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Becoming Kerry

4.18  ·  Rating details ·  88 ratings  ·  28 reviews
Kerry Sanderson’s life is falling apart. He’s crushing himself to fit into the boxes others have put him in: dutiful son, good boyfriend, real man. But even the small rebellions he’s fought for himself—moving into a sketchy part of town and becoming an exotic dancer—aren’t giving him the freedom he needs. Ewyn Garrity, a security guard at the gay club where Kerry dances, h ...more
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Published August 8th 2017 by Fantastic Fiction Publishing
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Jul 12, 2017 rated it it was amazing
“So I’m not hurting you?”

“Hurting me? You’ve stolen my heart. Ripped the bloody thing right out of my chest so you can carry it around with you. It’s the best kind of hurt in the world."

Lynn Kelling, you don't do anything half measure, do you? I don't do this kind of angst for just any author anymore. Abuse and violence is so needlessly overused in MM, I try to steer clear. I still read this author, though, because despite the heavy issues, things happen for a reason, and serve a purpose. Th
Aug 05, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: bdsm, mm-romance, arc-r2r
Kerry Sanderson, the main character in Lynn Kelling’s latest novel Becoming Kerry, identifies as genderqueer and I will observe Kerry’s preference for the feminine pronouns in my review.

As Kerry states, “‘My whole life I’ve felt like a mistake and I’m not a mistake.’”

Growing up in a house where deviating from accepted standards was completely unacceptable, Kerry has struggled to come to terms with feelings about who she can love and what clothing is okay to wear. Spending her life miserable tr
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As people, we tend to look to fit somewhere. In our family, our peer group, within the local and wider community. When you don't fit society's constructed gender and sexuality box it's not easy. When things that should be no big deal make you hyperaware - who you date, simply leaving your house, buying things that people think you shouldn't be, wearing makeup and clothes and shoes that don't fit your perceived gender, it's certainly not easy. It takes a great deal of bravery to live your life
Originally reviewed at Sinfully.

4.5 stars

At only twenty years old, Kerry has been through more than his fair share of difficulties. We know as far back as eight years old he was physically abused, beaten by his step-father for showing signs of being gay. Something that continued sporadically for years with minimal family intervention until things went too far. Even after that, his abuser returned to live in the house, leaving Kerry just trying to stay out of the way and project the right image u
Natosha Wilson
Jul 06, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Sometimes life is not fair. We lose those closes to us that we love and it instilled fears in us. That fear can manifest and make us want to hide. Hide from the world. Hide from the ones we love. Hide from ourselves.

Then there are times that that same loss gives us strength to no longer hide from anyone including ourselves.

Kerry has always hid who he truly is and was ashamed of the things that he wanted for himself. Things from his childhood and even the present has made him feel that way. Kerry
Aug 07, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Becoming Kerry is a book so wonderful, it is actually overwhelming in the depth of its intensity. There is pain and sorrow aplenty here, the lingering spectre of abuse, and the ever-present threat of violence. At times, it is an extraordinarily difficult read. That said, there is also joy and happiness aplenty, the blossoming promise of true lover, and the tentative realization of identity. It is also an extraordinary delightful read, and that is what readers will take away from it.

Rather than t
Aug 16, 2017 rated it really liked it
Очень противоречивые впечатления. С одной стороны, замечательный главный герой, за которого действительно переживаешь. С другой, вот нафига столько ангста? Казалась бы уже все, все проблемы позади и можно вздохнуть спокойно, но нет, автор все добавляет и добавляет. Книга хороша, не спорю, но на работу я сегодня пошла с красными глазами.
Сначала мне очень понравилась эротика. Пошло (как я люблю), но не бесцельно. Каждая постельная сцена действительно важна для роста персонажа. Но, чем ближе к конц
Joyfully Jay
Aug 08, 2017 rated it really liked it
Shelves: michelle
A Joyfully Jay review.

4.5 stars

What sold me on this book was simply the fact that Lynn Kelling wrote it. She is an amazing writer and brings characters to life in an exceptional way. The Author Notes that she includes in her books always pack a punch as well and here Kelling admits, “I never intended to please everyone with this story; I needed only to please Kerry.” And that’s why this book is an important one.

Becoming Kerry is a character-driven novel that incorporates Kerry’s past alongside
Ruthie Taylor
Aug 10, 2017 rated it it was amazing
~~I received a free copy of this book to read and review for Wicked Reads ~~

What an absolutely fabulous book. I devoured it from start to finish - and definitely plan on reading it again soon.

I will not divulge anything that happens - but can tell you this ... it is incredibly moving, sad, yet happy, full of love, family, acceptance and disgust, and very, very sensual. The writing is beautiful, flowing smoothly on the page and you will find the pull to read just one more chapter irresistible.

S.M. Harshell
**I received a free copy of this book to read and review for Wicked Reads.**

Becoming Kerry is an angst filled emotional ride. I absolutely loved this book.

After a break up Kerry realizes the life he was living something is missing. Life has a way of putting you into a box. You're either this or that, you can do this or that. Kerry doesn't fit into any of the "boxes". This story reveals Kerry's truth slowly in such an emotional way. It really is an amazing read.

This is a new to me author and I
Jul 19, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: gbr, favorites
This was such an emotional book. It’s been a while since a book had me stopping every few pages to re-read and think about what I just read. It was full of inspirational and beautiful quotes.

Kerry was an adorable character. He has lived such a painful life, it was a joy to see some happiness come his way. There wasn’t a thing about him that I didn’t like. He was very complex and I loved the way every layer of his being was slowly revealed.

Ewyn is everything I don’t like in a character and yet I
4.5 stars from me. Another great read from Lynn, and the difficulties our MC Kerry has with people attributing labels to him [whether he likes or agrees with those labels or not], and whether his military family are finally willing to understand and accept who he/she is...actually, to make things easier, as Kerry is genderqueer and wants to identify herself as a she, then that's what this review will call her.

Loved the candle for Jonah touch, and Ewyn was just an amazing character, going above a
3.5 stars. I enjoyed this story. The MCs were perfect for one another. I think the author did a great job. The story was a bit long winded though. I rounded up to 4 stars because the Author's Note was truly beautiful.
The theme of this book is important and valuable. The author's words at the book's end are honest and very impressive. This book makes a very good contribution to the understanding of pansexuality, gender fluidity and someone's gender identification with regard to external appearance and internal perception and the struggle with the role that others expect from someone. You realize the problem is complex. It is a journey of discovery and describes the process to recognize who one is. Who Kerry r ...more
Les Joseph
Aug 13, 2017 rated it it was amazing
*4.5 stars*

Lynn Kelling books aren't for the faint of heart. Her dark, often erotic, romances are gritty and raw and intense. I wasn't exactly sure what to expect when I picked up Becoming Kerry, but by the end I was in absolute awe of Kelling's beautiful story of becoming who you were always meant to be. She has a way of writing characters who are larger than life but so real you can't help but become completely engrossed in their stories.

Kerry Sanderson has not had the easiest life. At only
Aug 13, 2017 rated it liked it
3.5 stars rounded down because still no 1/2 stars here on GR.

It's not quite the court of dissenting opinions here but...

I'm afraid I didn't quite make it to the 'oh-my-god-this-book-is-amazing' club either. First off I want to talk about why even though this book didn't really work for me I still think it's an awesome book and worthy of being read.

'Becoming Kerry' is surprisingly...well surprising to me anyways, my first read by this author. I do actually have several of her other books and l
Aug 05, 2017 rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
3.5 stars - I was given a copy of this book to read and review for Wicked Reads.

This is a sensitive portrayal of a young person coming to accept their fluid gender identity and sexual preferences. It is also a romance between two people who don’t fit in prescribed boxes but meet each other’s needs and make each other happy.

Kerry is a fascinating character. I came to care for them, but I didn’t always understand or like their motivations and decisions. I warmed to Ewyn more easily but he feels a
Wendy Ann
To sum this story up in a word, it would have to be “breathtaking”. No other word seems to fit the wide-eyed wonder that I felt learning about Kerry – someone who identifies as genderqueer, a concept that until now was completely foreign to me.

In moving through the story, I felt very off balance trying to learn the nuances to Kerry’s world. The sheer pain and suffering it must have entailed was mind boggling both in the actual events revealed in the story as well as what my imagination conjured
Dec 10, 2017 rated it it was ok
Not my cup of tea. Sorry.
Sep 21, 2017 rated it really liked it
4⭐⭐⭐⭐. I really enjoyed reading Becoming Kerry..I just love reading Kerry's voice, and I totally loved how Ewyn came in and put things into perspective for Kerry. How I dream and hope of such gentle, protective and loving people like Ewyn to come into the lives of such beautiful souls like Kerry.
Feloidae *The Bookworm*
Loved this book, although it wasn't perfect.

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"Say it again," Ewyn said eagerly, happily.
Kerry found a smile threatening. "I'm genderqueer. I'm not just a boy. I'm not a girl. I'm myself. I'm ..."
I loved this book; it is not an easy light read, but it is a very powerful and important story about being true to yourself, even in the face of adversity.

Although the story is told split PoV between Kerry and Ewyn, it is definitely more Kerry's story than Ewyn's, mainly because Ewyn is comfortable in his own skin at the start of the book (although we do learn this has not always been the case), while Kerry is still finding out who she is. The journey Kerry goes on isn't an easy one; the prejud
Feb 12, 2019 rated it liked it
3.5 stars.
This is one of those books that’s going to be particularly difficult for me to review because I can’t quite put my finger on why it was hard for me to fully enjoy. I loved reading about a genderqueer mc, and both the MCs were so endearing and lovely to read about. The romance between them was passionate and intense and the many, many sex scenes were incredibly erotic. However there was so many of them, and at times I felt like they were being used as filler. There was the perfect amoun
Aug 10, 2017 rated it liked it
Shelves: new-adult
I didn't love or hate this book, just somewhere in the middle for me. Maybe 3.5* but I really don't like when books end with a sex scene, it's not fulfilling for me as a reader. (Especially with no epilogue!)
Straight Girl Goes Gay
Aug 25, 2017 rated it it was amazing
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4.5 stars

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Lynn Kelling began writing in order to tell stories that aren’t afraid of the dark, don’t hold anything back and always strive to be memorable, forging lasting attachments between character and reader. Her inspiration comes from taking a closer look at behaviors and ideas lurking at the fringes of life—basically anything that people may hesitate to speak of in mixed company, but everyone wonders a ...more
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