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Now Is Everything

4.27  ·  Rating details ·  2,492 ratings  ·  421 reviews
This is a previously published edition of ISBN 0062495739.

The McCauleys look perfect on the outside. But nothing is ever as it seems, and this family is hiding a dark secret.

Hadley McCauley will do anything to keep her sister safe from their father. But when Hadley’s forbidden relationship with Charlie Simmons deepens, the violence at home escalates, culminating in an expl
Hardcover, 368 pages
Published November 7th 2017 by HarperTeen
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Emma Giordano
Feb 03, 2018 rated it it was amazing
4.5 stars. Wow this book truly blew me away! Incredible moving story I encourage everyone to read.

TW: child abuse & domestic abuse (physical & emotional), suicide/self-harm

This story really got to me, like, bawling on the Long Island Rail Road “got to me”. It features graphic depictions of abuse and it’s lingering effects on victims, making it an immensely difficult story to read. Hadley’s pain, her sacrifices, her guilt, and her anger felt all too real. She is an immensely strong-willed charact
This book is an underrated masterpiece. Y'all are sleeping hard on this book, but you SHOULDN'T. This book is so awe-inspiring, captivating, deep, emotional and haunting. It's one of those books that leave a long lasting impression on you and I don't think I'll ever forget what this book did to me. It affected me so deeply, I am shaking.

It's such a heartbreaking book about a seventeen year old girl that grew up in an emotional/physically abusive household. It's about a girl who never had the fr
destiny ♡⚔♡ [howling libraries]
Our now may be nothing compared to the billions of years and stars that make up the universe, but maybe now is all we can ask for.

Now Is Everything is a story told in two times: then and now. Then, we watch Hadley struggle through life with an abusive father, doing everything she can to protect her younger sister, and sacrificing anything it takes to live life to the fullest - having friends, falling in love - without suffering her father's wrath.

Now, Hadley is a patient in a hospital, havi
Hadley's life looks perfect from the outside. Her family is wealthy, and she's a successful athlete and student. What you don't see is that Hadley's father works at breaking her down, day after day, forcing her into playing lacrosse and taking flying lessons (his two passions), monitoring her whereabouts and food intake, berating and belittling her constantly, and much worse. Hadley endures it all though, if it keeps the spotlight off her beloved spitfire of a little sister, Lila. Hadley would d ...more
♛ may
Aug 09, 2018 rated it really liked it
Recommended to ♛ may by: sauna
wowowowowow this book hardcore shook me?!!??!?

i was not expecting it to be so dark and gritty and real and sad and WHATS UP WITH THE ENDING I HAVE QUESTIONS THAT I NEED ANSWERS TO

the writing is amazing, it hooked me in from the first chapter and unlike most of ya books that have a totally predictable ending, this one just keeps you there and engaged till the very last page wow i loves

big triggers for child & domestic abuse both physical & emotional and self-harm, suicide attempt, alcoholism, and
Aj the Ravenous Reader
A gripping narrative that trapped me from page one and I couldn’t turn the pages fast enough. There is something about Ms. Amy Giles’ writing that keeps me yearning for more so that even though the plot is quite scary, sad and often painful, I still devoured the book as if it were a comfort read when it’s the exact opposite.

Perhaps it’s the structure of the novel, the narrative viewpoints told in “Now” and “Then” with a regular transcript of the interviews of possible witnesses to ascertain the
Amber Smith
Feb 09, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Powerful and haunting, NOW IS EVERYTHING explores the complexities of family and abuse, as we follow one girl on her courageous journey to choose love over hate and hope over fear.

I couldn't put this book down - it really is a must-read!

*I received an advance copy*
Ruth Lehrer
Apr 03, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: 2017-debuts
I was lucky enough to receive a free ARC of Amy Giles’s November 2017 YA novel. NOW IS EVERYTHING IS not an easy read—for me this book was painful reading because of the content. The power Hadley’s misogynistic father holds over the women in this family kept making me furious and I’d have to take a break.

Almost a thriller, this book is a sensitive look at an abusive family and the bravery of a trapped girl. Hadley’s loyalty to her sister and even to her mother, who is complicit, rounds out her
Nicole Sewell
Jun 10, 2016 rated it it was amazing
This book is just so amazing on so many levels. I read the early drafts and loved it from day one. The writing is so raw and intense and emotional, you're right there with Hadley the whole time. I don't usually have "feels" when reading a book. This one was an exception.
I don't want to go into too much for fear of spoiling it. Suffice it to say, I named my daughter after Hadley's little sister and I will probably always be in love with Charlie.
Oct 22, 2017 rated it it was amazing

The pacing for this book was so smooth it felt effortless switching between timelines. I can honestly say that the author didn’t pull any cheap tricks to make me want to rush the story to get to the “good part”. This whole story was the good part. Hadley is easy to love and understand even though she is going through this awful time in her life. Part of her experience unfortunately, felt familiar to things I have faced in my own life. It was refreshing to see an author take this on without apolo
May 23, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: 17s
I could not put down this book.

17 yr old Hadley bears the brunt of her father's emotional and physical abuse, in trying to spare her young sister. Her mother's emotionally checked out. The family is a wealthy, suburban one, a glossy surface that belies all the pain. The writing style is fabulous -- everything rings true, from the witty banter of teens in the hallway, to Hadley's poetic depths of despair, to the inner language of a family abused/abusive. When the mother criticizes Hadley re: her
Danielle (Life of a Literary Nerd)
“The sky is black and unwelcoming outside my bedroom window. It tells my body to go back to sleep, but even the heavens have no jurisdiction in this house.”

This was another emotional read - and it grabbed me by the heartstrings and pulled me in. Amy Giles’ debut Now Is Everywhere is the haunting story about survival. Told in a then-now format before and after a tragic accident, we follow Hadley McCauley as she tries to navigate life under the controlling thumb of her abusive father.
Stephanie Elliot
May 01, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Usually when I settle in to read a book, it takes me quite a while to get into it. As a busy mom I don’t get much personal reading time. I was so invested in reading Now Is Everything that I finished it in less than 24 hours, in two sittings! Amy Giles has done a bang-up job with her debut, a story about a girl who has survived a terrible accident (and more!). Readers are taken along for the ride, with chapters of “Then” and “Now” so we are drawn into Hadley’s story, of her life with an abusive ...more
Apr 06, 2016 rated it it was amazing
As Amy's CP I got to read this book very early. And I LOVE it. It was my favorite read of 2015, and my husband and all of my friends had to listen to me talk very enthusiastically about how amazing it was. Our Cosmic Second is tense, suspenseful, filled with amazing characters. Hadley, Charlie, especially Lila. Your hearts will break! I'm so beyond overjoyed that the world will get to read this amazing novel. ...more
A.V. Geiger
May 24, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Don't let the blue sky on the cover fool you! This is a dark and suspenseful story about the secrets lurking beneath the surface in a wealthy suburban family. Seventeen-year-old Hadley's struggle feels all too real, and it makes this book difficult to read in places, but gripping and haunting throughout. ...more
Joanne O'Sullivan
May 30, 2017 rated it it was amazing
A page-turning, gut-punching read! Giles creates authentic characters in Hadley and her friends, including a swoony love interest, all while maintaining electric tension throughout the story. The abuse that Hadley suffers seems very real (I admit that I loved that the horrible abusive father was a hedge fund manager because that's how I see those people : ) This is an absorbing, engrossing read that keeps you guessing right till the end! ...more
Samantha (WLABB)
Nov 06, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Rating: 4.5 Stars

This was a tough read. It is never easy to sit by as someone's spirit is broken, but I am grateful for the little pieces of joy and hope Giles embedded in the story.

There was no doubt in my mind that this was going to be an emotional read based on the synopsis, but I did not anticipate how deeply it would affect me. This book got under my skin, and left me battling a million different emotions.

The story opened at the scene of a plane crash from which only Hadley walked away. Im
Sep 24, 2017 rated it it was amazing
I'm not sure I will be able to write this review without crying. And I'm not sure if they would be tears of heartbreak, overwhelming relief, or joy. Simple words will not do justice to this incredible book. It captured my attention, enthralled my curiosity, and, most of all, worked its way into my heart. There is something so important in this book, so vital we must share it and shout it from roof tops. The survival, the resilience, the importance of friendship and love in this book, the display ...more
May 14, 2017 rated it it was amazing
In Amy Giles’s luminous YA debut, NOW IS EVERYTHING (which I actually devoured in one feverish sitting), we meet Hadley McCauley, a 17-year-old high-school lacrosse player who seems to have it all: great grades, caring friends, and a tight-knit nuclear family. The problem is, appearances can be deceiving. Hadley’s charming hedge-fund manager dad, Miles, terrorizes his family by ruling with an iron fist—literally. Not only does he abuse Hadley physically, he forbids her to date or to think indepe ...more
Aug 02, 2018 rated it really liked it
Everything I want to say, is said over here by Sana.

I will say it took me about 25% to really get into this book, as it feels like there's a lot to establish so we get a baseline of how things work in Hadley's world.. but once I did, I couldn't stop reading. A super compelling and important read about physical and mental abuse in a home that, from the outside, doesn't look like it would contain such misery.

Worth a read.
Robin Roe
Jun 12, 2017 rated it it was amazing
I was lucky enough to get an early copy of Now Is Everything, and I'm so glad I did! Amy Giles' debut is a gripping, suspenseful, and moving story that asks the question: what are you willing to do for the people you love? Both heart-breaking and heart-restoring, Now Is Everything grabbed me from the very first line and never let go.

Read this book!!!!
Sharon Metcalf
Aug 27, 2017 rated it really liked it
Shelves: edelweiss, 2017
4.5 stars
Wow, what an incredible debut novel Amy Giles has produced. Now is Everything drew me into the drama in its very first paragraph and did not relinquish it's hold on me, the intensity continuing to increase page after page, until the concluding passages. The blurb described the book as being about what one girl is willing to do to protect her past, present, and future. Suggested for Jennifer Niven fans and recommended for ages 14 and above, I expected to enjoy this and I did - no questi
Jul 16, 2017 rated it it was amazing
This book was impossible to put down. I wanted to put my life on hold to find out what happened. It's gorgeously written and the story will take you in and wrap itself around you and squeeze your heart. An important, unforgettable book. ...more
Paige (Illegal in 3 Countries)
See more of my reviews on The YA Kitten! My copy was an ARC I got from the publisher via Edelweiss.

Trigger warning: Now is Everything is about child abuse and also features a brief but graphic moment of self-harm via a suicide attempt.

Whoo, what a disappointment! Now is Everything had me excited to begin with, seeing as it opens with Hadley being pulled from the scene of a plane crash followed by pieces of interviews with her friends as investigators try to figure out what caused the crash. It d
Jun 08, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: favorite-books
I read this book in less than 24 hours. NOW IS EVERYTHING has perfect pacing. It never felt slow, and every word was important. I never skimmed. I soaked up each word and each piece of information that Amy Giles strategically placed throughout the story to help us unravel Hadley's mystery. Equal parts heart-wrenching and hopeful, Hadley's story is one that will stick with you long after you close the book. I can't recommend this book enough. ...more
Read InAGarden
Jun 03, 2017 rated it really liked it
Now Is Everything is a novel that thoroughly engages readers as it unspools a little at a time. When the novel begins readers find out that Hadley has been in a plane accident and that her mother is dead. The novel then flips back to the past and readers learn about Hadley's authoritarian/abusive father, negligent/alcoholic mother and firecracker of a younger sister. As the reveals keep coming readers get glimpses into the present day as well as the past and wonder: Why did the plane crash happe ...more
Nov 29, 2019 rated it it was amazing
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At the beginning of this month, Now is everything by Amy Giles got its Dutch release. From the moment I saw the synopsis, I knew that I wanted to read this book. I did nearly as soon as I bought it and I have no regrets.

Trigger warnings: physical and emotional abuse, mention of (committing) suicide

I hated Hadley's father the moment I started reading. Like, his abuse starts straight away and it just. Never. Stops. The story starts with an event
Mariah Bowman
Feb 20, 2020 rated it really liked it
Trigger warning: Abuse

Wow. Just wow. This book was so raw, shocking, and gripping. The writing was split between then and now, and what actually happened is buried in Hadley's mind. The only way everyone will understand is if she opens up, but she doesnt want to. It was difficult to get past the brutal abuse in the book, but it was a tragic book that could actually be a real life situation.

4.5 Stars
May 23, 2017 rated it really liked it
Shelves: arcs
This fast paced novel shifting from the past to present details Hadley’s life pre and post surviving a plane crash. Hadley’s childhood was anything but serene. In order to protect her little sister Lila from her father, Hadley makes herself the center of attention and does everything possible to appease her strict and abusive father: running miles each morning at 4.30am, making perfect grades, playing lacrosse despite hating it, taking flying lessons despite also hating it, and vowing to go to C ...more
Carlie Sorosiak
Jul 21, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Wow, wow, WOW. I read Now Is Everything in one sitting, and it absolutely devoured me. If you like powerful love stories, this one's for you. If you like heart-wrenching tales of sibling relationships, this one's for you. If you want to be crying in your seat on an airplane, this one's for you. (Because I actually did the last one and had a flight attendant ask me if I was okay, but NEVER MIND ABOUT THAT.) No lie, I was supposed to be asleep but I literally COULD NOT PUT THIS BOOK DOWN so I'm ti ...more
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Amy Giles is a young adult author. Her debut novel, Now Is Everything, was the 2018 winner of the prestigious Buxtehude Bulle award (Jetzt ist alles, was wir haben), a Bank Street Best Children's Book of 2017, and a Georgia Peach Book Award Nominee. Her sophomore novel, That Night, was a Junior Library Guild Gold Standard award. She lives on an Island that is Long with her husband, two daughters, ...more

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