutters, which forms a barricade between her and the rest of the world. Her representation feels so valid and genuine, and it broke my heart every time she mused about how imprisoned she felt by her struggles with speech.

I’d do it all again and again for eternity if I had to. I don’t know why that’s not enough to bring her back.

More than anything else about Sadie’s character, though, I loved the fierce, maternal determination she has for taking care of Mattie—and, once Mattie is gone, for finding her killer and dishing out justice. Every memory of Mattie, whether told through her view of their adopted grandmother May Beth’s, is beautiful and haunting. The tremendous amount of guilt that Sadie carries as she blames herself for what went wrong had me completely breaking down in passages, and I’ll admit without shame that I read the last several chapters through tears. The most brutal part of it all is that, somehow, it feels like Sadie’s story could be based on a real girl—no, on countless real girls, all over the world.

I have never been kissed the way I want to be kissed and I have never been touched the way I want to be touched.

Without spoiling the plot, I want to warn you that this book focuses heavily on child abuse and sexual assault, and it is broken down in the most honest, agonizing ways. There’s also a solid portrayal of how deceptive abusers can be, as the abusers in question are shown to have fooled so many people. But there’s also another side to the representation here, as we see Sadie’s intense solidarity with other abused girls, and her desperate need to protect and defend them, even though (perhaps especially though) she feels that she failed to protect and defend her sister.
It’s about the lengths we go to protect the ones we love… and the high price we pay when we can’t.

There’s not much else I can tell you now, because I think it’s the kind of story that you should go into without too many expectations. Just climb in, let Sadie take you for a ride and tell you her story, and try not to let your heart get too broken in the process. This is a phenomenal story, and I know that I will be thinking about it for a long, long time to come.

Content warnings for child abuse, sexual assault, drug addiction, addiction-shaming, PTSD, violence, child abduction, child death

All quotes come from an advance copy and may not match the final release. Thank you so much to Wednesday Books for providing me with this ARC in exchange for an honest review!

You can find this review and more on my blog, or you can follow me on twitter, bookstagram, or facebook!
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525 reviews56.6k followers
January 24, 2019
Not fully sure how I'll rate this yet but..

I appreciated the representation. I don't think I've ever read a book with a main character with a stutter. Actually I know I haven't. The podcast concept was original. The story was heartbreaking and I really appreciated how for once the main character while poor doesn't ends up going on an adventure where money magically isn't necessary.

I usually rate books based on my enjoyment. Can't say this is a book I enjoyed but I'm not certain it would be possible. I'll think about it.
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514 reviews34.4k followers
June 9, 2021
”For some people, the future ahead is opportunity. For others, it’s only time you haven’t met and where I lived, it was only time. You don’t waste your breath trying to protect it. You just try to survive it until one day, you don’t.”

My first reaction when I finished this book was:

And I still stand by my initial response. Never in my entire life have I read a book that haunts me as much as “Sadie” does and quite honestly: I hope I’ll never ever read another book like it ever again. >_< This book was so tough to read and whenever I picked it up I found myself taking a deep breath before I could dive back in. I had to prepare for this story because it’s such a heavy one and believe me when I say that I barely made it through the entire book.

Not because it wasn’t good, but because it felt like I’d choke on my own feelings whenever I read it. As a loving parent “Sadie” was exceptionally hard to digest and it’s eerie and haunting atmosphere only made it even harder to continue. I’m going to be honest here: I hated almost all of the adults in this book because they JUST DIDN’T CARE!!! Who lets a young 19 year old girl run around in the world without any guidance? So many people crossed Sadie’s path but almost none of them tried to help her and even less tried to convince her to stay, let alone to get some sort of aid.

”I can’t undo everything that’s already been done. How do you forgive the people who are supposed to protect you? Sometimes I don’t know what I miss more: everything I ‘ve lost or everything I never had.”

I for my part can’t forgive the people who were supposed to protect Mattie and Sadie. They all failed and none of them, none of them was there for those two girls when they needed it the most. Yes, May Beth tried and true, West McCray did his best to find Sadie but the rest of them? Caddy, Silas, Marlee, Ellis, Clair Southern (Sadie’s and Mattie’s mother I may add!!) they were all horrible adults and I really hope that karma will bite them in their asses. XD Sure, some of them might have been overtaxed with their own lives and troubles, but they all had a chance to do what’s right and none of them went for it. >_< When given the choice they always chose themselves.

”I forget that at times, I was a kid, that I did kid things. That I read about the girls I dreamed of being.”

And because of actions like that, because of their neglect, Mattie died and Sadie went on a journey to revenge her sister’s murder. She left everything she ever knew behind because she was determined to kill the man who murdered the only person that meant the world to her. Sadie isn’t on a quest, she’s on a mission and it’s to find the bastard who killed her sister and to put him six feet under, no matter the consequences, no matter the cost. It’s a road trip of sorts, and Sadie is driven by anger and revenge. By a sheer insatiable hunger to get rid of the one thing that destroyed her entire world; to stop him from doing the same to others. To end him before he ends anyone else.

”In Mattie, Sadie found a sense of purpose, a place to put her love. But love is complicated, it’s messy. It can inspire selflessness, selfishness, our greatest accomplishments and our hardest mistakes. It brings us together and it can just as easily drive us apart.

It can drive us.”

I was with Sadie every step of the way. I suffered with her, I bled with her, I hurt with her, I despaired and cried with her, and I felt her profound and all-consuming grief! I felt what Sadie felt and I admired her resilience. This girl! This girl is one of the bravest I ever read about. The guilt that consumed her, the conviction that she could have done something, anything to save her sister’s life... Gods, at times it was so overwhelming the ink spilled from the pages and punctured my heart. T_T

”Thirteen, Mattie.
I kept you alive for thirteen years.
Waking her up in the morning, making her meals, walking her to the school bus, waiting for her at its stop when the day was over, grinding my bones to dust just to keep us holding on and when I lay it out like that, I don’t know how I did it. I don’t know where, underneath it all, you’d find my body. And I don’t care. I’d do it all again and again for eternity if I had to.
I don’t know why that’s not enough to bring her back.”

Sadie wasn’t just Mattie’s sister, she was her friend, her partner in crime and most of all... she was her mother. The love she felt for her sister, it was the purest thing and it was taken away from her. Violently and brutally. It’s no wonder Sadie harbours vengeful thoughts. Every mile hurt, every second was painful and with every city she leaves the inevitable pinnacle draws closer. And all the time West and May Beth are retracing and following her steps, trying to find a girl that is close to come unglued. At the risk of repeating myself: It’s haunting, it’s eerie, it’s urgent and it’s insistent in its intensity.

”I’m going to kill a man.
I’m going to steal the light from his eyes. I want to watch it go out. You aren’t supposed to answer violence with more violence but sometimes I think violence is the only answer. It’s no less than he did to Mattie, so it’s no less than he deserves.”

I’m still not over “Sadie” and I get the feeling I’ll never be. This book was unlike anything I ever read and its vehemence will stick with me for years to come. As will one of the first sentences of this book:
”I can’t take another dead girl.”

Neither can I. >_<

trigger warnings:


I have no words. I can’t.

Just let me digest this for a while...

RTC soon! I need to find my voice first.

For a while this book was all over my feed and everybody talked about “Sadie”.
The story itself sounds interesting but not like something I’d usually read. Since I’m intent on breaking my reading habits it sounds like the perfect book for me though.

So many of my favourite bloggers loved this and I finally want to find out why.
It certainly sounds like "Sadie” might have the potential to destroy me and I don’t know if I should look forward to that or be afraid. >_<

Either way, let’s find out what happened to Mattie.
Something tells me this is going to be a tough read.
Profile Image for Chelsea *Slowly Catching Up* Humphrey.
1,388 reviews77.2k followers
October 3, 2022
Happy Pub Day!!!

"I'm going to kill a man. I'm going to steal the light from his eyes. I want to watch it go out. You aren't supposed to answer violence with more violence but sometimes I think violence is the only answer."

Reading Sadie was the perfect example of why sometimes, the timing of picking up a book can make or break your experience. I tried to pick this one up months ago when I first received it and only made it about 25 pages before I had to place it to the side. I had some heavy stuff going on in my personal life, and I think a book of this calibre wasn't helping me to escape in the form that I needed at the moment. Fast forward to this week and I decided, at the recommendation of many bookstagram friends, to pick this one up again for my readathon. That choice ended up being one of the best decisions I made, as I connected so well to Sadie this go around. All this to say, if you're in a heavy or emotional place in your life right now, you may want to hold off until the opportune moment to pick this one up.

If you're looking for a unique novel that is a mature form of YA, this is it. The story is well written, gripping, and emotional, and the podcast format that is becoming so popular amongst authors and readers alike is a slam dunk here. I've heard also that Macmillan is releasing an actual podcast that coincides with the novel every Tuesday/Wednesday ish, and I plan on checking this out in greater detail over the weekend. Sadie, the novel, was an atmospheric read, and its claustrophobic nature had me tugging at the collar of my shirt by the end of the book to try and relieve the pressure that was building from my throat to my stomach. The pacing starts out very slowly, and builds momentum along with the tension that grows as our hearts become chained to Sadie's.

It's a tough read guys. I know I've said that about three times now, but I can't stress enough how heavy, yet timely this book is. If you're looking for a happily ever after, a story of redemption, or even just a book that will allow you to sleep again at night once you've finished it, you won't find that here. Without giving away any spoilers, you can expect some questions to be answered, but to be wrestling with the remainder for weeks to come after turning that final page. The alternating between podcast episodes and Sadie's own voice really worked well here, and toward the end there's a switch that just about crippled me once I realized what was being done. While not for the sensitive reader (CW for child abuse, pedophilia, rape, drug and alcohol abuse by minors and adults, graphic violence, etc.), I have to admit that this is a book that many people can learn from, both teens and adults alike. I have a sinking sensation that I'll be grappling with the effects of this book for months to come in my everyday life-when I'm in the shower or driving down the road-and I'll be reminded to hold my daughters a little more closely, because there are so many little girls out there who live a much different life than my babies do, and it's just not fair.

Book #1 in my August #25infive readathon.

Thank you Goodreads Giveaways for my review copy!
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684 reviews4,625 followers
January 16, 2019
"When Sadie lost Mattie, it drove her to leave her home in Cold Creek, to take on the loneliness and pain of all those miles, just to find her little sister's murderer and make the world right again, even, possibly, at the expense of herself."

Sadie was everything I hoped she would be and more! She is the kind of character that tays with you long after you have finished reading the book.

Sadie has had a hard life but nothing affects her more deeply than the murder of her sister. It was a horrific crime and it seems no one will answer for it. Sadie simply cannot accept that. She has nothing left to live for - except seeking her own brand of justice for her sister.

Sadie ultimately ghosts. She walks away from the life she knows, seeking revenge, armed with a switchblade and fueled by sheer determination. Sadie's story is harsh and simply heart crushing. She is the kind of character that you wish you could reach inside of the book and save. Except Sadie didn't want saving. She was beyond that.

The story is told from alternating viewpoints - that of Sadie and radio personality, West McCray. West McCray is called in to help find Sadie by her neighbor, who was essentially looking out for her and Mattie. He decides to follow the clues as part of his podcast in the hopes that the trail of crumbs will lead him to Sadie.

This book was so well crafted. Summers does an amazing job of pulling the reader into Sadie's world. We feel her grief and her anger. We see the effects of her pain. We can't help but love her for it because we know Sadie needs and deserves our love. The love she never felt from her mother. The love she has craved all her life and had freely given to her sister.

This is not a happy story. It speaks of child abuse, murder, substance abuse, parental neglect and more. This story broke me and yet I feel better for having read it. Sadie is one of those rare characters that will live on in my heart.
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647 reviews12.4k followers
August 15, 2018
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19 year old, Sadie and her younger sister, Mattie struggled to get by. Cold Creek is a small town with very few opportunities for employment. Many have to go to a neighboring town for work and school.

Mary Beth Foster was Mattie and Sadie's neighbor and the manager of the trailer park where they lived. Mary Beth tried to look out for the sisters but basically, it was just the two of them. Their mother, Claire had been out of the picture for quite a while.

The bond between the sisters was very strong, but something horrific happens that severs that bond forever. Now Sadie is missing and Mary Beth Foster just wants to find someone who can help. Someone who will give a damn...

West McCray is a radio personality who just happens to overhear a little bit of Sadie and Mattie’s story. At first, he thinks what many others seem to be thinking…

“Girls run away all the time; girls go missing, there isn’t anything new here.”

West and his producer have been talking about West hosting his own podcast. His producer is the one who suggests he dig a little deeper into Sadie's story. West doesn't really want to do it at first, but finds that he can't stop thinking about their story and ends up creating a serialized podcast called “The Girls

“when a devastating crime reveals a deeply unsettling mystery.”

After working on the story for awhile, West starts to get nervous. He's scared of what he might find.

" If you want the truth, I didn't even want this story. And the more I have it, the less I want it because I don't think it's headed anywhere good. But I'm in this now, so I have to see it through."

So where is Sadie? What or who is she looking for?

I thought this was an incredible read. A fantastic and powerfully written story. I was addicted and hated having to put the book down.

I thought the layout of the novel was interesting and the characters all very well developed. We get to hear from many people that knew Sadie and Mattie which was a great addition to the story. The story jumps back and forth between Sadie’s journey and “The Girls” podcast whose investigation retraces Sadie's steps. The novel deals with some tough subject matter, but I thought the author handled these issues with sensitivity and respect. I was hooked from start to finish.

"Sadie" is a compelling and riveting story about love, loss, revenge, and the power of a sister's love.

I'd like to thank Wednesday Books for giving me the opportunity to read this book in exchange for my honest review.
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279 reviews1,534 followers
December 2, 2022
3.35/5 ⭐


I bought Sadie so long ago I don't even remember when. I do remember that I was kind of excited to get it. But I think I bought this so long ago that my enthusiasm vanished.

It wasn't a bad book.

I really found it interesting that it was written in this podcast-interview style, even though sometimes it took me a bit too long to wrap my head around the story.

The reality of the book is terrible, brutal and cruel and it pains me to think that things like that happen to children in real life. No child should be treated the way Sadie has been treated. By life, mostly. I felt the pain and the anger of this girl. I really did.

But, the truth is, this book was just all right. It was a thriller-type in its own right and I appreciated the story, but it did not impress me the way it should have. And the fact that I've been "left in a tree" as we say in Romanian is not a forte of the book.

I wanted to know what exactly happened with Sadie by the end, but that final detail never came. So I was left wondering.
Not cool.

This is definitely a good book with a crushing story that mirrors some people's reality, but somehow it did not get to me the way I hoped it would.
Profile Image for Meredith (Slowly Catching Up).
770 reviews12.1k followers
July 22, 2018
“I’m going to kill the man who killed my sister.”

Sadie is a stunning, heartbreaking read about a girl dead set on murdering the man who killed her little sister.

19-year-old Sadie only had one thing her life to love, which was her 13-year-old little sister, Mattie. Growing up in a trailer park in Colorado, she had to endure her mother’s drug abuse, neglect, and many boyfriends; some of whom were verbally, physically, and sexually abusive. But Sadie survived in order to protect Mattie. Sadly when Mattie is murdered, Sadie is intent on seeking revenge on the man who killed Mattie.

Sadie is a sharp, intelligent, edgy character. There’s nothing smooth about her and wherever she goes, she leaves a mark. That’s why when an investigation begins into her disappearance, those who met Sadie cannot forget their encounters with her.

Sadie’s story is split between Sadie’s narrative and a podcast about her disappearance. While this could have felt gimmicky, the split between the two narratives is handled with finesse. The podcast provides a different insight into Sadie’s character, and the juxtaposition between the two is fascinating.

This is not a pretty read. Sadie’s raw pain emanates from the pages. There were times when I had to set this book aside because I couldn't endure reading any more of her story. I was constantly worried about her and wanted to jump into this book and rescue her on many occasions.

This was a jarring and sometimes uncomfortable read. However, it was extremely impactful. Summer’s brings Sadie’s character to life, and while this wasn’t always enjoyable to read, her style is enthralling. I was captivated by Sadie’s voice; she got under my skin and shattered my heart.

I highly recommend Sadie and this is by far one of my favorite reads of 2018.

Triggers: rape, pedophilia, violence

I received an ARC of Sadie from NetGalley and St. Martin’s Press in exchange for an honest review.
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1,783 reviews42.8k followers
April 29, 2019
I read this book in the least cool way to read it, and it was still unbelievably cool. I did not deserve coolness, and yet I received it.

To anyone who lives under a rock that is impenetrable to news of Cool Things: First, may I suggest you move? Sounds like a terrible place to live. Under a rock that is specifically uncool. Anyway, due to the direness of your living situation, you would not have heard of this book, and so it is my solemn duty to tell you that this book is half podcast. The chapters alternate between the story of our main character, Sadie, who is on a mission to avenge her little sister’s death, and a podcast chronicling what happened to Sadie after she left home.

And they actually RECORDED THE PODCAST. As if it were a real true crime thing.

This book can therefore be consumed in three ways:
1) as an audiobook, which includes the podcast
2) by reading the Sadie chapters and listening to the podcast chapters as the podcast
3) by reading the whole thing

I, a fool, just wanted to binge read this book. So I read the ebook in a day.

I regret my choices. And yet this experience was still f*cking rad, because this book is super good.

To be honest, the thing about this that was specifically exciting to me was the true crime bit. I love true crime, but I do not often consume it because I HATE stories without endings. I hate problems without solutions. I do not deal well with the Unsolved, which is about 99% of true crime.

This is why fictional narratives that mimic true crime, like Truly Devious, are perfect for me. Stories I like without the brain-breaking part!

Unfortunately, this usually felt more like Dark Sad Contemporary than True Crime. And while I do love contemporaries, I like Fun Fluffy ones with Friendship and Banter and sometimes a Romance. Usually set in the Summer, on a Cute Local Beach. You know?

This is the opposite of that.

But even with all of that overwhelming disappointment, this book was still good.

I guess the point of this review is there is really no reason I should have liked this book, and yet I truly did. So you should read it.

Bottom line: By my standards, this is a raving recommendation.


should i have done it? questionable.

review to come


me: (has class basically from 2 pm to 10 pm)

also me: i want to binge read Sadie today. I'M GOING TO BINGE READ SADIE TODAY
Profile Image for Melissa ♥ Dog/Wolf Lover ♥ Martin.
3,368 reviews9,435 followers
December 29, 2018
UPDATE: $2.99 on Kindle US today 12/29/18

That bastard!!!!


I'm not writing a proper review.

1. I don't want to
2. There are 5o million reviews on this book & some don't matter in this GR world
3. Maybe I will come back and link some smaller awesome reviews.

Pay it forward!

Happy Reading! Put on your big girl panties, bring tissues & lots of anger ....

Mel 🖤🐶🐺🐾

To all the girls... you read it... you will know.
Profile Image for Hannah Greendale.
692 reviews3,241 followers
December 20, 2020
2019 Best Books of the Year [#02 of 11]

The word riveting doesn't even begin to describe this masterwork by Courtney Summers. The opening pages are unassuming, but Summers soon hooks her audience with a death grip and doesn't let go.

The magnetism of Sadie is not limited to the depth and despair of its subject matter (which will remain unnamed so that new readers can pick up this book, as I did, knowing little about it and therefore be swept away fully and completely - *see note below for trigger warnings). The topics explored tickle one's sense of grim curiosity and stir unease in one's gut.

Nineteen-year-old Sadie is, herself, an enormous draw. She delivers her version of the story in a first-person voice that is uniquely her own. She is fierce and indomitable, facing her demons head-on, yet there's a softness to her, a yearning, and simple struggles that make her feel human and flawed. She materializes fully on the page, and rooting for her is inevitable, despite her dark motives.

The brilliance of Sadie is its rawness, its unflinching examination of truth, and the masterful way Summers toys with her audience. She is the spider, and we are the fly falling victim to her web of manipulation. (Each moment of subtle weaving earned a soft gasp from this enraptured reader.)

Harrowing, addicting, and utterly devastating, Sadie leaves a wound that may never heal.
My body is sharp enough to cut glass and in desperate need of rounding out, but sometimes I don't mind. A body might not always be beautiful, but a body can be a beautiful deception. I'm stronger than I look.

* Trigger Warning:
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1,090 reviews17.4k followers
September 15, 2020
Edit: Had to change my rating to 5 stars. This book has lingered for a while and each time it popped into my head, I think about how impactful it was to read a story like this.

Well, I wasn’t expecting for this story to creep up on me the way it did.

I think it’s best to go on not knowing what the plot of the story is about, but I will try and articulate what it encompassed and how it made me feel.

More than anything I feel like this is a love story. A love story gone wrong. It’s a heartbreaking tale on what being deprived of love can do to one’s soul. I don’t know if at any point I could pinpoint who to blame for the tragedy. And when I say love story, I’m talking familial in this case. It’s a story about what love can drive us to do and not do. The different forms it takes, what it can translate into and that the reality of it is that at times, it can be downright ugly.

I wasn’t sure what to expect going in. The pacing was a bit too slow at the beginning but as the story began to unravel and more meat was added on, and the two different formats the story was told in began to collide, I became more and more invested and the tragedy of it all started to seep in to me. These were a bunch of characters dealing as well as they could’ve with the cards that they had been dealt with. Decisions were made for better and for worse and the consequences of their actions propelled their fates forward.

I appreciated the ending. I think it was the right ending for this type of story. It was real and raw and reminded me that endings do not need to be tied up or have to be something conclusive. Yes, we look for something out of this realm at times when we read and we want answers, because so much of it might be missing from our lives. But this ending fitted the story well. Fits our world well. It’s haunting and it definitely has left its mark on me.
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January 7, 2020
This was a 5 star audiobook. I’m not sure if the book as text would’ve had the same impact on me, maybe I’d rate it 4 stars if I’d read it in book form.
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January 17, 2021
"It's sad when people don't realize their worth."

WOW! Reading this book is like being sucker punched by sadness.

Sadie has lived a sad life. She is frequently teased for her stutter. She has no idea who her father is. Her Mother is an addict who had a bevy of boyfriends rotating in and out of their lives. Some of which are happy to ignore Sadie and her younger sister, Mattie. Unfortunately, there was one boyfriend who gave way too much attention. Sadie has basically raised not only herself, but her younger sister as well. Be warned - this is not a happy go lucky book. Its deals with heavy subjects such as neglect, sexual abuse, drug use, murder, revenge, etc. It's not an easy read and yet it is beautiful at the same time. Summers has created a heart wrenching and heartbreaking book about a young woman and her quest for revenge. The person she loved most has been murdered and Sadie lets the reader know early on what her motivations are - to avenge her sister's murder.

The story is told through podcasts and Sadie's narrative. West McCray, a radio personality, becomes obsessed in learning about Sadie's story. Her car has been found abandoned and he is on a mission to find out what happened, why she left, and ultimately hopes to find her before it's too late. The reader is also shown Sadie's perspective and her journey attempting to track down the man who killed her sister.

This book is extremely well written. It is also extremely gritty and shows the ugly side of life. Sadie is a powerful character who is hard to forget. She's smart, edgy and yet consumed by grief. Her pain is palpable. Her desperation leaps off the page and it is easy to become absorbed in this book. I found this to be an emotional read. The entire book I wanted to give Sadie a hug and hoped for the best all the while dreading where her path was taking her.

This book will have triggers for some. This gripping tale is sad and haunting. It is one that will stay with the reader long after the last page has turned. I have not read this Author before and found her writing to be powerful and eloquent. I will be reading more books by this Author. I highly recommend this book!

Thank you to St. Martin's Press and NetGalley who provided me with a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review. All the thoughts and opinions in this review are my own.

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