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420 pages, Hardcover
First published May 8, 2018
‘Okay, here I go.’ Iris takes a deep breath, ‘When Stacy and I. . . when she would be, doing . . . down there . . .’ She lowered her eyes towards her lap.
‘I got it.’
‘She was great at it, she broke my heart, but she was great at that . . . but I couldn’t finish, you know . . .’
‘I got it.’
‘. . . I couldn’t finish unless I imagined a boy was . . .’ Iris did this tiny thrust, with her tiny giggle, ‘ . . .you know . . .”
“We were gender and sexually fluid before it was cool because we didn’t do it to be cool – we did it to be who we truly are.”
“I wish I was gay because no gay person would ever be expected to be good at [working out]. Except Bryan. He’s not really gay. Of course he is, but he’s more Bryan than he is gay, so he doesn’t count.”You’re welcome, goodreads. I wanted to stop reading this many times over but I told myself I had to finish it so that I would have the full story and would be able to make complete judgements. I finished this so that other queer teens don’t have to.
“Bryan is an only child, so he gets whatever he wants. New car. New clothes… New video games and computers and a credit card he can use to buy whatever food he wants whenever he wants. He’s so lucky. His life would be perfect if I was his boyfriend and his parents stopped pretending he wasn’t gay. So maybe it all equals out.”Yeah, no.
People have kids so they can delude themselves into believing they have cheated death and are now immortal. SO do you know what happens when two people have one child and that one child is gay? … The delusion of immortality dies. IT IS MURDERED BY GAY CHILDREN! And when the delusion of immortality dies, a part of them feels like they’re already dead. That’s why my parents and other parents are terrified their kids are gay. All the church, religious, moral stuff is just a bunch of bologna.”
“’We were gender and sexually fluid before it was cool because we didn’t do it to be cool – we did it to be who we truly are’”Honestly I am so sick of this trope where cishets think that queer people just say they’re queer because they think it’s cool??? I think
“I’m sure everyone at school thinks she’s boring or ugly or a lesbian, but she transcends beauty… She’s androgynous but not in an unsexy way”do you guys understand how done I am with men who call masculine girls ugly?? And saying that androgyny is, as a whole, “unsexy??” (in case you were wondering, the answer is so done). I don’t care if Art is an mlm, it’s misogyny and lesbophobia and tbh!! I’m sick of it!!
“I also might be… trying to decide if I’m really a lesbian or maybe I just really like Iris or maybe I just really hate Cam and he’s making me a lesbian.”
I really thought that we were past these jokes but cishets are still doing this sh*t!! in the year of our lord and savior 2018! I’m so sick of the trope where straight girls are like “I wish I was gay :\” or saying that,, hating a guy so much must make them gay?? I don’t know. I get that these homophobic/lesbophobic things that Zee and Art say in this book are supposed to be “jokes” and it’s supposed to make them quirky, but as someone who has had to live their entire life hearing these jokes, and sometimes they’re not jokes, it’s really annoying, jarring, and awful to read this stuff in a book that’s supposed to be breaking down walls in the LGBT community. These jokes aren’t funny for people who have had to live with this crap our entire lives lmao.
Y’all I really can’t make this sh*t up!! like what the hell was that??? And just for frame of reference: Iris is the ONLY (O N L Y) lesbian character in the ENTIRE novel.
“’[Iris] isn’t a cheerleader and she doesn��t have a mean boyfriend. And if there are nerds pining after her, they are wasting their time because she likes girls. And if you like girls, you don’t like boys no matter how much of your homework they do.”and this is supposed to be a book that treats sexuality as a gray area!! Not!!
“’I fall almost every single time for boys that also love girls and their stupid amazing girl parts I can never compete with. I only feign drama with you because – well, mostly because I’m great at feigning drama – but also because I want to trick you into liking only boys so that I can solve all my father issues through our relationship.”ohhhh my goddd is this dude even real??? Is he even freaking real??? Wtf???
“People have kids so they can delude themselves into believing they have cheated death and are now immortal. SO do you know what happens when two people have one child and that one child is gay? … The delusion of immortality dies. IT IS MURDERED BY GAY CHILDREN! And when the delusion of immortality dies, a part of them feels like they’re already dead. That’s why my parents and other parents are terrified their kids are gay. All the church, religious, moral stuff is just a bunch of bologna.”
“Genitals and gender are too sex-focused.”
Here’s a quote!
“I tell Art how I think my dad is probably a terrorist and that I’m definitely a racist a-hole for thinking he’s a terrorist.
‘ He’s not a terrorist, Zee.’
‘Wait till you see him.’”