***CONTAINS SPOILERS / READ AT YOUR OWN DISCRETION***
***CONTAINS SPOILERS / READ AT YOUR OWN DISCRETION***
***CONTAINS SPOILERS / READ AT YOUR OWN DISCRETION***
This story is about a girl rediscovering herself… sort of.
For me, Navy Carrington was the type of character you just want to shake because it’s obnoxious to a fault. Luckily, she had some good moments and eventually she made up her mind and put her big girls panties and went for what she wanted.
But before that, she had to endure being basically bullied into something she wasn’t comfortable with. There’s nothing I hate more than characters in these situations. Sure, people usually mean well, and ‘usually’ is the key word here. If you don’t want to do something, well, don’t do it! Peer pressure at its peak.
Maybe this is just me. I just don’t give a rat’s behind about peer pressure. I’ve never cared, and maybe that’s why I’m so weird. However, Navy came with baggage, the emotional kind, and despite everything she said, the only thing she did was to dig a deep hole and bury said baggage. She was twenty-eight years old, and at some point I kept wondering if she wasn’t, in fact, ten years younger. This is supposed to be an NA novel, and it felt more like a YA. Most of the book is from the female character’s POV, so I found myself rolling my eyes often because I didn’t see the interaction of the main character and the love interest, from which we just glimpse a bit in two separate chapters.
Then we have the best friend. Katya something, who goes by Kat and owns a cat named Mew… *crickets*… not the most original thing in the world, but at least I didn’t have to endure the antics of the cat, as it has happened with other books, and I don’t like cats in real life, so in books… you get the point.
Kat, the good hearted bestie from college, is Navy’s new roommate —the other way around, in fact— and she’s gorgeous, with a mix of several countries in her DNA, making her even more stunning. I had really conflicted feelings toward her because I DESPISE the best friend character that just wants to get the main character out of her comfort zone, and not precisely in a smooth way. These kind of characters simply get on my nerves, and I inwardly groan every time I come across them because… well, isn’t there a way for the friend to coax her best friend (aka: the MC) into doing things gradually, helping her along the way? I’m pretty sure there is.
Except this book doesn’t have that.
Well, Navy just wants the whole romantic deal with a perfect gentleman, even if she says it’s not that, but she LIVES vicariously through the stories in her books. She has book boyfriends, and is obsessed with them. We’ve all been there, some of us still are, but when you tend to simply pretend real life men to be like a book? Girl, wake up, real life men screw up, so do we, it’s called LIFE. She just didn’t want to give her heart again to some guy named Carrick.
(By the way, the names kind of sucked here… Navy… sure, old family name… wtf?... Carrick… I bet someone called him ‘Carrot’ at some point…)
Back to the review…
Carrick is the older brother of Navy’s best friend who happens to be dead (the best friend, not the dude, this isn't paranormal). She had a crush on the guy since forever, and, apparently, he had a crush on her at about the same time. This isn’t star crossed lovers, people. This is about a girl and a boy who made love one day, and then he vanished, and she never forgave him.
I would think ten years is enough. You can only dwell so much in the past, and I’m not taking it lightly because I’ve been there, I’ve done that, and then comes a point when you realize that things in the past are there, in the past. Unless there’s a time machine hidden somewhere, you won’t relive it.
But Navy simply gives up. She has self-esteem issues —also, I can relate to a certain degree, enhanced by her own stupidity of always thinking how amazing her bestie Kat is. Kat, a yoga teacher (and the MC in book 2), keeps telling Navy that she doesn’t see what Navy sees; Kat tells Navy how amazing Navy is, how beautiful, and yet, Navy doesn’t believe it. When does she? Well, when she hooks up with her neighbor, and then wearing red lipstick to her office because she signed up for a program where you empower yourself through simple tasks (such as the lipstick). Ok, there's nothing wrong with realizing that you are, in fact, amazing, but it's not like Kat tried to just be beautiful! Regarding this issue, I think that's what redemeed the bestie's character for me: she always told Navy how beautiful, both inside and outside, she was. It was just Navy's stubbornness what stopped her from seeing this.
I understand issues about self-confidence, about self-worth, self-esteem, about how others see us differently than we see ourselves. We live that every day. I bet even celebrities do, because we are all humans. But I didn’t get the feeling that Navy actually overcame her fears here. Not that that happens all at once, but she kept moping for this Carrick guy, and at the very end, she said ‘Screw it. I’m gonna spice this shit up and do whatever I want’. And then she goes to the airport and leaves with him because he never stopped loving her yadda, yadda, yadda.
My problem with this book came with the fact that the MC didn’t have a consistent attitude toward her own development. This is fiction, so there should be a moral somewhere along the line. Something like: ‘You can do whatever you want as long as you set your mind to it’.
BUT!
I never saw anything like that.
She ended up getting together with the Carrick guy, but that’s because this is supposed to have a HEA. It felt a bit rushed, as in, she felt this way today, and then, just because, they are together in Rome and… well, that’s the end of the book.
If you reached this far, it means you spoiled yourself despite my warning. Read the book if you want to, but I don’t think it’d be a good reading if you feel exasperated at the first few 15 pages (IF you even get that far).