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292 pages, Kindle Edition
First published January 1, 2017
I knew nothing, I chose to know nothing. All I wanted was my drawings, my art, getting lost in my own world of colors, contours, and my vivid imagination
Soon she would discover there are worse things to fear than death, and that eternity in Hell would be a far lesser punishment than what has now become her world. Her world now only consisted of one thing...me.
Our family had been torn apart, and now it was up to me to put it all back together. My life was no longer my own as I held the future of everyone who once served my father in the palm of my hands.
I felt nothing. No remorse, no regret. There was nothing inside me that even remotely resembled any kind of simpathy or emotion-only complete emptiness.
I loved seeing the fear in her eyes, witnessing as it ate away at her soul.
This entire goddamn game just kept on feeding, taunting and teasing every ounce of desire I had for the darness, for the forbidden. And God knows she had forbidden stamped all over her.
"This is wrong on so many levels, Castello."
"Which is why it feels so fucking good."
I loved how she looked at me with hate and lust, rage and desire, fury and need.
We are completely fucked little mouse..in more ways than one..
This was me, this was her, this was us. These moments where we consumed each other, these were the dark moments that defined us both. It's in these moments we escaped, embracing our inner demons, our depravities, and forgetting about the world that so eagerly judged and destroyed.
We might be enemies, but somehow whenever we were this close, it felt like we were the same - the same creatures craving the forbidden.
This was retaliation, vengeance, payback - and all because my actions protected something worth protecting. Her.
I don’t get the glowing reviews; well, I can understand liking it (I’ve liked plenty of books with glaring errors), but I can’t understand how there aren’t more negative reviews too.
It has so many inconsistencies and errors, as well as utterly disgusting parts. Like, literally disgusting - not just the notion of kidnapping and abusing a woman (which I was initially hoping would be dealt with differently, based on the other heroes I’ve read from this author and because I was hoping he actually had a good reason for doing this), but more about disgusting smells - but I’ll get to that in a bit.
The hero, to me, is irredeemable. If not for what he does to the heroine, then for how stupid he is and how much of a pussy he is.
Don’t get me wrong, he was the big bad alpha dude when it was just him and the heroine (whom he kidnapped) but apart from that, everyone disrespected him and VERY easily manipulated him. He was like a cliched drunk dad who hates the world for not being a more successful man, so he takes it out on his wife and kids, but turns into a pussy when dealing with someone who can talk back to him.
He was a POS in the way he acted with the heroine, and the fact that he enjoyed it so much made him even more unlikeable, but considering I knew this was a captive/kidnapper story, I can’t really complain about that. What I can complain about though, is how weak the reasoning behind this revenge plot is, and how little I believed in his justification to torture and kill her. He was so pumped up about it, you would’ve thought she personally tried to kill him and his family on several occasions, all while laughing hysterically and taunting him.
But worst of all, he is a pussy. A mama’s boy - and not in the “I always respect my mom” kind of way, so much as the “mommy said so!” kind of way. Blergh.
Everyone disrespects and manipulates this man - his family, his subordinates, EVERYONE. And he just lets them - even though he is a supposed mafia BOSS.
Another big issue with this book is that there’s no attention to detail. Like many reviewers said, there was no mention of anything the heroine could use to relieve herself - her room is described and it’s clearly stated exactly what you can find in it (a bed and a chair) - toilets, buckets, or hell, even a glass, are not mentioned. Hell, she even mentions there’s no paint on the walls.
Another inconsistency (I hope it is an inconsistency, otherwise it’s a fetish I have no interest in) is that the heroine has no access to water of any kind, or access to anything that might allow her to wash her teeth, even a bit.
So when she has been kept without food or water for DAYS, no washing up (teeth or body) of any kind (except for a short washing up with water from a bucket, later on in her captivity), whenever they said and thought things like:
All I could feel was extreme disgust and start (quite literally) gagging. Her breath probably smelled so bad, you could actually see it in the air, whirling between them.
She could probably go back in time and shock the middle ages with the potency of her breath.
If that’s not enough, she also vomited heavily - so add that to her breath as well.
Heck, their first kiss was after days of captivity and NO teeth washing action whatsoever. After, I repeat, vomiting. And not just any vomit either - but the special brand of vomit than only a night of binge-drinking can bring.
And she clearly didn’t wash, because the author does take the time to mention the fact that she can’t/isn’t taken to any facilities. And the hero also mentions on a couple of occasions how (literally) dirty she is, how her hair is sticking to her head , how she smells, etc. All that is forgotten when sex comes into play - what a shock.
Another inconsistency; she had a relationship with the hero’s brother and has this to say about it in the beginning:
Later on, when she finally gets the darker, kinkier sex that (shocker!) she prefers, with the hero, she thinks,
First of all, if you’ve only had sex a few times, only knew him for a total of 2 months, when do you even have the time to lament your sex life? It makes no sense. First you talk about him like you barely know him (yet somehow love him), next it’s like you’ve been having sex for years. Make up your damn mind.
And unless this book is actually set in this 90s or before, I’m not buying it. 50 shades is out (probably a big reason why this book was even written, in fact). The whole world now knows and accepts BDSM with open arms. Some hair pulling and spanking is basically vanilla at this point, so I don’t buy this “my lover was too loving” bull anymore.
If you want your hair pulled, fucking say it - we live in different times now, and complaining about what your lover did or didn’t do in bed is all on you unless you talk to them about it. And it’s not like it’s some earth-shattering kink she would’ve been asking for either.
And as the book goes on, she acts as though even if she manages to survive this whole ordeal, the kinky BDSM sex was enough to make her realize that she can never get it like that anywhere else. Just him. She actually says something to him in the vein of “why would I even want to survive this/get free/etc. now that I know what sex with you is like?” She’s like, all indignant and shit, shouting at the hero. It was crazy on so many different levels!!! Like life isn’t worth living if she isn’t (literally) fucked by him? Not even loved by him + fucked, no, just the sex. And not to mention, yes you can get it somewhere else, too!!!!! It’s bondage and spanking. In the 21st century. Just use your computer, find a chat or a club. It was ridiculous.
Another very stupid inconsistency; they have sex, he comes in her, and then they’re both thinking of pregnancy risks.
Dude, make up your mind.
Both the heroine and the hero are convinced she is going to die within days (him, because he still plans to kill her at this point - there’s just no way around it, no matter how he feels, you see! - and her, because that’s what she was constantly told) and they’re taking the time to think of her protection status - let me tell you, there’s no birth control more effective than killing the potential mother.
Really, you can stop worrying about it.
Rest assured, though, he knows from following her for about 6 months that she did take a birth control shot. That brings me to the fact that he also knows she has been suffering a lot after the death of Carlo, never going out except for school, drinking all the time home alone (if that’s not a cold-blooded killer who also happens to be one of the richest -trust fund- people in the world, then I don’t know who is) - but what does it matter that he can see it with his own eyes - if mommy says she’s a bad girl, then she is a bad girl and must be punished! And even is she isn’t…mommy still said so, so even though he doesn’t like it, he’ll kill a perfectly innocent woman after torturing her for days. Not to mention, his brother would be, like, SO mad if he doesn’t kill her. And he’s the head of the family, what can he possibly do? Poor thing.
There’s plenty more that either made no sense, or I didn’t like personally, but I think I’ve spent enough on this. Definitely no interest in continuing this story.
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Penny For My Thoughts:
Blood & Lies features a powerful, twisted and fucked up couple going by Tatum and Castello. Book #1 in The Twisted Duet comprises of Lies, Betrayal, Gore, Deceit, Desires and above all, Lust. Just when I thought that Bella J. is done pondering over her masterpiece ROYAL MAFIA SERIES , she surprises me with another wonderfully interwoven characterized novel, a dark and bent, slithering yet sexy Blood And Lies. Sparing further crap, I'll head straight to the highlights of this beauty.
Look Out For:
✎Gah, there's a million things to look out for in this novel but most importantly, the dynamism between Tatum and Castello is breathtaking. Their chemistry has lit my computer screen on fire, literally. During one of the scenes, owing to the sexual frustration, I almost spilled my cup of coffee right over my laptop. How's that to tempt you? The sparks that flow between this couple is undeniable. Almost whimsical. But then, this is Bella J. who can breath life into her characters.
✎The sick and twisted plot. A deceitful mobster, a rightful man and an obsessive enemy turned what? Find out as to what his feelings are, actually.
✎The Darker side of the romance which is quite bent. Oh the kinkiness. On a scale of 1-10 of Kink, I'd need more numbers here.
✎A Powerful Performance by secondary characters. Take Nicollo or Castello's brother Vico; the devil mother or dear Uncle Gio, each character is extremely invested into their roles. They make us loathe them and love them, feelings mutually bent.
✎The inner turmoil between Castello and his mind is a blow out point for me. He has to fight every second with his mind and heart for the unrequited feelings towards Tatum. He's so lost, poor puppy. At times, you want to give him a whipping whilst on other occasions, you simply wish to embrace his demons and make them yours.
✎ There's perfect amount of angst, drama, romance and sex. Dirty, filthy, hot sex.....
Overall, this novel is fantastic and breathtaking. There was no single ounce of second that I felt wasted. I was high on it. Carefree, into the world of ruthless and dangerous monsters embracing their darker desires and surrendering to them is something you can't throw off easily.
I finally give my gratitude and lots of appraisal to Bella J. This woman is beyond fantastic when it comes to Alpha Heroes - especially broken and outrageous. Her specialty to make messed up heroines for them is remarkable. You can do justice to her writing by only reading her novels thoroughly. Trust me, they are like drugs. I do recommend you to check out for her Royal Mafia series which is equally fascinating and where our beloved Castello will make a guest appearance *winks* Okay people, good luck reading and rating!
- I planned to break her, then mend her, and then break her again.
- I was fucked. Whether I lived or died, I was screwed. If I had to die, it would be the bullet or the knife that took my life. If I had to live, it would be his touch, his kiss, his unmistakable dominion over my body that would take my life, my soul.
- “Tu mi hai rovinato.” You have ruined me.
- I smiled as the Italian words left my mouth in a whisper, ”Mi hai liberato.”
You set me free.
- “Your blood feeds the beast inside me, bella donna.”
- This was me, this was her, this was us. These moments where we consumed each other, these were the dark moments that defined us both. It’s in these moments we escaped, embracing our inner demons, our depravities, and forgetting about the world that so eagerly judged and destroyed.