Wow I could not wait to finish this book. Maybe soldiers should actually have to go to a reputable university because the author writes at a 5th grade level. I can’t believe she complained about going to UWinnipeg, she clearly didn’t learn how to write well. Also the way she jumped from topic to topic made it really hard to follow. She’d go so in depth about some military topic that added no valuable context to the story, and then the actual important stuff was glossed over.
This book made me hate men and the military even more than I already do. It also is a perfect example that bad things can happen to bad people. I don’t think she’s a good person. I think she’s uneducated and, maybe I’m biased, but she, along with the other members of NATO, have no business in Balkan affairs. The Bosnian War and breakup of Yugoslavia was horrendous. The populations will likely never recover, and the trauma my people have had to endure is so severe, that even those of us who were born and raised thousands of kilometres away, years after the war, are still living through its consequences. So imagine the hell that Serbians, Croatians, and Bosnians go through every day after barely surviving such atrocities. She’ll talk for paragraphs and paragraphs about how her poor poor soldiers, who CHOSE to participate in a war they had no business being a part of, were soooooo sad. “Wahhhh they miss sleeping with their wives, they miss their crusty children, blah blah blah they’re sooooo tormented.” While also complaining about refugees who are flooding their camps. Ew gross, the thousands of displaced slavs who you’re PAID and TRAINED and REQUIRED to protect are annoying? Fuck you. Go to hell. She also went into detail about how sad it was to see a dog that was dying. How she couldn’t shoot it and would rather shoot members of the Serbian or Croatian armies instead, HUMAN BEINGS, who, unlike her, had no choice but to participate in a war. Young boys, who instead of spending their childhoods and early adulthood in a beautiful, thriving country were forced to genocide their own people. How could you have more sympathy for a DOG than a human? Are Yugoslav lives that irrelevant to you, that you would rather kill even more of us than one dog? As if I needed further confirmation that those in the army are sociopaths.
Also this is framed as a feminist read… the way she continuously defended an institution that consistently harmed her was so discouraging, that I had to put the book down multiple times. There’s almost no lesson to be learned here aside from pushing through. I don’t want to push through, I want men to pay for what they’ve been doing to women. You learn about the horrible sexual harassment and assault that she keeps enduring, and clearly she hasn’t worked through it, or the military is paying her a hefty sum, because she really downplays the severity of it. It’s not “feminine” and “weak” to be upset and traumatized by the things she went through, feeling emotions and dealing with them and getting help are very normal and healthy things. The entire system needs to be taken down; it’s framed really poorly, and it doesn’t seem as if she (or anyone, for that matter) has made any progress to protect women who choose to go through with this abuse. The final chapter was almost good.
I really hope some more women with better writing skills and a better understanding of how amazing women are decide to write memoirs.